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Bella talked about everything and the little nothings that amounted to the great hurts and anxieties that she had long denied. She told Dr. Weber about her childhood sweetheart, Marty, to whom she had meant the world until puberty hit and her body had failed to mature fast enough. She had been dumped for a girl with a hint of breasts and blond hair, that had been the beginning of the love-hate relationship she had with her own body,
For no apparent reason, her mind had jumped ten years into the future, leading her to her first sexual experience. It had been rough, painful and demeaning; nevertheless, she had chased the man for over a year, eager to conquer his love. She had believed that it had been an act of love, just like her mother had promised it would be. It took her some time, but Bella finally accepted that it had been another sordid encounter born out of need and nothing more.
Usually, she would have struggled to contain the memories and avoid the pain they resurrected. But Bella was no longer herself; she had become this new being eager to be vulnerable, baring her soul so that she could be known. Out of the shadows and into the light, Bella was ready to delve into self-awareness.
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