Hope you're all over being tricked, lol. Here we are with chapter 26, this chapter doesn't really get much lighter but it does give Trevor being oh-so-sweet and the kids so it evens out. Dick Wolf owns what's his and I own what's mine.

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It had been two weeks since Olivia woke from her coma, two weeks in which she reunited with her children and got to see first-hand that Drew was healthy; they cried upon seeing one another the first time and Olivia held her; all of them like she never wanted to let them go.

She saw Travis and then her squad and privately rejoiced in her good fortune and that Faust was now dead and she got to see Alex and Brian who were so thankful that she woke up and had come back to them. When it was quiet, she got to be alone with Trevor and just cry for what happened to her. It was something that would take time with coming to terms with but she didn't know how she ever would. She was just thankful that she had Trevor to lean on because she couldn't do it on her own. She had woken up from that coma so emotional and right now she couldn't handle facing it by herself. Though she wasn't yet ready, Trevor wanted her to talk to him as much as she needed which often brought her to tears when she thought about it. She couldn't bring herself to talk yet, but knowing that he was there made all the difference. Each day she found it harder to deal with until the sixth day when she couldn't help it and just began sobbing when Trevor came. He didn't ask questions, just came and took her in his arms and held her, letting her cry herself to sleep.

Finally after two weeks she was allowed to go home, something that frightened her to death. The thought of returning to that house, walking in that front door and seeing where he knocked her down; the staircase where he began beating her before he...

"Babe, you ready?" He startled her and she jumped, the baby suddenly doing cartwheels to protest the intrusion.

"I can't go back there!" She whispered quietly through tears, rubbing her belly with her unbroken hand. "I can't..."

"Baby, listen to me; it's okay, you never have to go back there. When you're ready I'll have a realtor looking for us a new place and in the meantime, you, me and the kids have a house that I've rented.

"We do?" She wiped the tears that stained her face but more came quickly.

"We do" he said as he caressed her face. "You don't ever have to lay eyes on it again."

"I'm sorry..." She cried.

"For what?"

"This isn't me, I don't...I don't..."

"Baby, it's okay, I promise"

"It's not okay Trevor. I was raped and I try so hard to let it go but I can't...every time I close my eyes I see him; and I hear him...and smell him. I can feel him; on me...in me" she said through tears.

"Olivia..."

"How am I ever gonna be the wife you knew...how am I ever gonna be whole for you...how am I gonna be whole for the children, for this baby when I haven't stopped falling apart?"

"Look at me..." he said as he got down on his knees in front of the bed where she sat, and took her hands. "If I were to tell you I had the answers I'd be lying to you because the truth is I don't; but you have the support of your family, your squad and when you're ready your friends. You don't have to carry this alone; we're here for you!"

"Okay..."

"And you have been more than enough for me and our children...they know how much you love them; I know it and I know how much you love me and this baby. You're just...I know this is hard for you but you are going to be fine; regardless of how long it takes to get there. Just give me what feel you can't handle."

"Can you take it all right now?" She cried. "I can't..." At that she threw herself into his arms and let her tears go, holding onto him like she never wanted to let go.

Later at Olivia and Trevor's rental home, a luxurious single level, she, Trevor and Travis sat around the living room with Adrienne and Jamie who were curled up beside Olivia, both had their heads on her belly listening for a sound.

"Feels good to have you home, Liv!" Travis said and kissed her cheek.

"It feels good to be home" She answered, looking down at the children and smiled.

"Listen, I gotta get going but you take care. I'll see you guys later!"

"Bye uncle Travie!" The twins said. Trevor got up and walked him out, disappearing down the hall.

"Mama, the baby kicked my ear!" Jamie laughed.

"I felt it little guy; big kick huh?" Olivia answered. Jamie continued laughing and stood up to kiss her then hugged her neck.

"I love you mama!" he said, her eyes filled with tears as she turned and kissed his cheek.

"Me too!" Drew said, climbing up to kiss Olivia, Trevor smiled as he reentered. "Daddy, when is my sister coming?" she asked as Trevor sat down beside them.

"About ten weeks" The twins looked at each other and slapped their heads.

"That's forever!" They both exclaimed. Olivia sat wiping the tears from her eyes and smiled.

"Why don't you guys run into the kitchen and ask Rebekah for a snack" Trevor said

"Yay!" and they jumped up and ran for the kitchen, Trevor and Olivia watching them until they were gone.

"You okay?" He asked Olivia as he put his arm around her. She nodded and broke into tears.

"I'm sorry...I'm just, I'm just really tired that's all. I'd really like to lie down."

"I'll take you..." Trevor started.

"I can manage" she said quietly.

"Why don't I just..."

"I can manage!" She reiterated louder, sounding agitated as she struggled to get up, finding it difficult with her arm and leg in casts. Trevor helped her to her feet and she hobbled off down the hall with her cane as Trevor looked after her.

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After checking on the twins and looking in on a sleeping Noah, Trevor went back to the master bedroom to check on Olivia and found her having trouble getting into bed. Trevor immediately rushed over and picked her up, gently placing her in the bed against the pillows then placed the covers on her.

"Thank you" Olivia said in a barely there voice, feeling embarrassed.

"You don't have to thank me." He stated causing her to nod with tears filling her eyes. Trevor took a seat in front of her on the bed and Olivia cast her eyes down as she started to cry.

"I'm sorry" she said, her voice breaking "I shouldn't have yelled"

"Olivia, it's okay..."

"No...no it's not" she cried and he took her into his arms and held her.

"Just let it out. It's alright."

"I ruined everything"

"This is not your fault."

"It is Trevor. I caused this" she said through her tears "he raped me and he stabbed my baby and I still don't know if she saw..."

"Liv, you have to stop doing this, you couldn't control what that monster did, this is not on you and Drew doesn't show any signs of remembering what happened, the doctor says she probably won't; we just have to hope!" She nodded as she tried to stop her tears, so ashamed that she was again falling apart.

"Why don't you get some sleep before Noah wakes up? He's gonna be so excited to see his mommy home."

"Will you lay with me... Just till I fall asleep?" He looked at her and smiled sweetly before climbing in and putting his arms around her. She immediately curled up beside him, resting her head on his chest and he kissed her head while rubbing her stomach.

"Tell me again that I'll get through this" she said in a whisper. He kissed her and looked into her tearful eyes.

"I promise you will." He said, meaning every word. He knew his wife and even if she didn't feel it right now, he knew she'd be okay and he knew that he'd give her all his love and support to see to it.

3 weeks later...

"How are you feeling?" Amanda asked Olivia. She had been coming by for a couple weeks, when she got the chance and Olivia was slowly becoming more comfortable in her presence.

"I'm doing" Olivia said quietly, rubbing her belly nervously. "The doctors took the cast off of my arm yesterday so..."

"So I see" Amanda smiled. "But you still haven't answered my question " she laughed. Olivia gave a smile.

"I...I don't know, I guess um, you know it's a struggle some days...most days but I'm coping...one day at a time right?"

"Right"

"I mean, I have jitters and nightmares but you know..."

"I get the feeling that there's something else?"

"Nothing gets past you, does it?"

"Not much; no." Amanda replied with a grin. Olivia continued to fidget, rubbing her newly uncast wrist.

"I don't know, I just...I'm afraid that if I say to him what I want to..." She wiped the tears that suddenly appeared in her eyes. "I um, I got a visit this morning from Fin... He couldn't stay long but he wanted to tell me... Well he gave me a heads up; the brass they... I'm being relieved of my position effective immediately."

"Olivia, I'm sorry" Amanda said sympathetically and grabbed the box of tissues from the coffee table, allowing Olivia to take a few. As much as she tried to be strong in the face of her squad, lately she couldn't seem to control her emotions.

"It is what it is... I just, I don't know, I thought... I don't know what I thought." She wiped her eyes with the tissues. "This rape... It's costing me everything!"

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