Chapter 24

DISCLAIMER: I MOST OBVIOUSLY DO NOT OWN KUROSHITSUJI OR ANY CHARACTERS THEREIN! Blah blah blah, you know the drill.

WARNING: I know I forgot this earlier (sorry for those who didn't get this warning and were shocked) But there are lemons in the chapter, sorry about forgetting! Prepare yourself for some nice boy on boy action *sexy smirk*.

The Queen's Masquerade

Ciel's POV

"Ciel?" Sebastian whispered in the middle of the night, or what I assumed to be. I was previously asleep and it was pitch black outside so one would assume…

"What?" I rolled over and peeked open my right eye, glaring slightly at being roused from my slumber.

"I'm sorry to ask now, but earlier what did Westly mean 'don't go to any parties you weren't invited to'?" he played with my hair.

"Is this really the time to be asking?" I sighed.

"I couldn't rest because of it…" he looked at me with those darned puppy eyes.

"I guess now is as good a time as ever… Westly is the reason I was demoted. You know the first part of the story, how Westly got punished because of me, but after that he took matters into his own hands to get revenge on me." I shivered at remembering his malice.

"What exactly did he do?" Sebastian asked with a sharp edge in his tone.

"He told me I was invited to a masquerade held by the queen. When I arrived… it wasn't actually what I was expecting." I began, not fully wanting to continue but Sebastian's earnest look made me keep going, "I went with a mask as is expected. I was actually slightly late and in a rush to get in." I laughed at my innocence that night.

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*About one year ago*

"Damn it! I'm late!" I said under my breath while running up the grand staircase to the room that my invitation noted. It was a peculiar note with odd lettering but maybe the Queen was just trying something different.

I made it to the room-the third on the left with crystal door knobs-and as instructed on the invitation opened the door without knocking. Since I was late I slipped in the back of the dimly lit room and tried to hide the fact that I hadn't arrived on time.

My mask, a plain black one that hid the right side of my face along with completely shielding my right eye, was made of the softest velvet yet was light and cool on my face. I saw many notable unveiled faces in the crowd, none of which I was close with, but I specifically noted the Queen sitting on a stand with guards around her. I wove through the crowds, keeping attention away from me, and went to the corner near the back that also had a spectacular view to the stage that was illuminated in the front. I leaned against the wall, lazily anticipating what event was going to happen.

After a few minutes of waiting two large carts were wheeled onto the stage. The metallic rectangular carts were covered by thick sheets, one on each of them. The men who had brought the tall carts out disappeared and whispers were heard all around. The anticipation rose in the crowd, and was it just me or did they seem to know more about this than I did…

Soon a man that I am overly familiar with entered into the lights. His perverse grin and long silver hair sent shivers down my spine. The Undertaker reached the podium that was in the center of the stage and giggled, "How very nice to see so many of you here tonight. I hope to please you with today's new scientific research." he giggled once again and then skipped over to the carts and clapped his hands happily.

"Now then, which one shall we investigate first?" he peeked under one of the sheets and smiled, "I think she'll do for now!"

Suddenly something felt very wrong. I glanced around the room uneasily, a cold sweat breaking out over me. Every guest smiled gleefully but something in their eyes was off, was odd. I tried to spot a familiar face but the masks covered everyone's features.

Maybe I should just leave. I'll explain I wasn't feeling well. I said to myself and began to leave the room. That is, until the Undertaker spoke up again. "What an unusual skeleton. Even though you were burned it's odd to see you in such a state of disarray, or maybe your bones were broken before you died?"

Not quite believing my ears, I turned to see if I had heard correctly. On the cart lay a skeleton with charred flesh still clinging to it. I instantly felt ill and my knees wobbled.

"I hope you know that I'm doing this for you. I just want to see if you and your boy could be together again…" he stroked the body's jaw tenderly.

I leaned against the wall, bile working its way into my throat.

"…I heard he's here tonight." another voice said in my ear. I whirled around to come face to face with Westly who was smirking under his mask.

"What is this?!" I clenched my fist.

"This? Well this is a science experiment funded by the Queen herself. Look, I believe you know the test subjects." he pointed to the stage where the Undertaker was prancing around, gathering supplies and putting them on the cart.

"I wouldn't be able to tell, they are just skeletons." I replied with bitterness.

"A skeleton is still part of a person." he poked me in the side. I was about to reply when he focused on the stage, "He's starting again."

"Ladies and gentlemen, bodies in all stages of decay, I show you the Earl of Phantomhive!" the Undertaker exclaimed. My confusion rose and I prepared to deal with people asking when I arrived. I realized he wasn't talking about me but instead was focused on the body that was being held up. Apparently Westly had distracted me for quite a while because the body was none other but my father's.

"Despite previously having setbacks I learned from the mistakes I made to become better. This time I was able to recreate the body using only the skeleton. Next is to bring the dearly deceased back to the life they should have lived!" the Undertaker exclaimed.

"Can you explain this?!" I demanded from Westly hurriedly.

"It's all in the name of science." he grinned impishly.

"You bastard!" I yelled but I had no time to deal with him. Even though I had believed the Undertaker ad given up on his horribly hobby it seems he continued such blasphemies. I ran to the front of the room near the stage. A thick wall of people held me from going any further. Damn damn damn! What do I do?! I looked desperately around the room or something to separate them.

Then finally I saw a group of candles on a desk off to the right side. I ran to them and grabbed one at random, throwing it on the wooden floor and not worrying if anyone would see me; they were all enraptured by the 'scientific experiment' that was taking place. Soon after the candle reached the floor a dress caught the flame and following the one burning item of clothing more followed. People were screaming and stomping the ground and cloth that was set aflame.

"Now what's all the ruckus about?" the Undertaker looked up from his 'work' to see men and women leaving quickly.

"Does this mean we have to reschedule?" he sighed.

"It means you're not doing this." I approached him.

"Ah, is that you little Earl? Well, you're not so little anymore. Isn't it lovely that I'm bringing your parents back to be with you?" he asked as if I was happy.

"You idiot! Who said I wanted them to come back unnaturally? Let them live their afterlives peacefully at least!" I yelled at him.

He stared at me in shock, "Most humans are pleased to have their deceased returned to them, so why not you?"

"Because I don't think ruining their time after death is worth returning them to this horrible world! Let them enjoy whatever Heaven or Hell they have!"

"…You are an interesting human. I'll make sure that they are returned to their burial grounds in their previous condition. Please accept my apologies." he bowed.

"Yes, now I think we should be leaving!" I looked around at the flames that danced on the walls and floor.

"You go first. I'm sorry for the inconvenience." he apologized.

Not needing more motivation, I left the burning building. I ran out to see a large crowd of both occupants of the building and passerby's. I joined the throng as we all stared as the flames licked the dry wood. Before anyone could take notice of me I left the scene.

"Going somewhere, Le Patit Comte?" Westly approached me and smirked.

"You-" I accused

"Ah, yes. You weren't actually invited. I delivered the incorrect message. It seems the Queen actually was holding this event in secret and you, an uninvited guest, actually ruined the party! Can you believe it?! Well, as a vassal of Her Grace I must report a culprit!" he bowed mockingly and then grabbed my arm before I could get away. He dragged me into a waiting carriage to go to, presumably, where the Queen waited. I devised a way to explain the situation, but no matter which way I could think of I should not have been there.

We has almost reached our destination and I was blindfolded so I was unable to see what building I was entering. Soon we stopped moving and I was roughly pulled to my feet and dragged into a room. I was then unveiled by none other than Westly the snitch.

"Not a word Ciel." said a firm yet tired voice. I turned from previously glaring at Westly to see that the Queen herself was sitting in front of me.

"Your Majesty." I kneeled and bowed my head.

"Get up, you have a lot of explaining and I doubt that position would be comfortable to do it in." she sighed, "Please refrain from protesting." she added as I opened my mouth.

"Your Majesty, I am so sorry about today's events but I can explain," I said even though I had no idea what to say, "I was incorrectly given the invitation to the 'ball' by Duke Westly. I arrived and was overcome with emotion at the experimentation being done on my predecessor, or experiment that was soon to come. I was not thinking properly. I should have confronted you openly with my opposition." I bowed again.

"Oh, Ciel…" she sighed and covered her face with her hand.

"Please pardon this act; I swear I will make it up to you. But I must request that if you are to perform these experiments please get consent from the families of the deceased." I begged.

"I will take action on your second request, but as for the first it was a reckless decision you made and I think it deserves some punishment." she said in exhaustion.

"Your Majesty-" Westly started. Apparently he didn't expect me to receive punishment but just wanted to shame me.

"Silence!" she snapped and he backed off immediately, "You aren't getting out of this either. You failed as a messenger. I'm ashamed. You may leave. Do not come into my presence for a while." she ordered him and he did as told.

"Ciel," she sighed, "the risk was very great. We lost a chance for great scientific advancement and risked injury and demise of my honored guests as well as myself. Recently you've been reckless. You're an adult now, a man, I expect you to behave as such. Until the time I believe you've become a worthy man you are released from your position."

I stared in shock at her words, "But-"

"A real man wouldn't make excuses for his actions. I will contact you when I wish to return you to the position of my 'Watchdog' as it is often called. If you would please leave now…" she said exhaustedly. I bowed again and left before I let my emotions take control of me.

"Ciel, are you okay?!" Westly asked as he stood outside of the room.

"Leave me alone." I was crushed, what would I do now?

"But it's my fault-"

"Yes it is, and I honestly believe you deserve being demoted more than I do, but Her Majesty's word is law. She asked me to leave, so I must do so." I glared at Westly and continued on my way.

"I'll try to help Ciel," Westly called, "I promise I'll ask her to revoke her punishment- whatever it may be!"

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*Current time*

"I have yet to receive summons from the Queen. I still am unsure if Westly tried to help me, but even if he did nothing seems to have worked." I finished telling Sebastian the story. He would occasionally grunt or scowl with exceptional ferocity.

"Westly didn't receive any punishment?" he clenched his fist.

"According to rumor he was dismissed just like I was but was soon reinstated. I assume the Queen has no need for me anymore." I sighed and rolled over on the bed where Sebastian and I had been sleeping before Sebastian had insisted I tell him this story. The bedside lamp was turned on and casting odd shadows over everything.

"I'm sorry, I was insensitive. I shouldn't have forced you to tell me." he rubbed along my arm comfortingly.

"It's fine, I'm just tired." I yawned.

"May I ask if the Undertaker stayed true to his word concerning your parent's remains?" he asked quietly.

"As far as I know he did. Everything seemed back to normal the next day. I want to sleep now." I finally told him childishly.

"Yes, I'm sorry for pushing you. Please rest." he adjusted behind me and turned off the lamp, "Goodnight Ciel. I'll see you in the morning."

"Goodnight." I blushed as I realized this was just like a cheesy romance novel, yet it was fabulous being in this position.

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I crossed my legs uncomfortably as I waited for Westly to finish drinking his tea and tell me what he wanted. He continued to take his time and I shifted again. He smirked and in response I scowled at him. Not saying anything to me, he put his cup and saucer down and leaned back into his chair.

My patience ran out, "You called me to your home yet you haven't told me what you wanted."

"Tsk," he chastised, "a friend can't ask for a nice cup of tea anymore? What kind of world are we living in?"

"I am not your friend. I don't know what gave you that ridiculous idea." I scoffed.

"Your just stubborn, it's alright to admit I'm a friend." he chuckled, "But I did call you for another purpose. I wanted to introduce you to my daughter." he told me and beckoned for a servant to get her.

"She's the one that you want me to work with, correct?" I asked.

"Yes. She won't speak with anyone. I'm hoping you can loosen her tongue." he sighed.

Soon a servant arrived with Westly's daughter. She was a pale beauty with auburn hair and dark blue eyes. Her ringlets fell around her head, framing the petite slender face that held a stubborn yet respectful expression.

"Ciel, this is my daughter Duchess Rebecca Westly Yandon. Rebecca, this is the Earl of Phantomhive, Ciel Phantomhive." I bowed slightly and she curtsied. I respectfully took her outstreched hand and kissed it briefly.

"You can call him Ciel, right little Earl?" Westly joked and nudged me in the ribs. I gave no response so he changed the topic, "Rebecca is a year younger than you. She was actually quite a fan of yours!" At his words Rebecca reddened and then hid herself with a fan.

"Oh, well… I'm honored." I smiled awkwardly.

"But she's a married woman now! Don't try to seduce her!" oh god can someone please shut this guy up?!

"Ahem, yes. What exactly is the thing that requires my help?" I changed the topic. Much to Rebbecca and my relief Westly followed my change.

"Rebbecca won't tell me. She isn't talking to her husband and he is growing worried." She scowled at him and turned away.

"I'm not a marriage counselor!" I whispered fiercely to Westly.

"I'm asking you to get her talking, not to force her back with her husband!" he said back equally as fierce.

"That's one in the same!"

"I prefer not to discuss this with men." she said finally.

I sighed, "Then who would you be willing to tell?"

"My mother." she replied.

"As you know your mother and I are… in a bit of a dispute right now." Westly fumbled.

"I will only discuss this with someone who could understand." she said in finality.

"I'm sorry to have dragged you all the way here Ciel, I guess all we really did was have tea." Westly exhaled deeply as he escorted me out.

"It is fine. Just get her to her mother." I replied and got in the carriage.

"I will, take care Ciel." he waved.

"You too." I replied and then began the journey home.

"Master, how was Duke Westly?" Sebastian asked after dinner that night.

"Life with children is difficult." I told him the conclusion I had come to.

He chuckled, "Human children are rather painstaking tasks, but it seems that the majority of parents think it was worth the struggle."

"I have no idea how they do it, even when their child is grown." I sat down at my desk.

"Would you like children?" Sebastian asked casually.

I studied him for a moment, "I think I should first consider the fact that my lover is a male before determining my position on having children."

"I'm just saying, hypothetically, if there was a way for a male to have a child would you want one?"

"I'd be the one giving birth, so I'd rather not. It seems like a difficult process." I shuddered at the thought of bearing a child.

"So is that a no?" he whispered in my ear sexily.

"It's more of an undecided, but thankfully I don't have to worry about such things at the moment seeing as I do not share a bed with a woman and I am not a female myself." I replied.

"If you were a woman I would have to worry about it." he smirked

"Are you suggesting that you'd like me as a woman?" I raised my eyebrow at him.

"I'd like you however I got you." he said immediately. Good choice.

"Why not make sure I'm not female?" I tried to seduce, yet probably failed.

"It is getting later…" he reasoned with himself.

"Yep, now take me to bed." I put my arms around him and he picked me up, carrying me like a bride.

On our way to my room we passed Mey-Rin who turned bright red and then she ran off, squealing slightly.

"That's super embarrassing." he buried his head in my shoulder when we arrived.

"Imagine how bad it was for me." I laughed a little.

"We could do more embarrassing things…" he unbuttoned the top of my shirt.

"CIEL~" Abby burst into the house and her yell was loud enough for me to hear from my room.

"You have got to be joking me." I closed my eyes and Sebastian shoved his head into my chest in pure frustration.

I stood up and briskly walked to her, "What do you want?!"

"So cruel!" she pouted.

"Just tell me!" my patience was very thin at the moment.

"Oh… I get it… sorry for interrupting your 'fun' time." she observed my tousled clothing and turned to leave.

"Seriously?! You-"

"It wasn't important compared to that. Please go back to what you were doing. I'll be going now." she said as she left.

"Wha-"

"Just let it be." Sebastian walked up behind me.

"But now I'm curious." I told him.

"Ask later. I want you right now."

How could I resist him when he said it like that?

"I was thinking…" I started as Sebastian kissed my chest, "Well earlier you asked if I wanted children, I never asked if you would though."

He stopped and looked at me, "I've never seriously thought about it for myself. I guess I would be fine with it if they were your children, but-as you vehemently stated earlier-you are a man and I am a man."

"So if I was a woman…"

"Didn't I already answer that; I'd love you no matter what." he said. The ernest tone in his voice made me blush.

He started again, first focusing on my chest and nipples. Dull waves of electricity moved down my spine. He soon moved his hand to my crotch and skillfully unbuttoned my pants and took out my cock. He wrapped his fist around my shaft and pumped it. At the same time he roped me into a deep kiss. Our tongues felt along each other and tasted one another.

"Will you do something for me?" he lustily asked me.

"Mmhm…" I really wanted to continue kissing but whatever.

"Will you stretch yourself?" somehow I felt like this was his aim all along…

"You mean like… I finger myself?" I scowled.

"Just this once, I really want to see how you'd look. If you can't take it I'll do it." he pleaded.

I gave in, "Fine, but just this once. This is really embarrassing."

Sebastian grabbed me and put me in his lap. He spread my legs open and I realized how easily he could see everything. Sebastian had also relinquished his grip on my cock which was almost completely hard. I swallowed my nervousness and began touching myself.

This felt more like masturbation for him rather than just fingering…

I started off by lubricating my fingers like Sebastian does; licking and sucking them until they're completely wet. Once they were ready I tried to remember how Sebastian did it. I rubbed my entrance while imagining him doing it to me. I then pushed one finger in. Despite my best efforts to focus on just the feeling from my ass, something made me desperately want to rub myself. I promised myself I'd first get to the point where I could finger myself and simultaneously touch my cock, because at this point if I touched myself there I'd stop trying to loosen my ass.

The most embarrassing thing was Sebastian's stare. I could feel him looking at me the entire time. He would occasionally kiss the back of my neck or behind my ear but he never did anything to my lower half except look. I felt his eyes roam over me and it was just as effective as touching.

I had finally put three fingers into my ass and was moving my fist along my cock. I knew climax wasn't far off, especially now that Sebastian's erection was rubbing against me.

"Ciel, can I enter now?" Sebastian said, his voice catching slightly in his throat in the most sexy way possible.

I moaned in acceptance and removed my fingers from inside me. I moved so I was lying on my stomach, hips slightly up. He grabbed my waist and positioned himself to enter me. His member pressed against my hole, causing me to involuntarily clench slightly but loosen after to accept him. He entered easily and I unconsciously moaned at the sensation.

"It went in really easily this time, I wonder if you're getting used to this?" he breathed unevenly.

I shook my head, "Maybe my body's used to it, but it's so good every time that I feel like I'm going to lose my mind."

"Why do you have to say such cute things?" he sounded frustrated but instead of getting upset he started moving. I could tell he was using his willpower to not just pound into me right away. His hot cock was moving inside me, completely filling me. It was just amazing. I had no idea how he could be so calm while doing this, I'm sure I would be unable to take it.

Maybe he isn't feeling as good as you… I suddenly thought. That's true; if he felt this stimulated he would go insane. I hardly had time to think on it though because Sebastian had started to jerk me off while thrust in me.

"N-no! If you do that I'll c-" I started to protest.

"That's fine. I'm really close too. Just let it out." he cut me off. I started to feel the dire need to release but I didn't want to stop now, it was too good. I was at my limit though and so after some time of fighting it I came into his hands while moaning. He then pulled out of me and ejaculated on my back with a few sounds of his own.

"I'm sorry if I was too rough." Sebastian panted and began to clean us off.

"No, it was great." I replied. I really had some sort of amazing luck to have met this guy.

After a bath and getting settled into bed I remembered my concern from earlier. "Sebastian?" I called to him.

He turned to face me and hugged me close, "Yes Ciel?"

"This might seem out of place since we are just about to sleep, but when we make love you feel good, right? I mean, I'm not that cute and I'm stubborn… I guess what I'm saying is I don't want to be the only person who gets pleasure from it." I hid my red face under the covers so only my eyes were peeking out.

He looked shocked for a moment bur his expression hardened into firm resolve, "I have no idea how you ever thought of something so false. Do you know how adorable you are? You make these cute faces like the one right now and you say such charming things it makes me go crazy. I'm in constant fear that someone else is going to steal you away. I want to just hide you so that no one but me ever sees you again. When we're making love I feel like I'm going to burst at just the thought that I'm with you. I really am at a loss." he looked into my eyes. I completely buried myself under the blankets and he chuckled but rubbed my back soothingly instead of forcing me to face him. "See, such an endearing thing."

"If you're going to stop making me blush I'll come out." I bargained.

"Fine," he laughed, "I promise I won't say any more embarrassing things."

I peeked out once again, "You swear? If you don't I'll hit you."

"I swear, I swear!" he laughed even more. I could tell he was hiding the fact that he thought this was just adorable.

I stuck to my end of the bargain and left the shelter of the blankets. "See, it isn't so bad." he brushed the hair out of my face.

"I guess. I'm going to sleep now. I'll see you in the morning." I moved towards him. In response he held me closer.

"See you in the morning." he kissed my head.

I wonder if he knew that I said that because I was scared that I would wake up and he wouldn't be there.

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Sebastian's POV

Ceil woke up with a start and wildly reached out for me. I had calmed him down but I still wondered what was wrong. It was unusual for him to be so worried that early, or at least to frantically search like that.

Contemplating what happened, I brought up tea to Ciel who was currently talking with Lady Redton. When I entered the room I started to listen in on their conversation.

"I thought you said-"

"I know, I thought that's what happened but it wasn't. I'm not on the family registry." Abby confessed. Oh, I thought, this is interesting.

"So he didn't adopt you…" Ciel though deeply.

"No, I don't know how though. After he did he even brought me a copy of the family registry with my name on it."

"Could the one you looked at be outdated?" Ciel asked.

"No, it's the current one. I tried asking Timothy but he isn't telling me. He just looks angry and doesn't say anything." she began to cry slightly, "How could this be possible? I now have nothing to keep me connected to him."

"I have no idea. I'll try to talk to some people to find our what happened. If I can't get something from them then you and I will address Lord Timothy directly. Trust me." Ciel looked into Abby'd eyes. She nodded and wiped her tears. I left the room before they noticed I had been eavesdropping.

So that's what she came here for yesterday… I feel slightly bad but I don't want Ciel dragged into another mess.

"Oh, Sebastian. You have a guest." Mey-Rin beamed.

"Who is it?" I asked. I never got visitors, who was this random person?

"I didn't ask. It's a lady. She's in the kitchen with Bard right now." Mey-Rin told me.

"At least you didn't leave her to steal everything." I sighed, "Can you make sure the Master is taken care of while I greet my guest?"

"Of course!" she curtsied slightly and then went on her way as did I.

I reached the kitchen to see an unfamiliar woman sitting across from Bard with a small child on her lap. The little girl looked about two years old with dark hair and eyes.

"Excuse me, I was told I have a guest." I interrupted their conversation.

"Yep, here she is." Bard smiled and then left the room.

"I'm sorry, but have we met before?" I sat down across from her.

She frowned, "You don't remember?"

"I'm terribly sorry but I can't recall meeting you." I smiled in apology.

"I… I guess I don't matter much but since it's easier just to get this over with I will." she then lifted her daughter so I could more easily see her face, "This is your daughter."

Hello once again my dears! Hope you enjoyed the chapter and the thickening plot! (Sorry for the immense cliffhanger!)

I apologize for the spelling/grammar. It applies every chapter but this week I feel like it's especially bad. I didn't get time to edit because of reasons I'll now explain.

For the first part of the chapter where Ciel explains his demotion I HAD THE WORST WRITERS BLOCK EVER. I was sitting around like "Okay Mr. Inspiration, come fuck me please. I'm waiting." and nothing came and that was just once out of a few times this chapter I had writers block so it took me FOREVER to write this chapter. It was so annoying, I hardly got any sleep. I had an idea for it a few chapters back but since it involved Sebby I couldn't use it since he didn't know about it. It was so disheartening, but I was lifted up by sweet PM's and Reviews that made me take some caffeine pills and crank out the chapter! I hope you enjoyed it!

During my block I chatted with my mom a bit which actually got me thinking about stuff more. When we were finished (remember, this is way past the usual time I go to sleep) I start thinking of ideas and since I don't want this to pass me by and for me to forget them I started writing them down. I ended up with some great ideas but a horrible case of exhaustion the next morning after getting less than my regular amount of sleep. *sigh*, the troubles of having ideas in the middle of the night *shakes fist at some unseen inspiration god*.

I don't know about you, but that one section right before the sex scene where Ciel asked Sebastian if he preferred him as a woman and he said he'd like Ciel however he got him I was like "Damn Sebastian, you're such a smooth talker." He has women (and men) everywhere willing to give themselves to him (myself included (Sebastian, my body is ready)) so of course he would be.

During the sex scene some really old rock n' roll song came on that was more like sexy n' roll and I was like "Oh god this song works so well with this scene." because I totally pictured them fucking with that in the background.

And HOLY CRAP SO MUCH KID TALK. Was it just me or did they talk about children a LOT. And then Sebastian is a dad, WTF?! so much family stuff happened this chapter. (Westly&his daughter, Ciel and Sebastian talking about kids, Abby and her 'adoption', and then Sebastian's kid(?)! This is insane!)

While I was writing the sex scene (or about to rather) I got two texts within a minute of each other, which for me is unheard of. So I had to take a break from sex writing to start texting. It was alright though because I had no idea how to write the scene. (I actually googled "gay sex positions" because I was at such a loss.) I had also written a lot of smut the day before and I was just all sex'd out. So much sex… it was insane.

Anyway…

I may be posting chapters less frequently or every week just shorter throughout summer. I think I already told you but just a reminder. I have a lot if shit I have to do. It sucks. And my wifi sucks. And I keep getting distracted because people text me while I'm writing.

Oh goodness this week was crazy. I found and Uncensored OVA and I just about pissed myself with excitement (I didn't). I also discovered a few manga but one had a drama CD with it and oh goodness there was one scene and AH THE UKE'S CLIMAX NOISES WERE SO SEXY. sometimes I wonder how they get all the hot squishy wet sounds, like- do they have a guy who just sits and presses a button that makes the sound or is it something else? If you know please PM me or tell me the answer in a review. I'm dying of curiosity. But back to the point- it was orgasmic.

I did a massive cleaning of my home and while going through some old belongings found that story I was looking for! ((I think I mentioned this in last week's A/N, but I started a futuristic story loosely based off a story I wrote/thought of in my younger days.)) Now I know a lot of side character's names, but it was written in third person POV and is really short so I don't think I'm going to use them (and the plot is pretty different…) but it was still awesome. Dude, my original story had flames and liquid nitrogen, what more could a fifth year want? And beanies, hot, sexy beanies *laughs*. Because beanies are the epitome of sexiness and erotica, you know it. Don't deny the truth.

News- Since Polar is finishing up relatively soon expect some hot yaoi one & two shots up within the year! I feel like I extend these expectation dates every time…

I really should be working on some fandom stuff, but I seriously don't know what fandom to do. SebCiel is one of my few ships that I can actually write from. If you have any suggestions I'm open to them (boyxboy and boyxgirl is fine (sorry Yuri lovers, I don't know how to write it.)) I should stop stressing myself out or else you won't get any more of this shit.

Ya know what is also crazy about polar coming to a close? How long I've been with all y'all fuckers *smiles goofy*. Really, I mean I started this before Polar and it hasn't ended yet! What is this madness?! I really love it and am honestly surprised that it's lasted this long! It's been quite an adventure! One that I've thoroughly enjoyed. Now's no time to be sentimental, save it for the last chapter!

Also- HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN ISLA! MAY THE YAOI GODS GRACE YOU WITH A PLENTIFUL HARVEST! Love ya babe!

Okay, now I'm done. Sorry this A/N is kinda long… I cut out a lot of it but it's still…

Love you all,

KRM