Tom
I hate seeing Danny like this he is so broken. I guess it's hard for anyone to see their best friend in this state and I can only imagine how Harry feels, We are both losing our grips on our best friends and I am afraid that this is going to tear us apart and we will lose who we once were before my wedding that was over a year and half ago now. It seems like a lifetime away that was, The time where we had finally settled down and all of us were happy with our lives.
I had just been married and I knew Harry was planning on popping the question to Izzy and all those hours he worked to win strictly that all paid off in the end. Dougie and Lara were so happy together I knew they would decide to marry sooner rather than later and those weeks away in the jungle that had also been in his favour, He met many people I know he will continue to be friends with for a long time and to be crowned King Of The Jungle only months after being put through Rehab is an achievement for someone his age. He has been through so many things that he should not have. No one is like Dougie and no one will ever be like Dougie he is to unique and to amazing of a person to be compared to someone else, He is his own person and a bloody amazing one at that.
Tears are not going to help me any more I have spent too much time crying over this but it is not going to help get him back no it's not I need to do something about it. What I am going to do is still unknown to me but it's better to start from the bottom then to not start at all right? well thats the motto I am going to use even if no one else understands it because it's what makes sense to me that matters in my mind.
I realise I have missed half of what Sam is talking about due to the little speech I had going on in my head so I have no idea what everyone else is talking about. From what I can make out I think they may be speaking about the last birthday Dougie had with his parents before he made the band and before he left to move in with us in the band house so I better start listening before someone asks me something.
"His Nan sat up all night until she had made the perfect cake for him and it was the most amazing cake I have ever seen and when Dougie saw it was for him his eyes lit up like a kid's on christmas but it was then that his father decided to take a step back actually knocking into his Nan, The cake fell and was ruined and it almost crushed him because Dougie never had the best of birthdays as it was near the time we would start getting ready for christmas so when the year he was getting a real party only to be ruined by his dad. That was the last birthday we had with him as his dad left only two months later taking him along and we have not seen or heard from him since...then" Sam tells us and by the end she has started crying and I can tell Harry is finding it hard to ask the questions now
"Jasmine do you remember the last time you were with your brother?" Harry asks Jazzie and I watch her as she nods her head shakily
"Yeah it was the day before he left with dad we were having a family dinner with Mum,Dad,Nan and our Aunt and Uncle, I was watching the Tv while the adults were talking in the kitchen when I noticed Dougie was not around so I went out and found him sitting on the trampoline we have in our garden he seemed really low so I tried to talk to him but he was still sad so I just lay with him until dad called him in, That was the last time I saw him before they left" Jazzie tells us then takes a firm grip onto Sam's hand for support.
I stop listening there because trying to stay strong around people who are crying is hard and I know I cant let my shield down unlike Harry who has now lost it and begun to let a couple of his own tears fall. I need to get out before I begin to cry and i use Danny as an excuse to do so. I help him form the sofa telling everyone I am going to make tea and coffee but really I am just going out for a breather from the room of sadness.
"hey how are you holding up?" I ask Danny softly as he takes a seat on top of the breakfast bar. The way he is sitting worries me slightly because I have only ever seen people sit like it in movies where the character is going insane. He pulls his knees up and leans his chin on them rocking back and forth slightly. I put my hands on his shoulders to stop him from rocking because his body is so rigid i'm afraid if he falls he wont be able to move fast enough to stop himself from getting hurt.
"n...not well to be h...ho..honest t...tom" he whispers in a stutter that makes him seem more broken that I thought. Suddenly I see Dougie on the table in front of me but not the Dougie I last saw but how he was the day we found out about his breakup with Franky.
Flashback...
"Mate that sounds wicked maybe we should record it for later?" Danny asks from beside me as I play a new tune
"Yeah I came up with it last night with Doug but we never finished it" I told him and he cocked his head to the side slightly as in asking me why we never finished it "I don't know he got a call so he left to answer it but never came back...Actually i have not seen him since then" I told him thats when the door opened to reveal Harry reading some gossip magazine
"Are you really sinking that low as to read one of those magazines?" Fletch asked but Harry just held up a finger silencing us
"weak he is" Danny murmurs then gets back onto the subject of Dougie "Yeah he has been like that for a week now" He tells me and I began to feel worried
"I wonder why that is" I say then the magazine Harry was reading lands on the table in front of us
"thats why, Izzy sent me this last week but I only just got it today" Harry tells us and I read the headline
FRANKIE'S NEW MAN!
I looked over at Danny who looked at me and we shared the same confused look
"New man?" I ask Harry, He picked the magazine back up and started reading
"The Saturday's Frankie Sandford was papped out on the town with the girls and their guys also showing off her new man candy footballer Wayne Bridge. These are the first photo's of the couple after Frankie's breakup with McFLY's hotty and cute bass player Dougie Poynter only a week ago. According to Franky they both had their problems but she is happy now and wishes him the same and hope's things will be okay with the late nights (whatever that means, We don't know). We wish Franky a happy new relationship and we can't wait to meet Dougie's new girl whoever she may be and whenever she comes along!" Harry reads out and i feel my mouth drop open
"he never said anything about a breakup but he has been single for a week?" Danny asks but Harry shakes his head
"this was published a week ago, He has been single for two week's" He says to Danny and my head snaps to the door when I hear the click of the opening.
Dougie walks In casually with his hands in his pockets and with his music in his ears smiling at us for a moment until he notices our glum faces and the magazine in the middle of us still open at the page of Franky and that guy who's name I have forgotten
"ahhh you found out didint you?" He asks then takes out his music
"why did you not tell us dougs, It's been two weeks why did you keep it a secret?" Danny asked and he places himself onto the table bringing his knees up to his chest and resting his chin on them then slowly rocking back and forth
"It's not a big deal I am a big boy I can handle it, I know you guys have always been the one's to care for me when I am down but I am Twenty-Three now I think I can handle it" He said with a smile and i feel reassured
"Well that may be Dougs but I don't want to find out the details from a gossip magazine when they could be lies when I could have the truth from the man himself" I demanded and he gives me an apologetic look
"Sorry and I will tell you next time if anything is going on, Promise" He said.
Present...
I feel someone shaking my shoulder and I snap out of the little flashback I was having to find myself on the floor clutching at one of the mugs I was holding in my hand for dear life. I have to protect Danny he cant go through what Dougie went through no one can go through that and no one will if I can help it. I open my eyes to find Harry looking down at me with worry painted over his face. I use his shoulder to hoist myself up and I notice Danny is still sitting how he was before but looking at me looking both worried and confused as to why I just fell to the floor clutching a coffee mug.
"I'm okay just tough memories" I say to them then i release the mug from my hands and onto the counter closest to the kettle. I know for a fact the guys won't leave it there and will bring it up later when everyone is away home and not around to think I am a crazy person. Just as I am about to put the Teabags into the mugs harry puts his hand on mine stopping me
"no need tom everyone is away home it got too much and they decided they had enough footage to air tonight" He tells me so I flick the kettle off at the wall. He turns me around and pushes me into the front room where the faint noise of some programme on tv is the only thing i can hear except from the traffic outside.
"Now tom tell us what tough memories had you shaking on the floor and gripping at a coffee mug?" Harry asks from behind me making me jump.
Chapter Twenty-Six is up and i'm hoping to have Twenty-Seven up later tonight :)