"You keep telling me that I'm doing a great job, but you're not telling me what I'm supposed to do." Meredith tells Lexie as she paces back and forth in her office.
After running away from Derek at the dance lessons, Meredith was confused and angry. Angry that Derek told her that he was in love with her and for saying that she didn't feel the same; and confused about what to do about her feelings for Jeff.
"That's because you are. You've told me how you felt about everything that happened with him, and that's great Meredith." Lexie told her sitting in her chair
"But you haven't told me what to do about my feelings. Come on Lexie, you gotta help me out here." Meredith pleads.
Lexie looks down for a moment at her notebook "You need to confront him." She tells Meredith softly
"What?" Meredith says
"You need to confront him. You need to tell him everything you told me. About how you feel, what you felt and how you feel about him." Lexie tells her
"Why?" Meredith asks her
"Because, telling me about what happened and how you feel is great Meredith, it really is...and I'm so happy that you finally expressed what you feel. But you need to tell him, he needs to know what he did to you and how he made you feel and what he put you through...that's the missing piece." Lexie explains to her
"I need to confront him..." Meredith repeats slowly
"Yes. Tell him everything you told me, let him know how you feel." Lexie tells her
"Right." Meredith says biting her bottom lip, her hand on her hips.
"It's what you need to do, and more importantly it will give you the closure you need and want." Lexie explains to her.
Meredith thinks about what Lexie has said and after a moment a look of realization comes over her.
"Um, ok...I uh, I have to go." Meredith says as she grabs her brown leather jacket and puts it on over her green blouse.
"Where are you going?" Lexie asks her in confusion
"Lexie you have been amazing, and I thank you so much for everything that you've done to help me and I really appreciate it. But I know what I have to do." Meredith says grabbing her brown leather Prada purse
"You do?" Lexie asks her
"Yes, and I can't believe that it took me so long to realize what it was but now I know. And it's all thanks to you." Meredith tells her as she leaves her office.
She couldn't believe that it took her so long to realize what she had to do, but now that she finally figured it out; it was like finding the missing piece of the puzzle.
She headed over to her apartment and went into her closet; the very back of her closet and took out the one thing that she hadn't seen or looked at in over 4 years.
It was the reason why she couldn't move on, it was the reason she felt something for Jeff and couldn't move forward with Derek.
It was her wedding dress. Her strapless, silk with diamond detailed belt custom made Vera Wang wedding dress.
She didn't know why she held onto it, but at the time it made sense. She was angry and upset and wanted something to hold onto, something to remember what they had. But now that was the main reason why she couldn't move on.
She was holding onto it and she didn't know why. Why she was holding onto something that was a part of her past, something that reminded her of what she had with Jeff, who hurt her, lied to her and betrayed her. She hated him, she wanted to get him out of her life forever and keeping her wedding dress was preventing her from doing so.
She grabbed her laptop and sat down on her bed, and starting searching. A few minutes later she finally found what she was looking for. She quickly wrote down some information, grabbed the dress, grabbed her purse and headed out.
Arriving at Leslie Bridal Meredith felt immediately better. She walked up the stairs and opened the door and went to the front desk.
"Hi, I'm looking for Leslie?" Meredith asks
"Yes, I'm Leslie, how may I help you?" The woman asks her
"Great, I um...I read online that you accept wedding dresses...?" Meredith asked her
"Yes, that's correct. We accept wedding dresses to give to young women who can't afford them." Leslie explains to her
"That's great. I uh, I want to donate one..." Meredith tells her
"Wonderful." She tells her as Meredith takes the dress bag and unzips it to reveal her wedding dress. "Oh it stunning! But are you sure you don't want to keep it?" She asks Meredith
"I'm sure. I've been holding onto it for way to long and it's time to move on." Meredith subtly explains to her
"Oh well thank you...its beautiful dress. I'm sure it'll make some lucky girl very happy." She tells Meredith
"That's great, I'm glad...but if I could just ask you one favour?" Meredith asks her
"Of course."
"This dress was very special to me, can you...the girl that gets it...make sure the she's special, please?" Meredith asks her
Leslie looks at Meredith and softly and respectfully says "Of course."
"Thank you." Meredith tells her as she leaves and takes a deep breath as she feels like a huge weight has been lifted off her shoulder. Now there was just one more thing she had to do.