Jess and I were lying in bed watching a stupid chick flick while stuffing our faces full of food. The topic of Taeyeon hadn't come up yet, I was kinda glad because I thought she would walk through the door and be like... 'Hey what's up Tiff? Tell me about your girlfriend?' but she didn't.

So as we were watching, I allowed myself to relax and to not be on edge and to enjoy the rest of the movie. When it ended...

"Okay so do you want to talk about anything? Confide in me about anything?" Jess asked, crossing her legs and shifting herself around so all she was focused on was me. I shifted around too until I faced her, mirroring her position.

"I'm still scared about telling you this Jess" I sighed.

"Do you not trust me?" She had almost like a hurt expression on her face which I didn't want at all

"Nono, it's just one little slip up could..."

"Tiff, you're my best friend. I'm not close enough to anyone else to even be able to slip up on something this big."

I exhaled and smiled, she was right. She had a few other friends in school but they were nowhere near as close as we are. Our bond is tight. I took a deep breath and began.

"She's confusing me Jess"

"In what way?"

I proceeded to tell Jess how Taeyeon would act jealous the one minute, but then try to keep me in a relationship with Khun the next. Then I told her how she was against a relationship between she and I but when I gave her an ultimatum she suddenly changed her mind to sort of warm up to the idea yet not totally accepting it. By the time I had finished explaining, Jess's brows were furrowed and the rest of her face vacant, the ultimate Jessica thinking expression.

"Okay, so I reckon..." Jess started, making me break out of my daze and concentrate "she's had some trust issues in her past to make her jealous and fearful."

I frowned. "Fearful?"

"Think about it...she wants to be with you, it's as clear as day but yet she was pushing you to stay with Khun to cover whatever you had before the couple items...friends with benefits or whatever you wanna call it."

She took one look at my confused expression and chuckled.

"She's scared Tiffany, scared of giving herself to you, scared of starting something serious with you because it's a huge risk she's taking. You have to understand that... yes you want a relationship but it's a complicated situation you guys are in.
And I think a reason she could be scared, is that she's seen this sort of thing happen. She's seen something go wrong with a teacher and a student and she's trying to protect both you, and herself."

I frowned at that, but it made sense.

"You also said about when she's jealous she'll take it out on the class? That's not good, that's over jealousy and aggression which may have come from someone hurting her in her past?"

Why was Jessica so smart? I never thought of all this stuff.

"She doesn't want to lose you yet she doesn't want to bring your hopes up either. By you giving her that ultimatum, she's still trying to worm her way around it, trying to add another option between you guys being together, and not being together. So if something went wrong, it could easily be denied and there'd be no proof. I hope you understand what I'm saying."

I did, but there was one thing that was confusing me, it seemed Jessica read my mind.

"The bracelet and the necklace? Are you wondering why? If she didn't want to come under suspicion...why would she give you something that could reveal your secret by simply unlocking that padlock?"

I nodded and she smiled.

"She really likes you Tiffany. You giving her that ultimatum scared her that she might lose you so she had to take action and do everything she could to ensure she still see's you."

I beamed, everything Jess was saying was making sense.

"I have something to ask...is this just lust or is it love you feel for her, Tiffany?"

"I don't know her well enough to love her but I really like her, it's not just a sexual thing"

"So I suggest, you get to know her, invite her over more and instead of making out actually talk to her. You're gonna get nowhere near a relationship if you don't know the girl, do you get me?

"I get you, thanks so much Jessie. I guess I need to talk to Tae about all this right?" she nodded.

"And I think you should tell her I know..." I gasped, she would kill me "because if she finds out of her own accord, she won't be happy Tiffany and she probably would lose her trust in you. So I suggest you either call her now, or wait till tomorrow to tell her about me face to face"

I sighed and nodded my head before picking up my phone and finding Taeyeon's number. I took a deep breath, and pressed the call button.