Lovino woke up early the next day to prepare for the police department coming in. He had everyone there early to prepare, the last time they had the fire department come in and they totally weren't prepare, it was awful and totally stressful. But not this time this time he would be ready for the attack. He had his cutest waitresses come in, some eye candy for the cops.

He had the tables pressed together so there would be enough room for them to sit all together, there were a few booths open for other people but the department was large they would fill most of the space inside the small little restaurant. Lovino knew they were going to make a killing after today. The waitresses were all gathered in a corner talking with each other. They wondered if any of the cops would be cute, one said she didn't care she just wanted a big tip.

Lovino had to brake them up and have them go grab some extra chairs. After that he saw the police men walk inside in casual clothing. They were talking with each other, Lovino wasn't really listening to them and he counted their heads and grabbed enough menus for them all. Gilbert managed to work his way up to the front. He smirked at Lovino before the Italian went and sat him and the rest of the police force down.

The cop read over the menu and one after another placed their orders. The waitresses took the orders to the kitchen and they started talking with each other, it was mostly gossip most of them were still in high school so they couldn't help themselves. "So which one is the boss' boyfriend." One asked looking at the one girl who helped Lovino out that day he got drunk at work.

A different waitresses spoke up. "Wait what about the one military guy, I thought he was seeing him!" She chimed and the other girl shook her head.

"He's not seeing either of them! He still in love with his late boyfriend, he's not ready to date anyone yet, come on guys its only been one year. He needs some time and if you were smart you would stop talking so poorly of him!" The girl said, she always was defending Lovino when the waitresses started to gossip about him or even trash talk him, she understood him. She rolled her eyes at the other two and walked away. She didn't want to hear what they had to say, they were sluts anyways.

They huffed and rolled their eyes at her. "I think he should really move on, I mean seriously maybe he would be in a better mood if he was getting some action. But can you believe the nerve of that bitch!"

"Maybe she wants to fuck him so she jealous that these who hot guys are after him. Let's face it our boss is a flaming fagot. I want him to hook up with the creepy cop guy, god he's so fucking weird looking he probably never gets laid, but anyway I could work my magic and fuck that military man, uniforms are so damn sexy." The other girl said with a smirk. They both laughed and went to check on the table. When they walked though the door they were both face to face with their boss.

He glared at them both, normally he would have fired them right on the spot after hearing what he heard but it was far to busy to only have one waitress. "After today don't bother coming in anymore. I will not have you two bashing me behind my back. Most of all I won't have either of you talking shit about Gilbert, have I made my self clear." He growled at them. They glared back at him, clearly pissed for being fired for what they saw as harmless talking.

The one waitress smirked at them with a 'I told you so' look across her face. The two waitresses worked, very half assed, and were mean to costumers and to the other waitress. Lovino was glad to be rid of them. The police finished eating, they paid their bill and left a tip before they began to leave. Gilbert stayed. He didn't get a chance to speak with Lovino, and that was the whole reason he talked the department into having their party here, he want to see Lovino and help him make a little extra cash.

Lovino was clearing off the table when Gilbert started to help him. "Hey Lovi how are you feeling today?" He asked. Lovino gave a dry laugh and walked back to the kitchen. He didn't know where to begin, Alfred had tried to kiss him, two of his waitresses were trash talking him, he was now short two people because he fired them, he missed his little brother and wished that his classes in Italy would go by quicker.

"Work allows me to get my mind of some things." He said and wished that it was true. Work only allowed him to spend more time thinking about everything. Gilbert stared at him and sighed.

"Come on Lovi I know you better then that, come on tell me what really on your mind." Gilbert said and Lovino tried to walk past him so he could finish clearing off the table but Gilbert kept moving so he was blocking his way out. It was starting to get frustrating. Lovino tried to shove past him but Gilbert didn't even budge.

Giving in Lovino gave a sigh of defeat. "I...I don't know how I'm suppose to feel. I thought I was ready but when he went to kiss me I felt a sort of panic, like I wasn't allowed to kiss him. Or maybe I really just didn't want him to kiss me. I like Alfred, we've dated before, but the thing is he's the same guy I knew back in high school. Yeah he's a little bit more mature now, but he's still the same and its not what I want. Besides I'm all wrong for him any ways aren't I." Lovino said. Gilbert couldn't help but to feel a mixture of happiness and sadness inside.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with you Lovino in fact if you do end up dating Alfred then he should realize just how lucky he is. But if you still don't feel ready then let him know and make sure he understands that, you can move at your own pace don't let anyone force you to move on." Gilbert said and let Lovino pass. They finished cleaning off the table and moved them back to were they belonged. Lovino couldn't help but to let his mind race, what would Antonio think about all of this, he wished that he could talk to him, he wished that he was here with him instead.

"I'll have to call Alfred later." Lovino said and stared at his phone, it as still to early to try to give Alfred a call, Alfred was still at work. Gilbert sat at the bar and looked over at him.

"Are you going to give him a second chance?" Gilbert asked. Lovino shook his head.

"No, he needs to know that its going to be awhile before I see anyone again. He shouldn't wait around for me. I'm going to try to talk him into staying in the air force and being active duty. Its what he loves, he shouldn't give that up just yet." Lovino told him and put his cell phone away. Gilbert sighed with relief, he felt ashamed of being happy Alfred was getting turned down seeing that it also meant he was getting turned down as well, he would be happy for Lovino no matter what or who he chooses, but he still wanted it to be him, even if the chances of that happening were slim. He wanted to be the one that made Lovino happy and smile, but if that meant he had to just be his friend to do so then so be it.

He didn't want him to be heart broken anymore, he wanted to hear him laugh again, he wanted to see him blush again even if it wasn't because of him. He couldn't stand to see someone hurting like how he had hurt. Most of all he wished that he was brave enough to let Lovino know all of this, he wanted to express to him how he felt. But he would stay silent unless Lovino wanted him, if not then he planed to just push these feeling to a new place in his heart and possible try to find love else where, but first he had to make sure Lovino found happiness.

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So as you all know from the last chapter me and my boyfriend got into a fight after he accused me of cheating. Well we are no longer together and that's pretty much why this chapter is late. I've been pretty depressed and some part of me blames this fic. It seems when ever something bad happens in this fic something bad happens to me.

I've been sleeping a lot, I read that is actually a warning sign of depression. I've been sleeping almost ten hours a day, sometimes more, on a day off I slept for twelve.

Well I'm going to be single now for awhile, I don't want to date anymore it never goes right. First guy ended up stalking me for like a year, the next one was after my virginity and was pressuring me to do it (dumped him after he laughed at me for wanting to wait until marriage), the couple after him were nobodies, now a guy who would never trust me. You can't have a relationship without trust, remember that.

Please review it might cheer me up. But you don't have to leave one if you don't want to.