~2002
It's been two months, and I hate L.A. The city is probably fine, but I'm not. Bella won't take my calls, and Emmett and Alice aren't saying much. I know they must be in touch with her because Alice had some pretty choice words for me when I called yesterday. Apparently sending Bella flowers is not acceptable. But I didn't know what else to do.
Five months here, and it's no better. I met someone, but she's not Bella. She's friendly and flirty and clearly interested, but I just can't.
Alice isn't speaking to me. The last time I called, she screamed "Cheater!" and hung up. I should have called her back and insisted that she hear the truth, but I was so ashamed of myself, of everything, that I called Dad instead. Even he doesn't know the whole story – at least I don't think he does. But he can probably guess. He's the only one who doesn't treat me like the world's biggest asshole. Even though I am.
It's been seven months, and now no one is answering. I've called everyone, even Alice, for two days straight, but no one is picking up. I turn on the news, but there are no reports of freak storms or earthquakes, no reason from the Weather Channel as to why my family is unreachable. In desperation, I call Bella's. I know she doesn't want to talk to me, but if I just hear her voice...
"Swan residence, Sue speaking."
"Um…Is…Is Bella there?" I ask. I don't know who Sue is, and I hope she doesn't ask who's calling. Maybe she'll hand Bella the phone.
"I'm sorry," she says, sounding genuinely apologetic. "She's resting right now. Do you need funeral information?"
"Um…no. No, thanks," I say before hanging up.
It's done. Charlie's gone, and I need to be there. I'll call into work, I'll make any excuse necessary, and I'll finally go home, if only for a few bereavement days. I'll tell Bella the truth. Finally. She'll be pissed, but she'll understand. Even if she doesn't, at least she'll know it was all my fault and that I still love her. I hope.
sorry this one's later than usual. work was crazy again today. i suspect it may be that way for a while. still gonna update daily, but don't count on a specific time.