Chapter 26: Secrets
The light of the moon glistened off of her skin as if she was a jewel in the sunlight. He couldn't help but look over at his sleeping beauty and although he felt very proud that she was "his" sleeping beauty, he couldn't help but feel a bit guilty.
She opened her eyes, but didn't make any sudden movements because for a second she forgot where she was. When she saw the familiar setting of her boyfriends apartment, she turned around and their eyes met. Then she smiled a sleepy smile. "Were you watching me sleep?"
He gave her an even bigger smile, in the back of his head he was somewhat embarrassed. "Yes, you are such a beautiful sleeper." He said lowly as he kissed her on her cheek. "Are you okay?"
She stood up in the bed and ran her hand through her bed hair. "Just a bit confused." She said as she looked at the clock in the room. For some reason it felt a bit odd to be sitting up and then she noticed that a breasts were revealed. She quickly through the covers over them.
He laughed at her. "Maddie is in her room sleeping. I just checked on her a half an hour ago, we had a little bit of a party here, you decided to stay, and obviously we had sex until you fell asleep."
As he summarized the night that they had shared together, some things were beginning to come back to her. "I guess I don't have to ask if I was drinking." She said as she got out of the bed and began looking for some articles of clothing to put on.
"Yes...you were." He stayed in the spot that he had been in for a while. Sleeping for him had been something that was so unimportant. He wanted to be awake for every moment that he could, so that he wouldn't miss anything. His life had so much more meaning now that Miley and Maddie were back in it.
"What are you thinking about?" His girlfriend asked as she climbed back into bed with one of his overly sized white T-shirts on her.
"That in two months we will be the proud parents of a one-year-old baby girl." He said as he looked over to the love of his life.
"I know. Time moves so fast. Before you know it we will be sending her off to kindergarten." She said as she looked at him with this look of wonder. "IS everything okay?" Her voice turned so serious, that it almost frightened her.
He hesitated before answering the question. "I'm always fine when I'm with you."
"Nick...something strange has been happening with you lately." She said as she thought about what's been going on since they had gotten back together. "You love taking pictures of everything, you always want to party with family and friends, and you keep thinking about the future." She said thinking about where she was going with this. Most people wouldn't find it a bit odd that a somebody wanted to do all of this, but Nick was never the type to want all of this attention. "Why the sudden interest?"
He shrugged his shoulders. "After having my life as a bachelor, I noticed a couple of things. I just don't want to miss out on anything." He said as he looked up at her. Then he moved closer toward her.
She knew he was just trying to change the subject, but she didn't care. As much as she still felt like something was up, she loved the new sudden interest he had in family and friends. It made them stronger as a couple and the immediate family that they were.
"I love you Miles. I will always love you." He whispered in her ear lowly.
Her body began to shiver because she knew he was so genuine when he said it. The thought in her mind almost scared her.
He gently touched her face and moved it toward his. Then he kissed her lips tenderly. A minute later he stopped kissing her and placed his forehead on hers. Their lips still inches away from one another.
"Why'd you stop?" She asked softly.
With the okay to keep going he took her by the shoulders and threw her on the foot of the bed. Hearing her gasp turned him on even more. He went on top of her and in between her legs, and looked deeply into her blue eyes. It was as if she was telling him what she wanted him to do to her without speaking. He began to aggressively kiss her lips, and when it was times to breathe he would kiss her neck.
She couldn't help but moan as he was grinding on her body. She could feel his hands running up and down her thighs as he began to take off his T-shirt. She rolled her eyes as his lips kissed every inch of her body. Then she gasped as he flipped her to make her be the one on top.
In his mind he knew this was her. The woman of his dreams. Even though he was doing the majority of the work, he had never felt this way with any other girl that he had sex with before. And it took him a while to realize it, but he finally did. What he and Miley did wasn't sex, it was making love. When they were intimate, it felt as if they were one. Not like the other girls where he just felt pleasure and that was it.
She began to kiss on his hard chest a bit and nibble on his ear as she was on top, but then they rolled over on to the floor and she was on the bottom again.
They both hesitated when they fell because it made a huge thud, but when they heard that there was quiet, the continued to do what they were doing. He playfully smiled as he came up and looked at her in her face. "Say my name."
Even though the tone in the room was serious she couldn't help but laugh at him. He was so cute when he was like this. She seductively twisted her lips and said in a way that she knows he had never heard before "Nick!"
Two Days Later:
Miley was in her room looking around at everything. She couldn't believe that she was actually bored. Her mom and all her sisters went out to go get their nails and toes done, her brother was at his friends house, and her dad was in the studio doing some tracks. Maddie was with Nick and he was going to drop her off at the Jonas' when they were done having daughter/daddy time.
She looked around her room and it still had things that reminded her of her fame. Sometimes she wondered if she hadn't gotten pregnant, would she still be into music. About a month ago she wrote a song, but in her head she thought that maybe she forgot how to sing. But then again, she figured it was like riding a bike, once you learned you never forget. When it came to playing instruments that scared her even more. She knew that there was no way she would remember that.
Occasionally she would go through the blog sites and the internet to see what people were saying about her, especially times like this when she was just so bored. But the media had calmed down about her. And she never thought in her whole life that would happen. After the initial shock kind of wore off, they just went to the next round of gossip that they could get. Which is what she wanted because Maddie deserved to have a normal childhood no matter who her parents were, but she never thought that she would miss that part of being famous. But when they were calling her a ho, at least that meant they cared. In Hollywood there was always that saying that all of her A-list celebrity friends would say "Bad publicity is still publicity." Now she knew what they meant.
It was scary to her that she was just eighteen years old and she had already done what most people in a lifetime would do. But she still had so much more to learn, and after living with Nick, it hit her. She wasn't anywhere near ready to fully handle life. They still had so much more to do and to overcome. Her thoughts were interrupted by a sudden phone call.
She rushed over to her cell phone and it was her sister. "Hello?"
"Hi, sleepyhead. Glad to see that you're up."
"Yeah...I've been up for a while. I'm plainly bored. What's up?"
"Nothing...mom wants to know if you need anymore tampons. Everybody in the house seems to be out of them." She said in a very nonchalant way. The Cyrus household was never shy when it came to things that they couldn't control.
She thought about the question and honestly she couldn't remember. "I don't know. Let me go check." She walked over to her bathroom and looked underneath the sink where she left all of her feminine products. Then she felt and grabbed a whole new box of tampons. "No, I don't need any. I have a whole box."
"Okay. Thanks. See you when we get home."
She held the box in her hands for a bit longer and then said goodbye to her sister on the phone. She shook her head no as she continued to stare at the box. Something in her mind wasn't adding up. She had bought these box of tampons two weeks ago, which is when she thought she was supposed to get her period in the first place. She through them underneath her sink again and nodded her head no. "Not again." She said out loud to herself. She ran over to her calendar that she had in her nightstand drawer.
"One...two...three." She counted as she looked at the last time that she had gotten her period. Becoming a bit discouraged she closed the calendar back to where it was before, she rubbed her head, and she sat on her bed. "Alright...you've been through this before." She said to herself as she looked down at her stomach. "I think you would know if you were pregnant." She rolled her eyes and began to whimper a little.
After getting over the shock of the fact that she might be pregnant again, she knew that she had to tell somebody. Anybody, because going through it alone like she did the last time wasn't an option. So with that she called somebody that she knew wouldn't judge her.
In twenty minutes Emily was rushing through her friends bedroom door like she had just heard somebody was trying to kill her. "I got your message and came over as soon as I could."
Miley had gotten a lot stronger in that twenty minutes. She knew that there was no reason to worry until she knew for sure that she was really pregnant again. "Can you come with me to go get a test?"
She nodded her head yes. "Of course." She took Miley's hand as they walked out of her wing and into Emily's car. "How did this happen?" She asked as they were driving to the store.
"Nick and I are really feeling each other right now. Like we have sex every day, sometimes even twice a day. I know this is gross and you really didn't want to hear that, but its the truth. And sometimes condoms don't work."
"Why aren't you on birth control?" She asked as she looked at her friend with these eyes of wonder.
"I planned on it. I truly did, but after Maddie was born everything was so hectic. Then Nick and I broke up and I knew I wasn't going to be having sex like that, so I figured what's the point? And when we got back together, I just wasn't thinking about that." She said honestly as she shrugged her shoulders. "But this is my wake up call. If I'm not pregnant, I'm calling my gynecologist right away so I can get on some."
"What if you are pregnant?" She asked as she looked away from the road again.
"I can't abort this kid after having Maddie or give it up for adoption. I guess Nick and I will just have to work everything out. It will be rough having kids so close in age, but I truly believe that we can get through anything."
"Your just so clam." She said as she pulled into the parking spot at CVS.
"Actually, I'm really scared right now. But there isn't anything to worry about until I know for sure what is going on. I can't stress myself out about it." She said to her friend as well to herself in her head. "It's not like Nick and I didn't want more kids." She said but in her head, she knew that this was going to change things. A child always changed things.
Nick's Apartment:
He felt it. He felt his body becoming weaker, he felt his mind becoming more numb, he felt his insides rejecting almost anything he had inside of him, but he ignored it. He ignored it because he knew it was too late to change it. There was nothing that he could so about this situation because he screwed up. All that he could do was spend as much time as he could with the people that he loved.
"I think it's time that we take you to your grandma's house. She might kill me if she doesn't get the time that she is supposed to have with you." He said to his daughter as he continued to pack her baby bag. He was about to place a bottle in there when his hand just froze on him. It scared him, but ten seconds later his hand began to work again. He looked over to his daughter who was just quietly watching television on her blanket that he had laid out for her.
Hoping that this would do something for him. He went into his cabinet and took out a very full pill bottle and took two pills. He knew that whatever those were, he wouldn't be able to drive with them in his system. "Okay...maybe I'll just send her to my mothers late. Its not that big of a deal." He walked over to where his daughter was sitting and could tell that she was getting tired. "How about we go take naps?" He asked her knowing that she wouldn't respond because she was so tired. They had a very eventful day.
He picked up his daughter and placed her in her crib gently. Then watched as she drifted off to sleep. He smiled because she looked so much like Miley when she slept, it kind of made him jealous. She did have some of his genes though. She had the curly dark brown hair, and the ways her eyes were shaped definitely made her a Jonas. But other than that she was basically a Miley clone. It was okay with him though, because at least he knew that his daughter would grow up just as beautiful as his girlfriend was.
Once he was done putting her to sleep, he walked over to his phone to call his mom. But as he was walking he began to feel this sharp pain in his abdomen. He winced in pain, but he tried to be quiet so that he wouldn't wake his daughter. The pain eased as his vision got blurrier and blurrier. The sounds began to get softer and softer from the television playing.
He could feel as his body was slowly loosing conscience. In his head he knew that this was all of his fault. So he wasn't scared, but he was scared to leave those he loved behind. Maybe this was it. Maybe this is what death felt like. Were his last thoughts before he began to feel numb and see nothing but pure darkness.
Miley's House:
Here she was again. In the bathroom awaiting the results of yet another pregnancy test. But this time she felt more secure with where she was in life. She knew that no matter what this baby would be loved and would be a surprise, but a welcomed surprise into her life. This time she had her best friend here waiting with her. And this time her pregnancy test was on the back of the toilet instead of on the floor where it felt like it over took her, instead of her over taking it.
"I can't believe you might have two kids before I even have one." Emily stated as she stood there in silence. She knew this was a time of seriousness, but it was just so ironic to her. Everybody thought that Emily would have been the one to settle down, way before Ms. Teen Sensation Miley settled down.
"I never thought that I'd meet the love of my life at the age of fourteen either. But I did. And at least I am having kids with the same father." She said as she tried to be optimistic about the situation. It wasn't the worse thing that could happen to her right now. But it sure as hell wasn't the best either.
"Yeah...you sure have gone through a lot in such a little time. I don't know how you stayed out of a mental institute." She said as she thought about all the other teen stars that had it way worse. Half of them were either druggies, crazy, or dead. Some of them were all three.
"Strong family back bone and friends like you. I bet you Lindsey Lohan doesn't have one friend that she can turn to and tell things too. Most people will spread your business in a magazine in two seconds for a couple of thousand dollars. And most teens who are super stars are supporting their families or their families are living off of them. My dad was already rich before I came along. So there was no need for that in my life."
"Yeah...and my family already had a little taste of success before you came along. I was already in well known movies and stuff. But I'd much rather be the supporting role. I would hate to have my life always monitored my people that don't know me."
"It gets annoying when its happening, but honestly I miss it. I miss being the center of attention because then I knew that I was still somewhat relevant. I feel like the media forgot about me and so did all my fans."
"Please, the media may have forgotten about you. But your true fans will always be loyal. All you have to do is make a single or appear in a movie and you'll be back in the spotlight again."
"I was thinking about going back. Maybe doing a bit of this and a bit of that. I love acting, songwriting, and music. But I love Maddie too. I just thought that maybe now that she is getting a bit older I could try again. And then this happened."
"You don't know what this is yet. You might not even be pregnant." Emily said as she looked at her friend. She knew this day would come. The day when she would have to choose between her love for music and her love for her child. But she knew that Miley would choose in the end, because she is such a genuinely good person.
"I've been pregnant before. So I think I'd know if this is a false alarm or not." She said as she looked at the clock and then at the pregnancy test. Only a minute and then she would have proof that would tell her if she was or she wasn't.
"Not true. Every pregnancy is different. My mom said she didn't have any morning sickness with my brother, but with me she had it all the way until her third trimester. And my brother kicked a lot, but I only kicked when she was sleeping. What I'm trying to say is you never know until you have proof."
"I think the proof is ready to be checked." She said as she took a deep breath and began to go for the pregnancy test. She held it in her hands and all of a sudden she began to get so scared. It was like it was her first time reading one of these things all over again. When she was about to read it her phone went off which scared her and she dropped the test in the toilet.
Emily quickly plunged into the toilet, but by that time it was too late. The test had been wet and the results were unclear. All you could read was "gnant" which could mean both.
The brunette stopped caring about the test and answered her phone a little shaken. "Hello."
"Hi, it's Dawn."
"Hey, Mrs. Jonas. What's wrong? Is everything okay with Maddie?"
"I don't know. I was going to call and see if you had her."
"No...Nick has her. I thought he was supposed to be dropping her off to your house so that she could spend the weekend with you like she always does." All of a sudden her mother instincts began to kick in and she could feel that something was wrong.
"I have been calling him and he hasn't answered his phone. I thought maybe you would know what was going on." She said beginning to sound more worried.
"I will go over there right now. They probably just fell asleep or something. You know how hard Nick sleeps." The teenager said as she tried to convince herself that was what it was. But in her gut she knew that wasn't it.
"Okay...can you call me when you know what's going on. Because I'm getting a bit scared over here."
"No problem. I'll call you back in a couple of minutes."
"Alright, sweetheart. Thanks."
"Your welcome. Bye." She hung up the phone and looked at her best friend. "Forget about the pregnancy test. I think there is something wrong with Maddie." She said in a hurry as she rushed over to her dresser and took the key out that Nick had given her the night that they had gotten back together.
Without asking any questions threw the pregnancy test into the garbage and ran after her friend who was obviously frightened for her daughters' safety.
10 Minutes Later:
Miley unlocked the door to the apartment and was terrified to see her boyfriend laid out on the living room floor. She gasped and rushed over to him. She had seen way too many cop shows because she automatically thought that somebody had robbed them and shot Nick. But when she turned him over there were no bullet wounds and no signs of forced entry at all. "Go find Maddie!" She told her friend jumping to the worse case scenario, that somebody had kidnapped her.
Emily ran through the apartment looking for her goddaughter, but was unable to find her.
"Look in her bedroom." Miley pointed as she placed her boyfriends head on her lap.
The blond ran into the room and began to look all over the place. She was so scared about the whole situation that she forgot to look at the most obvious place. She walked over to the crib and there she was still sound asleep.
The brunette was on her cell phone. "Hello. 911? This is Miley Cyrus. I need an ambulance to 186 Jennings St. Apartment 2C. She said as she looked around at the place. "Its my boyfriend. He is unconscious." She said in a hurry. "I don't know how long he's been like this. I just got here and I called as soon as I could." She listened to what the lady had to say on the other line. She grabbed his wrist and felt for the two veins she was describing. "Yes, there is still a pulse." She got a little less scared when the lady told her that was good. Her boyfriend was still alive. "Can they just hurry. I don't know how much more time he has left."
Emily came walking out with a sleeping Maddie on her shoulders. "Maybe he is just sleep. Did you try to wake him up?" She asked as she looked at him laying on the ground.
"Of course I did." She said in a frightened whisper. "I've tried everything. He is completely gone." It was becoming almost unbearable to see him like this. She thought for sure that somebody had to have done this too him. Nick was way to healthy to just do this.
"What do you want me to do now?" She asked as she watched her best friend stare at her boyfriend as if she was in some sort of daze.
"Can you please call his mom? And then take Maddie home. I'm going to ride in the ambulance with him. Whenever they come." She said as she looked at her best friend. "Then when my family decides what to do with Maddie, I'm going to need you at the hospital."
She nodded her head yes. Then looked for another minute. She kind of felt bad for leaving her friend like this. But it was her who wanted her to leave.
Miley felt so alone once Emily left. But she didn't want Maddie to wake up and see this. That little girl had already had a tough bringing up so far without this added to it. This is something that she might remember and it might scar her for life. "Nick, please be okay. You have to be okay because I can't do this without you. I can't raise Maddie without you and I sure as hell can't have another baby without you." Tears began to form as the thought started to enter her mind. What was she going to do without Nick by her side?
At the Hospital:
Everybody was waiting in the waiting-room to hear about Nick and his condition. Whatever it was had everybody surprised because he had everyone thinking that he was completely healthy.
Mostly everybody was gathered around Miley though because she was the most messed up. Even though she kept telling herself she had to be strong it was as if the tears didn't get the memo. They just continued to keep coming.
They had all been waiting for hours to see if everything was alright. But it surprised them when the doctor came out with a smile on his face.
"I take that smile as a good thing?" Peter said as he looked up at the doctor with seriousness in his voice.
"It is a good thing, because your son is still alive." He said as he looked at the family that was surrounding him." It was a hard journey, but we saved him. A couple more minutes and he would have been dead."
"What's the matter with him?" Frankie asked as everybody was even more shocked about what the doctor had just told them.
"His diabetes. He hasn't taken care of it at all. His kidney shut down on him." The doctor said not happy that he had to say that. "I'm going to put him on the list for a new kidney, but the list is so long that there might not be enough time to save him."
Miley was getting so confused. She hadn't really ever seen him take his medicine or check his insulin, but then again she didn't live with him. So she thought that maybe he was doing everything while she wasn't there. She had to sit as the doctor continued. With each word it was like it became more and more muffled.
"We are starting him on dialysis. He will be hospitalized for as long as he needs it, and we will keep him on strict watch so that we can make him life as long as possible. But the fact is that there are at least a thousand people as of yesterday that are still awaiting for kidneys."
"Can somebody donate a part of theirs to make him live?" Joe asked as he stood up to look at the doctor.
"You are born with two kidneys. And of course if there is a willing donor that has the same blood type and everything we would let them do it. A human being is perfectly capable of living a normal life with just one kidney."
"So...it's final. We will all get tested." Mrs. Jonas said as she looked around at her family.
"No...mom. All of the men will get tested. I don't mean to be sexist or anything, but I don't think that the woman should be subjected to such harsh surgery. You guys have to have kids." Kevin said as he looked to his mother.
"Fine, son. For the rest of the women it is optional. But I am going to get tested for my son. I'm not having anymore kids anyway. And Frankie isn't getting tested anyway. He's way too young."
"Our family will get tested too." Mr. Cyrus said as he stood up and looked at the Jonas'. "Nick used to be like a son to me. Plus, he is the father of our grandchild and we can't let him go without a fight." He said with a smile.
While everybody was talking about who was going to get tested Miley just sat there in complete awe. In her head she was trying to figure out why Nick would do such a thing? Why would he not take care of such a life threatening disease after the doctor told him what could happen if he didn't. Was he that unhappy in his life that he tried to kill himself? So many thoughts and emotions were running through her head that she felt the room begin to spin.
"Miley are you okay?" Emily asked as she bent down to comfort her friend.
She looked up and nodded her head no. "I think I'm going to be sick." She said as she got out of her chair and rushed to the nearest restroom.
Emily followed and waited by the sink while her friend clearly emptied her stomach out. She looked at herself in the mirror and thanked God that this wasn't her because she wouldn't know what to do.
A weakened Miley came out holding her stomach a bit and walked over to the sink.
"I think that since you are going to be spending a lot of time in the hospital lately, that you should just go and take a pregnancy test from a doctor. So you can be completely sure if you have anything to worry about."
"I just can't right now." She said as she looked at herself in the mirror. "I can't take anymore news then I have right now." She looked over to her friend and quickly changed to topic to something that was weighing so heavily on her mind. "Em..."
She looked at her friend and could tell that she was going to let loose.
"How could he do this to me?" Another round of tears began to resurface as she nodded her head no.
The blond just went over to her friend and held her. She let her cry into her shoulder. She let her scream at her because she knew that she had pent up anger toward Nick. She let her cry so hard that she soaked the shoulder of her shirt. She let her feel sorry for herself because she deserved to feel sorry for herself sometimes. Then when the lights went down in the hospital and the majority of the people went home. She let her friend sleep on her shoulder in the waiting-room, because she knew her friend wouldn't want to leave the love of her life in the hospital, even if they were apart in separate rooms.