Hey y'all! Here goes another update. I decide to write before I got very busy with school work and my job. SO here it goes. I am not sure when the next update is going to be but don't forget to review! Thanks for those who review I greatly appreciate it. So here goes another chapter.

Her parents knew better than to ask what was wrong. Seeing how upset Nessie was that day made them wonder if they did the correct thing. But it too late now to go and change things.

Nessie stared at the silent dark night, hugging her pillow tightly against her body. She didn't cry that day. It hurt too much to cry.

The feeling that a great part of her was still with him. She felt like a fool because she trust and loved him so blindly.

She told him things she has never told anyone before. That what made him special and different from everyone else.

Tears weren't enough for what she felt. . She felt that if she started to cry she would never stop. So she didn't... she just stayed silent letting the pain eat her alive slowly.

"Nessie are done packing the stuff you want us to take to Connecticut" Alice asked her as Renesmee through some random things in a box.

'Yes this is the last box" She said as she carried it to the garage and placed it in Emmet's car.

It was mid afternoon, they had to be leaving for San Francisco soon. She had to move in by 7 pm.

"Honey, are ready to leave" Bella said.

"Yes" Renesmee said dully.

"Okay lets go" Edward said standing behind Bella.

"NO. You and mom are not coming with me. I will go to San Francisco by myself" She said firmly.

"Nessie its a new city" Edward exclaimed.

"I don't care. You want me to have the human experience. Regular college student drive to school by themselves" She said interrupting Edward, and started hugging /kissing everyone goodbye.

"She is right" Emmett said jokingly.

"Emmett don't help her" Edward said seriously.

"Bye mom and dad" She said hugging them a final time. She wouldn't be seeing them until Spring break. She will going to Connecuit for that break.

"Bye sweetie. Take a break if your tired. If you feel sick or something call us and we-" Bella was saying until Renesmee interrupted.

"Everything will be fine" Renesmee said dully as she climbed into the car and started driving away.

This is it she thought. She will never see him again. She thanked her vampartic abilities for remember map quest directions so perfectly. She got there in timely fashion.

She arrived to her hall, Gillson Residence Hall academic experience for first year students.

Everyone was so happy to be there and she was so unhappy. In fact she was miserable. She wanted to be back at forks with Jacob. Then she remember "Jacob doesn't want her anymore". She parked the car and went in to check in.

Then the student staff quickly went to help her out to unload her car. She was sharing a room with a girl called Sandra Fernandez.

The student staff were quite fascinated with her. Especially the guys.

They practically wouldn't leave the room and she practically hear them talking about her from down the hall.

Thanks to her vampire abilities she unpacked the room less than two hours.

Sandra was a nice friendly girl from Arizona. She moved in this semester too. She went on for a hour talking about her family. I could tell she was missing them a lot.

Then Sandra shifted their conversations to Nessie's family. She shared a few stories but nothing too big. Nessie doesn't trust her enough to tell her anything to private.

Nessie sat there at her desk waiting for laptop to start up and then his picture appeared in her desktop. The picture they took at the beach. She was placed between his legs and he was hugging her around her waist.

While she kissed his cheek and he was looking down at her. She felt her heart jump into pieces as she saw that picture.

"Is that your boyfriend" Sandra asked innocently not knowing the pain that Nessie felt when seeing this picture.

"Was" She said seriously and Sandra knew not to ask even further.

"Oh" SHe said immediately changed her background to fairies. She always loved fairies.

It gave her something to believe in when she could not believe in anything else. The days she lost complete hope and thought she was going to die due to anorexia.

When she survived she knew in order to get better she had to believe in recovery. She had to believe that life was something worth fighting for. Now she has to believe that stuff happens for a reason and Jacob was never "Mr. Right".

Sandra seeing Nessie's sudden mood change, she decide to go walk around campus. Nessie seeing that she was all alone in the room, she pulled out the scale.

She stepped on it and it said 104 pounds.

"What do you want Seth?" Jacob yelled over the phone. It was 4o'clock in the morning, he wanted to sleep. He just fell asleep recently, he wanted his rest.

"Its Nessie, she at the hospital" Jacob heartbeat just increased. "HUH? What? why?" Jacob responded as he started putting on some clothing.

"She is having complications from her eating disorder" Jacob heart fell into pieces. He couldn't help but to feel guilty.

"Fuck" Jacob said hanging up the phone and driving to the only hospital they have in Forks.

"Jacob she came by to visit Charlie and she was just so thin. She was barley holding herself up. She fainted in the living room floor" Seth explained.

"I need to see her" Jacob said barging in the door.

His heart broke even further as soon as he saw her. She was dying. Tears spilled over his eyes as he saw her battling for life.

She was so pale, her skin was a pasty white. Her breathes were abnormal. She was having a difficulty breathing.

He immediately went to touch her hand so she feel his presence. He was caught off guard by how icy cold her hand was.

There were more bruises and cuts near her knuckles. It happens becomes of frequent purging.

Her eyes weakly opened up, to reveal such a sadness. "Jac-Jac- Jacob" She said gasping for air.

"I am so sorry. I should have been there for you. I shouldn't have lied to you and told you there was someone else because there wasn't" Jacob said remorsefully.

"Too-gasp- late" Nessie said

" I have only loved you Renesmee. That has never nor it will change" Jacob crying.

"Jacob,love too. But, you-gasp- will have to mo-mo- move on. I am dy-dying. I can't fight-gasp- this anymore. it won" Nessie said as Jacob shook his head no.

"Nessie, you are strong enough, please baby" He said wrapping his arm around her thin waist line.

"Lead -gasp- a good life" Nessie said comforting him by soothing his back.

"How can I lead a good life? If the only thing good and worth living for is you" Jacob said.

"Love you" Nessie said as she breathed her final breath and died.

Jacob clung on to her body even more and cried like he has never cried before. " Come back" HE would say repeatedly.

"Jacob- Jacob" His father shook his leg so he can wake up. "Jacob it was just a dream" Billy said repeatedly.

Jacob stared around the room and was hyperventilating.

" It was so Real" He said trying to regulate his breath.

"Nessie?" Billy asked though he already knew the answer. Jacob was having nightmares ever since Nessie left for San Francisco.

"Yeah" He said as he checked his eyes and they were still tearing.

"Boy, you are as dumb as you can get. You are thick headed just like your mother was, always so willing to "sacrifice yourself for the ones you love" Billy said hitting Jacob softly in the back in the head.

"It the best for her" Jacob said stubbornly.

"Don't you think she should decide what is best for her? The poor girl has been constantly told what to do and never had a say in anything. No wonder she has a eating disorder. Everyone tells her what to do and the only thing she was able to control was what she ate" Billy said as Jacob just sat there listening to his wise father.

"And what I say everyone- I am including you" Billy said seriously.

"What why ?" Jacob said angrily. He didn't want to be categorized with vampires.

"You didn't give her choice. You made the decision for her. You made a deal with her parents without considering how it might affect her. You hurt her" Billy said trying to reason with his stubborn son.

"She will move on- that is what she told me " Jacob sounded hurt as he remember the last words that Renesmee said to him before she left.

"Would you move on? " Billy ask. Jacob was scared to answer. " Boy, why aren't you in your apartment living there ? It reminds you of her doesn't it ? Why aren't you out with your friends every night like before you meet her?"

Jacob finally answered "Nothing is the same without her in my life".

"Why would you doubt that she is not feeling the same way you are feeling?" Billy asked.

"You could tell just by how Nessie looked at you that you were everything for her" Billy said as Jacob listened. Then realize of his lack of judgement.

Jacob quickly got out his bed and showered. He quickly got dressed and said good bye to his father. " I have to go get my girl back".

It was around 9 am when he arrived to her dorm. He was quick nervous and did not know what to expect.

He knocked softly and prayed that she was in there. Then the door opened softly and a sleepy Nessie was standing at the door.