Day 26: Making Up Afterwards

((Okay the argument wasn't very Yullen, but that was because it was a setup for this one. IDK if this one is too intimate either, but it shows a little bit of understanding between them.))

When Allen was gone, Lenalee turned instantly to the swordsman and cried, "You had better apologize to him! Allen's really been struggling..."

"Why would I-?"

She interrupted Kanda to continue, "He's been through a lot, and has never forgiven himself. Allen takes everything upon himself and doesn't share his pain, he's always been like that. He might look like he isn't hurting, but then you'll catch him at a wrong time and it looks like he'll never smile again. Please, Kanda, you really hurt him."

Kanda rolled his eyes and left, not planning to take his words back. After packing for their mission, he walked down to the gates. The white-haired exorcist waited for him there, but his eyes remained on the ground. He didn't talk to him the entire way down to the city, and on the boat, and even on the train. Allen didn't speak to Kanda or the finder, burying himself in the mission details and replaying the message that Cross left him on Timcampy incessantly.

One time, while on the train, Kanda glanced over at him from the window. Allen's face was devoid of any happiness or will to live. All that was there was a sheer determination to continue, but no emotion to couple it. Guilt and sadness suddenly filled Kanda's being, and the Asian girl's words were hurdled into his consciousness.

When the finder left the compartment to go to the bathroom, Kanda spoke. "I'm sorry about before. I didn't mean it."

The smaller man was biting his lip and looking like he was going to cry, but was holding back so he wouldn't lose face. It was a moment before Allen replied with, "You did mean it, or else you wouldn't have said it. That's how you are."

"I only said it because it pisses me off how you put yourself in danger so much. It's hard to watch you walk unknowingly into a bad situation, then deal with it alone. You never ask for help."

"I don't need-"

"Yes you do. Even I ask for help sometimes. You don't have to do it all alone, baka. People would fall all over themselves to help you."

Allen screwed his face up and frowned, "I'm fine."

"You aren't. I could tell from our first mission that you weren't. You try to save everyone because you don't want them to be as lonely and hurt as you are," Kanda insisted, finally shutting the other exorcist up. "But that just makes you you, and I can't stop that. But I can help."

"Why are you suddenly trying to help me?" He asked quietly.

"I hate seeing you depressed," Kanda said simply, looking back out the window, deciding the conversation was over.

Allen nodded slowly, folding his arms over his chest as the finder reentered the compartment. He didn't see the barely visible blush that pinkened Kanda's complexion.