Disclaimer: Written under the derivative fan works act. All rights reserved to the original creator, Stephanie Meyer.
Title: The Darkest Part of the Night
Rating: M for graphic violence, blood play, vampire feeding, sexual situations, lemons, hot steamy angsty vampire lovin', underage drinking, smoking, drug use and overall bad behavior.
Premise: Edward left Carlisle to live the vampire lifestyle but he didn't leave his family behind. They left with him, feeding off the dregs of human society. What will happen when they finally meet a certain human girl? No Vegetarians allowed AU OOC ExB Lemons
Alternate Universe: This story uses more traditional vampire canon as opposed to Twilight sparklepires. Canon pairings eventually although Edward and company get a lot of play in this story until things settle down in later chapters (Obviously Bella won't be in the story until after she's born), pretty much OOC, ExB of course.
POV: EPOV (Edward) Edward tells this story. Any commentary from Rosalie, Alice or Bella will be posted as outtakes in a separate story.
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Author Notes:
Please note that this story is rated M for a reason, if you'd prefer not to deal with mature themes, please do not read this story.
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Chapter 26 Bella
I enjoyed dancing with Bella, but eventually the set of slow music ended, and the DJ came back and put on a faster dance song. I could tell Bella was uncomfortable with the faster music now after slow dancing with me, so I took her hand and led her back to the table. Alice and Jasper and Emmett and Rose stayed out on the dance floor, moving to the beat of the music, grinding and touching to the pounding dance beat.
Bella sat down with a sigh, and picked up her glass of white wine and drank the rest of it. She was flushed and more than a little tipsy. I'd had to hold her so she didn't stagger as we walked back to the table. She was getting drunk, but she seemed disappointed that her glass was empty.
"Would you like another glass of wine?" I asked. She was definitely buzzed, but I doubted she was so far gone that she'd fall off the back of my bike.
"I shouldn't, but one more shouldn't hurt. We're celebrating after all. I won and I can use the prize money to at least get that computer I wanted. I got up and sang. I even danced without falling down. I guess I can do anything tonight."
I called the waitress over to refill our drinks while Bella rambled.
"I guess Renee got what she wanted… They'll have money now… She'll be able to travel…"
The cocktail waitress returned with our drinks as I answered her. "That's a good thing, right? They can move out of the trailer and have nice things…"
Bella picked up her drink and drank half of it, and then sipped it as we talked.
"What about me, Edward? Maybe I'm being selfish and I should think of them, but Renee isn't going to sit at home while Phil travels with the team… I can't stay home alone… I'll have to drop out of school if I go with them…"
"You don't have to do that if you don't want to…"
"You keep saying that... I don't really want to go live with my dad, but I guess I'll have to now."
"You don't have to decide that today. You won your races last night, and we're celebrating. You won't have to make any decisions until after Phil and Renée meet with the sponsors this afternoon."
"Today? Oh my god, what time is it? I can't be late two nights in a row! Renee will ground my ass!"
"Well, the fair didn't close until midnight tonight. It's a little after one AM. Don't tell me you were supposed to be home at midnight. It's the weekend now, and your mother most certainly knew we'd be celebrating…"
"No, my curfew on the weekends during summer is one o'clock. Not that I needed a curfew that late. I never went out anywhere except to sleep over at Rachel's house."
"So you're alright then. You don't need to rush home…"
"You said it's already after one… If mom's home, she'll wonder where I am… I don't want to get in trouble. You should take me home, Edward."
"It's early, Bella. You can't honestly expect me to take you home this early. Your mother and Phil are probably still out celebrating. Besides, you promised me we could play later."
"I know…" She said a little apprehensively. "I should check in… I don't want to get in trouble if they're waiting up for me."
"Alright, but you know, If your mother is home and realizes you've been drinking, she probably won't let you leave again." I stood up and helped Bella into her light denim jacket.
She collected her purse and slung the strap over her shoulder. We started for the door and I had to wrap my arm around her waist to steady her as we walked out of the bar.
I gathered Bella into my arms when we got outside and were standing next to my bike. "If your mother is home, this is probably goodnight. Are you sure you want me to take you home? It's easier to ask for forgiveness than to beg for permission. She can't say no if you don't ask…"
"You are so bad… What am I supposed to beg for permission to do?" she asked as she laid her head on my chest.
"Stay with me longer. I don't want to let you go." I leaned down and kissed the top of her head.
"And what would we be doing that I have to ask for forgiveness for?" Her voice quavered a bit with apprehension as she nervously asked her question.
"She doesn't need to know all the details, Bella. I want to spend more time with you."
"Like last night?" I felt her heart race as it pounded in her chest and she blushed again as I held her.
"That's a good starting point. I told you I wanted to do more with you. Does that scare you?"
"A little… This thing we have together… It's moving so fast. I don't know if I'm ready for more yet, Edward."
"There's one way to find out."
"That doesn't help," she said as her heart stuttered and skipped a beat before racing again as it pounded in her chest. "I need to think… Take me home and we can see if I'm grounded or not."
I swung my leg onto the Harley and settled onto the seat. Bella climbed on behind me and wrapped her arms around my waist. She settled onto the backseat pad with her thighs pressing against my hips as her skirt hiked up around her thighs. I kicked the engine to life, let out the clutch and we roared out of the parking lot.
I just followed Highway 60 southeast until we got to North Ninety-First Street, and turned right to head down toward the trailer park that Bella called home. I knew where I was going and she didn't have to give me directions. I felt her sigh with resignation as I turned into the drive for the trailer park. I cruised slowly down to her trailer, but I pulled in under the carport tonight. The truck was still gone and there was no other vehicle. The lights were all dark and it was obvious to me that there wasn't anyone was home.
I shut off the engine and leaned the bike onto the stand while Bella climbed off the back. She wobbled a little as she smoothed her skirt down flat over her leggings and didn't seem quite stable on her own two feet until she reached out and placed a hand on the rickety porch banister.
My leg swung over the seat as I stepped off the bike and stood beside her with my arm around her waist. She turned into me and placed her small hands on my chest as she looked up into my eyes. I didn't say anything. My hand traced up her back and tangled into her hair as I leaned down and pressed my lips to hers.
Electricity exploded through my lips and down my spine as I was consumed by passion for this slip of a girl in my arms. I sucked her lower lip between mine, and then pushed my tongue between her lips when they parted to let me in. Our kiss deepened as our tongues swirled together and slipped against one another.
Bella broke the kiss, panting for air. Her legs were like jelly under her, and she would have collapsed if I wasn't supporting her with my arm holding her pressed against my body. I trailed electricity across her tender skin as I placed wet kisses along her jaw and down the column of her neck. The energy pulsed between us, linking our souls, throbbing out of my chest into hers and back again...
The pulsing current racing between us seemed to ratchet up in intensity as the throbbing electricity consumed us, intensifying the bond between me and Bella.
I kissed my way back to her lips and my cool breath flowed across her face as she inhaled my scent. Her eyes glazed over as she reacted to my natural lures, and then I captured her lips in a heated ardent kiss. My tongue delved deeply as I explored her mouth and kissed her passionately.
My body sang with the throbbing electricity. I wanted her, I needed her, and I knew I'd never be able to let her go. She was my mate and I knew she was feeling this need to be together just as much as I did.
I didn't want to let her go, but I knew she needed to breathe. I broke the kiss, and Bella panted against my lips as I nipped at her lips with mine.
Bella regained some composure as her panting slowed and she was able to support most of her weight on her own. "I should go inside, Edward…" She whispered against my lips.
"The house is dark. It doesn't look like anyone is home."
"Mom and Phil might be sleeping…"
I knew the trailer was empty. I still would have heard their thoughts and seen them dream if they were present but asleep, but there was nobody inside. Of course I didn't know how much time we had before they came home.
"Doesn't that kind of negate the possibility that they're waiting up for you to get home? Maybe we should go look."
"We?" Bella asked apprehensively as she turned away and slipped out of my arms. She wobbled a little unsteadily in her alcohol induced fog, and I wrapped an arm around her waist to help her up the steps onto the uneven surface of the little warped porch. Bella fumbled with her key to get the door unlocked.
My cell phone buzzed in my pocket while I waited and I fished it out to read the text message from Alice.
Phil got hotel room from sponsors. Gone all tonight. Note on the counter. Have fun. Be back before dawn.
It would have been nice to have known this earlier. I could have taken Bella back to my hotel room, but there was no way Alice could have brought it up before while we were all together. There was no logical reason why she would have known it, and Bella was too observant to let it slide. She would have balked at going to my hotel instead of home.
Bella opened the door and flipped on the light switch as she stepped through the door. I followed her inside before she had the opportunity to close it while I was outside. I closed the door behind us as we stepped into the middle of the tiny trailer.
I reached for her and pulled her back into my arms and quickly recaptured her lips with mine. She melted into the kiss, reacting like she always did, pulling her body against mine as her lips parted and my tongue slipped into her mouth.
My hand slipped lower, gripping her ass while my other hand tangled in her hair, pulling her mouth up to mine as I leaned into her.
Her body molded to mine as she moved against me, then suddenly she stiffened and tried to pull away. Bella broke the kiss and I let her take a half step back, keeping my steadying hands in place on her hips.
"Edward… We can't do this here… Phil and Renee might be in the other room! They could walk in any second." Bella whispered hesitantly, looking for an excuse to stop before things got out of hand.
"There's nobody home, Bella. We're all alone here." I spoke to her in my normal tone of voice.
If anyone had been home, I would have known it before we got inside. I didn't need Alice's text to let me know the place was empty, but it was nice to know we wouldn't be interrupted by them coming home unannounced.
"How do you know?"
"You know nobody's here. Go look if you want to."
"Ok…, but they might walk in any moment…"
I took a step closer to the counter and picked up the note, quickly scanning it and handing it to Bella.
Bella,
The Sponsors got us a room at the hotel where we're having drinks. See you in the morning.
Mom.
"Or they might have a hotel room for the night and we have the trailer all to ourselves." I pulled her back against me and nipped playfully at her lips when she'd read the note. "Why don't you show me your bedroom and we can get more comfortable?"
"My bedroom?" She asked, sounding a little anxious and self-conscious.
"That's where your bed is, right?" I asked as I slipped her jacket off her shoulders and slung it over the couch.
"Why do you want to see where I sleep?" She asked, trying to pull away from me. It was the same sort of reaction she'd had when Alice told her she was singing karaoke tonight. She just needed a little encouragement to get over her anxiousness and realize she wanted this too.
I pulled her back against me, wrapping my arms around her. "I don't want to see your bed. I want to see you on it"
"I don't know if that's such a good idea..."
"Do you want me to leave? You seem nervous... I'll go if I'm making you uncomfortable..."
"No... I don't want you to leave..."
"I need you, Bella. I need you to be a part of my life. I need to make you mine..."
"What if I'm not ready for that Edward..."
"You can tell me to walk away and leave you alone. If you're smart and want to live a long healthy life, you'll tell me to get the hell away from you." I knew that was impossible for me now, but I knew I had to give her ever opportunity to throw me out before I claimed her and made her mine. I had to at least offer her the choice to walk away, even if it would destroy me. She had to make her choice by telling me to stay or go. I was all I could offer.
"Ok… Let's say I'm not smart and I don't tell you to leave me alone. What will happen to me then?"
"Your life will change radically and completely. There will be things that I'm forced to do to you that you might not willingly accept. There will be things that you'll be forced to do that you'd probably say no to."
"I might say yes…"
"I know you'd refuse, Bella, but you won't have any choice at all if we're together."
"Ok… Now you're scaring me, Edward. What kinds of things? Will I have to break the law? Deal drugs? Rob banks? Kill people...?"
"I can't tell you. All that I can tell you about this is you have to tell me to leave if you don't want these things to happen. I can't tell you what they are, but they will happen if you don't tell me to leave."
"You know I can't do that."
"Then your choice is already made. I'll try not to lie to you, but I can't tell you everything either. It's better that you don't know until the time comes."
"You said there will be things that you're forced to do to me… Will you hurt me?"
"Yes… But it won't last for long."
"Ok."
"Ok? You're willing to accept that I'm going to have to hurt you? That I'm going to have to do things to you that you would refuse to allow if you knew what they were? That you will be forced to do things that would revolt and disgust you if you knew what they were? Why aren't you telling me to leave, Bella?"
"It's too late now, Edward. You know that. I'm in too deep already. You know I can't live without you."
"I'm sorry… I don't know what to say. I know that's true, but I'd let you go if either of us could leave now. You don't understand yet, but when you do, please remember I wish you'd had more of a choice. I wish I could tell you more, but I can't. Please don't hate me for what I have to do…"
"I could never hate you… I don't want a choice, Edward. I want you. I don't understand why I feel like this or how I could possibly have feelings so deep for you so soon, but I do. I want to be with you…
"Will you show me your room?"
"Ok..."
I leaned in and her heart was pounding in her chest again. I captured her lips in a kiss and she melted against me again as she lost herself in the embrace. She broke the kiss after a minute and took my hand. We walked down the hallway as she led me to her room.
There was a plastic accordion style folding door at the end of the short hallway. It had a magnetic latch to close it but no lock of any kind. It was more of a privacy screen than a real door. She swept it aside and we stepped into the tiny bedroom. There was a small window in the wall with no curtains but a set of cheap vinyl mini-blinds. The slats were adjusted open and allowed enough moonlight into the room for a human to see once their eyes adjusted.
There was no bed in the bedroom. A futon was rolled against the wall to give a sense of space in the room, but it would cover most of the floor space when it was laid out flat. There were a couple of folded light blankets and a pillow neatly piled on top of it.
The largest piece of furniture in the room was an ancient bookcase that looked like it had come from a second hand store or the goodwill, but it was well stocked with books. I noted several classic titles, most of the shelves were filled with dog eared paperbacks but there was a shelf of worn looking hardbacks. Bella appeared to be well read, which was an anomaly amongst most modern teenagers, at least as far as the classics went.
There was a cheap cardboard dresser with three drawers with plastic strap handles. The dresser drawers were hardly bulging with clothes and the bottom one may have even been empty. A straight backed wooden chair stood next to the dresser, and apparently the top of the dresser did double duty as a desk. There was a small lamp on top of the dresser and some pens, pencils and a couple of books.
There was no closet in the room, but a piece of wooden dowel was suspended from the ceiling from a couple of light chains, and a scant selection of clothing on hangers hung from it. There were a couple of light jackets and sweaters, a couple of dresses, some shirts and pants that were better off hung up than folded in drawers.
It had only taken me a second to survey the room once we stepped through the doorway. I closed the accordion door behind us. Bella turned to me pushing her hot hands against my chest as she stepped into my arms and kissed me again. I held her as we kissed and our tongues swirled together passionately.
I let her break the kiss, and set her on her feet as she pulled away. Her eyes were slightly glazed as she leaned on me limp in my arms, clearly dazzled by the kiss and my proximity in the close confines of her tiny bedroom.
I set her in the chair carefully so she wouldn't fall over and quickly unrolled her futon, spreading it out flat on the floor. The futon had a fitted sheet like cover on the top. I set the pillow at what was the head of the thin mattress against the wall but left the blankets folded on the side.
"Edward…, what are you doing…?" Bella asked from where she was sitting.
"Fixing your bed, I told you I wanted to see you on it."
"Why am I sitting down... I remember kissing you..."
"You were a little dazzled for a minute there. You seemed a little faint for a moment so I sat you in the chair while I rolled out your bed." I said as I took off my jacket and laid it on the floor at the foot of the futon.
"So you kissed me senseless and then sat me here while you fixed the bed? Why was I faint…?" Then Bella gasped as I took off my jacket. "Oh my god! I thought you were wearing a gun! What do you need that cannon for?" She asked, apparently staring at the gun in my shoulder holster rig.
"My work... Sometimes it's necessary to enforce the rules…"
"Can I see it?"
"That might not be a good idea… This is a dangerous weapon…"
"I've shot a gun before, Edward. My dad's a cop and a hunter. I might only see him on vacations, but he taught me how to handle a pistol safely once I was big enough to shoot one. He keeps guns in his house. I know how to not shoot myself and handle a firearm with proper respect."
"Ok…" I pulled the pistol out of the holster and checked the safety. I reversed the pistol and handed it to her butt first. "Be careful, it's loaded."
Bella reached up and flipped on the lamp so she could get a better look. "Jesus, what do you need a cannon like this for? Isn't a .38 gonna get the job done? How big is this?" Bella asked as she examined the big combat pistol in the dim light of the small lamp. She turned it in her small hands, and then confidently took the rubber grip in her hands in a pistol combat grip and pointed the pistol at the wall. I noted that she kept her finger off the trigger and kept it on the trigger guard as she sighted down the barrel.
"That's a Smith and Wesson .500 Magnum. It's the most powerful production handgun in the world right now. There are custom pistols that are more powerful, but they aren't production models." I said as I took off the shoulder rig and laid it on top of my jacket.
".500 Magnum? Holy Crow! What do you need this for?"
"Stopping power. Sometimes I have hard targets. I need to make sure they stay down."
"God, you could hunt buffalo or bear with something like this! You could blow somebody's head clean off with a cannon like this. Who'd be that much trouble that a smaller gun wouldn't stop them?" Bella asked as she studied the weapon
"A smaller gun wouldn't stop everyone I have to deal with. Some targets are harder to bring down than others."
"How many grains is a .500 caliber bullet?" she asked as she reversed the pistol and handed it back to me, butt first.
"It's a special load. It's special armor piercing ammo with a tungsten carbide penetrator in a silicone plastic sabot." I took the pistol and stuffed it back into the holster, setting it aside.
"Cop killers? That's illegal. It's a felony just to own that ammo, let alone walk around with it loaded in a concealed weapon..."
"I don't shoot cops, and I don't rob banks or convenience stores. I don't shoot anyone who isn't trying to kill me."
"Fine, you know what they say about men that like big guns…"
I moved over in front of where she was still sitting in the chair. I reached up and turned off the light. "No, tell me what they say…" Her eyes took on a slightly glazed look as I stared deeply into them and I leaned in and kissed her again, brushing my lips against hers briefly, and then trailed kisses along her jaw to kiss the hollow beneath her ear.
"Umm… What… Oh… Guys that like big guns are trying to compensate for a lack of size… someplace else…"
I reached for her hand, capturing her wrist and dragging it around to my front. I pushed her hand against the bulge in the front of my pants until I could feel her fingers exploring me through the fabric. Her hand didn't move away when I let go but closed around the shaft of my cock through the fabric.
"I don't think I'm compensating for anything, but I'll let you be the judge of that."
"Oh my god… It's hu… I need a minute, Edward." She pulled her hand away and she was breathing hard and fast as her heart pounded in her chest. I could taste a tinge of fear in her scent as she started to panic. I moved aside, and she bolted into the hall. I heard the bathroom door open and close as she fled from her room.
I knew she needed some time to adjust. I took the opportunity to pull off my boots and socks and stacked them next to my leather jacket.
Bella was calming down now that she had a moment alone to collect herself. I knew she was taking a human moment from the sounds in the bathroom. The toilet flushed and the water ran for a minute, but she didn't come back. I gave her another couple of minutes but when I didn't hear any movement in the bathroom, I decided to check on her.
I stepped next door down the hall and knocked on the thin hollow wooden door. "Bella, are you alright?"
"I'm fine. I just need a minute…"
"You've had a minute. Can I come in?"
"Edward! I'm in the bathroom!"
"I heard the toilet flush and the water run. I've seen you undressed before, Bella."
"Ok…, hold on, I'm coming out. There's hardly room in her for me, let alone both of us."
The door opened and Bella stepped back out into the hall. I leaned into her and kissed her forehead and a shiver ran through her body. Her heart rate picked up and started hammering in her chest again.
"Are you ok?" I asked.
"Yeah… I'm ok… I just started to get nervous… Sometimes I just feel like I lose control when I'm close to you… The world goes away and I lose myself in what I'm feeling…"
"Is that a bad thing? I can leave if you're scared…"
"No! Don't go…! I don't want you to leave… this is all just so fast… I've never felt like this before, Edward."
"I'll stay if that's what you want…" I took her hands in mine and reached up to stroke her cheek as she relaxed. "Just relax and go with it, Bella…"
I leaned in and captured her lips in a kiss. Her arms wrapped around my neck as her fingers knotted in my hair as she gave in to desire and lost herself in the kiss. My arms wrapped around her and I lifted her feet off the ground again as we returned to her bedroom. The futon was ready now, so I lowered her to the thin mattress and lay down beside her.
Bella's arms were stroking and caressing my shoulders and back. One arm snaked around my neck as her fingers played with the short hairs at the nape of my neck.
My hand moved to her hip, and my fingers found the hem of her top. I slipped my finger under her shirt as I traced patterns of electricity on her bare skin with my fingertips. My hand traced higher, sliding up her ribcage until I found the edge of her bra. My hand moved higher as I squeezed her breast through the fabric of her bra.
Bella moaned against my lips as I kneaded her tender mound, and then whimpered at the loss of contact as my hand moved off of her breast. I followed the band of lacy fabric around to her back as my fingertips searched for the clasp. It came undone with a deft pinch and twist as I found my goal and her bra popped open.
Bella was moaning against my lips as I hiked her shirt up over her stomach and onto her chest. I pushed the cups up off her breasts as the fabric pooled under her chin. I broke the kiss and Bella did a double take as I pulled her to a sitting position and she raised her arms for me as the fabric tugged higher. I pulled off her tank top and bra, tossing them to the side of the futon.
"Wha…? How…? When did we come back to my room…?" She mumbled slightly incoherently between the intoxicated alcohol induced fog and being dazzled by my presence and my kisses taking her breath away.
I leaned into her, planting small kisses on her forehead, cheeks and along her jawline as I captured her lips again. Her eyes hooded with lust and glazed again, as I mumbled against her lips, "Shh… It's ok… Just go with it…" She nodded as she reached down and grasped the hem of my shirt and fumbled to tug it up my body. I leaned back a little and pulled it off over my head and tossed it aside.
Bella's hot little hands caressed my stomach and chest as I pulled her back down onto the mattress next to me. She lay on her back as my hands moved on her body.
I captured her breast in my hand as I squeezed and kneaded her smooth firm flesh. I rolled her nipple between my thumb and forefinger as her areola crinkled and her pink nipple hardened into an erect pebble under my touch.
My hand stroked down her hip and then up the inside of her thigh as I cupped her sex through her leggings. She moaned against my neck as I stroked firmly between her legs, squeezing and running my fingers down the cleft in the front where I felt her pussy lips through the tight fabric.
I scooted down a little as my lips moved onto her breasts, licking and sucking as I worked over her chest. I capture the hard pebble of her nipple between my lips and sucked on it as I licked and flicked it with my tongue. Bella's hands knotted in my hair as she pulled my mouth against her harder while she moaned in ecstasy.
I reached down with my other hand and found the zipper on her skirt. The waistband was hiked up onto her stomach and I had to let go of her crotch to hold the fabric while I pulled down the zipper. I sat up on my knees as I grasped the waist band of her skirt and yanked it down to her hips. I took hold on either side and slid it out from under her ass and pulled it down her legs to toss it aside with the rest of our clothes.
Bella was still a little dazzled when I grasped the waistband of the leggings and started to peel them off of her. She was wearing a pair of thin cotton panties under them and I grabbed them too, and pulled them off at the same time, pushing them down to her ankles. I slipped the flats off her bare feet, and then pulled off the rest of her clothes, leaving her lying naked beside me.
I lay down beside her again as I resumed my ministration, only now with nothing between my hands and her hot little body. I reached between her legs, pushing my fingers between her pussy lips as I stroked her sex. I quickly found her clit and stroked it flipping it from side to side. My fingers dipped into her wetness, spreading her slippery juices as I stroked between her legs.
Bella's hands were knotted in my hair as she held onto me tightly. My tongue was in her mouth as I kissed her passionately. The peaks of her chest were grinding into me as we lay bare chest to bare chest.
She moaned into my mouth as I stroked between her legs, driving her passion. I needed more. I had to have her. I needed to claim her and make her mine. I quickly sat up on the mattress, breaking our kiss, coming to my knees. Bella was still a touch disoriented as I opened my belt and pants and pushed my jeans and boxer briefs down to my knees all at once. I rolled onto my back kicking off my pants, and now I was naked on the futon too.
"Edward…? What are you doing…?" Bella asked a bit incoherently as she looked around and reached out to touch me in the dark.
I rolled on top of her as I moved between her knees, pushing them apart as my knees settled onto the mattress between her thighs. Her splayed thighs cradled my hips as my erect cock pressed into her leg.
"I'm just getting more comfortable…" I leaned down and kissed her neck as her hands explored my body above her, reaching around to my back and shoulders as she embraced me.
Bella's hands traced down my back to where the waist band of my jeans would be and then moved lower onto my bare ass, as though searching for something and not finding it.
"Edward! You're not wearing any pants!" Bella exclaimed, almost panicking again.
"Neither are you. Is that a problem?"
"Y…you… ss… said… if I took your pants off… we'd have sex!" she stuttered almost incoherently.
"Ok…" I shifted a little, moving against her as I repositioned myself. My hard erect cock shifted sideways against her sex, slipping between her pussy lips. It was pressed flat against my stomach as the underside of the shaft sawed between her wet spread pussy lips, grinding against her clit.
"No! You know what I mean… This is moving way too fast…! I don't know… I've only known you for couple of days…! This is our second date!"
"Do you want me to leave?"
"No…"
"I want to make love to you…" I whispered against her ear.
"God, Edward… It's too soon... I want you… Do you have a condom?" She asked. I could hear the need in her voice, but she still sounded scared.
"No. I don't use them. I want to make love to you, not a piece of plastic." I understood why she was scared, but having a barrier between us when I claimed her would prevent the bond from sealing. We needed the intimate contact to make the union permanent, and the exchange of bodily fluids would cement the connection between us, joining us body and soul forever.
"What if I get pregnant?"
"You won't…" I didn't want to explain why she couldn't yet.
It had never happened in thousands of years. I wasn't the only vampire that had sex with human girls. Of course most of them ended up as dessert after the sex or ended up getting turned if they were among the lucky few. That had to cut into the odds, but I'd never heard of a human girl getting pregnant from a vampire. The incubus myth was exactly that, a myth.
"I might live in a trailer park, but I don't want to end up as some white trash bimbo who's too stupid to keep my legs closed..."
"You won't get pregnant..."
"Famous last words…" Bella intoned nervously.
"Can I kiss you?" I asked, cutting off her argument. I knew she wanted this just as much as I did. I just needed her to accept that and nature would handle the rest.
"Yes…" She was a little tentative and lacked conviction, but she gave in and accepted my lack of pants as my body above hers and pressed her ass solidly into the thin mattress.
I leaned down and pressed my chest to hers. I captured her lips again as her body molded to mine, drawing me against her. Her hands knotted into my hair as my tongue pushed into her mouth, swirling against hers.
My cock sawed between her legs as we moved, rubbing against her clit as we writhed together making out on the futon in her bedroom. Bella was unconsciously rocking her hips as she humped against the underside of my cock, grinding her clit against me.
I broke the kiss as I trailed wet kisses along her jaw and down the column of her neck. Bella panted against my shoulder as I kissed along her collar bone.
My hand was on her breast, kneading her soft tender flesh and tweaking her pebbled nipple as I kissed back up to her ear. "Let me touch you…" I whispered against the shell of her ear. We'd been that far before and she liked it. There was nothing wrong with letting that happen again.
"Yes…" Bella moaned against my neck. Her hands were back in my hair as she dragged my lips back up to hers. She kissed me, sucking my bottom lip between hers, and then pushing her tongue into my mouth, kissing me as deeply as she could.
I raised my hips to give me some more room to play and she sighed with relief as my cock slipped out from between the lips of her sex. I knew she was expecting my hand and fingers to stroke and caress her as I had before. I felt her gasp against my lips when I grasped my hard cock with my hand and stroked the fleshy head between her pussy lips.
I circled her clit and ground the head of my cock against the sensitive bundle of nerves, flipping it from side to side with my cock head.
Bella gasped again and tried to push me off when I slipped the head lower and rubbed it against her opening. I'd had my finger in there before when I was touching her. She had to be nervous I'd try it again with my cock, and take her acceptance of me touching her as tacit approval to use my cock on her like I had my fingers.
She broke the kiss, gasping for air as I relented and moved back up to stroking her clit with my erection.
"Edward…" Bella whined. "You are so bad… I'm not ready for that yet…"
"Tell me to stop… Tell me to leave if you don't want it too..." I breathed against her ear as I ground my cock into her most sensitive spot.
"No… I need you so much..." She moaned as she writhed beneath me, bucking her hips against me as I stroked her. "God... That feels so good..."
"Tell me to make love to you…" I breathed against her ear as the head of my cock ground into her clit.
"Edward… Not yet… We can't go all the way…"
"Tell me to fuck you, Bella… Tell me to pound you until your eyes roll back in your head and you cum and cum in ecstasy…" I stroked up and down her slit, brushing her opening, and then moving back to grind against her clit.
"You are so bad… I so want to… but it's wrong… it's too fast… too soon…"
"Say yes, Bella."
"I can't… I promised Renee… I'm not that kind of girl, Edward…"
I moved over her, resting my forehead against hers. I gazed deeply into her eyes as I peered into the depths of her soul.
"Tell me what you really want. Don't worry about consequences. What does your heart tell you?"
I moved my cock back between her legs, the head lodged against her sex. I slipped between her inner lips as the head of my cock pressed against her hymen. All I had to do was push forward and I would rip through her final barrier to sink inside her throbbing pussy.
"I want you… We need to wait…"
"Tell me what you want, Bella."
"Oh god Edward... I want you so much but we can't..."
"Then tell me to stop... I know you want this too..."
"God Edward... This is so hard... I promised Renee..."
"Renee isn't in bed with us, Bella. This is about you and me..."
"I know... but I promised..."
"Tell me yes, Bella… I have to have you… Just say yes…" I reached down between her legs and found her clit, stroking it with my fingers as I spoke.
"Oh god…" She moaned as I stroked her clit and her eyes closed as the waves of pleasure hit her.
"I know you want me... I want you, Bella... I need you so much..."
"I shouldn't... I promised Renee... this wasn't supposed to happen yet..." She panted as she quivered under my touch.
"Then tell me to leave and I'll go... Tell me to stop touching you if you don't want this too... Kick me out of your bed and I'll stop..."
"Oh my god… I need you so much..." She moaned as I stroked her clit. "Ok... Just do it, Edward..."
I didn't wait for her to change her mind. I rocked my hips forward and felt her hymen tear as the head of my cock tore through the thin membrane and popped inside. There was the sharp scent of fresh blood, but I wasn't a raw newborn and it didn't distract me from the immediate task at hand. I slid in as deeply as I could before she gasped in shock and her muscles clenched hard around me from the sudden sharp pain.
The sudden realization of what we were doing hit her. "Oh my god! Wait! Stop…! Pull it out! Right now…! Edward, we can't...!"
"We already are... Relax, Bella… Breathe… The worst is over. You've got to relax your muscles. Take deep breaths. It gets better."
She nodded with her lower lip pinched between her teeth, but there were tears in her eyes. She took several deep breaths and slowly her legs relaxed. I felt her death grip on my cock relax and she tentatively bucked her hips a little to test how she felt.
She unclenched, accepting what was happening as she glared up at me. I let my hips settle against her, pushing the rest of the way in.
"God…! I can't believe… you really did it!"
"You told me to… You said ok... I couldn't wait any longer…"
"Don't cum in me… You've got to pull out before you cum…"
I reached down and pushed her knees back a little to improve the angle as I slid part way out.
"It's not sex if I don't cum…" I said as I drove back in, burying my cock inside her.
"Unhh… Edward…! I don't want to get pregnant…"
"Just relax and enjoy this, Bella… You'll like this…" I said as I rested my weight on my elbows, pressing her body into the thin mattress.
"Oh my god… Ok…" Bella moaned as I thrust in deep again.
My hips started to rise and fall slowly as I drove into her, burying my solid cock deep inside her with every stroke. I could feel every inch sink inside as I thrust into her moist inferno. She was incredibly tight and intensely hot, but slippery wet with arousal as I plunged my cock into her. I could feel the head of my cock connect with her cervix as I hit bottom with every stroke.
Bella moaned as I made love to her and grunted every time I hit bottom and touched her deep inside. The head of my cock stroked deep on every thrust, causing her to gasp as I pushed into her.
I could tell she was enjoying the physical sensation now but there were still tears in her eyes as she moved with me. They streamed down her cheeks even as her hips bucked against me as she met every stroke. I pistoned into her, driving deep as I picked up the pace and pounded into her hard and fast like I'd promised.
The shaft of my cock sawed at her clit, keeping up the friction and pressure, stroking her most intimately sensitive spot as my erection fucked in and out of her hot wet pussy.
She had to be close to her peak and the new incredible sensations pulsing through her body were driving her closer and closer to the edge. Energy pulsed between us throbbing out of my body into hers and back again. The pulsing current racing between us was a thousand times stronger than what we had felt in the parking lot outside the bar.
The throbbing electricity let me feel the connection growing between us. The connection between Bella's soul and mine felt like steel cables as thick as my wrist, joining us together at every point of physical contact. I felt like I couldn't have moved away from her to leave now if my very existence depended on it. It felt like the earth stood still, and everything else in the universe was insignificant and fleeting except for the one being that mattered to me and she was writhing in ecstasy under me, staring into my eyes as I claimed her and made her mine, forging the connection that would join her soul to mine for all eternity.
I knew she couldn't last much longer. Not every girl had an orgasm the first time she had sex, but that had a lot to do with her partner and how much experience he had. I had a lot of experience, and I could hold back until I drove Bella to the brink of ecstasy and made her cum.
Experience told me she was on the edge of the precipice, and it was only a matter of time before she reached her climax.
Bella was moaning on every thrust now, getting into it despite her reluctance to getting started as she accepted the inevitable, and then she called out my name.
"Edward, god… Harder…! Fuck me harder…"
I pounded into her, picking up the pace as I fucked her hard and fast, driving deep on every stroke.
"God…! I'm almost there… Oh god…! Edward! I'm going to cum…
Her pussy contracted around my cock as I thrust deeply into her. She gripped my shoulders as every muscle in her body seemed to contract. The spasm of ecstasy pulsed through her body as she came undone and her eyes rolled back in her head. I felt her toes curl against my legs as she plunged over the edge into her orgasm and waves of bliss pulsed through her. Her tight pussy clenched around my cock, squeezing even tighter as it throbbed around me with her release.
Bella's orgasm triggered my own. I felt the delicious tickle in the base of my cock and balls signaling my imminent release as she clenched around me. I thrust deep, burying my cock to the hilt, the head of my cock lodged against her cervix, and then my own orgasm flashed through my body. My cock pulsed inside her spurting again and again, shooting my release into her body. My cum spewed deep inside her, filling her with my seed, forging the irrevocable bond between us, as I clenched my eyes shut and panted above her.
I enjoyed the incredibly pleasurable feeling of my cock buried deep inside her tight wet heat, and I rested there inside her for a minute, supporting my weight enough so I wouldn't crush her, but pushing her firmly into the thin mattress beneath us. I waited until her clenching pussy relaxed and her breath was less ragged, and then I rolled off of her to the side.
I gathered her against my chest and stroked up and down her spine as I held her. I reached over and grabbed one of the blankets, shaking it out to cover us while we snuggled together on her futon.
Bella buried her face against my chest, and wouldn't look up at me. She was still crying and I felt her hot tears on my chest as she shook and sobbed.
"Are you alright, Bella? What's the matter?"
"I don't want to talk about it right now…"
She tried to push me away to turn away from me, but I wouldn't let her and held her against my chest, stroking her hair.
"I want to talk about it now. Did I hurt you? Are you ok?"
She started slapping at my chest, fighting me and pushing me away until I let her go. She didn't go far, putting some space between us, rolling away from me to face her dresser as she curled around her middle into a tight ball. I pulled the blanket over her to cover her as she quietly sobbed.
"Bella, please talk to me… I can't fix it if I don't know what's wrong…"
"God, Edward! You can be such a guy sometimes! Of course I'm hurt. I just had sex for the first time with you! I was a virgin. And no, I'm not ok."
I sat up leaning back against the wall beside her but let her keep her distance. I reached for my jacket and fished out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. I saw her peeking at me over her shoulder. "Do you mind?" I asked, holding up the pack. I could detect the faint scent of cigarette smoke in the room, but I wasn't sure how old it was.
She gave a resigned sigh and sat up beside me against the wall, pulling the blanket up to her chest to cover herself. She tried to keep her distance from me, but there wasn't a lot of room to make that possible.
"Sure, why not. Let me have one, too." Bella reached over behind the cardboard dresser and pulled out a small wooden box. There was a variety of paraphernalia inside, but she took out a small glass ashtray and set it on the blanket between us. I tapped a cigarette out of the pack and she accepted it from me. I took one out and placed it between my lips. She leaned towards me as I offered her a light, and then lit my own cigarette.
I took a drag on the cigarette and blew out a stream of smoke as I collected my thoughts. "I'm well aware of that fact, that losing your virginity might cause you some minor injury. I'm sorry about that, but it's the way of the world. Every girl has to experience that at some point in her life. There might be some minor bleeding, but it should pass quickly. You might be sore for a day or two, but it's nothing to worry about… What else am I missing?"
"I told you no, Edward, and you did it anyways! I told you I wasn't ready for this… I wanted to wait…"
"I distinctly heard you say you wanted it. You said you needed me, and then you told me to do it."
"Well duh! You ignored me all the times I said no. I told you yes because you were frigging my clit! It's a little hard to think straight with my boyfriends cock jammed between my legs and his hand stroking my pussy! All you wanted to hear was yes. You weren't going to stop until you heard me say it was alright, and idiot that I am, I gave in. You weren't going to take no for an answer. You were going to do it whether I said yes or not."
"I may have pressured you into saying yes. I'm sorry, but you know deep down that you wanted this too. I asked you if you wanted me to leave and you told me to stay."
"I want to spend time with you. I didn't want you to leave... I still don't want you to leave... I just wanted to wait, Edward. We didn't have to have sex to be together..."
"You enjoyed it. I felt you cum. I could feel you clenching around my cock and you can't fake that. At least not without a lot more experience than you've got."
"God, Edward! That so doesn't matter! Of course I was going to enjoy it! It's sex! It's supposed to feel good. That's so not the point! I'm pissed off that I told you no and you kept pestering me until I gave in and said yes. I'm mad at myself for caving in and telling you yes when I meant no! "
"You wanted it as much as I did..."
"Yeah, I did. So what does that say about me as a person? Now I really am some white trash trailer park ho who can't keep her legs closed. I just fucked the first guy I've ever even kissed on our second date, Edward! Not feeling real good about myself here right now..."
"I will not allow you or anyone else to talk about you like that, Bella. What we share is special..."
"Yeah, sure... Special... You know, this wasn't exactly the best time for me to give in and say yes, Edward. You didn't use a condom, and I keep close track of my cycle. If I was gonna try to get pregnant, now would be the time."
"You aren't going to get pregnant, Bella."
"Why, did you have a vasectomy or something?"
"No…"
"I know you're not impotent. I could feel you shooting your cum inside me. I can still feel it between my legs. Have you been tested? Do you have a low sperm count?"
"No, I haven't been tested, but I've been with a lot of girls. Some of them for a long time while we were together, long enough for them to get pregnant if it were possible. There are no little Edwards running around. I can assure you with every confidence that you are not going to get pregnant having sex with me."
"Gee, thanks. That's such a confidence booster, Edward. I don't have to worry about getting knocked up because none of the multitude of girls you've slept with before ever got pregnant from having sex with you. Ami I just another notch on your bedpost? Have you at least been tested for STDs, or should I worry about waking up with some strange rash?"
"There is no need to be concerned on that front. I'm clean, and I don't have any communicable diseases."
"I guess I'll have to take your word for it for now. I told you not to cum in me. Why couldn't you use a condom?"
"Sex is about exchanging fluids, not shooting off into a piece of plastic. That's just mutual masturbation with a cheap sex toy in between us. I wanted to make love to you, not a condom. I wanted to feel you around me, Bella. Your body and mine together, the way they were meant to be by nature."
"Well, done is done. You can't take it back now. Why couldn't you take no for an answer, Edward? I really like you, but how am I supposed to trust you now?"
"Trust yourself, Bella. I'm sorry I pushed you into having sex with me so soon, but if you stop to really examine your feelings, you know you wanted it just as much as I did. It was a step we had to take in our relationship."
"We could have waited, Edward… I like you, but I could have used more time."
"We don't have a lot of time, Bella. I couldn't stop anymore than you could. This was going to happen tonight. You knew it was. I think that's why you were so nervous when we got here. I know you can feel what's happening to us. I can feel it and I know you can too. It hurts when we're apart…"
"I feel it too, but why do we have to rush so fast, Edward? Can't we take our time and let this develop naturally?"
"We are. This is how fast these things happen."
"Excuse me, but I've seen people in relationships before, and they don't go anywhere near this fast. This isn't normal, Edward. My god, we had oral sex on our first date, and we just had sex on our second date! I've known you for all of two days, and I just gave up my cherry to you! Is this normal for you? How long can this last? Will I even see you again after tonight, or have you finally gotten everything that you wanted from me? How do I know you aren't going to just dump me and move onto your next conquest now?"
"It's normal for what's happening to us, Bella. I can't explain everything now, but trust me, this is normal for us. Of course you'll see me again. I'm not going to let you get away. I want much more than to just have sex with you once."
"This is all so new to me. I've never felt like this before… This is all happening so fast… I feel like my life is suddenly so out of control and I'm rushing into this head long."
"Just let go and let it happen, Bella. It's meant to be."
"I can't just let go… That's not who I am. I always analyze everything form every angle. I think about every decision. This is all so sudden and new... I need to slow down, Edward…"
"You don't have time to think when you're racing your dirt bike. You just react and let yourself go with the flow. You act on instinct... Trust your instincts. Trust what your body is telling you."
"This isn't a race... This about feelings... I'm not good at feelings... This is all so new to me..."
"Tell me to leave and I'll go."
"No! You can't leave me…"
"Tell me you don't want me and I'll walk away."
"No! I need you…"
"Tell me how much time you need and I'll come back when you're ready…"
"I don't need time away from you… I think I'm starting to understand what you meant. All I can think of is how much I need you now… I don't want to waste any time…"
"Come here…" I picked up the ashtray and set in on the wood floor next to the futon. I held out my arm, and Bella scooted next to me, snuggling into my side as I wrapped my arm around her shoulder.
She took a drag off her cigarette and sighed as she blew out the smoke. She reached across my body and flicked her ashes in the ashtray, and rested contentedly against me.
"This is nice. Renee is going to kill me for smoking in the house, but I don't care anymore. It's not like we'll be living here for long now."
She wasn't crying anymore now and seemed resigned to the changed state of our relationship.
"I'm glad you're feeling better about this."
"I'm not feeling better about it, Edward, but there isn't anything I can do to change what's already happened. I've just got to live with it now. I did want it just as much as you did, but I told my mother I wasn't going to let this happen. I don't like breaking my word, or making promises I can't keep. If this is going to work, I need to know I can trust you and you aren't going to force me to do things I don't want to do."
"That would be a promise I can't keep, Bella."
"Why?"
"There are things you don't know about me yet, things I can't tell you."
"Ok… Why can't you tell me?"
"Because you wouldn't have any choices at all if I told you everything about me."
"What choices do I have? You seem to take whatever you want… I haven't made very many choices at all since I met you."
"You had the choice to tell me to leave before we got this far, but that ship has sailed. You told me to stay. Now you're mine, and I'm yours. I rather like that, but I'm sorry I hurt you."
"So you're mine now? For how long?"
"Forever, Bella..."
"You said you wouldn't lie to me..."
"I haven't lied to you yet..."
"Forever is a lie..."
"Not to me."
"You're mine?"
"Yes..."
"Then show me..."
I took the cigarette butt from between her fingertips and dropped it in the ashtray with mine. I turned to her, and my lips ground against hers. Bella's tongue traced across my bottom lip, begging for entry and I parted my lips. Her tongue pushed into my mouth, swirling slick and sweet and velvety around my tongue as our kisses grew more desperate and passionate.
We moved as one to lie back down on the futon as we writhed together, touching and caressing as we made out. My body was covering Bella's as I moved on top of her. Her knees spread apart as her thighs splayed open to accept my body as I moved between them.
Bella moaned and wrapped her legs around my waist as my hardening cock ground against her. We were joined together in every way possible except one.
I didn't need to ask for permission as she reached between us and pressed the tip of my erection against her opening. Bella thrust her hips against me as I pushed into her.
She groaned as my cock sank into her in one long smooth stroke and I buried my length inside her to the hilt as our hips pushed together and my pubic bone ground into her clit.
Our love making was frantic and urgent as I felt the need to claim her and make her mine all over again. Bella clung to me desperately, as though she thought she was going to lose me and wanted to take all of me into her body to keep me close.
I hammered into her hard and fast as the urgency to complete overwhelmed me. She was incredibly tight and wet and almost burning hot as I thrust into her again and again, driving deep into her most intimate depths and then rocking back, only to slam into her again.
There were no words or need to speak as the sound of our bodies slapping together mingled with my grunts and her moans.
Bella gripped me tighter, grinding against me as she thrust her hips against mine. I knew she was on the edge and only a little more would drive her to ecstasy.
I thrust into her once, twice, again, grinding into her at the end of each stroke, and then I felt her come undone as her already tight pussy started to clench and spasm around my cock buried to hilt inside her. She clutched at my shoulders frantically and squeezed her legs tighter around me as her muscles contracted. She whimpered and groaned as the orgasm pulsed through her and she was engulfed in waves of pleasure.
Her throbbing pussy drove me over the edge as I felt her reach her peak. I exploded into her as my legs locked, clenching tight, driving my cock deep. I grunted as my cock pulsed deep inside of her, spurting again and again as my seed spewed into her, filling her most intimate depths with my essence.
We clung to each other, riding out our orgasms. I felt Bella's frantic grip on me relax and her breathing became more regular. I rolled off of her to the side, panting to recover. Bella rolled onto her side, sighing contentedly. After a minute I leaned over to kiss her cheek, but her eyes were closed and her breathing was regular and rhythmic. Her heart rate slowed, and I knew she had fallen into a deep sleep.
Her hair was matted against her forehead, sticking to the sweat that formed a light sheen all over her body. I reached over and tucked her hair behind her ear and lightly kissed her forehead. I slipped out of the cover, and pulled the light blanket up over her, tucking it around her body.
I heard my cell phone vibrate in my pocket in the pile of clothes next to the futon. I reached across and dug it out to answer the call. Only one person would be calling me now, and I flipped the phone open to answer it.
"Hello, Alice," I said quietly so I wouldn't disturb Bella's sleep.
Alice giggled over the phone. "Jeez, Edward, she's just a little girl you pushy bastard," She laughed."Think you wore her out much? She's gonna walk funny for a week!" Alice chuckled again.
"She seemed to enjoy it. She's not a little girl anymore, Alice, she's a woman now. You were the one who told me to make sure my mate wasn't a virgin before I turned her."
"Well, I didn't tell you to force her. Waiting for a couple of days until she was ready to accept the idea wouldn't have hurt anything, Edward. You know this could practically count as a date rape if she wasn't ok with it? Do you realize how close you came to scaring her off? Having to kidnap her and carry her off against her will isn't going to help anything."
"She's going to figure out the truth about us pretty soon. I couldn't leave our future up to chance. I gave her every opportunity to tell me to leave, Alice. I gave her as much choice as I could without revealing the secret to her. She made her choice…"
"In another couple of days, she would have been tearing your clothes off, Edward."
"If you'd wanted me to wait, you could have told me that before now. She's alright with it now. Besides, she's in the middle of her cycle. If I waited much longer she'd be on her period and then I would have had to wait even longer. I was ready to claim her last night. She feels the bond too. I knew she'd be ok with it once it was an fait accompli."
"Well, don't let Rose find out, or she'll kick your ass."
"I don't discuss my sex life with Rose anymore, Alice. She won't hear it from me, and I don't think Bella and Rose are that close yet, to share intimate secrets."
"Fine, well don't say I didn't warn you…"
"Once the bond was sealed, she got over it in a hurry. Bella's accepted the change in our relationship. I told her she should leave me, but she can't. She feels everything I do now."
"If you wanted her to have a real choice, you would have warned her before you fucked her. You knew having sex with her would forge the bond between you to the point where she couldn't possibly give you up."
"I did. She asked me if she was safe with me, and I told her no. I told her to runaway while she still had a chance. She said she'd take her chances. I told her as much as I could without telling her about us."
"She didn't believe you, Edward. She's too in love with you to tell you to leave. That's how these things work"
"Then I don't see what you're complaining about. I gave her every chance to run, but you're right, I couldn't take a chance on her walking away… I can't live without her, Alice."
"I know. I've been through this myself, Edward. I understand. You need to leave now so you can get back to the motel before sunrise. She's going to be hung-over and upset with you when she wakes up in the morning. She'll spend the day with her friend, Rachel. Phil and Renee won't get home until this afternoon."
I sighed. "I suppose you're right. I don't want to leave, but I can't stay here through the day."
"Yeah, that too. It wouldn't be a good idea for Bella's mother to catch you in her bed either."
"Is her mother going to be a problem? She seems rather selfish, but that should work to my advantage."
"She hasn't decided yet. I have a feeling she'll go along with whatever Bella wants as long as it's what she wants too, but I haven't seen anything conclusive yet."
"Ok. That doesn't help much, but I'm not really worried about what she wants."
"You never worry about what other people want. That will change with Bella. Now get dressed and get out of there before the sun comes up. I'll see you tonight, Edward."
The call ended abruptly as Alice hung up. I closed the phone and followed her advice. I collected my clothes and got dressed.
I emptied the ashtray in the toilet and flushed it, and then I returned it to Bella's stash box. I was intrigued by some of the contents. There were rolling papers, a couple of cheap disposable lighters, a small pipe with what was obviously marijuana residue in the bowl, and a couple of roach clips. There were no concealed illegal drugs anywhere in the room, but every sign that she was at least familiar with them and had probably used them in the past. This was something we would have to explore in more detail as our relationship developed.
Leaving just seemed wrong to me, but I knew I had to go. I didn't want to just disappear and have her think I'd simply gotten up and left after I'd taken from her what I wanted. I found a notepad and pen to at least leave her a note.
Bella,
You were sleeping, and you looked so peaceful, I didn't have the heart to wake you to say goodbye.
Call me this evening. I'll see you at the fair if you're there, or I'll pick you up at home.
Until tonight,
Edward
I folded the note and left it on the pillow next to her head. I leaned down and kissed her cheek and she smiled in her sleep.
Leaving her there sleeping alone in her tiny bedroom in her trailer was perhaps the hardest thing I had ever done, but I walked away and locked the door behind myself. I got on my Harley and rode away. I returned to the motel and showered before retiring to my bed alone.
For the first time I prayed for the night to end and oblivion to take me. I wanted the day to pass so I could return to Bella. She was my life now and my existence meant nothing to me unless I was sharing it with her. I gave a sigh of relief when I felt the familiar lethargy spread through me, signaling the rising of the sun. It meant the day would pass unnoticed by me, and then we could be together again.
Author's note:
Hopefully this chapter didn't offend anyone too terribly much. It's been through so many different permutations and rewrites with chunks swapped around to different sections. I hope it set the right tone of reluctance due the speed this relationship is developing versus an essentially consensual meeting of minds because it was what both of then wanted.
I've also posted chapter 11 of More Than Human. I promise, it's not as dark as the last chapter if you're curious. I'll keep posting both stories as long as I'm chapters ahead.
Reviews are always appreciated. I'd love to hear what you think.