Chapter 26:
Bonnie had made up her mind and not matter what she said she was not going to let anyone change her mind.
"Please don't do this." Elena begged barging into her room later that night.
Bonnie shook her head before turning away.
"I have too." Bonnie replied.
Klaus had to die and this was the only way, she wished she could understand.
"Will find another way." Elena begged.
Bonnie turned to face her friend tear strolled down her face. Bonnie walked over to Elena and gently whipped the tears from her face.
"There is no other way." she whispered before hugging Elena hoping to put an end to a conversation that neither one would be satisfied with the answers.
Elena pulled back and looked at Bonnie.
"You're my best friend and I love you." Bonnie told her.
Elena hugged her again.
"I love you too Bon." She whispered.
Elena shook with sobs and Bonnie held on to her feeling numb.
This was their private goodbye.
Bonnie squeezed her friend one final time before she pulled away and left the room without looking back.
Her moments with Elena had made up her mind. If she going to die she wanted to say her goodbye so when the time came she hoped it wouldn't hurt so much. Part of her knew she was lying to herself.
"Hey Bonnie." Tyler said when she entered the living room.
Tyler looked her pained, they had known each other for years and unlike Elena and Caroline, Bonnie new he wouldn't argue with her about her choices.
Bonnie sat down next to him placing her head on his shoulder.
"You really going to do this?" he asked.
There was no judgment in his voice, no worry, no anger. Tyler just sounded sad.
Bonnie nodded and looked at him a sad smile on her face, his face mirrored his own.
"So this is goodbye right?" he asked sadly.
His eyes glazed up as she nodded.
Tyler surprised her by pulling her into a hug.
"If I knew it would make a difference I would beg you not to do this." He whispered as he pulled away from her.
Bonnie smiled at him sadly before getting up. She swallowed hard, talking to Tyler was making this harder than she expected.
She found Caroline in the kitchen.
"I know what you're trying to do." Caroline said as she entered the room.
"You're trying to say goodbye and I won't let you." Caroline added.
Caroline ran from the room.
"If you can't say goodbye you can't leave." She cried as she left.
Bonnie shook her head and smiled sadly. It was just like Caroline.
Bonnie walked up to Stefan's door; she could hear Elena crying and Stefan's cool voice trying to calm her.
"Come in," his voice called as she knocked lightly.
"Can we talk?" Bonnie replied.
She didn't think she could face Elena again without crying. A few moments later she heard his feet move to the door.
"Shall we take a walk?" he suggested and Bonnie nodded.
They walked around the house knowing going too far could be dangerous for both of them.
"You have been saying goodbye, is that what this is?" Stefan asked.
Bonnie looked over at him, his face set in his worried frown as she nodded.
"There is something else I wanted to talk to you about." Bonnie replied honestly.
When she had decided to say goodbye she wanted to talk to Stefan last mainly so she could talk to him about Damon.
"Damon?" he asked and Bonnie nodded.
He laughed lightly.
"What?" Bonnie asked smiling.
Stefan shook his head.
"I never saw you and Damon together, and then when it happened it seemed so right." He told.
Bonnie felt her cheeks flush.
"If you told me a year ago I would feel like this for Damon, I would have laughed but now…" Bonnie said waving her hand indicating she was unsure.
Stefan smiled at her.
"You love him?" he asked.
Bonnie felt the tears in her eyes then. All day she had felt so numb but Stefan's simple question was so painful.
"Yes," she whispered.
Stefan gave her a light hug as she cried.
"Please look after him." She begged as she pulled away.
"He pretends he doesn't care about anyone but he does more than most, please don't let him push you away." She added the tears falling faster.
Stefan was with his brother they had lived together for over a hundred years, he knew all this but still he let her list the things she knew about Damon.
"I promise." Stefan told her.
Bonnie nodded.
"I'm going to miss you." She whispered and Stefan smiled.
"I wish you wouldn't do this." He replied and Bonnie shook her head tired of repeating herself.
"I have too." She said.
She knew he was trying to understand why she had to do this.
"I'm going to miss you too." He whispered as she turned to walk back to the house.
There were three things she had left to do. She returned to her room to write a letter for Caroline.
Care, I'm so sorry I had to say goodbye like this. But I had to say goodbye. We have been friends for years. Always therefore each other and I am so glad I got to know you. I'm glad I got to have you as a friend. Having you as a friend always brightened my life and it always will.
I know you don't understand why I have to do this, but I do. Leaving you all behind is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I love you Care bear.
Please forgive me,
Love Bonnie.
Bonnie took Caroline's letter and putting it outside Caroline's room.
With a second letter in her hand Bonnie headed to the say goodbye to the one person in the world it was truly killing to leave behind.
Damon knew his little witch was saying goodbye, he had heard each and every heartfelt moment and it felt like a knife in his chest every time she whispered,
"I have to do this."
Matthew told him he could save her but it still didn't mean listening to her goodbyes any easier.
When he heard her knocked on his door he wanted to turn away and pretend he didn't hear it, but wanted to see her, he needed to see her.
"Come in," he called his voice rough.
He watched as his little witch entered his room. She looked over at him her face determined.
"I don't want to argue with you." She whispered.
"Then what do you want?" Damon sighed.
She took a step nearer to him as he sat on the edge of his bed.
"Just to be with you." She replied almost begging.
Damon wanted to argue, push her way until she forgot about her stupid idea. But the sad look on her face was killing him.
She was inches away from. Damon reached out and gently pulled her over to him. She sat down slowly on his lap. Damon gently cupped her chin and turned her to face him.
Her kissed surprised him but he immediately kissed her back. The kissed started off slow but passion soon took over. He pulled her own to his bed and she climb on top of him straddling his hips. She bent down kissing him, he put his hand on the back of her head and pulled her closer. While his other hand ran up and down her back. He felt her shiver in delight. She slowly undid the buttons to his shirt. He stopped her hand when she got to the last button.
"Are you sure about this?" he asked and she nodded.
Part of him knew she was doing this to say goodbye, but she wanted him and he wanted her.
Damon ran his hands up and down her sides as he pulled her shirt over her head. He kissed her stomach as she ran her fingers through his hair. He unclasped her bar and her boobs fell loose. Damon took a deep breath and looked at her.
"What?" she asked self-consciously.
"Your beautiful." He told her bring her mouth to his to kiss once again.
She undid the button of his jeans and pulled the zipper down. That movement alone was exciting him. He shifted her quickly to remove his jeans while he watched he do the same. Everything seemed to bet taking too long. When they were both completely naked Damon pushed her back down on the bed he kissed her again before gently reaching up and cupping her boobs. She moaned in delight as she he gently began to massage them. He pressed his body closers to hers so she could feel how much he wanted her.
Damon groaned as she moved her hips against him. Damon's restraint snapped and he pushed himself into her. She squeals in delight as he pushed himself further into her. With each movement she met him perfectly. She was perfect. This moment was perfect. Being with his little witch felt so right.
When Damon woke up the next morning she was gone and in her place was an envelope his name perfectly written on the front. He pulled the paper out from inside.
Damon,
You don't know how many times I wrote and rewrote this letter. I wanted to say goodbye to your face but I know you wouldn't want to hear it.
I want you to know how much you mean to me. I think back to how we were a year ago and I almost can't believe how much it's changed between us and it has in a good way. I sometimes miss our arguments but then you pull me into your arms or kiss me and there is nothing in the world that feels as good as that.
I want you to know that falling in love with you has been the greatest and best experience of my life.
I love you Damon.
It's crazy and doesn't make sense but somewhere along the line I fell in love with you.
I hope one day you find happiness and not just that fake smile you make yourself wear when you think Stefan's worrying about you. Real happiness, the happiness that I have felt every moment I have spent with you.
I love you.
Forever and always your little witch,
Bonnie.
Damon got up from his bed faster than he had ever moved in his life he ran to her room not caring that he was till naked. He opened her door and found the room empty.
"Bonnie," he shouted after he changed back into his clothes.
When he got downstairs, everyone but Bonnie and Anastasia was waiting there.
"Where is she?" he asked.
Barbie looked up from a letter she was reading tears fell from her eyes.
"She's gone." She cried.
Damon looked at Matthew he was reeling with anger.
"I thought you said we can save her." Damon shouted shoving Matthew against the wall.
Matthew was strong enough to push him away but he didn't.
"Bonnie still has to do the spell, with just one difference." Matthew replied.
Damon drop Matthew and stepped away.
"Let's do this." Matthew said and Damon nodded.
Damon followed Matthew from the house not caring whether the others followed. He was in love with Bonnie Bennett and now that he knew she loved him too there was nothing he wouldn't do to keep them together.