When we met
This is more of a filler chapter and I really don't like it much but it will have to do. I will keep writing it, you could say it was my New Years resolution.
"I am sorry for your loss", I hate those fucking words, they keep saying them over and over, but they're meaningless, sure they're sorry for me, most of them don't care. And the typical question "Are you okay?" I'm crying, I just lost my dad, how the fuck do you think I am? I am so tired of people, of the way the all look at me, their eyes full of pity, I want to go into the house but mom is going to demand for me to come out again the second the realizes I'm gone, and to make things worse, my feet are killing me and my back isn't any better and the lack of eating is making me sick. Just one more hour I think. My friends are coming today for the service, well to be with me, the service was in the morning and now we are having some sort of lunch, and in an hour Maxon, Ryan and Maddison are going to be here. But I am also dreading what will happen in an hour, I can't keep the news any longer so Maxon and I are going to tell my mother today.
"Come here" mom ushers me in front of an old man that is kind of fat, he has grey hair and a few wrinkles and his wife — I guess — she has pretty blonde hair and d He doesn't look too old.
"This is Theodor Cadman and Lena Leger" mom introduces them and with a start I realize that Lena is Aspens' mother.
"Do you happen to live in this neighborhood?" I ask because I don't remember ever seeing her and if I had seen her before, I can't remember.
"No dear, we moved to San Francisco when Aspen's father died, you've met Aspen haven't you?" she asks me just as Aspen himself comes to us, he is wearing dress pants and a white dress shirt and looks really, really hot.
"Yeah, we have" he says, his eyes firmly locked on mine, I look away as I remember what he did to Maxon. When I moved my head I spotted a red haired woman and a grin stretches over my face as I realize who it is.
"Mom" I whisper "Kenna's here" she turns to look at where I'm pointing and grabs my hand as she sprints through the backyard to her, Kenna opens her arms when she sees us and mom hugs her when we reach them. I let go of mom's hand and give James a one handed short hug as he is holding little Astra on his other arm.
"Hi" I say to Astra in my baby-voice, I grab her little hand and let her hold my index finger. I start making little noises which make her laugh at me, that decently made my day despite the circumstances.
"Can I take her inside?" I ask them. Finally a good excuse to sit down. Kenna nods and James hands her to me and shows me how to hold her properly. I carry her inside and sit carefully on the couch, if I wasn't pregnant nor holding a baby, I would have collapsed. I stay there just holding little Astra with my eyes closed.
I must have fallen asleep, someone's shaking me awake. I open my eyes to see the handsome face of my baby's daddy, that sounded unusually erotic. I groan in discontent and lift my head off of the couch, Maxon is seated beside me with an amused smile, he too is wearing a suit and looks delicious in it, I bite my lip to keep myself from saying that out loud. I smile back at him and move Astra a little and she makes no noise which makes me realize she fell asleep too.
"Can you take her?" I ask him and the face he makes at the thought of holding a baby would have made me smile if I didn't have to pee and my body didn't feel like it was going to brake.
"Come on, take her" he shakes his head and I move, to give her to him myself, I adjust his arms around her and speed-walk to the bathroom, once I have relieved myself and washed my hands, I go back to the living room to see the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life. Maxon was holding Astra while cooing her and her little hand was inside his.
"He's going to be a great father" Kenna said startling me, I look at her confused of what she meant, she pointed at my stomach, I saw the bump but I was sure no one else could see it, but I also see that my black dress has stuck to me and my bump is now visible for anyone that pays close attention. I was going to play innocent but it's no use seeing as she already knows.
"Don't tell mom, please, I'm going to tell her today or maybe tomorrow, but let me tell her" I plead and she just shakes her head and looks at me bump before a smile etches over her face.
"I wasn't going to tell her. Gosh, I want to get mad at you and yell but I think mom will do that just fine, plus, I'm going to be an aunt" she exclaims and I smile at her though I'm still confused but relieved non the less.
"Can I feel it?" she asks and reaches for my stomach before I can answer her she is already touching me. I tell her that I'm eight weeks along. I then sit beside Maxon and he puts his arm around my shoulders, he tenses as he realizes what he did but relaxes when I rest my head on his chest. He starts making circles on my arm and I sigh contently. This feels good, and it almost makes me forget the constant pain in my chest. His hand moves a bit to cover my stomach and he then rubs my bump.
"I remember" I whisper and his hand stills before he pulls away so he can stand and gives Astra back to Kenna, she sits on the recliner at the other side of the room. Maxon comes back and turns my head so I can look at him.
"You remember" he says and I nod "Me?" he asks and I nod again, the biggest grin yet stretches over his face. He then kisses me, hard. I kiss him back immediately and wrap my arms around his neck and his arms go around my waist before we move until my back is against the arm of the couch. He bites my lip and I moan into his mouth, I move my hand to-
"Hmm" Kenna clears her throat and we both turn to look at her, Maxon releases me and moves as far away from me and I blush immensely, I bring my hands to my hair and smooth it down. Then mom comes into the room with Lena and Aspen with Theodor on their heels. I look at Maxon and he asks me with his eyes if we tell her now, I nod and we get up, I take Maxon's' hand purposely in front of Aspen, he glares at us.
"Mom? Can we talk to you?" I ask her and she stops her conversation for a second before telling us that she will in a moment.
"Mom, please" I say a bit more urgently and she gives me a look that makes me shut up.
"Please, Madga" Maxon says and this time she stops talking entirely, I gesture to the side and she nods and takes us to the kitchen in which no one is at the moment. She stands there with her arms crossed and a frown on her face. I look at her face and notice how she seems to have aged years, her face has more wrinkles than it did and there are dark circles under her eyes, I had been so happy about seeing Maxon and Kenna that I forgot why they were here, I look to the ground.
"Um, well, we uh…" Maxon stutters and I remember why we are here.
"I'm pregnant" I blurt out and I mentally face palm, I seem to always blurt the news. My mom looks at us with a blank face for a moment before her face morphs from the sad, heartbroken expression she had on to an angry, well mad, face, and it lands on Maxon, I cringe and she marches to him and grabs the collar of his shirt, which forces him to bend down to her height, which is a little lower than mine.
"You got her pregnant?" she asked in a menacing voice, he nodded scared and she let go of him only to slap him, I gasp as his body stumbles from the force, I grab him before he falls. He puts a hand on his cheek, which is now red with a handprint.
"How could you?" she asks, the question sounds sad but her face and voice say otherwise.
"We used a condom, it just didn't work" I said defensibly, it was true what I said, it wasn't fair that we had to be one of the few unfortunate souls that it happened to. I still didn't like what happened but I've come to accept it, we were bound to have this baby, I believe in destiny and fate, this would have happened no matter how much we tried to avoid it.
"Did you even think about the consequences? NO! You don't. But it was in the heat of the moment so I guess that makes it okay right? I doesn't. I know we had the talk so I won't blame this on myself, it was your fault, both of you. And you used a condom? It still could have happened! I cannot believe you would do this to yourself. Now he probably won't be with you because he cares about you, he will because he pities you. And then he'll leave you to take care of the baby and you'll regret this then" she finished her rant. I was crying because of the things that she said, I never thought Maxon and I would be forever, I knew that I was going to regret what I did, I do regret it now, and I also knew he might just have stayed because he pitied me, but I didn't care, I love this baby and I wouldn't give it up, I wouldn't abandon it just because it 'ruined' my life.
"I won't leave her unless she tells me to" Maxon said, and he spoke with such confidence that I knew it was true, I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face on his shirt, my tears soaking the clothing. My mom scoffed at my action but I didn't say anything and willed myself to be live that her reaction was more of resentment to my dad for never telling us he had heart problems and for having to lose him and couldn't do anything to save him.
"That's what they all say" she said and I looked at her with a blank stare, I didn't have anything else to say to her, at least Kenna had reacted goodly for both of them. She kept on saying something but I grabbed Maxon's hand and took him out of the kitchen and out of the house from the front house since everyone was entering from the back. We were almost at the door when someone stepped on our way, looked up to see Aspens disappointed face. He looked at Maxon behind me before smirking and kissing me, it didn't last long before Maxon roughly pushed him away, I hadn't had any time to react. Maxon punched him square on the nose and before Aspen could return the punch, Maxon had me out of the house, he was walking pretty fast and I had to walk faster to catch up to him. He dragged me to the sidewalk in front of the house and pulling out his phone, he called a cab and hung up.
I was just standing there looking at him with a shocked face. Then he put his cupped my jaw and crashed his mouth to mine, I kiss him back just as hard as he had, moving my lips in sync with his, he opened my lips with his own and his tongue assaulted my mouth, he tilted his face to deepen the kiss and I, while moaning at the feel of his mouth on mine, tangled my hands on his hair. I tugged lightly at it and he groaned-
(Ok, so after this things will get a little steamy ;) don't read if it makes you uncomfortable)
-pressing his hardening bulge, I gasped and he trailed his mouth across my cheek to my jaw and sucked lightly before moving on to my neck, his tongue came out and licked me there, his teeth scrapped lightly. His hands where all over my back and where about to reach my ass before her had to stop as the cab pulled up. I entered and dragged Maxon behind me, I kissed him again as he closed the door, his mouth left mine to tell the driver where to take us before his mouth returned to mine, he pressed me against the window and kissed and sucked my neck, I was moaning quietly because I already felt bad for the driver as he had to stay there while knowing what we were doing.
He grinded against my wet center and I couldn't control the loud moan that left me, I took his face and forced it to my mouth, this time I was controlling the kiss, and I knew he liked it based on the sounds he was making, I tugged his bottom lip and bit it slightly before sucking on it, he growled and grinded harder on me. The cab pulled up and Maxon payed him before taking me out, I noticed we were in a motel and my insides twisted as I realized what we were about to do.
Maxon payed for a room and took me to it, as soon as he found it he stuck the key and opened the door, he dragged me in and I giggled at his action, he closed the door and immediately took me to the bed, he pushed me on it and climbed on top of me, we kissed again before he pulled back to take off my dress, I then helped him unbuttoning the last buttons of his shirt, once it was off he threw it somewhere in the room. He kissed me lightly on the mouth and made a path of sweet kisses until his mouth reached my chest, he caressed my breasts and I whimpered, he smirked. Then his hands moved around me and fumbled with the clasp of my bra before he took it off and threw it too across the room. His warm hands were now on my breasts, he continued to kiss me as he palmed them. For a moment he grabbed them too hard and I had to stop to tell him they were sensitive.
As we kissed and he palmed me, my hands ventured lower before reaching the hem of his pants, I undid the belt before I took his pants and briefs off, then I grabbed tentatively his member, it was rock hard in my hand, at the first touch Maxon hissed in pleasure and his dick twitched in my hand, he stopped kissing me as he lost himself in the pleasure I was giving him. When I started to fumble with his balls, he stripped me off my panties and I was naked. His hand caressed my stomach before going lower and reaching my dripping core, his hand moved against my nub and my hips jerked forward, he slipped a finger inside me and I did a sound that was between a groan and a moan. I flipped us and rubbed him a couple of times before I took him firmly in my hand and guided the tip to my opening, it hurt a bit but nothing like the first time.
"Yeah baby" he groaned out and I smirked. I started ridding him, letting him fill me completely. It felt so good to be as close to each other as we could, for our naked bodies to rub against one another. We touched each other's bodies, kissed wherever our lips could reach. I touched his toned chest and he grabbed my ass. I dragged my hands through his hair and he did the same. We connected with the other in a way that made what we were doing much more pleasurable. I threw my head back and moaned loudly, Maxon's hand was rubbing me and I knew that I was going to cum any minute now.
When I did it felt so good I could see starts behind my closed lids, Maxon followed soon after I did, and when it was over, we just stayed there in the same position for a while, him still inside me and me still over him. We were both sweating and panting, our hearts racing, and even though I wouldn't tell him yet the depth of my feelings for him, I was pretty closed to it. We just stayed there, a tangle of naked and hopefully in love bodies.