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Chapter Twenty-Four:
Bella's POV:
Everything is so real now. I don't think I never thought it was really happening. But now, I know that it's really happening.
I really am getting married in 2 months time.
Isn't this what I want?
I never would have said Yes to Edward if this isn't what I wanted. Right?
I was definitely having what was known as Second Thoughts right now. There's only one thing to do:
I have to call my Mom.
I've been at home for a while now. There's just me and Leo, but Leo's stuck in front of the TV, since it's raining outside. Again.
I don't know where Edward is, but I'm glad he's not here. I don't want him here will I talk to my Mom.
"Leo?"
Leo turned round and looked at me. "What's wrong Momma?"
That kid is way too perceptive for his own good.
"Nothing's wrong, baby." Slight lie, he won't notice though. I hope. "I'm just going to go phone Nana. Okay?"
He nodded. "Tell her I say Hi."
I smiled. "Sure." He turned back to the TV. I stood up from the couch and walked into the Kitchen.
Why does the phone have to be in the Kitchen? Why can't the phone be in the Living Room? Where it's more accessible?
It's not even a cordless phone. You have to stay in the Kitchen. Charlie really needs to update the technology a little bit more.
Well, he's got the flat-screen. I guess that's all that matters.
I climbed up onto the counter, and picked the phone up.
Did I really want to do anything about this freaking out issue? Or should I just leave it? Maybe if I left it, the issue might just go away on its own, but there was something telling me that I shouldn't just leave it.
If I left it, the issue would stay and it wouldn't go away. So then, in two months time it would get to August 8th (I know this isn't the actual day they get married, but I've changed it. Deal with it.) And I would still be freaking out. It's worse being scared on the actual day. I know I'm scared, but I don't want to run away. I can't do that to Edward. I can't do that to myself.
I think that little pep talk has helped. But I still have to call my Mom. I dialled my Mom's number into the phone and held it up to my ear. I was secretly hoping she wouldn't pick up.
"Hello?"
"Mom. It's me."
"Oh! Bella!" She squealed. "It's so good to hear your voice, baby. I miss you."
I laughed. "I rang you last week Mom. I miss you too."
"You did?" She paused. "I remember now!" She laughed. It was nice to hear, she sounded happy. "How's Leo?"
"He's good thank you. He's says Hi as well."
"How are you, Bella?"
"I'm…okay."
There was no use in lying. I knew she'd see right through it. Maybe Leo gets his perceptiveness from her.
"You're not, honey."
I sniffed. I can't cry yet! "I am." My voice broke. Damnit.
"What's happened? Is it something to do with Leo?"
"No."
"Edward?"
I didn't say anything.
"It is him isn't it? What's he done?" She sounded angry now.
"He's not done anything, Mom! You know he wouldn't!" I growled down the phone. "Mom. I'm sorry I didn't mean to snap like that."
"What's going on, Bella?"
"I don't know." I sighed. "I'm scared Mom."
"Of what, baby?"
"Everything." I whispered.
"Oh, Bella." I heard her sigh. "Define everything?"
"I just..." I sighed. "I don't know what to do. I need you to help me Mom." The tears started falling down my cheeks, at a fast pace.
"I can't help you until you tell me what's wrong, honey." She sighed again. "Bella? Are you pregnant again?"
"NO!" The sobs were coming faster now. "No. I'm not."
"Don't cry, honey." She paused. "Oh. Baby, are you scared to get married?"
"Mm-Hmm." I sniffed. "I don't know what to do anymore, Mom."
"Have you told Edward?"
"No. What exactly could I say? 'Oh sorry and everything but I don't want to marry you anymore." I started crying again. "I can't do that to him Mom. I just can't."
"Baby, you can't go through with something you're scared to do."
"I was scared to have Leo and I did that." I ran a free hand through my hair. "So why can't I get married?"
"You can if you really want to do it. I remember how you were determined to have Leo." I could hear the smile in her voice. "You wouldn't let anybody change your mind. Honey, if you can do that, you know that you can marry Edward."
The tears were still pouring down my face. "This is different!"
"How?"
"I just-"
"You don't want to marry him, do you?"
"I don't know! Mom, I've thought ever since Valentine's that this is what I wanted, but now it all seems so real. I just don't know what to do. I'm scared. I can't say anything because then it'll make him upset as well, and I can't not do anything because that makes it worse!" My voice broke twice.
"Bella. Maybe you should come home."
"Home?! I am home!"
"I mean home to me, where you can think about things for a little while."
"No. I can't." I wiped the tears from my face, although they were still coming.
Could I leave? Could I just run away?
No. I was going to sort this out. Running away from problems never sorts them out. Danny ran away from me, and Leo. He ran away because he was scared. It never helped anything.
If I run away from Edward, then I'm just giving in. I don't want to do that. I want to sort it out, so I'm not scared anymore.
I love Edward too much to leave him. I know I can never do that.
"Bella?"
"Yeah?" The sobs were quieter now.
"Honey, you have to do what you think is right."
"I don't know what's right though, Mom." I sighed, heavily.
"Honey, you'll figure it out. I'm always here."
"I know Mom." I smiled. "Thank you. I love you."
"I love you too. I'll talk to you soon."
"I'll call next week." I hung up the phone, and swung my legs off the counter. I'd stopped crying now, although I probably looked like hell.
I turned round and headed for the door, but froze before I even got there.
Edward was standing at the Kitchen door. His face expressionless.
"Bella?" His voice sounded dead, although I think it was on the verge of becoming sad, or mad.
I swallowed loudly, but didn't say anything.
Had he heard that entire conversation I'd just had with my Mom?
Oh Crap.
"Y-You don't want to get married?"
Yep. He'd heard it.
"Edward it's not what you think!"
His face went from expressionless to angry in a matter of seconds.
"Save it Bella." He turned round and walked away from me.
I had to make my feet move, I couldn't just stand there. I stumbled as I walked after him, but moved anyway.
"Edward, wait! Please!" The tears were pouring down my face again.
He stopped at the door and looked back at me. "Have you never wanted to marry me? Why didn't you just say no?" He ran a hand through his hair, making it more tousled.
"It's not what you think! Please you just have to listen!"
"What so what I heard isn't true?"
I didn't say anything. What could I say?
"That's what I thought." He looked like he might cry. Although I've never seen him cry. "I can't do this now Bella." He turned around and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.
"Edward, come back!" I couldn't move. "Come back." I whispered.
What had I just done?
"I love you." I whispered, before I fell onto the ground and starting sobbing, harder than I've ever cried before.
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