I wanted to stay up and watch Teen Choice Awards but they show starts at 4am where I live and I'm already way too tired for that. Already I probably won't post tommorow because I have plans with a friend of mine.
You would think that after the emotional moment Callie and Arizona had things would get easier but they didn't. They kept going through those awkward phases but mostly tried to act like everything was okay for Sofia's sake. Callie's phone was ringing while Callie was in the shower so Arizona answered. "Yes?" she said. "Karev? Why are you calling my wife?" Arizona asked protectively. "Okay fine." Arizona went in the bathroom and knocked on the glass. "Karev's on the phone. Apparently he needs a consult," Arizona explained while Callie's head poked out. "Thanks," Callie said with a smile and started talking. After a short while her voice got more worried which got Arizona worried because she hasn't left the room yet. "Arizona can you pass me towel please?" Callie called out after she hung up. Arizona did what she was told and attacked Callie with questions once she was out of the shower. "Woah slow down. I'm just going to the hospital for a consult. Plus you have a session with Wyatt so I can drive you." Callie seemed calm now but Arizona knew something else was wrong but she decided not to ask. Sofia was spending her day with Cristina and so was Zola.
"Can we talk later?" Callie asked Arizona once they were in the lobby. Arizona nodded and made her way to the Wyatt's office while Callie ran to the PEDs department. "What the hell happened?" Alex looked at Callie before focusing back on Aaron. "He woke up with a fever and he started vomitting and he hasn't stopped crying ever since," Beatrice said panic visible in her voice. "Does Arizona know?" Alex asked. Callie shook her head. "I didn't tell her." Bailey walked in. "Torres I thought you were still off?" She shot Callie her Bailey glare. "Well Arizona has a session with a shrink which I still can't believe she's doing and I'm here because of this little guy. Also you don't scare me because I'm the new nazi here." Miranda shook her head. "If you're here then why was I paged?" She scanned the patient and then stepped closer. The second she touched Aaron's lower right part of abdomenal he started crying harder. "Appendix. It's a simple surgery," Miranda explained to Beatrice. "I still don't know why you're here," she said and pointed at Callie. "Arizona brought this kid with her and Alex called me to be here because Arizona can't."
"What are you doing in the waiting room?" Arizona asked once she noticed Callie sitting in the waiting room. "Okay I need you to sit down and not panic," Callie said firmly and sat Arizona down by pushing gently on her shoulders. "You can't just tell me not to panic and then expect me to not panic," Arizona said with a shaky voice. "Aaron's in surgery," Callie said gently. "WHAT?" Arizona tried to stand up but Callie held her down. "It's nothing major. A simple appendectomy. He'll be fine. Bailey is operating." Arizona sighed. "Is that why Alex called you this morning?" Callie simply nodded. Arizona's eyes caught someone else. "Why is Nicole the social worker here? Are they not adopting Aaron anymore?" All possible questions flew out of Arizona's mouth. "I don't know anything. Beatrice seemed pretty freaked out but she cares about this little boy. They both do. I think it's just a protocol." Arizona nodded but stayed silent which was nothing like her after all the questions she threw a few minutes ago. "You can still talk to me you know," Callie said softly. She knew what was bugging her for so long. "I just.. I've been with him since they first found him and I brough him here to get him ready for adoption and I had to take him back. Then I risked my life to protect him and I was there when his abusive father died. I just want the best for him." Secretly she wanted Aaron to be with her but she couldn't bring that now when her marriage was on the edge.
"Mhm," Callie said and even I knew it was sarcastically. "So how was your session?" Arizona had sessions with doctor Wyatt twice a week. "Less awkward than less time but still weird." Callie arched her eyebrows. "What did you talk about?" Callie didn't want to push Arizona but the lack of communication led to a lot of trouble before. "Crash," was all Arizona said not wanting to give too many details. "Plane crash talk already? Wow." Arizona sighed. "Carcrash," she mumbled fast and quietly. "What?" Callie asked not hearing her correctly. "Car crash," Arizona repeated. "What about it?" Callie was curious about it. Sure after Callie got better they never talked about it because she thought there's nothing to talk about it. Accidents happen. "Just those stupid questions about how I felt when you were laying there and how I felt when Sofia was born and well some other things. It's ridiculous in my opinion. Talking about my feelings. I don't know anymore how I felt. I was angry at myself for not focusing on the road, I was upset because you were dying and I was pissed at Mark for not helping." Arizona bit herself in the tongue after the last sentence about Mark. "What did Mark do?" Callie asked. "Nothing we were just both upset. All forgiven, all forgotten," Arizona said and forced a smile.
"I'm not stupid," Callie said. "Just forget it," Arizona said a little louder than she meant to. "We should go home." Arizona didn't move. "I'm not going until I know Aaron is." She also didn't want to go home because it would mean having another yelling match with Callie. "We'll come back tommorow." And with that Callie dragged Arizona to the car and drove them home even if they lived right across the street she didn't want Arizona to walk.
"I'm not doing this,"Arizona said as she crossed her arms over her chest. "Why not? What happened?" Callie was sure she was going to get to the end of it. "Look things were said in a moment of weakness. We apologized and moved on." Now it was starting to get to Callie because Arizona was being mysterious. "Just tell me and I'll stop bugging you." Arizona shook her head and turned the TV on. "If you moved on then why won't you tell me?" Callie insisted. "Wow you're worse than my shrink," Arizona said under her breathe. "Was it bad?" Callie asked again. "In that moment, yes but looking back no it wasn't." Callie groaned not getting the answer she wanted. "Why won't you just tell me?" Arizona sighed. "Because I watched Mark dying on my lap and because he was my friend and a part of my family." Callie sat down on the couch and made Arizona look at her. "Tell me. Now." She raised her voice a little. "No," Arizona said firmly and focused on the TV. "But why not?" Callie whined. "Because those words were meant for you not to hear them and you won't." Arizona knew Callie wasn't going to give up just yet but sighed in relief when Callie focused on cooking dinner.
Now that Sofia wasn't around the tension between them got even stronger and even more uncomfortable. "You know I'm not gonna stop so just tell me. Whatever it is I can take it," Callie said once they were done with dinner. "Look we both said things we shouldn't because were upset but we made up. No need to bring it up," Arizona said as she switched the channel. Callie sat right next to her. "Please just tell me I'm begging you," Callie said softly. "Okay fine but you can't get mad and there's no way you can judge. And you need to remember that we forgave each other." Callie nodded hesitantly. "They made us choose between you and Sofia and I said Sofia because we broke up over the fact that you wanted kids while Mark wanted to save you. He somehow said that you two can always make another baby but there's no way to make another you. And then I might called him a sperm donor and he might have yelled at me that I'm nothing." Callie's jaw dropped but before she could say anything Arizona continued. "And before you say anything we were both hurting. A lot." Callie sighed. "But when I woke up you two seemed fine. "We were fine. We talked it out. Thanks to Addison who kinda pushed Mark but we forgave and we forgot. We moved on."
Callie released a deep breath to get rid off the frustration. "I would hurt his nuts so badly if he was here right now," Callie said and groaned. "Why couldn't you tell me this sooner?" Arizona sighed and picked up the newspaper. "Because you would get mad like you did right now and it never got brought up again," she said not looking from her paper. "Well of course I'd get mad he can't talk to you like that." Arizona groaned. "But I wasn't exactly nice to him either. Things happened. We moved on. Just forget it." Callie sighed and took Arizona's hands in her. This is as much as contact as they made since their emotional moment. "I want to say some not so nice things and I need you to listen." Arizona nodded her head not trusting her voice right now.
Callie took a deep breath. This is what she was waiting for right. But somehow it felt wrong even if it was right. "That day even with that storm I was still having a pretty damn good day but t-then I saw her and your ring in her scrub top. I actually tried to convince myself that it wasn't your ring. It's like I'm screaming please marry me and then cheat on me, because that's how I feel. With George it was different though. We weren't together for a long time and we weren't in love. But with you.. Arizona you were my everything. You are my everything. You were there every step of the way since you returned from Africa even if I thought that you'd run again. But you didn't and I was there with you through the crash and yes I know I've been a jerk every once in a while but it's not like you were making it any easier for me. And then when I finally thought we're good y-you cheated." Callie's voice got shakier with each sentence and tears sparkled in her eyes but she didn't dare to let them go. Arizona opened her mouth to say something but Callie interrupted. "Not yet. And then you said it was flattering. We didn't have sex in 6 months because I was waiting for you to feel comfortable again even though I didn't find you any less attractive than I did before the crash. And all those things you said in the on call room.. I just.. Enlighten me."
Arizona took a minute to take everything in as tears started glistening in her own eyes and then enother minute to compose herself and what she could say to make this situation better. "I'm sorry," she said her voice cracking with emotions. She knew that wasn't enough but it was a start. "I never meant for that to happen." Callie sighed. "What for the cheating or getting caught cheating?" Arizona was a little taken away by her words. "Look Callio-, Callie I'm not that kind of person okay. What happened that day was a mistake. And yes it's not an excuse and yes you'll probably never trust me in my life again which is fine because I don't trust myself either. But I do know that I would never repeat that. Not because I don't wanna get caught or whatever but because I'm ashamed it even happened in the first place. It can't be undone. And you can hate me because of it for the rest of my life. It's fine really. And, and those words that were spoken.." Arizona stopped for a second to take a deep breath. "Those words.. I'm not gonna lie. I might meant some of them but that doesn't mean that I don't regret them. I'm sorry. I really am," Arizona whispered and hold back her tears that slipped down her cheeks anyway.
"When will you stop blaming me for the leg Arizona? Because I can't deal with you accusing me of not being on the freaking plane everytime we fight." Callie's words came out a little hursh and Arizona would die if she said they didn't hurt like a bitch but she deserved it. "I," she started but got interrupted. "Save it. i need some air," Callie said and grabbed her jacket. She slammed the door behind her and made her way downstairs to take some deep breaths of fresh air. Arizona stood up and whiped away her tears. She walked across the hall and ran her fingers over the boxes that were in front of the door. One box had Mark's clothes written over it and the other said Mark's personal items. She figured out they cleaned the apartment. She walked in, closing the door in process as her heart ached when she saw the empty apartment. Only built in cabinets and closets were left next to a lot of dust. Arizona lived in denial for so long. She kept telling herself Mark just went on a very long vacation even if she was reminded by reality every time she looked down at her feet. "Sorry Sloan," she whispered and sat down in the middle of nothing. She remembered how they used to fight here but they also used to cook together. Even if most of things happened in Callie's apartment they came here from time to time.
Callie came back to her apartment. She only left for a few minutes so she was very much surprised when no one was there. She knew she was harsh on Arizona but she needed to end this tension thing very soon. She checked the bedroom, bathroom, Sofia's room. Everywhere. But Arizona was no where to be found. She even called her cell but it was dead. "Not panicking," she whispered to herself. She left the apartment and walked in the hall. And that's when she heard soft sobs coming from Mark's apartment. Callie took a deep breath and made her way towards the door.