Oops. I just deleted everything I spent an hour writing. Shit. Here we go again.

Well hi there, it's been a long time hasn't it? August 2011? That's three and half years. Holy moly.

Well, where have I been you may be asking. And while I don't want to bombard you with my horrendous excuses again, I'm at least going to explain myself. I got into a really dark place my last couple years of high school, it wasn't all that fun. Trust me. My life sort of spiraled out of control. But now I've been in college for almost two years and I've managed to grab a hold of things again. I don't have a perfect grip, but it's a lot better than it was.

Besides for that on a more different note, my email got hacked and suspended permanently. I can no longer access it. Luckily I had a back up email, but my account was hooked up to that other one and so I couldn't get notifications anymore and notifications were what kept me motivated. Then, my old computer (affectionately referred to as Piano Face) died. It's not completely dead, but its definitely on its last legs and I'm worried that the next time I turn it on will be it's last. None of the files on it were backed up though, so I'm terrified of frying old Piano Face and losing everything that I held so dear from 2005-2013. One of such files locked away on that old computer is half of what was going to be the next chapter. So I have no way of accessing it without giving myself a miniature heart attack. And I hate rewriting things (As evident by how sloppy this is; I can't believe I deleted it on accident, I'm such a doof.)

I have many more excuses but none of which you should be forced to listen to.

But Plushie, did you forget about this story? Nope. I never forgot about this story. I will admit, there were times that I forgot it was on a website and people could read it and I needed to update. But I never forgot the story itself. And I sure as hell never forgot the characters. I think about them daily and draw them all the time, but that's sort of the problem.

As I grew and changed, so did they. They aren't just characters to me, they're basically real people and I have no control over them. So they grew and developed and their personalities changed as they went through situations and got older and had more experiences in the world. So essentially the characters you all knew as we left off, are not the same characters as they are now. I had this whole story mapped out and knew where I wanted to take it I knew how I wanted this book to end and the entirety of the fourth (And final) book aswell. But just because that story ended doesn't mean that the characters just froze. They still went on to develop and go on adventures and screw around with all sorts of shenanigans and make jokes and go through hardship, they continued to grow and change and learn and become just... more. If I were to write down everything that happened after their story ended, it would be longer than all four books would be combined.

So as you can imagine, they're very different people now, and it's sort of strange for me to try and go back and think of them as how they were. Even back when I was still updating they were going through this change, though I tried to hide it. Their personalities and actions in the Author Notes weren't quite the same as they were in the actual story.

I always really wanted to update though. I'd think about it once every month, but it had been six months since I last updated... was anyone still reading? Would it be weird to pick it up again? And I couldn't bring myself to do it. I'd been away for so long, it'd be strange to start again. And so six months turned into a year... turned into two years... turned into three and a half and here we are. The longer I waited the harder I knew it would be but I still couldn't work up the will power. But I still felt so guilty.

All that aside though, here's what we're gonna do. I want to finish this, one way or another. I can't handle the guilt on my conscious. I can't just leave this unfinished forever. So we have some options here-

1) I could just summarize the entire story. I'd summarize it in detail though and any scene that I had typed up previously that I have laying around in my desk or my emails or wherever would be imputed in the correct place. So it'd be like chunks of chapters with detailed summaries in between to the next scene that was written. Some of these written scenes are very important scenes... and some not so important.

2) I could go back to writing out the full on detailed chapters again, just like they were, except without the ANs.

or 3) We could go back to exactly how it was; full chapters and those weird ANs along with it. I cant guarantee how the ANs will turn out, because while I may still be a lame-o nerd, I am a fairly different person now. I'll try to make them how they were, you bet I'll try. But I can't promise anything. And hey, if it doesn't work out, I could always cut them out and switch over to plan 2 at any time. But I don't think you'd all want that, I think you guys really liked the ANs, but hey, I don't know. I'll at least still do the reviews!

So if anyone is still here and has a preference to how I should go about this, let me know, but I'm buckling down and getting this done one way or the other.

Also if Meg or Hated-ppl-friend is still here and reading this, I owe you two my heart and soul because hot damn. You guys stuck with me through all that and you both deserved so much better than my horrendous lack of will power. Sorry for leaving you two hanging for all this time, and anyone else who's stuck with this but never reviewed.

So I'm gonna go now, but before I do, fanfiction apparently updated at some point when I was gone and stories can have title pictures now. Woah! Fancy! So I update the title pictures for my old stories with some fairly old drawings, so their not great. But if you ever wondered what Cream, Ice, or Fuzen looked like, ta-da! A drawing of Cream is on the first book, Mew Mew Cream, a drawing of Ice is on the second book, Frozen Hearts and Dreams (Note his shirt isn't actually pink, it's pale blue, that was the only decent drawing I have of him though), and a drawing of Fuzen is on this book and is also my icon. Whoop!

Hope to see you guys soon~! Bye~!