Don't Ever Look Back

"Wait, what?" Emily sat in the nearest chair in Rossi's office as he made his slightly accusation of Spencer Reid returning to his Dilaudid addiction, "Dave, you're like a father to me, but what you're saying is complete bull!"

"Just… listen to the evidence I compiled…please?" he asked politely, earning a small nod from Emily, "He's been wearing sunglasses wherever there is light, he's been grouchy…and he's been avoiding us, even cornering himself off from us on the Jet"

Emily just couldn't believe it… she didn't want to believe it and Rossi knew it. Before he could say anything else, she got up and walked out of his office, only to return to her desk and start her share of the work and patiently waited for Derek and Spencer to arrive at work.

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By ten he was still not in and that was worrying her a lot; then he walked into the bullpen wearing sunglasses still and only removed them after taking a seat at his desk. She looked up at him, but he never acknowledged her existence. Garcia finally arrived for the usual nine O'clock briefing and warned them ten minutes before it would start.

As she saw that she was about half way through her stack, Emily saw her chance to ask her husband why he was late and very secretive.

"Spencer? Spencer, why were you late this morning…or even why are you being secretive?"

"I over slept and none of your business" he answered rudely to her.

"I'm your wife; it is my business when you're not acting like yourself"

"You don't know who I really am" he snapped back in a rough whisper, before walking away, still holding those damn sun glasses!

After the briefing, Emily continued working on her stack until she saw that it was lunch time and Hotch pretty much told her to go eat and then go home for the rest of the day since she looked exhausted and stressful, which wasn't good for the baby. So after having lunch with Garcia and JJ, who both noticed how distance their raven haired friend had been and decided to do an intervention.

"Okay, what's up?" Garcia asked.

"Did you talk to Spence?" JJ asked.

"Rossi came up with a theory and I don't want to believe him but the evidence shows"

"What… tell us before the suspense kills us" Garcia a little over dramatically.

"Rossi thinks Reid's using again… I don't want to believe it but he acted exactly like he did when he was… He refuses to acknowledge, look or even speak to me. And he then told me that I don't know who he really is" by the time she finished, she was in tears; "Damn hormones" was all she said, while wiping her tears off.

"You know what, Kevin and I will watch the triplets; he loves those little angel devils, and I mean that in a good way sweetie by the way. While you confront him… and if all fails… I'll send in JJ"

"Nicely put about JJ, Pen" she said, while stifling a giggle when she saw their blonde friend making a weird confused facial expression at the tech analyst.

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After dropping off the triplets with Kevin and Penelope, Emily drove back home, where she saw her husband's vehicle already parked on his side of the driveway. After turning the engine off, and setting he car alarm on; Emily walked into her home and saw that the blinds were blocking the light from getting in.

"Spencer?"

"In here…" he sounded in a lot of pain.

"Are you okay?"

"Does it look like I'm okay!" he snapped.

"… Are you using again?"

"What the hell!" this shocked her because she had never heard him swear before, "Of course I'm not!"

"How can I know, when you're acting like you did when you were using! I'm worried and scared because you're shutting me out!"

"Because I don't it know myself!"

"What?"

"I had a MRI done this morning… and they said that they saw nothing and now they want to do a psych exam to see… to see if the gene kicked in…" he then broke down into tears, "The headache and hallucinations are driving me crazy and it's affecting my sleep now"

"Spencer… why wouldn't you tell me? You had me and the team worried"

"I just had to make sure it was something else… something other than what they think it is" he then leaned his head onto her shoulder, and she just held him and let him cry it out, while she herself couldn't kept the tears in. But she knew that there was still hope and she wouldn't let it get to her, but seeing her husband dead scared about the fact that his deepest demon was hovering over him, made her worried for him.

"We'll get through this okay?"

"You don't get it…" he told her while sobbing.

"We'll go to another doctor… a Neurologist okay? Just don't give up"

"I won't… I promise"