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I limp along the train tracks searching for any sign of Jace and Karman. My mind slowly starts to drift to the worst case scenarios. That the dudes little groupies could have caught them and gutted them like he was planning to do with me or the train could have already came and I missed it. No, I would have heard it. Would I? Stopping to catch my breath I look around at my surroundings. Tall waist high grass on the outskirts of the city. Grasping my leg I apply more pressure to try to stop the flow of blood coming from the wound. Worst case scenario? I was left out here and now I'm going to bleed out in the grass.
So it was in that tall grass that my body heaved and almost inhuman sob that came from deep within me. They were stifled at first as I attempted to stop my emotions from flowing out of me until I realized how alone I felt. How weak and unable to do anything and how much crying just felt right, all my fears being washed away in salty tears. I wiped at my eyes furiously with my free hand.
Get it together Tris
You're Dauntless. You were trained for this.
Sucking in a deep breath as an attempt to ease my sobs to silence I looked forward. I can follow the tracks to Amity and get help there. I slowly start my limping again towards my new goal, when I hear a rustling behind me. Now it wasn't a windy night, so the grass wouldn't be swaying around me or anything. This was the sound of someone pushing it aside as they tramped through it. Great, now was I not only gonna bleed out from my leg but probably also be killed from who ever this is. I have nothing to defend myself with. I dropped my knife in my attempt of leaving the alley. I have my one free hand to fight with. I won't even last ten seconds. Well ten seconds would actually probably be too long, I say five seconds.
Preparing myself to fight with all I got I wait until I hear the noise again then spin around, causing me to twist my leg wrong and crumple to the ground.
"Tris!" I know that voice. I poke my head up and about scream from joy when I see Karman running towards me and Jace following right behind her.
"What happened? We made it to the trains and waited for you?" Jace asks as he kneels next to me and Karman does the same.
"Yeah. By the time the train came we knew you weren't that slow so we went back looking for you." I groan in pain as Jace takes my leg and carefully pulls it towards him.
"You got shot?" He asks examining my wound. I think about how stupid his question is. No Jace I just practice bleeding out on my free time. I groan as another wave of pain washes over me and choose not to be so mouthy at this time.
"Yes and it hurts a lot more than I remembered." I say through a tensed jaw.
"Jace we have to get her to Dauntless, she's losing a lot of blood." Karman whispers as she grips my hand. I don't feel her hand in my own though. I think it's because anything that can be felt at this point is censored on my legs. You could probably chop off my arms and I wouldn't even be able to tell.
"We have to stop the flow of blood first." He mutters more to himself then to Karman. I watch as in one swift movement he pulls his shirt off and lift my legs slowly as he ties it around the wound, grunting as he knots it. "Karman her arms." He says addressing her as he takes my feet. They slowly lift me off the ground, me letting out a small scream of pain in response.
"We can't just throw her on the next train that comes by." Karman sputters to Jace through her uneven breathing.
"We'll just have to carrier her to Dauntless then." Jace responds as we advance about five rails from where we were previously.
I don't know when I do, but I pass out from the pain in my leg. I remember when I was younger and Caleb telling me something about pain. You're body pass's out when the pain gets too unbearable to try to put the brain in a calming state. Which causes it to shut down or blackout. In doing this brain chemicals begin to form in the brain. Adrenal glands begin to work on producing hormones that help you recover from passing out. All this stuff is working really fast while you're out and you don't remember any of it when you do wake up.
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When I wake up, I don't feel much, but the inside of my head is fuzzy. I look around to see I'm in a large, narrow room with rows of bed on either sides. Dauntless infirmary. I've been here before. A women at the foot of my bed looks at me over a clipboard.
"You're awake. He'll be happy." She mutters returning back to her clipboard.
He'll be happy? Who is she talking about. Jace? Tobias? Did we make it here by morning and Tobias just happened to see both Jace and Karman drag me in covered in my own blood. Now I bet that would've been a sight to see. She scribbles something out and then leaves without saying another word. I watch her go, completely confused. Am I dying and you're going to get a gun just to end it quicker or did I miraculously lived but had to get my leg amputated and you're going to retrieve my leftover leg that you put out on ice? I want to laugh at my imagination, but soon realize that I can't feel my leg for real. Reaching for where it would be I pull at the covers.
"Relax, Its still there." Jace murmurs from the door. Releasing the sheets I look up at him.
"Hey." I mumble scooting myself up into a sitting position. "You're the he?" I whisper more to myself then to him.
"How you feeling?" He asks as he pulls up a plastic chair to the bed. I think about his question for awhile. I could lie and say i'm good, but I did just get shot. On the other hand I could go all dramatic and rant about how my life was flashing before my eyes. I decided to settle on some normal ground.
"I'm fine."
"You don't look fine."
"Then stop looking."
The room grew silent. The kind of silent that was somehow comforting and spoke for itself, it was peaceful in a way. Until he broke it.
"So the doctors said you shouldn't be here too long." My jaw locks together when I look at him.
"I doubt it." I mutter throwing my head back onto the pillow. He sighs running his hand through his hair. Then suddenly, without any indication, he stands.
"Okay look Tris, I screwed up. I know that now. I shouldn't have left you behind, but I did. There was a part of me that was saying she can handle it but then another saying that she can't. I wanted to believe you could because I needed to know that you could." I stare at him shocked by his outburst.
"Jace-" I begin but stop when I don't know what to say. I mean it wasn't his fault that I got shot. I took the risk of going last. Heck I saved one of them from being shot or all of us being shot. "Look...I'm fine." I whisper. He shakes his head and sits down on the bed.
"I'm sorry for all of this Tris." He murmurs glancing down at his hands. Its in that moment that I finally understand what we're really talking about. We're not talking about last night, but all the other nights since we've been here.
"Its been hard for me, but I'm okay." He looks up at me and I really look at him. Its like the first time I actually see him for who he is. He's not just my best friend and Karman's also. He's someone that cares deeply for us, for me. Someone that has been here all along and yet I just noticed him. Someone who would risk everything just for me. I don't know if it's from this feeling or just being drugged, but I leaned forward and pulled him to me. As our lips crashed together, I felt a twinge in my stomach. It felt different, the way his lips connected with mine. His mouth was so warm, the caress of his lips softer than I could have imagined and I opened my mouth with a low moun.
"Hey guys I bro-"Karman said as she entered in the room, only to stop when she saw us and dropped the tray of muffins in her hands. When they crashed to the floor, we broke apart fast. Both of us were left searching for our breath as we stared at Karman. "Muffins..." She added staring at us.
No one said anything as we all just looked at each other.
"So does this mean you guys are like..dating?" She asked playing with the hem of her shirt. Jace turned to look at me and then back at her.
"Uh..no." He answered.
"Okay." She breathed. "The muffins has sugar on them, but I see you guys already had a taste of that." I groan covering my face with my hands as it flares with warmth.
"Just leave." I mutter completely embarrassed. I hear the door shut and peek through my hands only to see Karman sitting in the chair Jace was sitting in.
"We have to talk." She says, her voice growing serious. Uncovering my face I raise an eyebrow. "When you guys were in here sucking each others faces off I ran into a certain someone." She murmurs looking at me. Jace turns to look at me also. Then it clicks.
"Tobias." She nods and then looks down at her lap.
"He was having fun questioning me and everything. His main one was that he was working last night and came across some interesting footage. He saw us leaving yesterday." I look at Jace who looks back at me. Then we look at Karman.
"We tell him then."
"Tell him what exactly?" Jace asks me.
"Everything I told you guys." I point out. "He has actual footage of us leaving in the middle of the night. What if he gave it to someone?" Karman laughs at this.
"Who would he give it to? Someone murdered the head of Dauntless and besides you're on those tapes."
"So what if i'm on them." I mumble.
"Well if you didn't notice he has a boner for you and everything." My face grows warm and I look over at Jace who is looking at his feet.
"If we tell him he can help." I press on.
"Yeah cause knowing you're girlfriend is in trouble really gets a guy going." Jace mutters pushing himself off the bed.
"What you don't think he would help?" I ask dumbfounded. Of course Tobias would help us, why wouldn't he.
"Have you ever for one second considered what telling him will mean?" He asks turning back to face me.
"Yeah telling him will mean I don't have to lie and can be with him." A smile plays out on his face.
"Is this one of those times when you want me to lie to protect your delicate emotions?" My mouth fell open and I glared at him.
"No Jace, tell me how you see it then."
"I see it that he could hate you for dressing up and being someone else. Someone who he's falling in love with and you can't stomach that. Because you can't think of Tobias Eaton getting over Tris Prior. Well wake up, cause its happening." He sneered slamming the door behind him as he left. I stare at the door shocked.
"Tris.." Karmen says, but it sounds more like a question. Like she's asking me if Tris is there or is Kit. I swallow a lump in my throat and look down at my lap. Who am I? Tris risked her lives for her friends yesterday. Kit kissed Jace today. Who am I right now in this moment. Turning to Karman I narrow my eyebrows.
"I don't know." I whisper so quiet she has to ask me again.
"Hey." She whispered in a calm voice, one you would use to talk to a crying baby. She gets off the chair and walks over to my bed, taking Jace's spot on it.
"I slept with him Karman. Only I don't know who did." I say quietly. Regret washed over me like long, slow waves on a shallow beach. Each wave ice cold and sending shivers down my back. I longed to go back, to the beginning, and take a different path, but now I knew it was impossible. There was no way back. There was no way to make anything right. I envied the shells on the beach, hard and lifeless. Sure they might be broken, but they were still unable to feel the torments of life.
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