MA
(February 4, 2016)
Its been a week since I asked Yukari to marry me. I was going to ask her for the answer today…I went to her house. I knocked on her door. She opened it
"oh, Minato hey"
"Yukari , hi. Uh can I come in?"
"yeah, come in."
"thanks"
She closed the door behind me.
"how's the baby?" I looked at her arms where he was.
"he's fine." she giggled
"that's great." I smiled
"so, Minato, …what brings you here?"
"for your answer."
"oh…yeah"
"so…?"
"listen Minato…I don't know." she was putting the baby in his crib.
"oh okay I can give you more time then" I started turning away to the door
"Minato," she stopped me by grabbing my arm, " I don't need any more time… Its just that…I just don't feel right about it."
"what do you mean?" I turned to her
"well… now that I think about it…I don't really have feelings as strong for you like I thought I did"
I felt like I was hit with a bat.
"What do you mean? you don't love me?"
"I just don't okay…" she wouldn't look at me
"but. Yukari…I thought you were finally happy that the baby was mine."
"I thought I was…"
"But Yukari… do you not remember the time we spent together in high school! We loved each other you let me into your room, you told me you were in love with me. That was the first time we kissed!"
"Minato…I know, I think differently now. Love in high school is not real…we just think it is, but its never real…" she got a bit louder
"I thought it was real!"
"well I guess you're just going to have to get over it"
"What about , the time I came to your house not to long ago. You told me that all you wanted was to be with me! We Weren't in high school then!"
"I changed my mind Minato!"
"So you think you found real love with Astor?!"
"Yes, I know its real"
"I guess it was true, you just played with guys hearts! Just like in high school. You lead them on, and then Act like a complete stranger to them. Like…like…Like a Bitch!"
"Minato!" she looked angry
"im sorry Yukari truth hurts doesn't it! "
"how dare you say that to me!"
"You don't like when the truth is used against you do you!"
"…… "
"Why cant you just forget about Astor! And stay with me! The real father of your son! Does the time we spent together mean nothing to you now?!"
" it did, but I love Astor now!"
"Even after he hurt you and manipulates you!"
"he doesn't manipulate me!"
"Please, Yukari…I want to be a father, I want to raise me son…I don't want him to grow up know knowing his father." I started to choke a bit…I felt like crying every time I talked about my parents…
"He will, he will be raise as Astor being his father."
"are you really going to lie to him like that?"
"Im not lying its just what best for him."
"Please I would be the greatest father to him! I would care for him when he got sick or hurt, ill talk to him about anything he has trouble with…please Yukari…allow me the privlage to raise him with you."
"Shut up Minato! You would never be a good enough father to Nikko like Astor would! You never even had a father to look up to ! So don't even think that you could be a good father!" she was really angry and was yelling
I was hurt…she was right…what makes me think I can raise a son…, "you're right Yukari…I could never be a good father…I never even had a father figure or a father to look up too…so I couldn't really know what its like to be or have a father…I'm sorry for wasting you're time. Ill go now " I started making my way to the door…I felt offended and hurt…but it was the truth. Yukari was so angry she didn't even feel like apologizing I just walked out and started walking for my home. She didn't say a word to me as I left.
I started walking home…I walked by the usual park…I just sat there I felt like crap. Yukari really didn't love me… I felt a warm tear go down my face… I felt a shadow in front of me. I looked up. It was Mitsuru…
"Minato?"
"oh Mitsuru, hey." I wiped my face.
"Whats wrong ?"
"it's a long story."
"its okay I have time."
"its about Yukari…"
"oh I see… would you like to talk about it at my house? I was headed there."
"sure…"
We got into her car, we sat in the back of the car, as her driver took us to her house. As we drove we talked.
"What is this about Yukari?"
"well… Mitsuru, please don't tell anyone… "
"I wont, I promise."
"Well… you know how Yukari had her baby right."
"yeah."
"Well…He's mine"
"This doesn't come too much of a surprise to me, I saw this coming"
"you did?"
"yes, The way you would always look at her when you saw her, and the fact that she still likes you, and the baby looks like you, too." she giggled.
"oh, haha yea…"
"well whats wrong with the baby?"
"I went to her house right now and asked her to come live with me and leave Astor. And we could raise our baby together like we always wanted too…but…"
"but…?"
"But, she told me that she was wrong and never loved me like she did, she told me that our love in high school was fake… and she realized that Astor was the right guy for her…not me…"
"oh, I'm sorry Minato." she hugged me…, " I know how you feel when you want to be with someone but can't" she said to me as she hugged me.
"what do you mean Mitsuru? Did the same happen to you?" I looked at her.
"uh, well…yes kind of…"
"who was this guy?"
"oh his name is not of importance." she smiled.
"oh, well… at least I'm glad you know how I feel." I smiled back.
We sat and talked a while longer. I got up, " I think I should go now Mitsuru its getting late."
"oh, yes right. Need a ride?"
"no its okay, ill walk."
"oh okay then see you soon"
"yeah, thanks for listening to me"
"of course , anytime Minato…"
I started opening the door.
"um, Minato… you know Yukari's Anniversary party is coming up"
"already?"
"yes, and I don't really want to go by myself. Would you like to accompany me?"
"yea, ill go with you…but I don't think she or her would really want me there."
"it'll be okay, you'll be with me."
"oh, alright then sure ill go."
"thanks. Take care Minato" she smiled.
"thanks you too Mitsuru."