"Don't look so nervous" Kendall said with a smile.
"Um... I'm not... I'm just worried about the mess..." I lied. I was worried about everything! I was worried about how James and logan seemed to be right about Kendall, I was worried that Kendall didn't like the word no, I was worried that I was in deeper than I could handle with a distinct lack of Logan as my back up.
"Don't worry about it. We can just put a towel down." He said simply. My underwear was off and on the floor. Kendall got up to grab his towel. The thought of having sex whilst being on my period was the grossest thing.
"Scoot" Kendall said as he waved a hand over me to move over for him too place the towel down. I lay on top of it once he was done. I then watched in silence as his shorts got pulled down.
I was no longer excited to see what Kendall had to offer in ways of his penis.
I didn't want to do this! I didn't want to be here. I looked at the door. Logan and safety was just behind it.
I felt fingers on me, and looked to see Kendall un doing the button on on my skirt that he had lifted up.
"Your beautiful Sheri" he said for the second time this evening, as my skirt was removed from my body. I was so glad the only light in the room was from the tv that was still on.
I looked in to those amazing eyes. He looked so lovely and caring. Maybe I was a tease. Maybe had led him on.
"This was all my fault kendy... I'm so sorry" I said as he lay on the bed next to me now we were both naked.
"Don't be silly." He said giving me a kiss. "We all make mistakes" he added.
"Yeah... Yeah we do" I whispered.
Kendall began touching my boobs and kissing along my skin. I started to relax. He was so gentle. He really did love me.
"I love you Kendall" I said as I guided his lips to mine.
"Love you more" he said, flinging memories of Logan and his catchphrase in to my mind. Kendall must of heard Logan say that a million times to me. Couldn't he of just said 'I love you too' or ...
My mind stopped in its tracks as Kendall got on top of me. I felt him inside me seconds later.
"Kendall I'm not on the pill!" I said in a panic not wanting to be on first name terms with the nurse at the clinic who gave me my morning after pill when James and I had been foolish.
Kendall looked at me from his position, he looked a bit annoyed. Surely he would prefer to wear a condom anyway seeing as im still on my period. I mean it's not gushing out of me, I'm more off than on but... the thought of it still churned my stomach.
"Oh.. Well its cool... your on your period anyway, not like you can get pregnant." He smiled then kissed me. I could feel his hips carry on as he remained inside me.
I had no idea if that was true but I didn't feel I could say anything without making him angry.
"I'm not hurting you am I?" Kendall breathed out heavily at me. I was going through the motions and ran my fingers along his back. This wasn't at all how I expected.
"No baby it's fine" I replied. Kendall tucked his head to the side of mine and carried on making love to me. Not that I would call this making love.
My heart deflated as I realised that Kendall still thought this was my first time. I was so grateful that it wasn't.
There was no way I was going to visit the heaven that James had introduced me to, I couldn't relax enough. I didn't feel much to be honest. Just the movement.
I sold my soul to the devil and faked the entire thing. The entire time we were having sex I was wishing for it to be over.
When it was over I had a shower. I went in to my own room to get changed while Kendall sorted himself out.
When I returned to his room I wasn't sure what to expect. His mood swings scared me slightly.
I crawled in to bed next to him. He wrapped his arm around me, he remained kind-Kendall for the rest of the night. He turned back in to the person I first met.
"Would you like to go on holiday somewhere Sheri?" He asked sleepily.
"Is that an offer?" I asked enjoying my normal Kendall time.
"Might be" he smiled. "Be my treat, I would take you some where amazing" he promised.
I turned my head to look at him. "Your so lovely baby. I can't go further than a different state though, got no passport" I said pulling a sad face.
Kendall thought for a minute. "Leave it with me, I'm sure I can come up with something" he replied.
Kendall fell to sleep not long after that, I stayed awake watching crap on his tv. My mind too full to even think about sleep.
Kendall and I spent the next few days together. We did everything as a couple, he was so loving. I began thinking that he knew he acted a bit oddly the other night when we had sex and this was his way of making it up to me. He held my shopping bags for me, and held my hand.
He bought lunch and spoiled me rotten with new clothes. I felt like a princess. Logan was always fairly sensible with money. He would treat me to things a lot but never as much as what Kendall had just spent on me.
Once he was confident with my dress sizes he even begun to just pick clothes up himself that he thought I would like and put them in the basket.
After lunch we spent more time browsing the shops, nature called though and I needed to break away from Kendalls loving hand and visit the bathroom.
Kendall went in to a shop while I went to the toilet. As I came out to wash my hands another girl was at one of the basins. I smiled at her, she eyed up the love bites on my neck then awkwardly smiled back.
As she dried her hands and left I had the oddest feeling that I knew her from some where.
I racked my brains to think. She was definitely older than me. Dread filled my bones as I figured I must know her from Texas. Maybe at Logan's mom's party? She looked that sort. I hoped that Logan didn't have another secret girlfriend he had two timed me on.
I definitely knew her though. I pushed it to the back of my mind and went to find Kendall who had a pile of clothes in his arm that he was going to buy me.
After 4 days of constant Kendall-time I was beginning to feel like I needed some me-time. I pretty much lived in Kendalls room, we didn't always do much, but unless we went out we would do everything in this room in including eat. We no longer hung out with Logan and Carlos. James I hadn't seen since I told him I hated him and Kendall had begun to get odd again!
I got dressed in the morning in to an old pair of shorts and a pretty vest top, I went in to lounge on Kendalls bed thinking he was in a good mood.
"Oh are you wearing that?" He said casually pausing his video game as he looked at my choice of clothing.
"Yeah I wasn't planning on doing much today" I replied as I scanned through a few of his dvds.
"Why don't you wear some of the new clothes I got you?" he said with a smile.
"Well I can do... if you want... I just put these on to laze about the house. Might go in to the hot tub later." I said with a smile. Hoping he wasn't about to go weird on me again. He had been so normal the last few days.
"Well I don't mind picking something out for you" he replied excitedly, getting off the bed and going in to my room.
A few minutes later he came back with the choice of two outfits. One was a pretty maxi dress he had got me. The other was a pair of black denim jeans and a long sleeved top.
I pulled a funny face as I looked at his choices. "It's a bit hot to wear those kendy" I said.
"Well go with the dress then. Least it will cover your legs up" he replied.
I let out a laugh at his blatant rudeness. "What's wrong with my legs?" I said still chuckling.
"Nothing! they are beautiful Sheri. I like legs like yours" he said giving one of them a rub.
I took some offence to his comment. "What do you mean like mine?"
"Well... full, I like it that your chubby" he replied.
His words may have well have been wrapped in barbed wire as they hurt my heart like hell.
I didn't say anything further. I told myself not to listen or take any notice, but my silence seemed to spur him on to explain even more.
"To me your beautiful Sheri.. don't worry about it." He said. "Any way at least if your covered up then I know your not flaunting yourself to other guys" he said raising a knowing eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" I asked getting sucked in to the conversation.
Kendall smiled. "I've seen you flirt with other guys" he replied with a grin. "It's cool though. Im not prepared to let you get stolen away from me, so don't you worry." he said kindly, then gave me a kiss as if this was the most normal conversation ever.
My heart died once again as the realisation that Kendall was indeed on one of his weirdo moods again. I had never flirted with another guy while being with him. Why would he say that?
I took the clothes from him. "I will go change in to the dress." I replied with a pretend smile.
"Okay baby" he replied as he went back to playing his Xbox game he had on pause.
Once in my room I got undressed and had a look at my body in the mirror. I didn't think of myself as chubby. I took a pinch of skin from my 'full' legs, as Kendall had described them.
It was a fair pinch I could grab. Maybe I had put on weight. Either way I felt a bit crappy about the reflection that stared back at me.
I put the dress on, it was pretty. Kendall was kind to of bought it for me. I examined my appearance in the mirror. I had never really cared what I looked like but as I stared at my reflection I noticed my arms could be more toned. I didn't like them at all. They looked chubby too.
I reached in my wardrobe for a cardigan that might match.
Once dressed and looking presentable I looked in the mirror and sighed.
The thought of Kendall in his mood terrified me. I left my bedroom and looked at Kendalls door.
My heart sunk. The way he was wasn't right. I decided to swallow my pride and talk to Logan. I needed his help. I walked passed Kendalls door and made my way down stairs.
I found Logan in the back garden. "Hey... how you been?" I said quietly.
Logan raised his eyebrows to me. "Good thanks" he replied with no feeling and no mention of how I may be.
"I'm sorry how I acted Logan... I miss you" I said truthfully.
Logan looked up. He also eyed up the love bites on my neck. I was getting a collection.
"Sheri... " He began but then gave up.
"Can we talk? I really need to talk to you logues" I replied.
"I'm sorry Sheri. It's none of my business anymore. That much is perfectly clear. As far as I'm concerned you've made your bed you can lie in it. I'm just on my way out anyway. I can't bear too look at you like that. I've seen enough bruises on your body to last me a life time. I don't understand why you would want him to willingly do that shit to you" he said looking at the love bites again. He then walked back in to the house and left through the front door.
I sat down in the patio chair. I felt so alone.
"Hey Sheri! Not seen you for ages" Carlos said as he stood in the doorway that led out here to the garden.
"Hey los... " I replied.
"You okay? You look bummed" he said.
"Can I talk to you los... about Kendall" I replied.
"Ah Sheri I honestly don't want to get involved in any of it. I've got Logan moaning about you 24 fucking seven." He explained.
"Please los... I need to talk to someone" I said getting emotional.
"Gods sake! Fine... make it quick" he said folding his arms over his chest.
"Can we go some where else?" I asked urgently.
"Sheri I've got a date in half hour I've not got time for this" he replied just as Kendall joined us.
"There you are! What's up?" Kendall asked looking fine but his eyes told me I was in trouble for not going back to his room.
"Sorry, Carlos was just after some advice" I replied quickly.
"oh really? Well I can help out los. No need to bother Sheri" he said.
I gave Carlos my 'please help me' eyes.
"Er.. well I was hoping to borrow Sheri, its my dates 18th tomorrow. I was hoping she would help me pick out some jewellery with me" Carlos lied.
"Oh right... well don't be too long" Kendall said really eyeing up the situation.
"Quick as a flash" Carlos said with a smile. He then took me by my wrist and we made our way to his car.
I breathed a sigh of relief to be away from Kendall for a little while.
"Carlos do you think that Kendall is okay?" I asked safely within the confinement of the car.
"He is a moody cunt Sheri, I have no idea what you see in him" Carlos replied as he drove his way down the road.
"Only recently though, he used to be so lovely" I explained.
"To you maybe, he treats the rest of us like shit. Look Sheri im happy that your all loved up and stuff but I really don't want to get dragged in to this" Carlos finished.
"Do you think I'm fat los?" I asked to which he looked at me oddly.
"No!" he laughed. "Your so random Sheri" he chuckled.
"Do you think that Kendall loves me?" I asked.
"Sure!" Carlos replied distracted as he pulled over. "Look Sheri, can we pick this up later. I really need to not be late for this date" Carlos said checking his watch.
"But I was hoping I could ask you some stuff." I said desperately.
"Yeah later Sheri, look if your having problems with him just dump his ass. You can do better than him. Is it okay if I drop you here and you walk back?" He asked checking his watch again.
I sighed. I felt I had lost the people that I needed most, now I had no one. "Yeah that's fine" I said reaching for the handle of the door.
Carlos looked at my face and saw that I was truly troubled.
"Look I promise tonight that you can spill your guts to me okay... this girl I'm meeting is so hot Sheri, I was late last time... I can't be late again" he said with a friendly smile.
I returned his smile. "Thanks los" I replied.
I gave him a hug and left the car. I was only about a twenty minute walk from our house. It was a hot day. I wished I had my shorts and vest on like I had first decided. I toyed with the idea that I might take my cardigan off but changed my mind as the word chubby entered my head.
Kendall must be a bit embarrassed by me if he feels the need to spend a fortune on a new wardrobe full of clothes to cover my body up.
A blue car pulled up just ahead of me, the window wound down on the passenger side. I expected to be asked for directions.
I walked passed the car.
"Sheri?" Came a female voice.
I stopped and peered in to the window. It was the girl from the toilet who I recognized.
"Yeah?" I replied still not clicking where I knew her from. "Do I know you?" I asked.
"No... no you don't... I need to speak with you though" the girl said.
"About what?" I asked cautiously.
"Kendall!" She replied.
"Who are you!?" I asked defensively placing my hand on my hip. I couldn't take another boyfriend cheating on me.
"My name's Mackenzie" she said.
it was then it came flooding back to me that I knew her face from Kendalls photograph.
author note: thanks to musicrox14 and gaby for your reviews and to the new followers of the story. I've never used one of the btr guys as a villain in my fanfics before but I am having fun with kendall being a complete bell end. just wanted to clear up one detail as I know a lot of younger rushers do read my stories when maybe they shouldn't, but you CAN get pregnant at any time of the month, even during your period so even if your boyfriend is as hot as Kendall, do not try it! gonna give myself a day off so next update will be Monday 26th aug. thanks for reading.