Hey guys. Well since Supernatural comes on tonight i figured i would give you guys two chapter tonight. i just finished typing this one up. I am almost done with ch. 27 so it should by sunday. Saturday i wont be working on it because i am going to watch New Moon!!! Anyways hope you guys like it. Review and let me know!!!!

Chapter Twenty Six

Two months…..It had been two months since Dean died and went to hell. Caleb and his mother agreed to let me stay with them. Actually they insisted. I didn't want to go back to South Dakota, at least not right now, so I stayed. I felt safe with the Son's. They are like family to me.

Sam had gone off on his own. I told him I would come, but he wouldn't let me because of the baby. We've kept in contact though. He call's me almost every day to let me know he's okay. Or if he's working on a hunt he will call me before and after. He's came to visit me twice.

I told him he had to at least once a month. He's actually coming today to visit. He made it to Caleb's around 6:00p.m.

"Hey Sammie." I said as he walked into the living room. I walked over and gave him a hug.

"Wow Maddie, You're putting on a little weight."

"Sam, I'm five months pregnant. Yeah, I've put on weight."

"Ah Mad's it's cute." I put my hands on my belly.

"It's my baby bump." I said with a smile. It caused him to laugh at me. I looked like I had a basket ball under my shirt. Well maybe a little bit smaller than a basketball. "You mister need to go get ready. Were going to Nicky's."

Sam smiled, kissed me on the fore head and went upstairs to take a shower. An hour later we were in the Impala headed to Nicky's.

We walked through the doors of the bar. For some reason I felt like someone or something was watching me. Call it my hunters intuition. I scanned the bar, but didn't notice anything. I walked up to the bar and Nicky brought me a water. I had gotten to know him pretty well since being in Ipswich. Turned out he knew about hunters and the supernatural world. He knew my dad and also John Winchester.

We found the rest of the group sitting at our usual table by the foosball machines. Everyone seemed happy to see Sam. They know how close him and me are.

We had been at Nicky's for about an hour and half. That's when I spotted Ruby. I got up from the table and walked over to where she was sitting.

"What the hell do you want?"

"I'm not here to see you princess. I'm here for Sam." I felt hands on my shoulder. I looked away from the demon bitch to see Sam standing beside me. He didn't seem to surprised to see Ruby. He actually seem a little happy.

"Sam. Please tell me your not friends with her?" Sam didn't say anything. He just looked away from me. "Sammie she's a demon."

"I know that Maddie, but she's helping me." We held each others gazes for a moment.

"Whatever Sam. I'm going home. Get you demon bitch to give you a ride." I took the Impala keys from Sam and walked out the door.

I got to Caleb's and went straight to my room. Ten minutes late I heard the door open and close down stairs. Then I heard footsteps on the stairs. My bedroom door opened and in walked Sam. He went to my closet and started digging through my things.

"What are you looking for?"

"Weapons."

"Why?" I got up off my bed.

"Ruby got a lead on Lilith. I'm going after her."

"What? If your going then so am I."

"No."

"Sam, damn it, you can't do this alone."

"Maddie it's now or never, and your not coming." He came from the closet holding a duffle.

"How are you going to kill her?" He walked over to my night stand and pulled open the drawer.

"With this." He held the demon knife in his hand. I grabbed his hand.

"Stop. You cant go in reckless Sam. And your not going by yourself. We've got one shot at this. Lilith's not going to be alone."

"Your not going."

"So what if she kills you first?" I blurted out without thinking. Sam didn't say anything and avoided eye contact. "Oh my god. You don't plan on surviving this." I said quietly.

"Maddie come on. That's-"

"You want to die fighting Lilith." I said cutting him off.

"That's stupid.""No. It's not. Because if you kill Lilith and you survive this, you still have to go on living without your brother."

He headed to the door. I followed him and blocked his way before he could get out. "This isn't what Dean would have wanted Sam. It's not what he died for."

"Maddie get out of my way."

"No Sam, It's suicide."

Sam grabbed me and pushed me against the wall. He held the demon knife to my throat. Tears ran down my face. I didn't believe Sam would really hurt me. I could feel the sting of the blade where it nicked my neck.

"I have to live without him every day too Sam. I know what it's like and how you feel." I said in a whisper with my eyes closed. I opened my eyes and Sam was staring at me. He let me go and went out the door.

Three hours later Sam returned. Caleb had come home to check on me when he noticed I left Nicky's. He walked in on me while I was cleaning my neck. He then started asking hundreds of questions.

I told him everything that happened, which caused him to get pissed. Caleb has become like an older brother to me. A very protective older brother.

Sam walked into my bedroom without knocking. He had a busted lip, a cut on his fore head and a bruise forming on his right cheek.

"Maddie, I know your probably pissed at me right now, but can we talk?"

"I think you've fucking done enough." Caleb said getting up off my bed.

"Caleb, it's fine. Sam's not going to hurt me." Caleb turned and glared at me.

"Yeah, like he didn't earlier." I scrunched my eyebrows at him in the get-out-now way. He understood and left. Sam came over and sat on the bed beside me.

"Maddie, I am so sorry about earlier. I didn't mean-"

"You know I get it." He stared at me confused.

"Get what?"

"It's hard to live without him. Every day seems to be harder than the last. It would be much easier just to end it. End your life. Then the pain would go away." I looked up at Sam. "I think about him every day. He's always on my mind. I know how you feel Sam. I'm right there with you." I had tears running down my cheeks. "This baby, your nephew, he's going to need you as much as I do Sam. Dean's not here, Sammie. My little boy is going to need someone to look up to. To tell him about his dad. We both need you Sam."

I got up off my bed and looked him straight in the eyes. I was still mad. "And if you ever hold a knife to my throat again, you'd better kill me, or you wont have a dick to fuck your demon bitch with anymore."

I left Sam sitting on my bed with his mouth hanging open.