December 13th - Beca
If I had to pick a song to describe this morning, it would be "Just a Dream". Or maybe the whole day. At least the chorus. I didn't get to wake up to her today, just a note saying to text her when I woke up, which was at 9. No finals today. Two tomorrow, one Thursday and I'm done. Only thing I have going on today is a late shift at the station. So I did, asking how she was doing, then a little bit later a second asking why she left, which apparently was to keep up her routine. Good for her. I suggested lunch, and she agreed. We agreed on the union because I knew she had a final at 1 and anyplace else would have been a hassle. At the moment though I was dying for a latte and a bagel so I headed to the little coffee shop in the union. As I was leaving my building, Stacie came up to me with a big smile on her face saying I was just "The Fox the one she was looking for. I asked why and she said she just wanted to talk, so I suggested she come with me for coffee, which she did. She did most of the talking, mainly about the Bellas, but a lot about Chloe, what I thought about her and such. That's why "Just a Dream" is today's theme song, because I was thinking 'bout her, thinking 'bout me, thinking 'bout us, what we gonna be? But wasn't about to tell that to Stacie, I'm barely able to talk about her here and to Aunt Tricia and her husband, why would I open up to someone I only kind of know? Not that I don't like Stacie or anything, she's nice and I'd consider her a friend, but…I'd need way more alcohol than I drink, near Uncle Zack levels, to talk about how I really feel about Chloe to her when I'm not even sure what's going on. So I told her we're friends, because that's not a lie. We are. Of course then again, Luke and I are kind of friends so….
Didn't do much the rest of the morning, studied a little, just to make sure I had things down, and then showered and got around to go meet Chloe for lunch. Lunch was alright, fast food, what more can you say about it? Well, Arby's curly fries rock. I paid today because it was my suggestion. Anyway, we really didn't talk about anything serious, but I kept wanting to, that damn chorus was in my head. After today, I have three days to do something or else I have to wait till New Year's Eve. Why couldn't I have just gone straight to Los Angeles? Then I could be hooking up with some random Venice beach bunny instead of obsessing over someone I don't even know where I stand with. Provided I came to the same realization there I did here.
After lunch, we went our separate ways. I just hung around till my shift, then went in. A lot of down time today, Luke's played a lot of full albums, Dark Side of the Moon, 2112, that kind of stuff. Jesse wasn't there, he had a final, so it was just me and the Brit. Craziest thing, he came out and talked to me, told me he listened to my mixes and they were good, he's going to think about maybe letting me in the booth. That was a nice distraction. Then I got a text from Chloe asking how my shift was and it was back to thinking 'bout her. I've decided, tomorrow afternoon, when school's out, I'm going to call Uncle Zack and talk to him, ask him what he did to win over Aunt Tricia. Now though, I'm texting Chloe and seeing if she wants to show me this Community thing. Maybe we can wake up together, so it isn't just a dream.