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Hospital, Again?
I awoke in a deathly white room that smelt like disinfectant. I groaned as I realised I was in hospital. I yawned and looked around the room. Edward was in the chair fast asleep. I smiled at the image. His hair was dishevelled and hung in front of his eyes. I grabbed the remote thing and pressed the buzzer for the nurse. I was shocked when a 30-something Tanya walked in. Trust her to still be working here, I bet it was because no one else wanted a slut working for them.
"You buzzed?" She smiled at me.
"Ermm… I just woke up and my boyfriend seems to be asleep so I don't actually know what's happened." I answered.
"I'll go get Dr. Smith. He'll tell you what's wrong." She smiled and left but not before getting a look at Edward. She left the room and I went to wake Edward up, I cringed when I noticed the IV in my hand.
"Edward!" I shouted hoping to get his attention, it never. "Oh I seemed to have my zip caught can you help me Mike?" I moaned. His eyes shot open and in one second flat he was on his feet. He smiled as he looked down at me.
"Hey Baby. You feeling better?" He asked as he kissed my forehead.
"I might do…after someone tells me what the fuck is wrong with me?" I said giving him evils. I was worried. I hated hospitals, something bad always happened in them.
"Hey! Don't look at me like that. I don't know anything either. They took some tests but they can't tell me the results. You know Patient/Doctor confidentiality." He smiled at me and I no longer felt as worried. I nodded and he smirked at me.
"Bells you scared the shit outta me. You shouted me and I just got there in time before you fell. I rang the ambulance and they come straight away. You've been out for like four hours." He ran his fingers through his hair.
"Hey." I grabbed his hand in mine, "It's okay. I feel fine now, I'm sure it's nothing."
"I guess. I don't like you being in hospital though Bells. I always remember that crash and how I almost lost you, I don't like feeling like that Bella." He brought my hand up to his mouth and kissed it. There were a few rapid knocks on the door and then Dr. Smith walked in, well at least that's what his nametag said.
"Hello Miss Swan. How are you feeling?" He asked.
"Fine. Still sorta tired. What's wrong with me Doc?" I asked with a smile on my face. I was so scared and making a joke out of it seemed to make it easier to deal with.
"Well nothings wrong, actually somethings very right. You're pregnant. The fainting must have been from exhaustion." He beamed. My face dropped! What the fuck? Edward and I were meant to be going slow but this was full speed 100MPH.
"What?" I asked with a confused look on my face.
"Okay well this wasn't the response I had imagined. I'll give you some time to consider all you options." He nodded and walked out the door. I looked over at Edward. He was just completely frozen. I waved my hand in front of his face, nothing. "Edward?" I called. I burst out crying, hormones. Suddenly it all fit into place, why hadn't I noticed before. I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand. I knew Edward wasn't ready, I could tell by his reaction. This time was nothing like the first time.
Flashback
I looked at the white stick in my hand. That one word would change my life forever, Pregnant. I had a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and it wasn't just the morning sickness. I was scared. Yes this wasn't the first time I had taken a test but the first time didn't end well. My hand was shaking uncontrollably. What if Edward didn't want this baby? What if the first time was like a sign to him, a wake up call? I was confused and scared shitless. I threw the test into a bag and threw it in the bin outside, I didn't want Edward to find it without me telling him first.
I sat on the sofa the whole day crying and watching TV. I'd like to say I was crying because I was happy but then I'd be lying. I think it was 15% happy and 85% scared. I wouldn't admit it too myself but I was crapping my pants every time I heard the word baby. I heard the knock at the front door and jumped up to answer it, nearly tripping on my blanket as I got up. I opened the door to see my tiny pixie sister-in-law holding her tiny one-month-old baby. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes when I noticed her,
"Alice?" I said but in a question sort of way.
"Ohhh Bella. What's wrong honey?" She asked as she walked into the house. She placed Calvin onto the sofa as he was sleeping and pulled me into a tight hug. I cried into her shoulder as she rubbed my back, trying and failing to get me to calm down. I eventually calmed down and after a few deep breaths I asked,
"What are you doing here?" Trying not to sound rude though,
"Well I was sitting at home, watching Cal sleep when I got this feeling. At about the same time Jazz came in and he was like I feel sad. Then I was just drawn to you, so I came to see to you. I was right, you're a mess." She smiled at me and somehow through the tears I managed to smile too. I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and snuffled.
"Alice…I'm…" I couldn't even get the word out. Why was I so scared?
"Pregnant." She smiled at me. Damn physic pixie! I cursed in my head.
"How did you know?" I asked even though I knew I didn't want to know.
"Mother's intuition." I laughed,
"You know you can only say that if you're MY mother." She blushed crimson and my spirits were lifted.
"Bella, why are you so upset?" She asked once all the laughter had faded.
"Do you really need to ask me that Ali?"
"Nothing's going to happen to this one. Bella I can feel it, you're both going to be fine."
"But I'm just scared it will." I huffed.
"Bella calm down. The first thing you should worry about is telling Edward. He might take it hard too." I nodded and she left, mumbling about maternity shopping.
I was pacing around by the front door. Edward was due home and I planned on telling him the moment he walked through the door. I didn't want nor did I need to wait. I just had to tell him. I didn't need it to be special because the news would be hard enough without thinking about it constantly. I heard the car pull up onto the stones. I stood aback from the door giving him just enough room to get inside first. I heard the car door slam and the crunch of his steps as he moved on the stones. I heard the swishing sound of him wiping his feet on the mat. I heard his keys jingle as he fiddled with them. The door opened. He stood there with a smile on his face that dropped as soon as he saw my sad and tear streaked face. He went to take a step towards me but I stuck my hand out to stop him. I took a deep breath in and breathed it out before saying the words that had being playing in my head all day.
"I'm pregnant." The moment the word left my mouth his suitcase dropped and he ran over to me. He attached his lips to mine and swung me around. Suddenly with his happiness, my sadness seemed to fade. Edward was happy and that in turn meant I was happy too. He placed my on the floor and kissed me once more.
"Baby, I love you so much. I can't believe this. I'm so happy." He grinned from ear to ear. I returned his smile. I was blissful, purely blissful. All the feelings from that day just seemed to melt away.
End flashback
And now was nothing like that. He was still, frozen, unmoving, stationary, motionless, immobile and they all meant one thing, shocked. Ideas started rushing through my head as I lay there watching Edward. What if he didn't want it? Would I have to raise it alone or give it up for adoption or worse could I abort it? The answer to both the later two were no. I could never kill an innocent living thing because my boyfriend and I made a stupid mistake. It was a part of me and I could never give them up even if they were unplanned. If Edward didn't want the baby than I'd raise them alone without him. A baby is a precious gift and who am I take its life. Edward shook his head.
"I can't believe this." He said as he did so. His voice was heavy and there was pain in it. I knew then he didn't want the baby.
"Edward…" I went to talk but he interrupted me,
"No Bella please don't say anything." He said as he ran his fingers through his hair. I closed my mouth and waiting for him to carry on, if he was going to anyway. Edward stood up and walked to the corner of the room, over by the window. I watched as he watched, time ticking away as I waited. The tick of the clock was the only noise in the room along with the occasional huff from the bronzed haired man in the corner. Suddenly he turned. Much to my surprise he had a smile on his face.
"Bella. I love you so much that without you I'm never complete. I want no I need to be with you. I don't care if we're suppose to be going slow, we are having this baby." He rushed to me, kissed my head and waited for me to talk. I took longer than necessary due to utter shock.
"Good because there is no way on this earth I'd ever kill our baby." I smiled as Edward grinned at me.
"I love you so much Bells, I can hardly believe this is real at times. This is like my own little heaven on earth." He kissed my head.
"I know." I smiled up at him. Suddenly his face dropped and sadness spread across his face.
"What about Nathan?" He asked. I laughed,
"He's been begging me for a baby for years!" Edward laughed as he kissed my lips this time. Edward climbed onto the bed and lay down with me. I moved so I could rest my head on his chest. His heart was beating about 120 beats per minute and I could feel it pump hard against my chest.
"You know when this little disaster happened don't you?" I asked as I looked up at him.
"At the cabin and I can't believe I forgot a condom! How stupid can I be?" he grinned down at me so I knew he was joking.
"I'm pretty glad you forgot. I've always wanted more kids, maybe 2 or 3 after Nate but I only wanted them with you."
"Same. I never even took the chance of getting any of my 'Bimbo's' preggers."
"How? You can't avoid pregnancy 100% you know Edward. What if you got one of them pregnant, what would you have done then?" I asked.
"It's impossible." He said as he shook his head at me. What I didn't understand was the cocky little grin on his face.
"How? Please explain to me because I have no idea how that's impossible."
"I never had sex with any of them, not even one. You can't get a girl pregnant if you don't fuck 'em." My mouth made a little 'O' shape. "Close your mouth honey, your catching flies." He laughed, placed his hand under my chin and closed my mouth for me.
"I'm sorry, I'm just shocked that's all. I just assumed…" I trailed off not even want to finish that sentence.
"Come on Bells, you know me. I'm not like that." I nodded and yawned. "How can you still be tired? You've been asleep for 4 hours!" I shrugged before snuggling into him.
He began to sing to me,
The strands in your eyes that colour them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be your love suicide
and I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above.
He breathed and kissed my head. I don't think he knew I was awake still but when he was singing such a beautiful song to be how the fuck am I supposed to sleep during that.
"I love you Bella so much that I'm scared. I love you more now then I ever have before. I've screwed up so much, I'm truly sorry. I can't believe we're going to have another baby. A girl that looks just like you as Nathan does. He's so like you Bells, you did I good job with him. I don't want any of our kids to look like me or act like me because I'm an ass and your so perfect. I don't deserve you. I don't even know why I can't tell you when you're awake, I guess I'm just chicken shit." He kissed my head.
"You just did." I said. It caused Edward to jump and he landed on the floor. He stood up with a smile on his face.
"I don't believe you. I thought you were asleep." He ran his fingers through his hair.
"I know but I'm glad I weren't. I can't believe you didn't tell me. I'm not mean enough to laugh at you or anything." He climbed back on the bed and I moved once more onto his chest.
"I know. I honest don't know why I didn't tell you before." I looked up at him and he kissed my lips.
"No more secrets." I said
"No more secrets." He agreed.
"Good because I need to tell you something…" He cocked his eyebrow at me, "You wanna hope Baby isn't a girl because they'll be two and it'll turn into Babies." He laughed.
"You can't be sure." He said as he kissed my head.
"I can tell you've never been to one of my family reunions. There's like 4 sets of twins, they are all girls. There's like 3 boys, all singular birth. I mean look at Rose, she's the perfect example. She had Leon, he's a boy and he's a singular birth. Then she had Lexi and Keira, They are girls and ohh look they are twins." He nodded but I knew he'd never give up. Tanya walked in a few minutes later telling Edward he had to leave. He kissed my lips,
"Night Belly. You keep my Babies safe." He said as he placed his hand on my stomach. "It's a girl Bells, I just know it."
"Night Eddie. If you insist, you were wrong last time remember." He gave me the finger and then left. I laughed. I laid my head on the pillow, my eyes drifted shut and sleep took over.
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