A/N: Thanks for the reviews, favorites and follows! :) Now, this is gonna be a dark chapter, but it will fit into the story...if it offends you, then don't read, otherwise, reviews are welcome!

Trigger Warning: Attempted Suicide

Two weeks later, both Amanda and DJ have left to go back home. Joe has not seen them since that night they came to Florida. Jon and Colby have talked to him off and on during that time so he knew Amanda and DJ were in good hands. He just missed them so damn much. He never knew how much he really loved her until she walked out of his life...maybe for good. Hell, he still loves her with all his heart. During this time, he had stayed in the hotel room and hasn't left at all. Not even to work out or get massages. He stayed locked up, staring at her picture with tears that have now dried up and gone.

He has nothing else to live for, his love of his life is gone, the boy he grown to love is gone, even his best friends can't stand him anymore. It's like he isn't worth living anymore. He doesn't have a reason to live. His job isn't as exciting anymore, like he lost the love he had for it now. Like he dreads going back, knowing how empty he really is inside.

His phone has been going off for the last three hours. Every time, he ignores it. What's the point of it? To be told he screwed up again? It's not like he needs to be reminded anymore. He looks at his phone and sees that its both Jon and Colby trying to get ahold of him. Everytime, he just sets it back down. He realizes that he has no one when he screws up, like they all deserted him. No matter how bad things got between him and his boys, they always had his back to some degree, this time, they didn't. They just completely turn their backs on him. Who could blame them?

He finally gets up and walks over to the balcony window. He opens up the curtains and realizes its almost dark. Not caring how he looks, he opens the door and walks out. He looks over at the beach, the place he was gonna take his girl and DJ to have fun while they were here. But that wasn't to happen. He closes his eyes, fresh tears forming, taking a deep breath of the night air and opening his eyes again. He can smell the salt smell in the air on a warm crisp night sky that is setting now. He leans against the rail and looks down. He sees people scattered around the pool area down below. Family swimming together, playing together, etc. Things he missed doing with those two. Oh his heart hurts...it hurts badly. He hasn't eaten in days, just wasn't hungry. He hasn't showered in days, no sense as he has no where or no one to get ready for. His beautiful hair is all matted and just blah. He just doesn't care anymore.

He looks at again, he hears knocking at his door, but he doesn't move to answer it. He instead, lifts his leg over the railing, one at a time, until he is on the other side with his hands holding the rail behind him. Tears still falling, he looks up at the sky. The persistant knocking gets louder and louder, but yet, he still doesn't acknowledge it. He is too dead inside to even care anymore. Finally, he hears the door opening with shouting.

"Joe! Joe! Where the fuck are you?" Dean yells out as him and Colby search the whole room, also noticing the odor. "Damn! It sticks to high hell in here!" he says to Colby as he walks through the room with clothes and garbage scattered throughout. "JOE! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? I KNOW YOU ARE IN HERE DAMMIT! ANSWER ME!"

Colby stops Jon as he sees the balcony door opened with the curtains flowing from the wind. They both look over and sees Joe on the other side of the railing.

"Oh shit! Joe! What the hell are you doing?" Colby asked as both he and Jon got out onto the balcony, careful not to get to close to him. "Joe, please answer me! What are you doing?"

"Why do you care?" Joe calmly asked as he stands there, not moving, but looking down.

"Joe, man, come on, get back over the railing. We can help you if you need it" Jon softly said as he treaded lightly over the words.

"Too late" he said matter of factly.

"No it's not, please, come on, we can help you, but please don't jump" Colby pleaded as he struggles to quit shaking at the sight before him. He has never seen Joe like this and it wasn't good. He looks over at Jon, who is just as visually shaken as well.

"Why? It's not like you two care. And if you say you do, I will call you a fucking liar right now."

"Joe, we do care, and if you want to call me a liar, then so be it, but we do, why else have we been staying in contact with you despite what went down? And even been calling and texting you all day?" Colby responded as he inches closer to Joe.

"Come any closer Colby and I will fucking jump. But then again, it would be the best sense you guys won't miss me anymore. Same goes for Amanda and DJ since they don't even acknowledge that I even exist anymore." Joe sneered, making Colby stop dead in his tracks.

"That is where you are wrong Joe. They both love you, they are just hurting, especially Amanda. But I know you are too Joe, but trust me when I say that you mean a lot to us four, whether you believe it or not. I know you love Amanda with all your heart, just don't give up on her. Please, as much of an asshole as we are to you at times, we know how much you love her. We see how you light up when you talk to her every night when we are out on the road. We noticed how much happier you are when her name is mentioned by us. I don't think in the amount of time we have known you, that we have ever seen you like this. She literally makes you do anything you want to do, and you do. Please, don't do this, I don't want to have to tell her that you took the coward way out because you didn't want to face what you did. Yes, you screwed up, she knows that, she is and still is so scared of losing you to someone who can give you want you so gravely want. She knows how hurt you are about your little Kami, trust us, she went to her grave the other day and sat there and talked to her for hours."

That got Joe's attention as he looked over his shoulder to Colby..."She what?"

"Yes Joe, " Jon piped up, "We took her to her grave so she could talk to her before she left. We three sat away from her for about four hours, she cried, she laughed, I mean, she was just talking to her about you. From what I could hear, she said she loves you so much that she was willing to let you go so you could be happy with someone who could give you everything you ever wanted. She was just sorry that she couldn't be the one to do it, but that she was thankful that you had Kami watching over you. Joe, you don't realize how hurt she really is. She loves you too damn much that she is willing to sacrifice her happiness so that you can have yours."

"But she makes me happy. She is what makes my day whole, her love, her faithfulness, her loyalty, her devotion to her son. Just everything about her makes me happy. I can't live without her guys, I tried and I just can't. Please, just let me be...please..." he sobbed as both Colby and Jon goes to grab Joe's arm before he let go of the railing. "Please let me go..."

"No, we won't do that Joe, you are our brother. No matter how bad things get between us at times, we will always be brothers. You are a part of us, you are always gonna be stuck with us. We love Amanda and DJ, but at the same time, we love you because of what we went through to get where we are at now." Jon said as he continue, "Joe, we need you in our lives, seriously, you are the most stable on of the group. You keep us on our toes by being who you are. Please, I am not the one for begging, but I am begging you, let us help you, please."

Joe looks at Jon's eyes and sees that he is sincere in his words. He closes his eyes, letting the tears finally fall for good. He opens them back up and nods.

Colby and Jon both take each arm and pull him over the rail backwards. After Joe puts both of his legs over the rail, he falls to the ground and just sobs. Colby bends down to where he is and holds him close as Jon sits on the other side and gently pats his hair, which he finally sees how bad it was, but doesn't care at the moment. He is just happy that Joe decided to let them help him, anyway they can.

"Joe, let's get you inside, we need to get you cleaned up and feed you. We promised we will still be in the room waiting for you when you get out of the shower and dressed. Okay?"

Joe nods as he wipes he nose on his stained shirt. Both Colby and Jon help Joe up and walked him inside with Jon closing the door and shutting the curtains. Colby walks Joe over to the bathroom and hands him two towels. "Here, take a nice hot shower and we will order both room service and maid service. You need clean sheets and towels. Take as long as you want, but I will be checking on you so don't try anything."

Again, Joe nods as he takes the towels and heads into the bathroom, while Jon calls for both room service and maid service. Lord knows this room needs some serious cleaning.

"Okay, got food ordered for the three of us and the maid is on her way up to change the sheets and give clean towels and change the garbage. Hopefully it will all be done and here by the time Joe gets done with the shower."

"Good. We should call Amanda and let her know what is happening. I have never seen Joe like this, ever and it scares the shit out of me that he would have been thinking suicide as a way out. I know he is hurting, but I honestly never thought he would be this low. I just hope Amanda can help out, cause we can't lose him." Colby was shaking as he was talking to Jon knowing how close they came to losing Joe. It scared him. It even scared Jon more than he was willing to admit.

"Colby, we will talk to Amanda, just not right now, Joe needs us to be strong for him because right now, he is not in his right mind. Amanda will be going nuts if we tell her right now, and we can't be there to help her at the moment. We will tell her tomorrow so that we can concentrate on Joe tonight. We need to somehow get these two talking again and soon. We are due back to work in a couple of days and he needs to be in powerhouse mode. As much as I love and adore Amanda and DJ, they are Joe's and Joe is theirs. No denying that. They fucking love each other too damn much and I am gonna make sure that we get things going. Are you with me?"

Colby looks at Jon shocked. Jon had always had a thing for Amanda, but at the same time, he respected Amanda and Joe enough to not interfere because of his feeling for her. He was willing to sacrifice his own for the sake of their happiness. That is what made Colby respect Jon more. He could have been prouder.

Colby holds out his fist and Jon fisted him back. "Yes, I am with you, and I am proud of you Jon, that can't be easy for you to do."

"Well, just don't let that out as I have a repuation to uphold, and I still know about your purple friend so keep it on the downlow!"

Colby sticks his tongue out as Jon smacks his arms. After a few minutes, Joe comes out looking all fresh and clean.

"Okay guys, so how are you gonna help me?"