Chapter 26: Life Goes On
Jax Teller who was the president of the mother charter was sitting at the head of the table. The room was empty giving him time to collect his thoughts.
He looked down at his wedding ring and closed his eyes. The day of his wedding, not only did he have a major heart attack. But, it was also the day he lost his other half. The only girl he actually and truly loved. The only girl who put up with his bullshit. The only girl who would stand by his side, no matter what choice or mistakes he made. Not only did he lose his wife but his kids lost their mother.
Abel took it the hardest. He would wake up screaming and crying for Bella. The day of the funeral he opened the casket and screamed for Bella to open her eyes. After Bella died, Abel wasn't the same. His eyes that used to be filled with happiness were now filled with emptiness.
Now at the age of 21 he didn't give a fuck about anything. During the day he was a quiet kid. He would work on his bike all day and then go to his mother's grave. But at night, he was different. At night he buried himself in pussy, booze and drugs. Another thing about Abel, is he never settles down. He would have a different crow eater each night. He respected no women but his mother and little sister, and of course his two favorite aunts, Cherry and Ruby.
But any other bitch, he could care less about. That's what he said when his latest fuck was found in the river dead. The worst part was she was pregnant with his kid. He didn't even shed a tear at the funeral. He took a drag from his blunt and rolled his eyes as everyone around him cried as they lowered the bitch's casket.
He was a cold heartless punk who was becoming more and more like his father each and every day.
Giselle was the spitting image of her mother. Her blonde hair turned into a beautiful hazelnut color. Her eyes were soft brown just like her mother's. Gigi watched as both her father and older brother fell to pieces when her mother died.
The once happy little girl was now a depressed young woman. When Bella died, Abel and Giselle grew close. They were attached to the hip. At first Gigi didn't understand why she no longer saw her mother. The older she got the more she understood and the more she missed Bella.
At the age of 16 Gigi started smoking weed and drinking her life away. One day she overdosed and almost lost her life but that wasn't for a 17-year-old kid named Joey. He happened to be her science partner. Now at the age of 19 she is engaged to be married to the same kid that saved her. Her father didn't approve, but Abel did. That was all that mattered.
Growing up Giselle could care less about what her father thought. All that mattered was her older brother's opinion. Abel pretty much raised Gigi when Bella died. When she turned 18 Abel had only one wish for his little sister. That was for her to get as far away from Charming as possible.
That is exactly what she's doing. After the wedding she and Joey will be moving to South Carolina to start their family. No one but Abel knew that Gigi is two months pregnant.
As for Thomas, Thomas doesn't remember much about Bella. His memory of her is fuzzy. All he remembers is seeing pictures of her and seeing her in his dreams. It sucked because he was just a baby when his mother died. Soon after she died someone else took her spot as his mother.
As for the rest of the club? Opie went into a depression when his sister died. Bella was the only one who kept Opie alive and kicking when Lyla walked out on him. He swore he would never love another girl and he swore he would never take another old lady. That was before he met Kelly who happened to be Skyler's cousin. He met her four years after his sister died. Kelly's car broke down on the side of the road and Opie was there to fix it for her.
Their relationship wasn't easy at first. Opie ignored Kelly. Whenever Kelly would show up at the club Opie made sure to have sweet butts at his side. That went on for about a month before Kelly finally grew some balls and confronted Opie, with the help of her cousin of course. Long story short a day later they were in a relationship. Then four years later they were married. One year after that they had a set of beautiful twins. One boy and one girl, Isabella Marie and Jasper Joseph. Then a couple years after the twins were born, little Mark was born.
Skyler got married two months after Bella died. She refused to make anyone her maid of honor. Stating that position was for Bella. A year after the wedding Skyler found out she was having a baby boy. She named him Jonathan Ryan. Two years later her old man died when his bike lost control on the dark rainy night. The club of course to care of Skyler and her son.
Mia and Sonny got married a couple of years later and now have three kids, Julie, Daniel and Sonny Jr.
Lucky lost his old lady Melady in a car accident do to a drunk driver. He ended up marrying the sweet butt Rosalie. They have three kids, Amanda, Tyler and James.
Ruby and Cherry both took Bella's death really hard. The day after Bella died, Ruby found out she was pregnant. She often cursed God for taking Bella away from her. Nine months later Ruby gave birth to a beautiful son and named them Carter Braxton. A year later she gave birth to a baby girl and named her Hope.
As for Cherry? Well the year after Bella died, Cherry and Young Blood continued to date. Each year he would ask the same question over and over again. Each time she would answer the same way. Until one night Cherry had a dream about Halfsack. In the dream he told her he loved her but it was time for her to be happy and move on. At first she took that message hard. Finally six years after Bella died, Cherry agreed to become Young blood's old lady. A year later they were married. A couple months after Cherry's wedding she found out she was pregnant and that it was a girl. They named her Sophia Maria. 2 years later she gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and named him Anthony Thomas. Then three years after Anthony, she gave birth to little Travis. That was one she found out she can no longer have kids.
Juice finally grew some balls and asked out Brooklyn. A couple months later she became his old lady. They got married two years later. They now have four kids, two boys Carlos and Kenny, and two girls Harley and Chrissy.
Emily ended up leaving Chibs two years after Bella died. She returned to Jacob and five months later the club got news that Emily was found dead in a ditch outside of La Push Washington. Jacob and his son were nowhere to be found. A few months after Emily died Chibs fell in love with the new sheriff. She was a huge help to the club. She turned a blind eye when shit happened that involved the club. After being together for four long years, Chibs and Miranda got married. She quit her job as sheriff the same day. She became a full-time old lady and mother too little Peter, Charlotte and their newborn Charlie.
Tig is still his crazy, weird self. He hasn't met anyone yet who he wanted to settle down with but he was okay with that. He loves all the pussy that was being thrown at him.
Redman died two weeks after Bella. He had a heart attack while riding his bike home and ended up riding off a cliff.
As for the club's killer. When Bella was pronounced dead he left and went nomad. No one knows where he is or where he is going, and that is just the way he wanted it to be.
Bella's death? They found out that Palatino had a younger son, Palatino Jr. He was out for blood and revenge for the death of his father. He organized the drive-by.
After searching for the piece of shit for six months Jax found him crying at his father's grave. Jax spaced out Palatino Junior's death of three long painful days. Until finally he died from 'drinking too much'.
Jax sighed as he ran his hand through his hair. He opened his eyes as he heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." Jax mumbled.
"Hey baby." The sweet voice said from the door. Jax looked up and half smiled at his girlfriend.
Yeah that's right Jackson Teller moved on after his wife died. Remember the sweet butt that Jax fucked the week before his and Bella's wedding? Tiffany? Yeah she became his go to girl to let some stress out and on some days she even became his punching bag. A month after Bella died, Tiffany moved into Jax and Bella's house. All because he hated being alone.
Whenever people called her his old lady, Jax would correct them and say that he only had one old lady and she died. That hurt Tiffany more then Jax knew but he didn't care. The kids hated Tiffany. Well all of them but Thomas, he loved her. He would call her mom which would make her smile. It pissed Gigi and Abel off. They hated their dad and his girlfriend. They accused Jax on moving on to fast and trying to replace their mom.
"Hey" Jax whispered as he ran his hand through his hair which was slowly showing some gray.
"What's wrong baby." Tiffany asked as she stood near the door.
"Just thinking." Jax mumbled.
"Well stop thinking it's giving you too many gray hairs." Tiffany chuckled as Jax half smiled.
"I already got gray-hair darlin what's a couple more." Jax chuckled as he smiled.
"You look sexy with your bad ass gray hair." Tiffany winked as Jax stayed quiet.
"You're thinking of her again aren't you?" Tiffany sighed as she frowned.
"Of course I am." Jax hissed as he glared at his girlfriend.
"She's the love of my life." Jax hissed as Tiffany flinched. Tiffany was about to reply when Abel walked into the room.
"Hey old man time to go." Abel said as he totally ignored the blonde at the door.
"I'll be there in a minute." Jax mumbled to his son.
"You better be you promised her." Abel hissed at his father.
"Don't talk to father like that." Tiffany hissed at Abel. Abel glared at the blonde.
"What the fuck are you doing in here. You know the rules, no trash in church." Abel hissed as he saw Tiffany flinch.
"I was talking to my old man." Tiffany hissed back.
"Tiffany get this through your thick head, you will never be his old lady. That position is already filled." Abel smirked.
"Really by who? A dead whore." Tiffany hissed but she gasped as she saw Jax and Abel's eyes turn black.
Abel snapped and had Tiffany up against the wall by her throat.
"Oh God I-" Tiffany began to say as she struggled to try and get free. Abel took out his knife and slid it along Tiffany's neck.
"Call my mom a whore again and I'll slide this knife across that pretty little neck of yours, and watch the blood spill out." Abel growled.
"I" Tiffany tried to say as Abel tightened his hold on her.
"I will end you bitch." Abel growled.
"Please" Tiffany begged as she slowly tried to slide a hand to her stomach.
"Abel let her go." Jax sighed as he tugged on his beard which made Abel turn and glare.
"That's right dad stick up for your whore." Abel just at his dad as he let me go. Abel watched as she fell to the floor and covered her body.
"Watch it kid." Jax glared at his son.
"Fuck you president. Everyone knows you never gave a fuck about mom." Abel growled at his father.
"I loved her Abel." Jax growled. Standing up glaring at his son.
"No you love putting your hands on her." Abel threw back making Jax flinch.
"You think I don't remember that shit?" Abel asked as Jax stayed silent.
"You think I don't remember hearing her cry herself to sleep when you wouldn't come home. Because you were too busy with your whore's." Abel yelled.
"You think I don't remember her covering up her bruises. I might have been a kid, but I still remember." Abel said as he glared at his father.
"You're the reason why she's dead you fucking bastard. She should have picked Happy. She would still be alive if she picked him." Abel screamed making Jax glare at his son.
"Mom wasn't even dead for a day and what did you do? You bury your face into pussy while aunt Ruby and aunt Cherry raised me and Gigi." Abel growled.
"Shut the fuck up." Jax yelled slamming his hands down on the table making Tiffany jump.
"Fuck you Jax you never gave a fuck about me or my sister. All you cared about was Thomas and pussy. Hell even Leah and Seth left because you didn't give a fuck about us. You're a piece of shit and I fucking hate you." Abel screamed at his father.
"Get the fuck out before I do something I'll regret." Jax growled to Abel.
"What? You going to hit me like you would do to mom. Do it you fucking prick." Abel said as he got in Jax's face.
"Jax don't." Tiffany whispered.
"Shut up whore this doesn't involve you." Abel hissed at Tiffany.
"Don't talk to her like that." Jax hissed as he pushed Abel back.
"Why? That's what she is. She's a whore. She was the first to jump on your dick and try to take mom's place and you fucking let her." Abel said as he pushed his dad.
"I'm no whore." Tiffany hissed making Abel raise his eyebrow.
"No? Really because what I see is a trailer trash whore." Abel growled to Tiffany.
"I'm going to be your mother in a month, show me some respect." Tiffany hissed making Abel freeze and Jax curse as she flashed her diamond ring.
"You got to be fucking kidding me." Abel yelled as he looked at his father.
"You're marrying this whore." Abel yelled as Jax glared.
"Watch it shit head." Jax growled.
"No you fucking watch it dick head." Abel hissed at his father he then turned to Tiffany.
"As for you, you will never be my mother. My mother is 6 feet under the ground. My mother is Isabella Marie Swan, and she will be my mother until the day I die and see her in heaven." Abel hissed as he pulled something out of his cut and threw it on the table.
"What the fuck is this." Jax hissed as he picked it up reading it.
"Sign it." Abel hissed as he threw a pen at and Jax.
"No" Jax growled as he pushed the paper back.
"After today me and Gigi will be gone. All that is left is Thomas, and I'm sure he would love it if you married your whore and she officially became his mom." Abel whispered making Jax glare.
"I'm not signing it." Jax growled back.
"Sign it you piece of shit." Abel screamed making Tiffany frown.
"You're not going nomad." Jax growled making Tiffany gasped.
"I'm leaving either way. So you can let me go or I'll fucking leave without it." Abel replied back. He then sighed and closed his eyes.
"Don't expect me to be at your fucking wedding." Abel said as he glared at Jax one last time before walking towards the door.
"Don't bother showing your face at Gigi's wedding. I'll walk her down the aisle myself. I have been more of father to her then you have. So just stay here with your trash." Abel said as he slammed the door behind him.
"Fuck" Jax hissed as he ran his hand through his hair.
"Baby I'm sorry." Tiffany said to Jax.
"Leave" Jax whispered making Tiffany frown.
"What" Tiffany asked.
"Get the fuck out of here." Jax yelled making Tiffany flinch and run out of the room.
"Mother fucker." Jax hissed as he clutched onto his heart as he sat back down at the table.
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Jax put his head into his hands. His life was shit. He wished he would have died instead of Bella. Just thinking about her makes his heart throb, he missed her so fucking much. She was his everything. She was all he thought about. Sure he will be marrying Tiffany, but he could care less. Sure he fucked her. He would always imagine it was Bella staring back at him as he pounded into the tight pussy. When he came home he would imagine it was Bella waiting for him instead of Tiffany. When he fell asleep at night he would imagine it was Bella sleeping in the bed next to him not Tiffany.
Jax smelt the sweetest scent of strawberry and heard a voice he thought he would never hear again.
"Jax" The voice filled the small room making Jax look up. He thought he was streaming when he saw his wife standing at the door leaning against it. She smiled at him making her scars on her face scrunch up. Brown and blue eyes sparkle.
"Bells" Jax breathed in as he stared at her. She smiled as she looked at him.
"Hey old man." Her voice sounded like the bell at a church. It was beautiful and gave him goose bumps.
"Is it really you?" Jax asked as tears filled his eyes.
"Yeah baby it's really me." Bella whispered.
"I thought I lost you." Jax said as he stood up and walks towards her. She frowned as he went to hug her but his hands went right through her.
"Fuck" Jax sobbed as he fell to the floor.
"I'm sorry baby." Bella whispered as she fell onto the floor next to him.
"Why did you leave me?" Jax sobbed.
"I didn't want to baby." Bella whispered as she tried to run her hands through his hair but it went right through his body making himself even more.
"You promised me that you wouldn't leave me." Jax whispered.
"I didn't mean to break my promise." Bella hissed but then closed her eyes.
"Why couldn't it be me?" Jax whispered as tears fell from his face.
"Don't say that." Bella whispered to her old man.
"You have no idea how bad I wished this was a bad dream. That I would wake up and you would be in bed laying next to me." Jax sobbed.
"I know, me too baby." Bella sighed.
"You seem to be doing good though." Bella said as she has smiled at him making him glare.
"Don't" Jax hissed and Bella and Bella smiled.
"I always knew if it wasn't me you ended up with, it would have been Tiffany." Bella half smiled at Jax.
"Shut up Bells." Jax hissed as Bella laughed an evil laugh.
"Is that why you're here?" Jax hissed at Bella which caused her to raise her eyebrow.
"What you mean Jackson?" Bella asked as she looked at her old man.
"Are you here to fucking torment me." Jax hissed as Bella glared but then she smirked.
"Maybe" She said as she smirked at him and his eyes darkened.
"Jesus, even in the afterlife you still torment me." Jax hissed and Bella frowned.
"Ouch" Bella said as she touched her heart and Jax frowned.
"I'm sorry" Jax whispered as he looked at her.
"Don't be. All that matters is that you're happy." Bella whispered as she closed her eyes for second.
"Happy? Happy you fucking serious Bella?" Jax asked as he glared at Bella.
"I'm far from happy! I lost the love of my life. Gigi and Abel hate me! They blame me for your death. Thomas, he thinks that whore is his mother!" Jax growled out to Bella which caused her to glare.
"Don't call her a whore you love her." Bella said as she stood up and crossed her arms over her chest.
"I don't love her! I love you Bella! It's you! It will always be you until the day I die." Jax said as he got up and walked over to his seat. He sighed and sat down staring at her.
"You shouldn't lie old man." Bella hissed as she glared at him.
"Fuck off Bells." Jax said as he glared back which caused her to sigh.
"I'm only here for a certain amount of time." Bella whispered as she looked up to the ceiling. She then looked at her old man. Really looking at him and thats when she noticed how sick he looked.
"You haven't been taking care of herself." Bella sighed as she walked over to him and tried to touch his face, but her fingers went right through him.
"I-" Jax started to say but Bella glared at him.
"You need to take better care of yourself Jackson." Bella said as she frowned.
"I don't have a reason too." Jax whispered as he saw the heartbroken expression on Bella's face.
"You have our kids Jackson. They need you." Bella said as she had tears in her eyes.
"I don't need me. They need you Bells. They don't give a fuck about me." Jax said to his old lady.
"That's not true." Bella whispered.
"Really" Jax said as he raised his eyebrows.
"Leah left with Victoria three months after you died. I heard they got married and moved back to La Push. They didn't even bother inviting me to the wedding. As for Seth? Seth met a girl named Amanda. They fell in love and he left with her without even saying goodbye to me. I heard they got married when Seth turned 18. Then he had a son when he turned 19. I haven't heard from them in years. Gigi hates me. She can't even look at me in the eyes. Honestly I can't even looked at her, because when I look at her all I see is you and Abel." Jax said as he shook his head.
"God Abel he hates my guts. He blames me for your death. He found out you had feelings for Happy. That Happy was in love with you. He wished you would have picked Happy. Because then you have been alive. He only stayed in Charming for one reason and that was because of Gigi. He and Gigi are attached to the hip. He pretty much raised her because I was too busy eating pussy, getting high and drunk all the time to take care of them." Jax said as Bella leaned against the wall with her eyes closed.
"Thomas. Jesus Christ, he is just like you. Even if he knows nothing about you, he is so full of life. Shit, he's like a mini you. He swears Tiffany is his mother, and I never could tell him the truth. You know because if someone even mentions your name I would have a mental breakdown." Jax said as he ran his hand through his hair. Making Bella open her eyes.
"Abel wants to go nomad." Jax whispered making Bella frowned and had tears in her eyes again.
"You can't let him." Bella pleaded with her husband.
"I can't stop him. He's 21 years old Bells. There's nothing I can fucking do." Jax hissed making tears fall from Bella's eyes.
"He will get killed." Bella sobbed as she held onto her heart.
"I know, and I think that is what he wants." Jax whispered to his wife.
"What" Bella gasped.
"He wants to be with you again Bells. You are his life. You always had a special bond and when you died that bond broke. Breaking him in the process! I'm surprised he held on this long… But I guess I can thank Giselle for that. When she leaves today, he won't have any other reason to stick around." Jax whispered.
"I won't let them." Bella sobbed.
"There's nothing we can do." Jax whispered as the room was silent. Suddenly light filled the room making Bella glow.
"God you're so beautiful." Jax said as a tear ran down.
"Shhh old man don't cry." Bella whispered as she walked up to Jax.
"Please let me to touch them. I promise to never ask for anything again." Bella whispered in her head as if the voice heard her. She touched Jax's cheek, making him look up at her as he felt her soft hands on his face.
"Come back to me." Jax sobbed as Bella pulled into her arms. Jax put his head on her shoulder and inhaled her smell. Same exact smell that he hasn't smelled for years.
"I wish I could." Bella whispered as tears fell down her face.
"I need you Bells, the kids need you." Jax said as he looked at her.
"I know baby I know." Bella whispered.
"You missed everything Bells everything." Jax hissed.
"No I didn't. I have been watching babe. I saw everything. Even shit you don't want to know about." She said as she heard voices, from above her. Bella frowned.
"It's time for me to go babe the big man said my time is up." Bella said as she looked at Jax and watched as he fell into pieces right in front of her.
"Why couldn't it be me." Jax sobbed as Bella's heart broke.
"Shh old man don't say that." Bella said as she ran her hands through his straight blonde hair. She looked as the light started to get brighter.
"You need to stay here Jax." Bella said as she stared at the light.
"I can't. I want to be with you." Jax whispered.
"Gigi needs her father." Bella whispered.
"I can't." Jax sobbed.
"I've gotta go Jax." Bella whispered as the light started to make Bella sparkle.
"Please don't leave me baby." Jax said as he sobbed.
"I love you Jackson so much." Bella said as she felt herself starting to get blurry.
"You need to start being a father again. Especially with the one Tiffany is carrying." Bella whispered which caused Jax to sob.
"I'm sorry Bells." Jax sobbed as Bella touched her heart as she felt it starting to hurt.
"Be a father to your children Jackson." Bella said as she ignored him. She felt herself begin to get fuzzy and her heart felt like it was on fire.
"Bells-" Jax tried to say as he looked at her.
"Love her and let her bring you happiness." Bella whispered to her old man as her body started to feel numb.
"I can't Bells. I can't let her take your place." Jax begged as he reached out to her.
"You already did." Bella said as she looked at him and his eyes filled with pain.
"I-" Jax started to say.
"I'm sorry was never good enough for you Jackson." Bella hissed as she looked at him as she held onto her heart tightly she felt like she couldn't breathe.
"You were Bells. You are too good." Jax whispered to her as pain filled Bella's eyes.
"I loved you so much Bells. I still do." Jax sobbed as he fell to his knees.
"I wish I could believe that." Bella said as a tear fell out of her I she felt her head starting to split.
"Please baby." Jax begged to his wife.
"Be happy Jackson." Bella whispered as she closed her eyes. She heard Jax scream for her.
Bella opened her eyes and saw she was inside dark room. She took a deep breath and touched her heart, and when she did this she fell to her knees.
"It's okay child take deep breaths you're having a heart attack." A female voice said in her ear.
"Help" Bella whispered to the female angel.
"Shh he's going to make it better and two seconds." The female whispered as she rubbed soothing circles on Bella's back.
"Close your eyes and breathe." The dark deep male voice boomed. Bella did what he said and she felt better.
"Now open." He said to her. She reopened her eyes and looked around and saw it was the same room she got ready in for her wedding. She slowly got up off her knees and walked to the bathroom door when she heard crying. She knocked on the door and heard the crying stop.
"Rachel go away I told you will be out in the second." Yelled the voice from the other side of the door. Bella smiled as she heard the voice.
"Giselle" Bella breathed out, she heard the crying stop.
"Momma" Gigi gasped as she threw open the door and saw her mother standing there.
"Momma" Gigi cried as she threw herself at her mother. Bella steadied herself and Gigi as she ran her hands through Gigi's soft hazelnut hair.
"Look how grown-up you are." Bella said as she pulled back and got a good look at her daughter. She smiled when she saw the locket on her neck.
"You're wearing it." Bella said as she touched the locket.
"I haven't taken it off since you gave it to me on your wedding day." Gigi whispered to her mother as she opened the locket and saw two pictures in it instead of one. Bella held the locket in her hand as she saw the picture bringing tears to her eyes.
"That was the day of my wedding." Bella said as tears ran down her cheek as she stared at the picture. The picture was of her in her wedding gown. She was holding Gigi in her arms. Gigi had her hand on her scarred face but she was turned towards the camera and she smiled.
"That was the last time I saw you." Gigi whispered as she looked at her mom.
"I know baby." Bella said as she cried. The second picture was of Bella laying on the couch with Gigi in her arms. Gigi was sleeping and Bella was smiling down at her.
"I'm so sorry momma." Gigi sobbed as she fell to the floor. Bella fell to the floor with her and pulled her into her arms.
"Shh baby there is nothing to be sorry for." Bella said as she tried to calm down Gigi.
"I miss you so much mom." Gigi sobbed into her mother's shoulder.
"I miss you too la mia piccola principessa." Bella said as she touched Gigi's cheek. Gigi cried as she heard her mother call her by her nickname.
"I tried so hard mom." Gigi whispered as she looked up at her mother.
"Shhh I know baby." Bella whispered back.
"I try to help daddy and Abel but it didn't work. I did everything I could momma." Gigi sobbed.
"You did great Gigi." Bella said as she ran her hands through Gigi's hair.
"Abel blames dad and in a way I do too." Gigi whispered.
"It's not his fault." Bella whispered to her daughter as Gigi stayed silent.
"So tell me about Joey." Bella smiled at her daughter.
"He is amazing mom. He saved me from myself." Gigi said as she smiled then frowned.
"The older I got the worst it would hurt to know you were gone. I needed you so much. Like when I got my first period, and my first heartbreak. I needed you momma." Giselle cried as Bella ran her hands through her hair.
"When I got to high school became too much. The stress of school and then coming home and making sure Tommy is fed and had his bath for school the next day. It was just too much. I saw Abel was drinking, so I thought it was okay for me to do the same! Soon beers turned into the hard shit. Then the hard shit turned into weed. When the liquor and the weed didn't seem to do its job anymore I turned to pills." Gigi whispered making Bella flinch.
"I would to and take anything I could to make the pain go away, or at least make it numb." Gigi sobbed.
"Then I met Joey. He was supposed to be my lab partner for science. We had a report to do, so I was supposed to meet him at the library. Well that date the pain was too much. It was your birthday and I couldn't take it." Gigi choked on her tears.
"I thought one pill would make it numb." Gigi whispered to her mother.
"But I felt nothing. I kept taking more and more until I felt numb. I went to lay down to take a nap and the next thing I knew I woke up in the hospital. Abel, daddy, Tommy, and Joey were in the room. They said I overdosed and Joey found me just in time. If he would have been a minute late I would have been dead." Gigi said to Bella.
"I remember that day." Bella whispered making Gigi look at her.
"What?" Gigi asked.
"I was there, all I begged for the big man to let me see you or at least be in the same room with you. I begged and begged until he finally agreed. You were in your hospital bed and Jax was yelling at you while Abel had tears running down his face and he held on to you for dear life. Bella said as Gigi nodded.
"Abel always protected me from the bad shit. He just didn't realize what I needed protection from, was myself." Gigi whispered.
"A week after that happened, me and Joey started dating. He helped me. I was in a dark place until he showed up and made everything so much better. He became the light at the end of my tunnel momma." Gigi said as she cried. Bella held her until she felt something tugging from up above. She looked up and sighed.
"I need to go baby." Bella whispered as she stood up and helped Gigi stand up.
"Please don't leave momma." Gigi begged.
"I'm sorry baby, but I have too." Bella said as she felt herself fading.
"Congratulations on the little one." Bella smiled and nodded at Gigi's skinny stomach. Gigi had her mouth wide opened looking at her mom.
"You look so beautiful baby girl, just like a princess. Be happy and enjoy today. I love you so much Giselle." Bella whispered as she closed her eyes and felt herself flying.
Bella felt herself stop so she opened her eyes and looked around. She was in front of a Harley. She looked down and saw someone sitting by the Harley smoking. As Bella grew closer she smelt the smell of weed and saw blonde hair.
"Since when did you start smoking." Bella said making the guy jump.
"What the fuck." The voice said as he turned around but froze.
"Mom" Abel gasped as he saw his mother standing there glaring at the joint in his hand. Abel put the joint out and raced to his mother, gathering her in his arms.
"Abel" Bella whispered into his cut.
"Fuck mom you're really here." Abel whispered as he looked her over.
"My little man, God how much I missed you." Bella sobbed as she held onto Abel's cut.
"Momma I missed you so much." Abel sobbed as he held onto his mother.
"Me too little man." Bella said as she pulled away.
"Jesus Christ you look like Jax." Bella said as she looked over Abel which made Abel glare.
"Don't compare me to that scum." Abel hissed making Bella reason eyebrow at him. She then smiled as she saw the patch on his cut.
"I always knew you would become part of the club." Bella smiled as she traced the patch.
"It was in my blood. No matter how hard I try to stay clear of the club, it would always suck me back in." Abel whispered.
"You can't go nomad Abel." Bella begged her son.
"I've got to mom." Abel sighed. Then he does what his father does when he is stressed. He ran his hand through his blonde hair.
"I got to get away mom. I can't take it here anymore. Jason took over when Redman died and he's allowing me to join his club down in Vegas." Abel said.
"Your place is here at the mother charter Abel. Charming is your home." Bella whispered to her son.
"No my place is with you, and one day I will be with you again." Abel said as Bella frowned at him.
"Abel where are you." Abel and Bella heard a voice say. Bella gasped as she knew that voice.
"Is that?" Bella asked as she looked at Abel.
"Yeah mom it's Thomas." Abel smiled as she looked as the young teenager stopped and looked at them.
"Mom" Thomas said as he looked at Bella.
"Thomas look how handsome you are." Bella smiled as she opened up her arms, but Thomas looked at her.
"What are you doing here." Thomas growled as Abel's eyes darkened.
"Don't talk to her like that shit head." Abel cursed as Bella patted his back.
"It's okay little man." Bella whispered to Abel.
"I'm here to see everyone." Bella said as she looked at Thomas.
Just leave you're going to make shit worse." Thomas growled as he walked away. Bella frowned but turned towards Abel.
"Mom-" Abel began to say.
"It's okay little man. It's time for me to go." Bella lied as she pulled Abel into a hug.
"Please don't go yet mom." Abel begged as Bella frowned.
"I have to little man the big man upstairs only gave me a certain amount of time with everyone." Bella whispered as she watched her son's eyes begin to water.
"I just got your back." Abel said as he sobbed.
"I will always be there Abel in spirit." Bella said as she touched the golden cross on his neck.
"You're wearing it." Bella said as she smiled.
"I never take it off." Abel whispered to his mom. Bella pulled her son into her arms as he sobbed.
"I love you momma." Abel said as he cried.
"I love you too little man." Bella said as she kissed his forehead. Bella watched as Abel pulled out a picture out of his own pocket. Abel handed it to Bella and she smiled.
"Remember that day?" Abel asked as he looked at his mom. Bella smiled as she stared at the picture.
"Of course I do. It was the first night I came home from my accident." Bella said as she touched your scarred face.
"Gigi called you a monster and I got pissed. I flipped out on her." Abel said as he looked at his mother.
"You called me you're pretty Princess." Bella chuckled as Abel smirked.
"You called me your handsome prince." Abel smiled at his mother.
"Then you took me upstairs with you. I fought with dad because he tried to take me away from you. I punched, screamed, and kicked until I was in your arms again." Abel said as he smiled.
"You fell asleep on my chest and I hummed to you as you kept repeating over and over again that no one would ever hurt me ever again." Bella smiled as a tear slid her face.
"even back then i couldnt protect you" abel whispered
"It's not your fault little man. It's no one's fault." Bella said as she touched his cheek and he leaned into her touch. Bella smiled as she handed the picture back to him.
"You were always my favorite." Bella chuckled as Abel smirked.
"Don't tell your brother or sister that." Bella said as she smiled and Abel nodded.
"Go easy on your father Abel. My death wasn't his fault. The things that happened to me and Jax, all of the yelling, the crying, the screaming, the punching. It's all in the past little man. Your father needs you. You can't abandon your family Abel. Don't do what I did… Don't leave your family behind." Bella whispered to her son as he glared. Bella sighed and frowned.
"I love you little man." Bella said as she took a step back into the sun.
"I love you too mom. Remember you will always be my pretty Princess." Abel said as he cried.
"You will always be my handsome prince." Bella said as she faded away.
She closed her eyes as she felt like she was flying. She heard the wind stop so she opened her eyes and looked around. She was in La Push Washington. She saw a little cottage, so she walked up the small gravel road and up the step. She went through the door, she heard the TV on but the girl on the couch didn't see her. Bella felt herself being lifted until she reached the kitchen and saw a tan girl washing the dishes. She had long black hair. As if sensing Bella was there, the girl slowly turned and jumped when she saw Bella.
"Oh my God." Leah gasped as she dropped the dish on the floor making it break.
"Babe" The voice yelled in from the living room. Just then a beautiful redhead ran into the kitchen but froze when she saw her wife and her mother-in-law in the room.
"Holy shit." Vicky gasped as Bella smiled.
"Mom" Leah as Bella nodded. Leah rushed into Bella's arms and held her.
"Mom is that really you." Leah sobbed as Bella rubbed her back.
"Yeah Lele it's me." Bella whispered as she smiled at Vicky was in shock.
"Bella" Vicky whispered as Leah let Bella go.
"It's mom." Bella smirked as she opened her arms and Vicky smiled. Vicky walked into Bella's arms and hugged her.
"Thank you for taking care of her." Bella whispered into Vicky's ear making Vicky's eyes begin to water.
"Mom what are you doing here." Leah whispered as Bella lets Vicky go.
"The big guy decided it was time for me to see everyone, one last time." Bella smiled as she looked up to the ceiling.
"He's allowing me to say goodbye to everyone." Bella said as Leah had tears running down her face.
"My God mom I am so sorry." Leah sobbed as Vicky wrapped her arms around her.
"There is nothing to be sorry for Lele." Bella said as she smiled at her daughter.
"I had to leave mom. I couldn't stay in Charming anymore. Not without you." Leah whispered to her mother.
"I know baby it's okay." Bella smiled.
"You two did good." Bella whispered to them as she saw a small girl enter the room.
"Momma I'm hungry." The little girl said as she tugged on Leah's dress. Leah smiled as she lifted the little girl in her arms.
"This is Annabella." Leah said as she turned the small girl to face Bella.
"Me and Vicky adopted her." Leah said as Bella moved closer.
"She's beautiful." Bella smiled as she touched the small girl's cheek.
"You two are doing an amazing job raising her." Bella said to Vicky and Leah.
"Thank you mom." They both whispered.
"I got a go." Bella whispered as she looked at the beautiful family in front of her.
"The big guy upstairs gave me a certain amount of time with everyone. I still have to say goodbye to Seth." Bella whispered.
"I understand mom." Leah said as she handed Annabella to Vicky. Leah then pulled Bella into a hug.
"I love you mom." Leah whispered.
"I love you too sweetie." Bella whispered as she faded away.
She opened her eyes to see herself standing in front of her old house. It still looked the same but it was freshly painted. She smiled as she saw Seth in the yard. He was chasing a small boy around the yard, while another boy who looked like a younger version of Seth was tossing a football in the air. Bella then looked and smiled when she saw Amanda sitting on the back porch laughing while rubbing her small baby bump.
"I can't." Bella whispered into the air.
"You need to say goodbye." A deep voice answered.
"I can't say it to him. Look how happy he is. I can't do that to him." Bella sobbed.
"Have it your way." A deep voice said as Bella felt herself flying again.
She thought she was flying up to heaven but she was surprised when she opened her eyes see she was in the cemetery. It was raining, so Bella pulled up her hood.
"What am I doing here." She asked as she looked up to the sky.
"You forgot someone." The voice answered back.
"Who?" Bella asked as she looked around.
"Him" The voice said. Bella turned around, that's when she saw someone sitting by a head stone. Bella walked up to him. The closer she got to him the more familiar he became. When she stood right next to him, Bella realized the guy sitting on the wet grass holding a bottle of Jack, was Happy.
Bella closed her eyes as she tries to take deep breaths. "Why are you doing this to me." Bella hissed at the sky.
"You love him." The voice answered back.
"I'm already in pain because I said goodbye to my family. Are you trying to break me." Bella hissed at the voice. The voice was silent but she felt herself sit down next to Happy.
"David" Bella finally whispered. She watched as Happy turned around and looked at Bella.
"You're not really here. You're just another one of my fucked up dreams." Happy whispered as he turned his head back ignoring Bella as he took another swig from the bottle.
"David it's me." Bella whispered as she moved closer to him.
"Shut the fuck up. You're not really here." Happy growled. He smelled like booze and his words were slurred. Bella's hand slowly found his and she entwined her fingers with his. Making him jump.
"What the fuck." Happy growled as he jumped up.
"I told you it's really me." Bella whispered as she leaned against her tombstone. She brought her knees up to her chest and watched as so many emotions went through David. Anger, pain, love then finally his face was blank.
"Fuck" Happy hissed as he looked at her with his blank face. He then fell to his knees in front of her. He took her break down and slowly touched her hair. When he felt her hair in his fingers, he grabbed Bella and pulled her into his arms.
"Fuck Bells." Happy hissed as Bella threw her arms around his shoulder. She inhaled his scent as she hid her head into his neck. Her icy cold breath made Happy jump a little.
"Are you really here?" Happy mumbled into her neck.
"For a couple of minutes." Bella whispered as Happy pulled back and gave her a confused look.
"The big man is allowing me to say goodbye." Bella said as Happy frowned.
"When you died. I swore my heart and soul died with you." Happy said as he took the bottle of Jack and took a swig of it. He then hands it to her, she brought it up to her lips.
"Don't" A voice whispered to her.
"Please" Bella begged to the voice.
"I'll make you regret it." The voice growled.
"Sorry but I have too." Bella whispered back as she took a big sip. She passed the bottle back to Happy as she felt the burning hit her throat.
"You're in deep shit when you get home." A voice screamed at her.
"I know." Bella whispered back to the voice.
"Why couldn't you just pick me." Happy whispered as he took a sip then passed to back to her.
"I wanted to." Bella whispered as she took a swig passed it back.
"You're pushing it Isabella." The voice growled from above.
"Why didn't you then?" Happy hissed at her as he began to start pouring.
"I belonged next to Jax." Bella whispered to him as she took the bottle back and took a big gulp.
"I will make you regret that you even brought the bottle up to your lips." The voice above roared.
"No you belong next to me." Happy growled as he stood up and glared at her.
"I had a family David." Bella said to him as she wiped her mouth with her sleeve. The burning in her throat never stopped and it seemed to get worse.
"I told you I will make you pay. Whatever happens here is your fault." The voice growled to Bella.
"You could have had that with me." Happy hissed at her as he stared down at her. She was even more beautiful than he remembered.
"I couldn't leave my family behind. I wasn't about to follow in Renée's footsteps." Bella hissed at him.
"I needed you." Happy whispered to her.
"They needed be more." Bella whispered back.
"Fuck if you would have chosen me, you would still have been alive." Happy glared at her.
"I know." Bella sobbed.
"Huh" Happy asked confused when Bella didn't answer he turned and looked at her.
"Did you see it?" Happy asked her. Bella nodded as she calmed down.
"When I died. I was shown what would have happened if I chose you." Bella whispered as she looked up at the pouring rain.
"What happened?" Happy asked as he sat down next to her.
"If I had chosen you, Jax would have died three years after me. You would have left Charming. Abel, Gigi and Thomas would have grown up hating me because I abandoned them." Bella whispered as Happy looked at her.
"You would have been alive though. Right?" Happy asked. Bella nodded.
"I would have become your old lady. We would have lived down in Vegas with Redman. I would have had your son." Bella said as Happy stood up and looked at her.
"We would have been happy?" Happy asked her.
"You would have." Bella whispered.
"You wouldn't?" Happy asked as Bella frowned.
"I would have hated myself until the day I died for leaving my family behind." Bella whispered as Happy glared.
"Dammit Bella why the fuck couldn't you choose me." Happy screamed at her as it began to thunder.
"I couldn't leave my family." Bella whispered as it's started to down pour with the thunder and lightning.
"You would have been alive though." Happy growled.
"I know." Bella whispered as she felt herself getting drenched from the rain.
"If you could go back and fix it would you choose me?" Happy asked as he looked at Bella.
Bella closed her eyes and whispered "no"
"What the fuck." Happy growled at her.
"I would choose the same fate I have now." Bella whispered as she watched Happy pick up the bottle and throw it. It smashed against the tree making it break. Just then a loud crash of thunder hit making Bella jump.
"Fuck you." Happy yelled at her as he walked towards his bike.
"Please" Bella whispered after him.
"Stop him he's too drunk to drive." A voice screamed over the thunder. Bella knew that voice. It was her guardian angel.
"Fuck you Isabella. I fucking hate you." Happy slurred.
"Happy please let me explain." Bella begged as he reached his bike.
"Save him." Her angel screamed at Bella.
"I fucking loved you but it was never enough." Happy screamed as tears fell down his face.
"It was too much Happy." Bella said as she felt the same sting she felt when Jax said those same exact words to her.
"I fell in love with a fucking whore." Happy screamed. Making Bella flinch.
"I know." Bella whispered.
"I fucking hate you." Happy sobbed as Bella reached him, she put a hand on his shoulder.
"I hate me too." Bella said as she frowned at him.
"I fucking hate you for making me feel this shit. I fucking hate you for not choosing me. I fucking hate you so fucking much Isabella." Happy roared as he started up his bike.
"I'm sorry." Bella whispered as she felt her throat closing up on her.
"Go to hell Bella." Happy said as he tried to buckle his helmet on, but he couldn't.
"Come with me." Bella challenged him as he threw his helmet on the ground and started up his middle finger.
"Stop! You're making him more mad!" Bella's angel yelled.
"I'm glad you're dead." Happy said as he spat on the ground.
"Me too." Bella said as she felt her heartbreak with all the lies.
"Save him!" The angel screamed as Happy stood up to lift up the kick stand.
"Shit" Bella cursed to herself.
"Please don't Happy." Bella bed as she wrapped her hand around her throat.
"He's going to get killed." The angel screamed.
"Burn in hell Bella." Happy roared at her.
"Happy please don't." Bella begged as she watched and speed off, but he took a corner too sharp and the rain made him lose control of the bike.
"No! My son!" The angel screamed.
"No!" Bella screamed as she watched Happy's body being thrown a foot down the road.
"No!" Bella screamed again as she ran down to him. He was bleeding and twitching.
"It's not his time!" Bella screamed at the sky.
"Bells" Happy whispered as he opened his eyes and looked up at her.
"Please don't do this, it's not his time." Bella begged as she dropped to her knees.
"I'm so fucking sorry Bells." Happy whispered as he lifted his hand up to her. She grabbed it and clutched onto it.
"I didn't mean those things Bella." Happy said as blood oozed out of his mouth.
"David" Bella sobbed.
"I love you Bells." Happy said as he started to choke on his blood.
"Save him! You got to fucking save him!" Bella screamed at the sky. Just then someone appeared down the road.
"Save him please. It's not his time." Bella begged the guys with a beard.
"I'm sorry." The guy said as he shook his head at her making Bella glare.
"Please God save him." Bella begged as she held onto Happy's body as he started choking.
"If I save him someone else who you love will take his place." The voice replied as a bike rounded the corner. Bella looked at the bike and saw the rider.
"No" Bella bed as she stared at the rider.
"Make your choice." The voice growled.
"Please don't make me do this." Bella begged as she watched the rider speed up and she heard Happy still choking in the background.
"Choose now!" The voice yelled over the thunder.
"Please" Bella begged.
"Choose Isabella. Which one do you want to live." The voice screamed as lightning hit.
"Bells" Happy choked out.
"Please. Haven't I lost enough. Please don't do this. Please. I'm sorry for whatever I did. Please don't do this to me." Bella sobbed as the burning in her throat started to becomes too much. She started to throw up blood.
"Fine. I'll choose for you." The voice said as he snapped his fingers. Just then a car came and hit the bike which caused the rider to fly into the air.
"Noooo" Bella screamed as she clutched her heart. She let go of Happy's hand and ran to the rider.
"Oh my God!" A voice screamed as breaks slammed and the door flew open. A pregnant woman ran to the body on the ground.
"No!" Bella screamed as the lady got into her car and called 911.
"Abel" Bella sobbed as she reached Abel.
"Mom" the voice whispered as he tried to open his eyes.
"Please" Bella begged the guy was standing next to Happy.
"Choose which one you want to save." The voice said. Bella looked between the two bodies.
"Please don't to this." Bella begged.
"Choose or I'll take both of them." The guy hissed at Bella.
"I'm sorry Happy." Bella sobbed as she held on to Abel's hand.
"I choose Abel." Bella sobbed. The guy nodded his head. He snapped his fingers, just then lightning hit. Bella watched as Happy's spirit started floating from his body off the ground.
Abel saw this thing gasped. "Mom what did you do?" Abel asked as he watched Happy walk over towards Bella. He put his hands on Bella's shoulder.
"I had to save you." Bella sobbed to her son.
"I'm so sorry Happy." Bella whispered as she looked up to Happy and saw him looking down at her.
"I understand." Happy said as he lifted Bella off of the ground.
"No mom it was supposed to be me." Abel yelled as he saw Bella turned into Happy's arms. Hiding her face into his shoulder.
"I couldn't lose you Abel." Bella sobbed.
"I wanted to die mom. I wanted to be with you." Abel sobbed as sirens and bikes could be heard in the distance.
"It's not your time baby boy." Bella whispered to her son. Just then the bikes got closer.
"It's time to go babe." Happy said to Bella. Bella nodded and reach down to her son.
"I love you so much my handsome prince, but it wasn't your time yet." Bella said as she kissed his cheek.
"Abel!" A voice screamed as the bikes stopped. Bella turned and saw Jax running towards them. Bella knew that they couldn't see her and Happy, so they stood and watched.
"Please mom." Abel said as he watched Happy place a kiss on Bella's forehead as he wrapped his arms around her waist.
"I love you to the moon and back by little prince." Bella whispered as she and Happy walked down the road together.
"Abel!" Jax screamed as the club followed behind him. Jax fell to his knees next to his son.
"Don't worry son help is here." Jax said as he picked up Abel's hands.
"Jax!" Opie screamed. Jax looked and saw Opie running towards Happy's dead body.
"He's dead." Abel whispered to his father as everyone stood around them.
"Mom was here." Abel whispered as everyone with Jax gasped.
"She had to choose between me and Happy." Abel sobbed.
"She chose to save me." Abel sobbed as everyone stayed silent.
"I wanted it to be me." Abel sobbed as Jax clutched onto his hand.
"Don't worry son you're going to be okay." Jax said as he ran his hands through Abel's hair.
"Opie call Tiffany tell her what happened. Tell her to meet us at the hospital." Jax called out to Opie which caused Opie to nod as he flipped open his phone.
"Dad" Abel called out to his father.
"Yeah son." Jax said as he clutched onto his hand.
"Go to hell." Abel hissed as he felt as if his body was being lit on fire.
"Save my son." Bella whispered to the bearded guy.
"I will." He said as he snapped his fingers then disappeared.
"Let's go." Happy said as he kissed her lips.
He then grabbed her hand as they both walked towards the light. As they got closer a second figure appeared. She was a lady in her 30s. She went to Happy's side and grabbed his other hand and smiled.
"I missed you my son." She whispered to him.
I missed you too ma." Happy whispered. He then turned and smiled at Bella.
"Ma this is Isabella. The love of my life." Happy said as he brought Bella's hand up to his mouth and kissed it.
Bella turned and saw Jax clutching onto Abel's body, as the club surrounded him.
"Forgive me." Bella whispered as she turned and smiled at Happy's mom.
"We met." Happy's mom smiled as she winked at Bella. Happy looked at her.
"She is my guardian angel." Bella said as Happy smile.
"She's beautiful Happy. She would have made the perfect daughter in law." Happy's mom said as they all walked down the road.
"I love you." Happy said as he looked at Bella.
"I love you too Happy." Bella said back.
The three of them turned around and took one last look at the scene behind them. She watched as her son was being lifted into the back of an ambulance. Jax was being held by Opie.
"Are you ready to start this journey with me?" Happy asked as he held out his hand for Bella.
"I'm finally ready Happy." Bella said as she put her hand in his and he smiled at her.
That was the last time anyone has seen Bella and Happy ever again. In the end maybe she did choose Happy. Maybe she didn't. No one can be sure. Bella made the right choice whatever that choice was? Well that's up to you. One thing is for sure and that is that no matter what happens Everything Will Be Alright...
THE END
A/N - It's over! I hope you enjoyed the story. I'm sorry, I know you hate me for the ending. Leave your reviews.
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