Aria's P.O.V

I looked down at my hands nervously and sighed.

The silence between me and Spencer seemed to stretch on and on, i knew that i should say something..anything but i just couldn't find the words.

In the days that she had been unconscious all i had done was worry and watched her in fear.

Fear for what you ask? Fear that i would lose her forever.

The girls had done tried their best to comfort me but we were all wrapped up in a blanket of misery that words had become nearly nonexistent between us during the time we stayed by Spencer's side.

Finally i glanced up to look at her and i could see the fear, pain, and brokenness in her eyes.

It pained me to see those emotions that i quickly cast my eyes down, i opened my mouth to speak but Spencer beat me to it, "Aria why can't you even look at me." She didn't phrase it as a question, and i had no idea what to say.

"Do i disgust you that much?" I could hear the venom in her voice and i looked up at her, i could see she had placed her walls up and her eyes were now emotionless.

"That's not it at all Spencer!" i said and reached for her hand but she pulled away and i couldn't help the stab of pain i felt in my heart.

"Then what is it Aria? Because so far no one else seems to have a problem with looking at me except you!" Spencer said angrily

"I don't have a problem looking at you Spencer! The only reason i have been avoiding your eyes is because i blame myself for what happened!" I yelled at her, my own anger rising to the surface.

"You are not to blame Aria..i am." Spencer whispered and in those few words i could hear the raw pain she had kept hidden from everyone else.

I hugged her to me tightly and this time she did not resist.

I felt her body shake with sobs as i murmured comforting words to her, final she pulled back and wrapped her arms around herself.

I brought her face up and placed a chaste kiss on her lips, i felt her tense up but part of me expected it.

I sat back and looked at her, "Spencer the only person to blame is Ian. You did absolutely nothing, he is a monster and after your parents get done with him he will never harm anyone ever again. Especially not you." I said and she only nodded, making me wonder if she truly heard my words.

I knew it would take time for her to heal and all i could do was be there for her as best as i could, but looking into her eyes…i wondered if i would ever get back the Spencer i once knew.

Because the girl sitting in front of me wasn't the strong, determined, stubborn girl she had been before all this.

No the girl in front of me was a broken and battered shell of her.

There was no spark of light in her eyes and i could see the way she shrunk into herself, i doubt she even noticed it but i did,

i always noticed every little thing about her. Its part of what made me fall in love with, knowing all her little quirks and the way she carried herself.

I could only hope that with time i would see the fire that i loved so much about her return to her eyes.

A/N okay so i know its been a while but i got damn writer's block again i know the chapter is short but i promise its leading up to something good! i just want to say thank you too everyone who has stuck with me so far and a special thanks to Charlotte for her latest review which made inspired enough me write this chapter. Oh and is anyone else kinda hating the new fan fiction format? -_- i liked the old one better. And one more thing if any of you happen to go on FictionPress i uploaded the first chapter of a story i've been working on, my name for that is SilverEyed Beauty so check out my story on there if you want :3 okay i'm done wasting your time, don't forget to review! Love you all bye!