TITLE: 26. "Taking the reins of happiness"
CHARACTER: Alexander. Hephaestion implied.
RATING: PG
CATEGORY: Historical AU.
SUMMARY: Alexander takes a final decision.
DISCLAIMER: I do not know the people involved, no harm intended; everything is product of my imagination. Alexander and Hephaestion belong to History and to each other but I would not mind sharing my life with the blue-eyed man.
WARNINGS: Angst, tears …
My mother tongue is Spanish and I work without a beta so all the mistakes are mine.
FEEDBACK: comments are love! Any kind of them will help me to improve my writing or leave it forever.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This idea is just a whim; I just wanted to try and write something different. It is a whole series of 29 short ficlets.
"I try to keep everyone happy; I visit my wife in her chamber every night so we can conceive an heir. I drink and eat with my companions every night to keep their company and loyalty. I left my dear lover because the eldest thought it was the best for my kingdom and myself.
However, most of the times this means I am not happy with the things I do.
I really want an heir but who wants to spend time with a woman whose lips can only utter words filled with envy and poison.
I know that I need to eat and drink but I don't like excesses or to prove that I can drink anybody under the table. Alcohol clouds my mind and then my head hurts for hours.
Nevertheless, what hurts me the most is the high cost I paid to keep everybody happy. I renounced to the only man I have truly loved; the only man who could see the man and not only the king; the man who dared to love a prince and leave his own dreams behind.
However, enough is enough, I don't have to prove anyone that I can rule all by myself and I don't want to spend the rest of my life regretting for those things I let go.
Tonight I will recover my own happiness and with the gods' help, I would beg Hephaestion to take me back"