A/N: Hi guys, as promised I wrote an EPOV for you guys :) Thanks for all the lovely reviews as always, mouse555, Emma-MasenCullen, Shirley, angeleyenc, teamedward2010, Iris Cullen 13, twilightamanda, twilight642531, lilianyas, Lauren James, TwilightRox28, PoLKaDOtsAlLNigHt, titanterror12, Enchanting Lilly, shouldbeworking, star1the2friend, cicas33, I'm very happy you all liked the epilogue :)

Q&A:
1. Can't you do a sequel but for Vanessa and Jacob? Well, I'm not one for the Jacob stories :) And I'm already working on another story so a sequel is probably not going to happen :)

To mouse555: I'm very happy you enjoyed your time with Edward ;)
To Shirley: I love your babbling, it's always so much fun! :D I wouldn't get enough of Edward EVER either :D I'm happy you liked my epilogue :D

To everyone: I hope you all enjoy this EPOV, it's the chapter where Edward sees Bella on the bench and they 'meet' for the first time :) Well it's not the most upbeat chapter but you all know it ends well so this is just an insight into Edward's brain :) Enjoy and lemme know what you guys think! :)

Breaking

EPOV

I was sitting in my room of yet another new house in New York city, staring out of my window and thinking of nothing but her. I still couldn't believe Alice had brought us here, after I had promised Bella I would never interfere with her life again. Sure it made me miserable, to say the least, to be away from her, but she deserved so much better than me and I couldn't give her the normal life she deserved, thus I had to stay away from her.

I saw her for the first time in school today. She looked more beautiful than I had ever seen her before, my thoughts had not done her justice at all, even with photographic memory. She had been sitting with a large group of friends during lunch and she looked like she was having fun. I took it as a sign that she had really moved on, like I had wanted her to. So how come that if I had gotten exactly what I wanted, I felt so completely lost and miserable.

The past two years had been excruciating and I couldn't even be around my own family anymore because I didn't want them to suffer the same way I did. I had spent most of my time on my own, wandering the woods and letting the pain and suffer that I deserved wash over me and consume me. I wasn't proud of the way I handled things but I kept going because I knew it was the best thing for Bella, all I wanted was for her to be happy and there was no way she could ever be happy, or safe, with the life I was living. So I had given her up along with my own happiness.

But now that she was so close again, it was so hard to stay away from her. She hadn't looked at me in the cafeteria yet, even though I knew she must have felt my gaze, she always had had a way of noticing those sorts of things, that was one of the many things I loved about her. I knew that Alice and Emmett had both spoken to her already and I was jealous of them. Apparently Bella had been very kind to them, loving, just the way she was. She hadn't been angry with them, but then again, they hadn't crushed her heart. She never once met my gaze and I knew that that was because she hated me, how could she not? After all the danger I had put her through and after what I had done to her in the woods two excruciating years ago. I hated myself, why would she be any different?

Even though I knew I deserved to never be with Bella again, seeing her here made me want to be with her more than ever before, even more than when I wanted her blood, I needed her in order to survive, I knew that now, just as I knew that I was never going to have her again so I was doomed to live my life as an empty shell, just as I deserved.

Why did Alice have to bring us here? She knew that Bella was going to be here, she had no right coming here and interfere with her life again. I knew she missed Bella terribly as well and I knew that she resented me for taking Bella away from her but I had told her many times that it was for Bella's safety and happiness that we were doing this, or rather I was doing this. I knew exactly how the rest of my family felt about us leaving, they tried to hide it, or at least everyone but Alice tried, but I still caught them thinking about her, missing her, every once in a while and every time a new wave of sadness washed over me.

I wanted to yell at Alice for doing this to me. She knew how much it was going to hurt me and there was no way that Bella and I would ever still have a future so I really didn't see a point in all of this. Surely she had convinced the rest of the family that she wanted to come here because of the curriculum they had on offer at this particular university, combined with the endless shopping possibilities, many fashion events and roaring nightlife. She had argued that most of us had already gotten a say in where we wanted to live and she thought it was her turn now, she said she would truly be happy here and she had argued that, since New York was such a large city, it wouldn't be a problem for us to stay here for a long period of time, plus she had convinced Carlisle of the many hospitals in the area where they offered new specialties that he hadn't tried his hand at yet. She could be very convincing when she wanted to be.

Even I had bought her scheme in the beginning. But at a certain point she started hiding her thoughts from me on a daily basis and I got suspicious. However, it wasn't until today that I realized the reason behind all the secrecy and I was shocked that she would actually do that to me. She was supposed to love me and support me, not hurt me even more. I know she wants me to be happy but did she honestly think that seeing Bella again would make me happy?

I had to admit that it was nice to see that she had moved on like I had wanted her to and I had been aching to see her for so long already, I was pretty sure I would have gone back to Forks one of these days to see her again, I liked to tell myself that I would have been able to leave again after I had laid eyes on her for just one more time, but now that I had seen her again I knew I would have never left again. There was no way I was going to lose her again, even if it would only be following her from the shadows, in true vampire tradition. I just had to make sure she was as happy as she could be, even if it was without me.

The fact that Alice had still been hiding her thoughts from me every moment we spent together even after I had already seen Bella worried me. I knew something was going to happen that she didn't want me to see and I was certain that it would involve Bella and me. I just had to know what was going to happen and I was going to grill Alice about it later today.

I noticed that the sky had turned dark and I heard the front door close softly downstairs but I didn't pay any attention to the voices downstairs. I had gotten quite good at drowning out talking or other people's thoughts over the last year or so and I could finally enjoy some quiet in my own room without needing to flee towards the forest for a moment of peace. I spent almost the entire night staring at the sky, I could see small specks of light in the darkness, stars I hadn't been able to see before anymore, I figured it had something to do with the fact that I had seen Bella again but I didn't understand why that would happen.

After what felt like days of staring at the dark sky, I heard a familiar pair of footsteps ascending the stairs and a soft knock on my door followed quickly after that.

"Edward?" Alice asked softly while peeking her head around my door.

"What is it Alice?" I asked, a little dissatisfied that I had been disturbed during my sulking.

I immediately began scanning her mind for any clues but as always she found ways to block me.

"That's not going to work Edward," she told me smugly and I bared my teeth at her in response. "You really need to stop sulking!" she shot at me suddenly and I was taken aback by her sudden fierceness. "It's driving all of us crazy and think about how much you're hurting Esme! I know it's a very difficult time for you and I'm sorry, we all miss Bella and that's why it's so nice that she's here now, you should really just talk to her sometime!" she said quickly and I felt the familiar guilt wash over me. My mother was in a lot of pain, seeing me this way. I had caught her crying, or the vampire equivalent of crying, on several occasions, she missed Bella terribly but she missed how happy Bella used to make me even more. "I didn't come here to make you feel guilty Edward," Alice continued.

I found that very hard to believe, since that was all she tried to do lately, she had been very supportive in the beginning but she was sick of me moping around and bringing everyone down and she had tried every other strategy available to cheer me up or get me back to my old self again. She had tried anger, crying, begging, bribing and now she had settled on the occasional guilt trip, mostly using my mother as ammunition.

"Then what are you doing here?" I asked her bitterly.

"Well, we all want you to cheer up, so why don't you come downstairs and play the playstation with Jasper and Emmett, they would love to play with you again," she said sweetly.

"No thanks," I replied shortly.

"Fine," Alice muttered dissatisfied and turned around to leave my room.

Suddenly I heard her gasp and at that moment a vision popped into her head. The moment the vision appeared her guard was down and I could watch the vision with her.

First I saw Bella walking around campus aimlessly, grasping her chest as if she was going to fall apart, tears were streaming down her face. The image quickly changed and I saw Bella, sitting down on a bench somewhere on campus, with her face hidden in her hands and her body shaking all over with the sobs that she was currently letting out. The sight was devastating to me and I could feel the pressure in my eyes as if I would have tears in my eyes as well, the hole in my chest was aching and burning with more intensity than it had done before. I heard another sob and this time I noticed that it was my own body that was sobbing with the pain evident in Bella. Quickly the sky turned lighter and Bella looked up with dried tears on her cheeks.

I couldn't handle the sight anymore and I had to do something. I jumped up from my seat and stormed out the door.

"Edward wait!" Alice yelled after me but I didn't listen, I didn't want to know what was going to happen next and I had no idea what I was going to do, all I knew was that I wanted to comfort her so badly, I needed to be with her, hold her and stroke the tears from her face. I would love to kiss her and tell her that everything was going to be alright.

I knew I couldn't kiss her or anything but I hoped that I was going to be able to help her nonetheless. I hated seeing her in this much pain, even though I had no right to assume that I was the cause of the pain, I felt responsible for it nonetheless.

I found the bench where Bella was sitting easily and my chest started throbbing painfully once again. A creature this lovely should never have to endure anything like this! I slowly walked over to Bella, unknowing what I was going to do next. I didn't have time to come up with a game plan because soon she would notice I was here and I would look like a fool if I would just be here staring at her, not saying anything.

"Bella?" I asked her softly, trying not to startle her.

In response to my voice Bella froze completely, she was as immobile as normally only a vampire could be and it worried me deeply. She was in complete lockdown and I could see that she wasn't going to respond. I had to try to get her attention again, somehow I needed to cheer her up.

"Bella, are you alright?" I asked worriedly.

Bella still wasn't moving and I became extremely anxious, what if she didn't want to talk to me? I was such a fool for coming here in the first place! I couldn't just leave again now could I? Would she want me to leave again? Or maybe that would remind her of past events too much and that would crush her all over again. No! I told myself sternly, I couldn't hurt Bella any more than I already had. I needed to tell her how sorry I was for hurting her in the first place and I needed her to stop feeling miserable, even though it had nothing to do with me.

I decided to sit down next to Bella, it felt more natural than just standing there, like an idiot, staring at the only woman to have ever held my heart, so I lowered myself onto the bench and even though I was certain Bella must have felt my weight next to her, she didn't move a muscle. I needed to know what was wrong with her, who had wronged her so and I needed to comfort her.

"Alice saw you Bella, she saw that you were aimlessly walking around campus, crying," I started. I saw Bella cringing infinitesimally, I wasn't even sure if she herself would have noticed the movement but I did. I decided to continue, since this was going to be the only response I was going to get form her for now. "She was so shocked by the image she didn't have the chance to hide it from me. I'm sure she would have done so otherwise," I mentally cursed Alice for having kept everything to herself all this time. "But I read her mind and I saw you sitting here. I just had to come over and talk to you. Will you please tell me what's wrong?" I pleaded.

Bella straightened out a little but she didn't turn her head towards me, it hurt me incredibly to not see her face but she wouldn't let me and I couldn't force her to talk to me.

"It's nothing," she muttered dismissively. Her words as well as her tone shocked me and I stared at her for a moment, completely taken aback.

The shock made my voice sound harder than I had meant it but the sentiment was the same nonetheless. "It's nothing?!" I exclaimed, "Bella, I know you! You're hurt! Something is wrong! Talk to me please?" I begged her.

She seemed to think about it for a moment but then she replied again, still staring straight ahead, cautious it seemed not to make any eye-contact. "Never mind," she said roughly.

A jolt of pain shot through my body as the realization kicked in. She was still mad at me, like I deserved, and of course she wouldn't talk to me about anything that was upsetting her now. It had nothing to do with me. But I wanted to help. I needed her to be fine, that was the only way I could go on, knowing that after all she is happy and I had made the right decision. I needed to let her know how truly sorry I was for what I had done to her two years ago, she needed to know that it had not been an easy decision and I had been suffering ever since. I wanted her to know how much I really, truly cared for her.

"Oh I see, I'm sorry Bella, I know I hurt you. I'm so, so sorry, will you please hear me out?" I began my plea.

Bella seemed to think about it for a moment but before I could continue and tell her everything I was thinking and feeling at the moment she spoke again, her voice was soft, almost inaudible to mere humans, and she sounded hurt. "Please don't," she said pleadingly.

I was shocked. "What?" I asked incredulously. I stared at her stunned, thankfully numb to the pain that would soon manifest in my chest.

"I can't Edward," Bella choked out softly and I could feel my heart break into a million pieces. There was so much pain in her voice. How I wished I could read her mind for once! This was unbearable.

Suddenly Bella rose from her seat and walked away from me, in the general direction of her dorm. I sat there on the bench, alone and completely dazed. Bella had not once looked at me and she had never done anything like this. Not that I didn't deserve much, much worse, but the pain that was starting to make its way up to my chest was comparable to the pain I felt during my transformation so many years ago. I had always thought that was my most painful experience until I had to walk away from Bella, but now this, seeing her walk away from me, was more painful than anything I had ever experienced before and I could only guess that this was roughly the same kind of pain I had put Bella through when I had left her alone in the forest.

I didn't follow Bella, I just stayed on the bench for a little while and watched the sky lighten, a new day, the worst of my existence. I knew now that I could not be selfless any longer, I needed Bella to forgive me, I wanted to talk to her and tell her how sorry I was, explain to her that I still love her, more than anything in the whole world, more than my own happiness and my own life, and I needed her to see how difficult it had been to walk away from her but that it had all been for her. I loved Bella so much and I needed to be with her again, I wasn't sure if she still loved me or if I was too late but I needed to know for certain if there was even the slightest chance that I could win her back for me, I would fight for her, harder than I had ever fought for anything and I would beg and grovel until she forgave me.

The plan was made and I was going to talk to her tomorrow, she would know how I felt about her and how much she meant to me. All I could do now was wait for tomorrow and hope for the best.

A/N: Well that was the very last part of this story, I hope you guys liked the outtake in EPOV :) I'm very happy that you all have been so supportive throughout the story and that you all liked it so much :) I'm sad to really truly end the story now but I won't be away for long :) I've already started working on a new longer story, it will be called Uncovering Secrets and I'll post a recap of it on my profile so you guys can check it out and perhaps tell me what you think of the idea :) Other than that I have plenty of ideas for one shots so I'll be working on those as well :)

Well, thanks to everyone for sticking with me once again! And I'll post an author's note to this story for those of you who have it on story alert when I've begun uploading my new story :) And if you want to keep track of everything I'm doing, check my profile or add me to your author's alerts :)

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Thari