A/N: Warning short chapter….got drunk and now I'm trying to write a chapter so my Beta won't kick my ass.

To my Beta…she's one awesome girl and she's all mines.

God! This girl turned me into a fucking mushy mess…I don't do mushy…lol

From Beta: *smiles* yay! Made my day.

Well enough about me….here's your chapter! While you read that, I'm gonna have a conversation with the toilet.

Bella/Alice

Rated M

Enjoy!

Bella

Feeling my phone vibrate in my pants, I tiredly grabbed it and flipped it open.

"What" I snapped into the phone, it had to be either Edward or Emmett but when I heard the breathing….I slowly sat up and let my heart speak.

"A….A…Alice?" the gasp confirmed it for me.

"Bella" I buried my head in the pillow and let my tears go.

"Baby" I choked out as she starting to sob, I let my eyes close, it's been so long since I heard her beautiful voice in my ear.

"I miss you so much" she choked.

"Alice I miss you too, is everything alright? Are you and Cathy okay?" I heard movements and a cry, my heart damn near leapt out of my chest when I heard Cathy.

"Yes, everything's fine"

"How are you?" she sighs

"Horrible, every time I close my eyes….I see you there. My bed is so cold" she explained as I tried to keep the tears from showing in my voice.

"I wish I could wrap my arms around you"

"I wish that too"

"I love you" I said as she started to cry again.

"Aw baby, don't cry please!" I wanted to jump into the fucking phone and hold her to me but, I knew it wasn't going to happen.

"I...I love you too" suddenly the door came open revealing my Mother, I pointing to the phone and a whispered Alice, her whole face lit up as she ran to the bed.

"Can I talk to her?" I sighed, I really didn't want to waste anytime I have with her but I knew that My Mother had missed them as much as I have.

"Alice baby, Mom wants to speak to you" she sniffed.

"Okay" I handed the phone to her and ran into the bathroom, pacing the tile floor I couldn't help but feel so much anger. I wanted her back here….back in my arms. I looked at myself in the mirror and growled, I was a fucking mess, Victoria and Leah was right. I had dark bags under my eyes, my skin looked sickly and my fucking hair was a mess.

This girl's got me losing my mind.

I had to get her back….not for my family but for my sanity.

A/N: once again I want to say sorry for the short chapter but that's all I can come up with at the state I'm in right now…lol

Until next time

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