This is simply an extra of the previous chapter...providing you with an insight into Edward's head for once..though it is not an actual chapter of the story. I'm still working on the next chapter but I wanted to upload something for everyone who's interested in the story. So, go ahead and read and...tell me what you think.

We were finally returning to the house; I could clearly see the dim glow of a lamp in my room; Bella must not have left it since I had gone hunting.

Assuming that she and Tanya still hadn't made peace, I could understand that quite well. It pained me to know that Tanya's visit hurt Bella. It wasn't that Bella was worried about me leaving her but more that, Tanya's unjust hatred for her, affected her on ways neither of us had expected.

It had been Rosalie's decision to allow her to stay longer than she had already been welcomed for. I didn't like hearing Tanya's thoughts always centered around her love for me which was nothing more than attraction; appearance had been the only thing to ever draw her to me.

I didn't care anymore that I had been hunting with my family as I surpassed them and added even more speed to my run. All I wanted-all I needed- was to hold my Bella close again.

There wasn't another person in this world that could ever have such a sturdy, unwavering hold, on my cold, lifeless, heart. With her; it was like I was somehow, a human again. I could feel emotions that had never before surfaced until she had graced me with her presence. It still didn't feel right that she want me.

Even with her the most beautiful vampire I had ever seen-her wavy brown hair, golden eyes to match my own, and a body that was what would seem unrealistically perfect- I couldn't understand why she would take me back after I had hurt her in such an unpardonable way.

Of course, it was just like her to forgive me-it was in her nature-but it still didn't feel right. The only time I could ever be certain was when I held her close and listened as her trilling voice saying my three favorite words, "I love you."

I was met at the front porch by Tanya but I didn't bother to consider what this would've meant. I didn't bother to read her mind. I didn't bother to notice the distraught expression that her face now held. Nothing could stop me from getting to my Bella.

In an ungodly speed I had reached the top of the stairs and I continued to my room-my personal heaven-as I knew Bella would be there waiting for me. I could already smell her scent; unique to only her.

"She's not here." I heard Tanya whisper from the first floor and then the gasps of my family but her words weren't making any sense; of course Bella was here. Where else would she go?

I didn't stop until I had my door open and I had stepped into my room. I could feel it now-the adorned sense of dread, finality and emptiness which only occurred when I was apart from Bella.

Alice appeared at my side only seconds later. It seemed that she were searching for her best friend-refusing to believe the reality we were being forced into. My Bella had left.

It only seemed right that she end up leaving, but I hadn't expected her to leave without first telling me 'goodbye.' She owed me that much, didn't she? She had finally come back in my life and made everything as it should have been; only to leave again? No…that didn't make sense.

Then I remembered Tanya's expression. Why hadn't I listened to her thoughts in the first place?

"Tanya," I muttered. It didn't matter that they were all convened in the living room; they could still hear my broken whisper for what it was.

Flash of a snowy white figure snarling and ripping at strawberry blond; Rosalie running to her friend screaming for the figure to stop. The figure snapped out of it-if only for a second-and turned to Rosalie, hissing under his breath.

I shook my head frantically- I was the snowy white figure. I was the one attacking Tanya. Alice shook with laughter beside me; she would, of course, be the happiest to see someone trying to harm Tanya.

"Alice, please." My tone was reproving, but I didn't think I would mind attacking Tanya. Whatever my reason was, I knew that it had been above reproach and clearly, in good reason. I would never attack someone without a complacent reason.

Carlisle took the stairs first with Esme and then Tanya, following suit. Alice was still bursting with laughter as new visions came to mind but I had stopped listening to them. It didn't help when her mind was practically begging me to bite Tanya's head off.

"Tanya, what happened with Bella? I know that it was something between the two of you and I want an explanation." I focused on her thoughts again. I hated that they were still filled with a sense of love for me even when I was beginning to lose my restraint.

"Well, nothing happened between Bella and I," She was hedging around my question perfectly, but that didn't stop her thoughts from flying in an unspoken answer.

I could see Bella's flawless face filled with an unexplained anger as Tanya reached out and placed a hand on her shoulder. I watched quietly as Tanya showed Bella an image that suddenly filled her with terror.

Tanya realized what I was seeing and her thoughts continued down a much different path-one of which she was quickly debating when to take her much needed leave.

"Tanya, I'm only going to ask this once. Alice has already seen me attacking you and I'm trying very hard to stay in control. What did Bella see?" I pinched the bridge of my nose in a learned gesture of annoyance.

"Edward, I just wanted us to finally be together. I didn't think that everything would end up like it has…" Her voiceless apology went unnoticed as I saw the image she had shared with Bella.

An image with the Volturi coming back for her and endangering our family; of course Bella would leave. Of course she would try and stop them from returning-but…they were never intending on coming back for her…at least, not yet.

Tanya managed to find her voice and she demanded out attention. "I believe I saw Bella go into Carlisle's study before she left. Maybe she left something in there…" I was in Carlisle's study before she had even finished her sentence.

Surely enough, a piece of parchment paper was on his desk, begging to be read. I lifted it with an unnecessary gentleness and began to read the words that were written in her quick scrawl.

Edward,

I know that I probably should've waited but I also know that Tanya was telling me the truth in her images that she shared with me. Forgive me for leaving you again, but you have to understand; I couldn't let that happen. I couldn't bear to know that you would be in pain like that all over again. I had to try and stop it.

Never doubt that I love you and try to keep yourself in good distance from Tanya; please.

Love,

Bella-soon to be-Cullen

Bella-soon to be-Cullen; how did Bella always know exactly what to say, to make me smile even when I was frantic to get to her? As intuitive as Bella was, she had to see the faultiness in Tanya's vision. But even so, there had to have been a truth to it, for Bella to believe her.

'I didn't think that anything would end up as it has…' Tanya's words weren't making any sense though I knew it should've been obvious. Again, Alice was immediately at my side-all signs of laughter gone.

"Alice, what did Tanya mean?"

"While you were going upstairs for Bella, Tanya told me everything but then I had a vision of Cauis sending Demetri after her. I didn't think Demetri could do anything until I remembered that she had once been a part of the Volturi and had let her shield down around him." Alice's words came out in a steady torrent and I finally began to understand their meaning. Demetri would find her and I would be too late.

"Alice, there has to be something we can do!" My words were full of the hopelessness that filled my heart to its' capacity.

Alice gasped and I was immediately searching her thoughts for the reason.

"Demetri, I can't wait to return home. I've missed Jane and everyone else. It's only timely that Cauis has been killed. I can finally take his place." What was Bella talking about? She had been scared of the Volturi ever since she had left them; this couldn't be true. I couldn't possibly be expected to believe them.

"Yes, well…I'm sure Marcus will be unhappy, but I know the rest would only welcome you to the top-so to speak. Now let's go before this human scares himself to death and his blood becomes tainted. You know the real fun is in their struggles."

No; Bella detested hunting more than anything. There was no way she would ever agree to that. She didn't like hunting and she most certainly didn't like blood.

"Edward, why would Bella return to them? Why would they take a human with them?" 'What is she doing?'

I believed with all my heart that Bella's words had been her usual, predictable, untruths; but what if they only seemed to be untruthful because I refused to believe them?

"I don't know…But she wouldn't…She used to agonize about them coming back for her…she was so terrified. What motivation would she have?" What sudden inspiration could have possibly moved her so unreservedly?

"Edward; she allowed me to see! She took down her shield-that wasn't just timing. Whatever her meaning, she wanted us to see it." Alice was right. Bella would never provide us insight around her shield unless she felt that it was important.

But; what if she was telling us not to follow her? What if she was giving us a warning? What if I had lost her again and she didn't want me to come after her?

Surely, I would still chase after her-regardless of her wishes-but I didn't want to face her rejection like that. I had already thought I had lost her but to know that she's alive and didn't want to be with me…it hurt too much to consider.

"Alice; you have to watch Bella. Focus on her…maybe, she'll show you something new…But I have to go find her. I don't care if she wants me to follow; I'm not letting her leave me again." Conviction; Alice opened her mouth to argue but it was useless and she could see that. She had to know that I didn't want anything if it wasn't my Bella-I didn't have a choice in following her.

I watched in Alice's mind when I suddenly disappeared and I knew what that meant. My future was undeniably intertwined with Bella. I would still find her…or she would find me.

I'm just going to apologize right now if this writing is not up to my usual standards. I've been overly stressed and worried about a lot of things lately and I haven't been focusing on writing though it does help to distract me....So-as selfish as it might be-this exert was actually written as a way to relieve myself from my current situation. I do however, intend on uploading the next chapter as soon as I'm intent on letting the characters live; depression is never ones' friend when they're trying to write a happy ending. So, review if you life, and please, please, please, keep watching for the next chapter!