Reviewer, thank you all and find yourself below and read my response to you!
Raquel – someone is going to have to admit their feelings soon; it's a question of whom? Don't worry them locks have been thrown to the lions to never return. I did see the last episode and I know how you feel. I wanted to dislike them knowing they're both going to come between Snowbarry but I can't do it, I don't dislike Iris I just think she's not right for Barry. In the comics yes but not in the show, there's too much chemistry between Snowbarry/Granielle.
Boba – I know it's been four months without any progress but you have to remember Caitlin is very guarded with her feelings and Barry had been in the one sided love for a long time and is afraid of it happening again so he doesn't want to admit his feeling in case he gets rejected again but this chapter is another step towards it as you'll see. I think someone on the writing team is a Snowbarry fan they have to be for them to write the scenes they do for them, even just the scenes where they're just stood next to each other saying nothing, they still communicate. I hope even when we get Spallen we'll still get the Snowbarry moments, we got them with Linda so maybe with Patty we will. I hope we do.
Lolly – a little warning that this chapter is another little time jump that's all, Maddison is Barry's child of course she's going to be cute.
Fgfgmyfgtr – each chapter I write one gets removed so it's a slow progress.
Flash frost – this chapter is Barry's POV… so hope you like it.
Guest – I always said if it happened it wouldn't be right away but we're progressing with each chapter. When/if it happens I don't want to rush it because I've read to many where they're nothing and next chapter they're jumping in bed together.
AReiss215 – I think you're going too really like this… that is all I can say to that.
Riml – Nope just Ca for now… she might call her mama in the future we'll just have to wait and see.
Guest – sorry but it was Ca.
Narnia Addict – first off let me say welcome to my crazy imagination and thank you for spending your time reading this. I have many things planned for them but I can't promise they'll happen as when I start to write it always ends up being something different, when/if they get together it will be at the right time and not just thrown in there for fun. If it happens it will be for a reason and nothing else.
Lina – everyone was expecting that to happen, just like I thought they would when I wrote it.
Lyannette Zoe Cullen – I know a lot of people wanted a little 'Family' scene as for everything else… I think this chapter is very important for so many reasons but it could just be me who thinks so.
Guest – unless it's Maddison who tells them haha.
I think I replied to everyone but if not then I'm sorry, I tried to respond to everyone but I got so many reviews on the last chapter I'm in shock so thank you once again to you all.
Two months later
"You're at a wedding the least you can do is smile" Caitlin nudged my arm with her shoulder a smile stretching across her face.
We stood to one side of the room people watching, I know I should be happy because my best friend just got married to the love of her life but I can't help but think about that newspaper article where it was my name beside the west and not Eddie's but I am happy for them just looking at the mingling with all their guest happy, laughing how could I be happy for them? I know Iris and I were never really meant to be and I've accepted that, she has Eddie and I have – Caitlin – but I don't have Caitlin because I can't tell her how I fell knowing it's just once sided again, history repeating itself and I can't do that again so it's best to keep my feeling to myself.
"Just tired" I lied giving her the best smile I could; I turned my attention back to the dancefloor where Cisco stood in the middle swinging Maddison around. The music was loud but I could still hear her laugh about it even being so far away buy maybe that's just because I hear it all the time.
"This might help" Caitlin dug into her clutch and pulled out a slim tube with a stopped shoved in the top to stop the liquid from escaping.
"I don't think that's such a good idea, we both know what happened last time" I shrugged looking back at Maddison as she is the product of what happened last time I drank the syrup she had made for me all in attempt to get me buzzed.
"How about we just start with one for now and if you need another I'm very well stocked" she took my hand and placed the clear liquid into my hand, encouraging me to drink it.
Maybe one will not hurt, it will relax me a little and one can't do that much damage in way of thinking, taking a deep breath I pulled the stopper out of the top and drank the small shot in once go, handing the now empty tube back to Caitlin where she stored it back in her purse. "I forgot how it felt" I laughed feeling the liquid work its way into my system bringing a small buzz throughout my body.
"And there's the happy smile" She clapped her hands together slightly jumping up and down. "My work here is done" she settled back down flashing her teeth at me, almost as if she is proud of herself for getting me buzzed but I know I will not be taking any more of that stuff, she always said she would perfect it for me so it lasted longer than a minute and she's done that and some.
"Are you enjoying yourself?" I asked wanting to take the conversation away from my mood or lack and onto something else.
"I am but one thing is missing" I turned my full attention to her wondering what she could be talking about both Iris and Eddie have thought of everything for this wedding, down to the littlest detail so what's missing I don't know.
"What do you mean?"
"I want to dance with the best man" a wicked smile replacing her kind one, I swallowed hard knowing I can't dance to save my life, let alone Caitlin's feet.
"I can't dace" I shook my head no to make my point, everyone knows that Barry Allen doesn't dance, normally when confronted with a dancefloor I run the opposite direction just to save myself the embarrassment.
"The best man and chief bridesmaid are supposed to dance together" she pouted a face I know too well at this point. That pout is her way of beating me down until I give in and do as she asks.
Folding her arms over her chest she moved to stand in front of me, her action just a back up to the pout. "Cait I can't dance, I don't want to break your feet"
"We only have to sway, you don't have to move your feet plus are you really going to leave me stood on the side lines?" I could be imagining it but I'm sure her eyes grew twice the size they were a minute ago and pairing that with her pouted lips, I had to close my eyes for a moment just to block out the sight of her.
"One dance" I caved taking her hand and leading her onto the dancefloor knowing I was about to embarrass us both but I can't say no to her, I don't think I will ever be able to say no to her. She could ask me to commit murder and just looking in her eyes would make me agree to do it. "Just to be clear I did warn you"
My hands found her hips while Caitlin's hands went around my neck. "I'm willing to risk it" she smiled moving closer to me, so close you couldn't it a piece of paper between us. I felt my body go ridged at the feel of her body pressed against mine in some sort of physical torture knowing I couldn't just take her in my arms when I felt like doing so, I couldn't press my lips against her or hold her closer just to know she is mine and I am hers.
I know at a wedding everyone is supposed to notice the bride and how beautiful she looks but I didn't, when I turned around to inform Eddie that Iris was almost at the end of the isle. I saw Caitlin and my heart skipped a beat. The way she looked in the pale aqua colour of her bridesmaids dress will stay with me for the rest of my life. How it fit to her curves perfectly and the smile on her face it was enough to almost knock me off my feet. I don't know who picked the dress Iris or Caitlin but it was the perfect choice for Caitlin both classy and elegant just like her. Her hair up showing off her neck, the same neck I've thought and dreamed about kissing so many times over the last few months.
"Penny for your thoughts" Caitlin broke me out of my day dream of her.
"Just concentrating on not standing on your feet" I lied knowing I could never tell her about what I was really thinking about, if I did she'd probably run for the door and never look back.
Caitlin opened her mouth to reply only or Cisco to appear at the side of us with Maddison. "Someone wants her daddy" I nodded releasing Caitlin from my arms and taking Maddison instead. "I need a drink" with that Cisco walked away and head straight for the bar.
"Dada" her tiny hands pushed at my cheeks making both Caitlin and I laugh.
"Sorry our dance got cut short" I smiled; I wasn't a fan of dancing but getting to hold Caitlin – now that I am a fan off.
"You think you're getting away that easily?" she asked placing her hand back onto my shoulder. "I can dance with both my favourite Allen's now"
I nodded and placed my free hand back around her waist, pulling her closer to me again while holding Maddison in the other. Caitlin's free hand went to Maddison's back as the three off us began to swig from side to side in time to the music.
I couldn't help but smile as I somewhat danced with two of my favourite girls in my arms. Iris will always be my best friend and I will always be there when she needs me but standing in the middle of the dance floor with Caitlin and Maddison it made me realise that Iris doesn't need me anymore, she had Eddie now, well she's had him for a long but it's taken me this long to realise that she will not need me as much anymore and I'm surprisingly ok with that, she will always have a place in my heart as my best friend/ first love but she's not my future anymore. Hopefully what I hold in my arms is my future and I do need to tell Caitlin how I feel but its finding the right time to do it.
I want to have them both until the day I die, if not more –
Dancing together – if you could call it that – we fit together perfectly like it's supposed to be like this and when I do finally find the courage to confess my feeling to Caitlin, if she rejects me then I'll have to deal with that but until I'll never know until I tell her.
"You're not as tragic as you made out" Caitlin smiled up at me; even in heels I have a handful of inches on her.
"And you look amazing Cait, I meant to tell you earlier" I smiled mentally kicking myself for how lame that sounded.
"Thank you but only on person has us all beaten and that this little madam here" Caitlin pressed her lips to Maddison's cheek.
"All three of you look beautiful" I said knowing Iris looked just as amazing and using it as a cover for my lame attempt of telling her just how beautiful she looked.
"Thank you, you look very handsome-doesn't he?" she turned to Maddison who just smiled at me, "yes he does" Caitlin used her baby voice, the only voice she'll use with Maddie as she spoke which always made her smile. I looked around us at all the other couples on the dance floor surrounding us and then the rest of the room, spotting a figure stood in the doorway I felt entire body freeze making Caitlin turn in the direction I was looking. "Barry what's wrong, are you ok?" panic laced her voice as she tried to see what I was looking at thought the swarm of people.
"This can't be happening" I mumbled to myself wondering this had to happen today of all days, the day I finally realise what I want out of life and then my world has to come crashing down. "Look after Maddie, I'll be back" I released them both from my grip and headed towards the door, fire bubbling in my veins. The figure in the doorway being the only thing I'm interested in at the moment.
"Barry" Joe grabbed my arm as I walked past him; I shrugged him off and continue on my path stopping for no one.
"BARRY" I heard Caitlin shout but I ignored it, all I want is for her to look after Maddie and nothing else right now.
Finally reaching my destination, I grabbed hold of her arm and dragged her out of the room and outside into the garden with the sound of heels clicking against the floor behind me but I ignore that.
"What are you doing here?" I spat out between gritted teeth unable to hide my anger.
"I wanted to see my daughter" a smile on her face as she looked around us. "Where is she?"
"You can't see her Beth, you gave up your rights when you dumped her on my door step like she was the local news" my breathing escalated as I tried to keep my anger at bay knowing screaming and shouting isn't going to solve anything.
"She's my daughter Barry, I have a right to see her" I followed her gaze to see Caitlin stood at the top of the stairs leading into the hotel with Maddison in her arms.
Seeing her stood there with Maddison just confirmed that what I see is what I want for the rest of my life – I want Caitlin and on the same day I finally realise that Beth has to turn up and ruin everything. "NO" I shouted my anger getting the better of me, "the only right you have is to leave, how dare you show up at my best friend's wedding and think that's ok. Just leave" I turned to head back inside.
I've planned and planned for this moment but I never thought it would be like this. In my plan I would speak to her and finally get the answers I needed but now she's here all I feel is anger and hatred for her. I hate her for leaving Maddison, I was angry at her for doing it because she gave up on the best thing in my life, someone who never fails to make me smile when I've had a horrible day. She walked away from Maddison who has nothing but love for you, no matter what you do and I can never forgive her for doing that.
"Barry we need to talk, I want to be a mother to her. I deserve that chance" she spoke from behind me.
My blood reached boiling point as I span around to face her. "You deserve a chance, you walk away – that gives you NO RIGHT TO BE ANYTHING TO HER" my voice raising with each word I spoke, she thinks she can just turn up after so long and decide to be a mother to my daughter.
"I carried her for nine months, I felt her kick inside me, I gave birth to her and I chose her name. That gives me some right"
"Barry what's going on?" Iris appeared at the top of the steps beside Caitlin with Eddie, Cisco and Joe.
"Nothing she's just leaving" I spat back mainly at Beth hoping she will get the message and leave, I don't need her and Maddison doesn't need her. She had more than enough love surrounding her with Beth being here.
"Wrong, I'm here for my daughter" Beth spoke aloud enough for the group on the steps to hear, no doubt just so they know who she is.
I heard footsteps coming closer from behind me. "Barry come back inside" Caitlin's hand wrapped around my forearm.
"When she leaves I will" I spoke my eyes fixed on Beth, I can't do this now - defiantly not now.
Beth laughed looked between the two of us. "Is this your girlfriend, does she not know about me or something. Is that why you want me to leave?" a smug smile on her face thinking she was causing some kind of trouble.
"Dr Caitlin Snow" Caitlin introduced herself "And I suggest you do you as Barry said and leave" Caitlin stood in front of me between Beth and I.
"And why is that?" Beth folded her arms no doubt her way of trying to intimate us.
Caitlin's hands went to her hips, telling everyone she means business. "Because you are crashing a private event where over half of the CCPD are inside and would be more than happy to arrest you for trespassing"
"Let them arrest me, when I get my daughter I will leave"
Who doesn't love a surprise guest?
I never planned to bring Beth into the story bit a lot have asked for it so here you go …. And I bet a lot of you hate me for leaving the chapter there but I have a reason for doing so.
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