Open Your Eyes

Chapter 26: And It Doesn't Feel So Good

(SPOV)

I reached Kagome's door and pounded my fist against it.

"Kagome, it's me," I yelled. "Open the door." My heart was beating fast and hard underneath my ribcage. I was becoming nervous. Would she open the door or tell me to go away? After how I acted, I couldn't blame her if she told me to go jump off of a bridge. I pounded on the door again. "Kagome –

It opened and Kagome was staring up at me, her eyes filled with anger and sadness. I reached out for her and pulled her into a tight hug. To feel her body against mine, I didn't think this would happen again. I rubbed my head against her hair, the scent of coral flower hitting my nose. I took in that scent and let it fill me.

"What is it that you want, Sesshomaru?" She asked in a cold tone. Kagome was not happy with me and I knew that. She didn't even bother to wrap her arms around me when I hugged her. I took a step back and looked into her eyes.

"I'm sorry." She just blinked at me. "I didn't mean what I said back in the room. I really am glad that you are here. I didn't think that I would ever see you again. I had prepared myself for the day that if you ever did show back up that I would say everything that I could to push you away. It hurt me a lot that I didn't hear from you. But now that you are here, I want to have that chance to have a relationship with you. To continue on where we left off. Please don't tell me to walk away because I won't." I grabbed her hands and cupped them in mine. "I am still in love with you as well, Kagome. I hadn't stopped either."

"Then why are you with Ai and Kagura if you still love me?"

I sighed. "That's complicated."

"And did you really think that I would jump into your arms after you shot me down?"

"I knew you wouldn't, but I at least wanted you to hear me out."

"And here is my answer." Kagome slipped her hands from mine and punched me square in the stomach, knocking the air right out of me. I thought that was going to be it, but it wasn't. I definitely did not expect for her leg to come up and come down on my neck, slamming me onto the floor. She just wasn't mad; she was pissed. She didn't even give me the chance to come up for air when she pressed the back of her heel onto my shoulder. I yelped in pain.

"K-Kagome, that hurts," I tried to say.

"Probably not as much as you have hurt me just now."

"K-Kagome, I know you are mad … but if beating me up will make you happy … then have at it."

"Gladly." She grabbed me by my collar and dragged me into her room. By the time she was done with me, I was going to be in a bloody mess. She pulled out a chair and propped me onto it. She went over to her suitcase and pulled something out of it.

A scarf.

Shit. This girl has become demented. Now I was really scared. She went behind me and tied my wrist tightly in between the bars of the chair. I gulped. Kagome pulled another chair in front of me and sat down, leaning towards me, our lips several inches apart. How I wanted to feel those lips against mine again. She folded her arms across her chest, leaning back onto the chair.

"Talk."

"What do you want to know?"

"Why you are with Ai and Kagura?"

I bit my lip. I really didn't want to discuss this problem with her, but since she was here right in front of me, I knew I would have to. I took several deep breaths, trying to figure out what was the simplest way to tell her the situation.

"My mother wants me to get married." Her arms lowered a bit. "Though she had never met you, I talked about you a lot to her and she seemed to approve a bit. Only thing that bothered her about you is the fact that you are not Japanese."

"She wants you to marry someone that is fully Japanese?"

"She prefers me to marry a true Japanese woman, yes." She rolled her eyes. "When I told her that we had stopped talking, she seemed relieved but upset at the same time because she doesn't like to see me torn up. She saw it enough when I was a child. Though both Ai and Kagura broke my heart, she likes them. She told me that her wish is for me to get married and give her a grandchild before she dies. At first I thought she was just trying to pressure me into it and I took it as a joke until I found out that my mother only has a short amount of time to live. The doctors say that she has between six to eight years to live." Kagome's eyes became wide.

"So, I have been seeing those two to try and decide who I want to marry. It hasn't been easy at all since I kept thinking about you. Funny thing is, you bother Ai more than you do Kagura. I guess since she actually got to know you a bit and couldn't take me back, she knows that she can't live up to you. Ai is going to throw a fit when she sees you. But now that you are back in my life, I can introduce you to my mother and see if she approves of you."

Kagome sucked in her lip. "What are you saying to me, Sesshomaru?"

I wanted to take her hand in mine but I was tied up at the moment. I smiled softly and said, "What I am saying, Kagome, is that I want you to marry me."

Kagome stood up and started to walk around, her hand cupping her chin. This was not the type of reaction I thought I would receive from her when I asked her to marry me. I thought she would jump up screaming yes, but that is not what happened. The feeling of being rejected set low on my heart.

"I don't understand."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You come here and ask me to marry you but not too long ago you were trying to get rid of me."

"I know, but I wasn't thinking; I was scared. But you're back now and I don't want to let you go again."

"And you're asking me to marry you? What, do you expect me to give up my life in the States to come and live with you in Japan? You're a rockstar, Sesshomaru. I don't fit into your life style."

Now I was getting upset. This is how we were the first time when we tried to date. She didn't think that we would work out and we did just fine. But in a sense she was right. If I introduce her to the media that she was my fiancée, they would be bombard her with a ton of questions and my face would not get out of the magazines for months.

Who gives a flying fuck!

I was in love with her and I wanted her by my side for the rest of my life; wanting to have my first kid by her and no one else. I was going to fight her over this until I won.

"You're right." She seemed puzzled by my answer. "You don't fit into it and I wouldn't force you into it if I didn't think you can handle it. Kagome, you are strong. You can handle anything that comes your way. Sure, the paparazzi will be all in your face because you are a new woman in my life, but either you can ignore it or tell them what they want to hear. Are you really telling me that you don't want to marry me because you don't fit into my lifestyle or because of the fact that you are scared to get into my lifestyle?"

She bit her lip.

"And no, I don't expect you to give up your life in the U.S. I never said that we wouldn't go back. I am sure we would work out some type of schedule that works for the two of us. I am sure you wouldn't want to travel with me all the time on my tours. It can be very tiring and sometimes I don't even want to go myself. I wouldn't force you to go through that if you didn't want to. I have enough money to fly you back between the States and Japan. So that is no problem."

"But that seems such a waste," she said softly.

"It's not a waste if it's on you, Kagome." Her expression seem to soften. I know the idea was crossing her mind.

"But doesn't everyone here know that you are with Kagura and Ai?"

"Yes and no. Right now, some think that we are friends hanging out while others think that we are trying to rekindle what we had. Every magazine that is out there right now is fighting to see who can write the first story of who I am really dating."

"And you want to throw me into that loop?"

"It wouldn't really be a loop since I would drop Ai and Kagura so we can be together again."

"Let me think about it."

I chuckled. "Do you really have to? I know you want to say yes."

She narrowed her eyes at me, "Ballsy aren't we?" But her shoulders slumped. "You're right. I do want to say yes but I'm scared." Her hands came up to her eyes and she began to cry. I didn't mean for that to happen.

"Kagome, please don't cry. We'll work through this, okay?"

"But what if we can't? What if you decide to leave me again? I can't go through that heart break twice."

"How do you think I feel? I cried the whole flight back to Japan."

Her crying soothed as she wiped her tears away. "Really?"

I nodded my head. I was too embarrassed to say yes. That was the first time in a long while that I cried like a baby.

She chuckled. "That makes me feel a bit better."

"I'm glad." Kagome walked behind me and undid my wrists. I rubbed them when I was free. She really made sure that I couldn't get away. I turned and faced her. I moved the chair out the way and ran my fingers against her cheek. I cupped the back of her head as I came closer to her, wrapping my arm around her waist. I stared into her eyes as I said, "I love you."

"I love you too." She closed her eyes and I took that as an invite to kiss her. I pressed my lips against her and felt ecstasy take over my body. It had been two years since I last kissed these lips and I felt like I was in heaven. My actions took over and I picked Kagome up, wrapping her legs around my waist, sliding my tongue against her lips. She opened her mouth and my tongue darted in, tangling itself with hers. I couldn't help but let out a moan when our tongues rubbed against each other. I walked over to the bed and placed ourselves on top of it. Kagome's hands ran through my hair as I began to grind against her. I trailed my kisses down her neck and bit down, causing her to yelp in pleasure.

The last time we were in this position, we were so close to having sex. I wondered if we would get the chance to tonight. I smoothed my hands underneath her shirt and began to play with her nipples.

"Mmm … wait, Sesshomaru."

"Why?" I growled. "I've waited, Kagome. I want to make you mine."

"Just let me ask you one thing." I stopped. "Have you … had sex with Ai or Kagura?"

Why did she have to ask me that question? I wanted to lie to her, but I knew that wasn't the best choice. I growled to myself as I got off of her. I ran my hand through my hair and sighed. I really didn't want to answer that question.

"You did … didn't you." The sadness returned to her voice as she sat up.

"Can you really blame me, Kagome? I was a total wreck when we lost contact so I tried everything to forget you, but nothing worked." She didn't say anything. "If it makes you feel better in any way, every time I had sex with them I always thought that I was doing it with you. I even imagined that they were you." I chuckled. "I even called your name once when I was having sex with Ai. She was so mad."

"When was the last time you had sex with her; them?"

"About seven weeks with Kagura and five with Ai." Her expression didn't change. "Maybe I should go. I need to start getting ready for rehearsals tonight." I got up and headed for the door but Kagome grabbed a hold of my wrist. I stopped, not looking at her. I didn't want to see her expression.

"I know I shouldn't be mad at you, but I am. You said you wouldn't go back to your ex's when you came back, but it seems that you had no choice to. I really can't expect you to not have sex especially when we weren't even together during those times. I tried dating to get over you too, but that didn't work."

I gulped. "Are you still a virgin?"

"Would it make a difference if I wasn't?"

I bit the inside of my cheek. That hurt but I knew it wouldn't make a difference. "My love for you wouldn't change if you weren't a virgin anymore."

"Alright." She let go of my wrist.

That was it. She didn't say anything else. I headed towards the door and left. Now my mind was up in the air if Kagome was still a virgin or not. I said my love for her wouldn't change, but it would still bother the fact that I wasn't her first. I want to be the only person to see that sexual expression on her face. Practice was not going to go well tonight.

(END)

(KPOV)

I felt awkward now. To find out that Sesshomaru was having sex with his ex's put me in a strange position. I was mad but I knew I shouldn't be. It's not like he was a virgin when we first met. On a good note, at least it has been awhile since they have had sex. I sighed. It's going to be awhile until I can even think about doing anything sexual with him.

I fell back onto the bed.

Why did coming back have to be so damn complicated? Why couldn't it have been like in those movies when the girl or the guy comes back to their lover after they get on the plane and decide they don't want to go back home. They rather stay with them forever. Why couldn't it be something like that? I covered my face with a pillow and screamed into it.

I don't even know what to do now.

Sesshomaru and them are going to their rehearsal for the concert that is happening in a few days and I was stuck at the hotel. Well technically I wasn't but there was no way I was going to venture out around Okinawa.

Or maybe I should.

I could at least walk around the area a bit. It's going to be awhile until they get back anyways. I grabbed my purse, slipped my shoes on and walked out.

Not paying attention, I ran into someone.

"Oh!" I bowed. "I'm sorry."

"It's … okay," responded a male voice in broken English. I looked up and saw golden amber eyes staring right back at me. At first glance I thought he was Sesshomaru but looking at him again, I knew he wasn't. He had the same silvery long hair but he didn't have the birthmarks that Sesshomaru had. He smirked at me. The same exact smirk that Sesshomaru has. This person in front of me had to be his younger brother, Inuyasha. I turned on my heel to walk away before he could start a conversation with me but I ran into another unexpected guest.

"Kagome? What are you doing here?" Ai said in a hiss.

"I was actually about to leave," I said as I tried to walk around Ai but she stepped in front of me. This was not going to be easy.

"Nē, anata wa kanojo o shitte imasu ka?" (Hey, do you know her?)

"Watashi wa mushiro nai to omoimasu." (I'd rather not.) Ai narrowed her eyes at me. "Sesshomaru is no longer yours so why don't you go back home and leave us alone?"

"Sesshomaru?" Inuyasha said in confusion. "Is she … the girl my … brother was crying … over?"

"Sadly, yes. Pathetic right?"

"Hai." He started to chuckle.

I rolled my eyes. Just met this guy and he is already irritating me. Though they looked similar, their personalities were different, though Sesshomaru acted closely the same when I first met him. Maybe Inuyasha wasn't a bad a guy. I will give him the benefit of the doubt. For now.

I placed my hand on my hip. "Look, Ai. Sesshomaru hasn't been yours since he came back. He is still in love with me and we're going to make it work again."

She smirked. "If that is the case, why has he been fucking me so good?"

"Why has it only been five weeks since the last time you guys had sex and didn't he call out my name when you guys were doing it?" Her cheeks turned red. I smiled. "Yeah, he told me."

"I'm going to cut your tongue out."

"Touch me and you won't ever be able to walk or show that face of yours ever again. Trust me."

"Is that a threat?"

"Yes, but unlike yours, I will be able to fulfill what I just said."

"Shōjo no motte kasai!" (The girl's got fire!) Inuyasha pipped.

"Inu o damara!" (Shut up, Inuyasha!) She barked. He continued to laugh. "I don't understand what he saw in you."

"I can say the same about you, Ai. Look, this isn't going to go anywhere, so will you just let me be?"

"Hmph, whatever." She walked passed me, bumping into my shoulder. I would let this slide just this once. "Let's go, Inuyasha."

"Hey," Inuyasha said touching my wrist. "What is … your name …?"

"Kagome."

He smiled and said, "Nice … to meet you … Kagome. I am Inuyasha … Sesshomaru's younger … brother."

"Nice to meet you too." I returned a fake smile and watched him catch up with Ai. I had a feeling that I was not going to like him at all. I walked over to the elevator and pressed the down button. The doors opened and Kagura came walking out. Today was just going to be a bad day for me.

Her eyes became wide. "Kagome? Why are you here?" She asked in a calm voice.

That threw me off for a second. "I uh –

"I asked her to come," Koga said coming from behind me, placing his arm around my shoulder. Thank God he came to my rescue.

"Why?"

"I wanted her to come see our comeback concert."

"Not for her to take – hey Sesshomaru," she said in a caring tone. "I'm back."

I looked behind me and saw Sesshomaru, Hiten, Kanna, Inuyasha and Ai walking up towards the elevator. Sesshomaru smiled at Kagura and said:

"Anata ga modotte iru koto o mite ureshī." (Glad to see that you are back.)

I am sure he said something that I wouldn't have liked. I folded my arms across my chest. Koga squeezed my shoulder.

"Kagome, why don't you come with us to the concert hall? There is a mall not too far from where we are preforming at. You can hang around there until we're done."

"I guess, but will everyone in those stores speak English? And I don't even have money. I haven't exchanged it yet."

"Don't worry about it." Koga went into his back pocket, pulled out his wallet and handed me one of his credit cards. "Spend it however you want."

"Oh no, Koga, I can't take that."

"Kagome, I doubt you can put a dent into the amount of money I have."

"But, I wouldn't feel right spending your money."

"You're right," said Sesshomaru. "Take mine." He went into his wallet and handed me his card.

I declined. "I don't want to spend your guys money. Just let me have a look around and if I see anything I will just get it next time."

"A girl who doesn't want to spend another man's money?" Hiten asked. He looked at Sesshomaru. "You better get your girl back before I snatch her up."

I gave him a nasty smirk. "You couldn't get me even if you tried, Hiten."

He licked his lips. "Sounds like a challenge."

"Down, Hiten," Kanna said placing her hand on his shoulder.

"Well let's get going," Koga said.

"Uh, we'll meet you down there," Sesshomaru said. "I need to talk to Koga for a minute."

"Alright," Kanna said. We all boarded into the elevator and headed down to the lobby.

(END)

(SPOV)

I tried to keep my cool as I stared at Koga but my anger was reaching its limit for today.

"What the hell was that, Koga?"

"What do you mean?" He asked in an oblivious tone.

"Don't play dumb with me. Are you trying to make me look bad in front of Kagome?"

"You're doing a pretty good job of that yourself."

"Koga," I growled.

"Sesshomaru, I care about you a lot. If I didn't, I wouldn't have asked Kagome to come out here. But if you keep messing up, I won't hold back."

"What are you saying?"

"I am saying that if you don't get Kagome back, I will take her in my own arms."

(END)

*NOTE: I know the Japanese translations aren't a hundred percent correct, but I can only work with what translates give me. XD

I hoped you guys liked this update. Next chapter will be up soon so look out for it. Enjoy!