A/N Sorry for the delay again ;)

The real deal

Outtakes part five.

I threw myself into work, and I refused to look at anything news related, I couldn't face it, I so didn't need to have all that news of him rubbed in my face, I had been so stupid, I hated myself for falling for him, and as much as I worked it all came crashing down around me when I looked at my kids, my constant reminder of how much I still loved him, I know I did, that's why it hurt so damn much. Renata tried to get me to talk to her, but the pain was still too raw, Tylor was the only one who knew everything, he was my own personal therapist, never spoke, he just waited patiently for me to talk. I knew he'd never tell a soul.

I gave up hiding when my agent got all prissy when he couldn't get hold of me, so I called him, and he explained that he had been informed that the allegation about Mr Edward Cullen in the news recently were entirely false. Then he wanted to know why he was tracked down and told he had to inform me immediately. I had no answer for him, and I told him so. He was pretty useless as far as agents go, normally Renata was more of an agent than he was, my three year contract with him was almost up fortunately, I wouldn't be renewing it. The same day Jasper caught up with me and basically force me to read the retraction that the newspaper had about Edwards engagement. But what now? Could there still be an us, would he still want me after I ran out on him, he must have been behind tracking my agent, surely?

Eventually my agent called me back, telling me that filming was going to start soon so I was needed in Vancouver, I managed to convince Renata to come with me, it was school holidays so her kids were off school, and Aro was working in Brazil, so she gave up and came quietly. Most of the crew were staying in the same apartment building so we had a whole apartment to ourselves.

My schedule was punishing, I had had to stop breastfeeding, it was just too much on my schedule, I was lucky if I got to see Nessie and Masen for more that a few minutes before they were in bed, but at the very least I got to read them a story.

I had been working on and off set for almost a month before for I saw Edward, and the second I heard his voice I was overcome with need to be with him, I really needed to control that better, and I was once again nervous as hell about speaking to him.

"Bella." I heard someone call as I was about to leave the set, I knew his voice instantly, I was so tired and in no shape for a confrontation, "Hey, can we talk?" He asked.

"I'm sorry, Edward, I've had a really long day, I'm really tired and I really need to see my kids before they go to sleep." I said.

"Can... can I come with you," he asked, oh crap I can't let him do that, not with Masen and Nessie there, "no strings, I'll wait until they're asleep, I just want the chance to talk." He said.

"No offence, but I don't want you anywhere near my kids." I said, I couldn't, not without having a chance to explain first, to tell him that I hadn't got pregnant on purpose.

"Why?" he asked alarmed.

"Edward, since the media don't have your relationship with Tanya to write about they follow every woman you have said more than two words to, and as we have been seen together publicly several times they are following me constantly, I have to protect my kids from that." I said, I wasn't lying, the press were becoming a nightmare. "Not to mention the speculation that will start if we are seen together now." I added.

"I need to talk to you Bella, how else am I going to make you see that I need you?" he asked. And as always I just completely fell apart at his words, honestly I didn't want to be away from him, I wanted him in my life, but I needed to do it carefully, I had to protect my heart and I had to protect my... our kids.

"I can't do this Edward, I have to keep their lives as normal as I can." I said, I wasn't sure if I could take that kind of heart ache again, I very much doubt I'd survive a next time.

"Please Bella, I'll do anything, I'll be anything, unless, unless... is there someone else?" he said, it was so heartfelt.

"There has only ever been you, for me." I admitted, my heart pounding loudly trying to get out of my chest.

"That's how I feel about you Bella, please give me a chance... please Bella." he begged and then he put his hands on my shoulders, and stared straight into my eyes waiting for an answer.

"Fine, but we're just talking." I conceded.

"That's all I'm asking for." he said smiling.

We made small talk as Tylor drove us back to the apartment, I knew the kids would be in the bath by now, Renata was strict with their schedule, so maybe this could work, Edward walked close by my side as we walked into the building. I wanted desperately for him to hold my it was so close and I saw it move towards me a few time like he wanted to take my hand.

In the apartment I pointed to a sofa, "Make yourself comfortable, I shouldn't be too long." I said then once I saw him sit I went down the hallway, opening the bathroom door I was met with the familiar squeal from Nessie.

"Mommy."

"Hey baby girl, how is my princess today?" I asked her as I walked in to find Jane sat of the closed toilet bouncing Masen on her lap, he was wrapped up in a towel, she passed him to me, his face lit up as he reached for me. Renata was sat beside the bath, she went to speak but I put my finger to my lips and pointed towards the living room before she asked me about Edward like she always did. Her brows furrowed and I could she the hundreds of questions waiting to burst out of her, I shook my head and turned my attention back to Nessie and Masen.

Nessie told me all about her day whilst I listened carefully, she made all my worries melt away, as she explained about Jane banging her toes and having to put money in the swear jar. And Alec leaving his xbox for long enough to use the bathroom, and then not moving again all day. Once I had them both dressed for bed and tucked in I read them their favourite story about the three little wolves and the big bad pig.

"What's going on?" Renata whispered, stretching to look down the hall to the living room where Edward was hopefully still waiting.

"He's here to talk." I whispered back.

"I'd want to do more than talk with that tall drink of water." she said waggling her perfectly plucked eyebrows, I smacked her arm and pushed her into her bedroom.

"You could have put on the TV you know, you didn't have to sit here in the quiet." I said as I walked back into the living room. I was surprised at the relief I felt when I walked in the room and saw him still sitting on the sofa, and looking all gorgeous and very much here.

"Actually I was enjoying listening to you talk to your kids." he said, I blushed, "so what are their names?" He asked.

Oh god no, that's too much information, much too soon, what do I say? Avoidance... just for now, "Do you mind if we don't discuss them, not yet, I mean, only I'd like to keep everything about them to private, at least until I've decided if there can be an us, and if I can be sure that I can cope with the media hype if and when things come out." I said frowning, that was honest at least right?

"Can I just ask one thing?" he asked sheepishly.

"You can ask I guess." I said, and I found myself holding my breath

"Is their father still on the scene?" He asked. Holy shit we got here way too soon, no its too much, I can't do this yet.

"What do you mean?" I asked as a delay, I needed more time to think about this.

"Are you still in a relationship with the father of your children?" He asked and watched as I'm sure the horror must have shown on my face.

"I am not in a relationship of any kind with anyone." I said.

"Is it the same, I mean have they both got the same father?" he asked almost in a whisper, what? I knew it, he thinks the worst of me.

"Are you accusing me of being a whore?" I practically hissed at him.

"Oh fuck no Bella I'm sorry I, I just, I just wanted to know what my competition was like." he tried to assure me. Relief flooded through me, I felt myself relax, I had almost exploded at his hurtful comment.

"You don't have any competition." I whispered 'you never could.' I said though I hoped he didn't hear.

"Is. Is it Whitlock?" he asked making me laugh. "what?" he asked shocked by my reaction.

"Jasper is probably one of my closest friends and has never been more than that, plus he is the middle of breaking up with his awful girlfriend/ PA/manager, he has more than enough of his own problems, yet he still goes out of his way to be my support system when I need him." I said, it was the truth.

"So there's definitely no one else." He asked me to confirm.

"No one else?" I asked, of course he would still think that? Why doesn't he get it? How many times do I have to say it before he understands.

"No one but me?" he asked.

"I said there wasn't didn't I? Besides, its not me with a history of being involved with other people." I pointed out.

"Good point, well aside from the fake relationship I was promoting that came back to bite me on the ass, I have no one but you in my life." he said, I did like the sound of that.

"You don't have me either as far as I'm aware." I said then couldn't hold back my smirk.

"Yet."

"Yet?" I questioned.

"That's what I'm here to get you to change." he said, his voice so seductive, I forgot how tired I was, my entire body suddenly wide awake.

"Oh and how are you going to do that?" I asked, I could suggest bending me over the sofa, no wait too many people in the house. He stood up and took hold of my hand pulling me to him and wrapping his arms around me, he nuzzled into my neck, I melted into him.

"I'll start with having you in my arms where you belong." he mumbled into my skin. "Wait who was looking after your kids?" he asked reminding me again of the other people hiding away in their bedrooms, "And who else was talking?"

I giggled, I couldn't help it, Ren was probably just around the corner eves dropping. "That would be my best friend Renata and her kids Alec and Jane, they're here to baby sit for me." I said.

"Why do those names sound so familiar... jeez, are they Aro's wife and kids?" he asked shocked.

"Best friends." I said grinning, but not answering. "Like anyone but my best friends could have talked me into acting." I said with a grimace, and he chuckled at me then pulled me back to the sofa with him, pulling me into his lap. I was happy to be there wrapped in his arms.

"So about us?" He said.

"What about us?"

"Is there an us?" He asked, I could hear the desperate hope in his voice, it was so endearing.

"Honestly I would like there to be, but I don't know how we'd ever see each other, it wouldn't be much of a relationship if I only get to see you at the odd awards ceremony now would it" I said, the thought of not seeing him when I was here in his arms was unbearable.

"I would make the effort... I happen to think that you are worth it." he said and he sounded like he meant it. "So what it all boils down to is... are you ready to take on the media hype that surrounds me?" He asked.

"No." I said and his face fall in disappointment. "But I am willing to start getting to know you better," I added quickly after seeing his face. "then maybe I will introduce you to my kids... eventually, and if by then you still want to stick around, well we'll discuss media avoidance then." I suggested, and I watched the grin spread across his face.

Edward stayed with me after our talk I didn't want to be away from him, sleeping in his arms again was more than I could ever of hoped for, this beautiful man wanted to be with me, unbelievable.

Edward had been staying with me for a week now, I did my best to keep him away from the others, and seeing how happy I was despite being so tired, they were happy to go along with it, though we did spend an inappropriate amount of time in my bedroom, or my shower, sex with Edward was just so amazing, well maybe it was always like that for everyone, I had nothing to compare it to, and quite frankly I would be happy to never have. Mostly we were too tired and we were up and out of the house before anyone woke every morning.

I was due soon to go and finish some work in LA, and I was dreading it, I was close to letting Edward know about Nessie and Masen and I was worried that the separation would set us back again. I would only be gone a few days but it had only been a week that we had been together, I hated being away from him during the day I felt like I had a hole in my chest and it only closed up when I was in his arms, waking up with him nuzzled against my breasts, always brought a smile to my face, one hand always ended on one of them during the night, they were like a security blanket to him or something.

I was in the middle of a stunt where I was jumping down from a ridiculously high tree, I had checked everything prior to setting up the stunt, all the safety harness checks had been done along with the air bag, so as always I jumped with no fear, as I hit the air bag I knew instantly something was wrong, to much air, I was thrown out sidewards and hit the floor I could hear the crunch sound my leg made, it reverberated around me, I heard the screams and cries. I was busy trying to work out why I was on the ground and not still on the air bag. People were surrounding me and I couldn't hear them, just white noise. I had no idea what had happened, but nothing could happen to me, no I had to be fine, Nessie and Masen needed me, I couldn't get sick. But then my eyes closed and I couldn't open then again, I just wanted to sleep, yes just sleep then everything would be okay.

A/N Poor Bella.. So hope you are still enjoying this...