Disclaimer: TVD is not owned by me. Written for fun and the amusement of myself as well as my readers. For Bonnie. The title is taken from a haunting piano piece by Vadim Kiselev called "Alone In The Dark" which I thought encompassed Bonnie in 4x01 perfectly.
Alone in the Dark
I shouldn't have done it. I knew after Grams had warned me from the other side that the consequences would be worse than Jeremy seeing ghosts or my getting a nosebleed, but Klaus would have hurt my friends if I hadn't and I couldn't bear that - besides it was me who had trapped Tyler in that monster (even if it was to save everyone from Alaric), I had lied to everyone I loved and used Dark Magic to do it. I was exhausted, clammy and weak and I should have known better. It was like I was losing everything my Grams had taught me, being so caught up in this crazy world, I was so desperate not to lose Elena to them that I let darkness usurp me so I could bring her back from the dead. It was like standing in the middle of a forest with no breeze, no people but the everlasting fear that something foreboding was coming for you and there was nothing you could do to stop it. Klaus was not that monster terrifying me: there was another force, one my Grams was ashamed I had turned to. The Dark Magic would change me, she warned. It was not forgiving if I kept using it and would punish me - I should have listened. The act of putting Klaus back into his body forced the balance to tip radically and in punishment my Grams was wrenched from my side, blistered with burns and ripped from the heavens - I was alone in the dark, poisoned by my own selfishness.
A/N: I can't stop listening to this song! Go find it on youtube - it's amazing! Review please.