The day has come to and an end and it was time to head to Springfield for Smackdown. Knowing I would be in the car with Jon for over three and a half hours, it was going to be hard not to spill the beans. Jon put the last of our luggage in the trunk as he opened my door to let me in the car. Fans yelled for him to come over and he waved at them.

"Babe.. Go ahead.." I said, he looked down at me in confusion. "I can tell you want to go over there to them. We can spare ten minutes. I should go to the bathroom really fast anyways." He helped up out of the car as he kissed my cheek. "Be careful." I nodded as we headed our separate ways.

Walking down the hall once more towards the bathroom my thoughts still reminded on Colby. I knew I loved Jon, there was no doubt in that, but something about Colby just made me crazy. Sounds crazy as it is.

"Maddy!" I heard from behind me as I reached the bathroom. I turned around. Wow speaking of the man. "Where's Jon?" He asked. "Out with fans... Why?" He pulled me into him again as he slammed his lips against mine without hesitation. I was caught by surprise and held onto him for a second in the kiss. Reality hit me on what was going on as I pulled off of him. I rose my hand from my side, slapping him against his cheek. "What the hell Colby?! You think you can just grab me and kiss me like that?!" I screamed. He backed up from me as I noticed the sympathy in his eyes. "I couldn't live with myself if I didn't do that. All I've dreamed about is what it would be like to kiss you. I'm sorry... I was at wrong for that.. I just... I needed to know how it would feel." I stood in front of him as I glanced at him, looking at him in awe. He stood there shirtless, sweaty, and in his ring gear. I watched sweat drop down his gorgeous abs and his chest beating like crazy, obviously from being out of breath. Looking back up at his face I couldn't help but look at the realness in his eyes. This man really did love me, and he was hurting.

"I... I... Umm.. I need to go. Jon will be looking for me." Before I could allow him to say a word back I headed into the bathroom. My heart was racing out of my chest and my hands were shaking. What is going on with you Maddy? Calm down! I opened the stale as I sat down to go pee, grabbing toilet paper for my eyes. I could feel my anxiety, well hormones, causing me to tear up. I felt so guilty and not because of what this would do to Jon but because what it was doing to me.

Heading back to the car I noticed Jon was still taking pictures with fans and my heart ached. I knew this was really getting to me when I couldn't look at him without wanting to break down. Jon signed a couple more pictures for fans as he told them he had to leave and ran down the ramp back to me. I opened the car door, allowing myself in, as I wiped my cheeks and eyes before he jumped in.

"Thank you for allowing me to do that babe." He said. I smiled. "You mean a lot to them Jon. Something as simple as a photo with you or an autograph of yours could make their entire week." He grabbed my hand as he rubbed it with his thumb. "It means even more to me. Not to mention that you're so willing to allow me to do those things without getting annoyed." I looked at him as I smiled once more. "This is your life Jon, I have to allow these sorts of things and I'm glad to. You're a very humble guy and your fans know that. Don't ever think you can't spend time with them, because you always should." He nodded as he kissed my cheek and looked back at the wheel as we headed on our way.

An hour into our drive Jon was the one who talked. I sat nodding and smiling to everything he said. I tried hard to act like I was interested in the things he was saying but in reality all that was on my mind was Colby and the kiss. I wanted so badly to tell Jon but truth was, I was scared. I didn't know how Jon would handle it nor did I know how he would treat me afterwards. Nikki's voice was running through my mind... Girl you need to tell him or things will get worse.

"Babe... You okay?" He asked grabbing ahold of my hand again. "Yeah... Just a lot on my mind is all. Not to mention I'm just really exhausted. Harmony has been really energetic today." He laughed. "Sounds just like her dad. What's been on your mind?" Lord, you have no idea, no idea at all.

I shrugged my shoulders. "Just everything really. I haven't heard from my dad since the day he came over and he hasn't been answering my calls. Plus I'm just thinking of all the things we still need to get done for Harmony. I need to turn my guest room into her room still and I need to get her crib, clothes, and.."

"Babe, babe... Calm down. You're going to stress yourself out. And don't worry about all that stuff. I will take care of it, okay?" I nodded. "Sorry... I'm just so stressed when things don't get done right away." He laughed. "I know. It's understandable. And as for your dad.. Maybe he's just been really busy. He has been going to therapy and has been focusing on work. Hey... Maybe he found someone to spend his life with? I'm sure he will call you soon." I smiled as he raised my hand up to his lips placing a kiss upon it.

We finally arrived at our hotel as Jon headed inside to check in. I sat in the car waiting as my phone went off, alerting me of a text.

*I can't stop thinking about the kiss. I really want to see you again, but I know I can't. God Maddy you make me crazy.*

I stared at the text smiling. Stop Maddy! Don't do this. I hit reply.

*Honestly... I can't stop thinking about it either. I don't know what you're doing to me but it's not right. I love Jon. I want to be with Jon. We can't do this, seriously. Goodnight and goodbye*

Jon tapped at the window as I got out and we headed to our room. It's now or never Maddy, he needs to know. You're getting in too deep. I looked at Jon in his long sleeve, blue t shirt and his cut up jeans. His hair was fluffed out and his eyes were a perfect blue. He had a lingering smell of body wash and cologne. I couldn't help but smile, he was beautiful.

We walked into our room as I immediately sat down on the bed taking my shoes off. I pulled the blankets down as I crawled into them, wrapping myself up. Jon came over to my side as he kissed my forehead. I looked at him as I watched him strip down to his boxers and walked over to the other side of the bed. He crawled in as he moved close to me placing his hand on my face and leaning himself in to kiss me. His lips placed upon mine and I knew right away I couldn't do this. I pulled off of him as I held onto my lips with my hand. Tears already formed my eyes as Jon looked at me.

"Maddy... What's wrong?!" He asked in concern. I sat up on the bed as tears ran down my cheeks. I had to tell him. "Maddy.. Talk to me.." He pleaded. I didn't know exactly how to say it, so the word vomit happened, without any hesitation or warning.

"Colby kissed me." Jon immediately sat up on the bed as I looked at him and noticed anger fill his eyes. He bawled up his fists as he fidgeted, not being able to sit still. "He.. He what?! When?!" He shouted. "Today... When I was on my way to the bathroom... But there's more.." He kept his eyes on me as anger still filled his face. "Tell me.. Now." He exclaimed. Fuck. Here goes nothing.

"At our party he drunk dialed me. He started telling me that he saw me and Sara right before I went into the bar to see you that night at mania. He explained that he wanted to come up to me that night and ask me out but he saw that I was going up to you so he stopped. Umm... Then he proceeded to tell me that the reason he has been acting the way he has is because he has feelings for me."

"Anything else?" He asked.

I nodded as I continued. "When you went to the locker room today I was on my way to catering and Colby came up behind me and pulled me into the storage room. He told me that he was falling for me and that he wished I would see what kind of man you are to woman. Then... He tried to kiss me but I ran out. Umm.. Then when I went to go to the bathroom he came up behind me, pulled me into him, and slammed his lips against mine. I slapped him." He laughed for a second and then shook his head. "He deserves more than a slap.. I can't believe him. No. Actually I do. He would do something like this. I'm going to fix this. Now." He got out of bed, slipped his jeans back on and pulled his phone out of his pocket. He dialed a number as I heard Joes voice in the background.

"Hey... What room is Colby in?"

Fuck. I got up from the bed as I stood in front of Jon.

"230? Alright. Thanks man." He hung up the phone as I put my hands out in front of him. "Jon don't..." He looked at me in confusion. "What do you mean don't?! The son a bitch forced a kiss on you! You expect me to just let it go?!" He screamed.

"Yes.. You have to! Think about what you're doing Jon. You hit him again or make a scene it's going to hurt your job. You just got back from suspension." He shook his head laughing. "You think I care about that right now?! He fucking kissed you Maddy! He forced you into a closet with him and then does this?! No. I'm not going to allow this." He pushed past me as I screamed the only thing I could.

"I kissed him back Jon!" He stopped in his place as he turned back around to me. He walked up to me as his eyes turned a darker blue and I knew he was as angry as he could be. "You... What?!" He shouted. "I kissed Colby back. It takes two to kiss Jon. Plus.. I answered his drunk call, I stayed in the closet with him. Yes.. I slapped him when he kissed me but I let it happen. I didn't pull away right away. He's not the only one at fault, so am I. So if you're going to yell and be mad at someone then do it to me."

Jon covered his face with his hands as he sat down on the edge of the bed. He stayed silent. "I'm sorry Jon... I'm truly sorry. I made a mistake. He just.. He filled my head with his words and guilt and.."

He moved his hands off his face. "So what.. You had to kiss him?! You could of walked away, you could of never answered the call. You could have told me from the beginning instead of hiding this from me. God Maddy..." I noticed his eyes were watery and I knew he was about to break down.

"I'm sorry! You're right.. I should of told you before.. But I'm telling you now."

He laughed. "Yeah.. You tell me now. But you allowed his kiss." He stood up from the bed as he threw his hands in the air. "I can't believe you... All this time you wanted to come at me about Renee and you do this. I can't even look at you right now." He started to walk towards the door as I broke down in tears. "Jon.. Please don't go. This is exactly why I didn't want to tell you. I knew you would act this way and this would happen. I love you Jon, I don't love him nor do I want to be with him. I told him to leave me alone, that I don't want him. Please... Don't leave. Stay. If not for me.. Stay for our daughter. You said it yourself... She doesn't need this." He turned back towards me as he walked to me and to the side of the bed. "Fine... For Harmony I will stay. But this conversation is over. Goodnight." He crawled into bed, throwing the blankets over his body and face, hiding himself from me. I sat down on my side of the bed, continuing to cry my heart out. I knew this was a bad idea and I should have kept it to myself. I felt my stomach turning and I knew I needed to calm down for Harmonys sake. I took in a few deep breaths and for the first time in years I prayed.

Afterwards I crawled into the bed as well, turning the light off, as I laid there for the first time without Jon holding me. I turned to him and all I could see were a pile of blankets. I could feel myself getting ready to cry again but I calmed myself down knowing I didn't want to upset Harmony. I knew she could feel all of this and for her sake I needed to be strong. I closed my eyes in hope to fall asleep, but God knew I probably wouldn't be able to.