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(I'm winding down and will be finishing up soon…I don't know how many more chapters but be ready for the unthinkable moihahahhaha)

Other then the fact that it was in a greasy car shed, in an unfinished car without candles or music, it'd all actually been really perfect. I'd given everything to Jake. My entire body and soul and I trusted him with it entirely.

It always amazed me when Jacob, who's body was so big and muscular, could actually be so gentle and fragile. He'd been sweet and even though it had been both of our first times it didn't even feel awkward or strange or foreign. It had felt right.

His arm was wrapped around me keeping me warm and we'd found a cotton blanket in the car that we had wrapped around ourselves now to keep from being completely exposed. It felt so good to be this close to him. I actually felt like I was done with everything in the past. It felt so far away and distant, like it was another life. It felt childish and immature and that now, this was the real deal. This was my life now.

He kept kissing my head and stroking my arm and I kept catching him staring at me with that special look in his eye. He'd imprinted on me and I knew that we were forever. We we're meant to be together. Nothing could stop us now.

The next few days passed by quickly and I was happier then I'd ever been. Jake and I were attached at the hip. I hung out with Quil and Embry and became close with them, and even Smartie became a joy to be around. I was too happy to let anything annoy me or tick me off so I hoped I was fun to be around as well.

We'd sit around all day and watch TV or we'd all go to a beach on warm days or Smartie and I would talk on day the boys went out to do werewolf business or whatever it was they did. I actually spoke to Smartie and we talked about a lot of—well, issues. I hadn't brought up the past and I wasn't sure I was going to but it would've been nice to just talk about it to someone and get an opinion. I didn't think I ever would because if she talked to Jacob about it, he'd know that I was breaking my promise and I couldn't see him hurting again.

Besides, it wasn't even painful anymore. I was proud that I didn't wince at their names anymore, I merely froze a bit on the inside but it wasn't anything I couldn't hide easily. I was trying to keep onto their memories because in reality they were a big part of my life and I didn't want to forget them. I just wanted to remember them as a part of my life that's over. Like I moved away and all my friends stayed at home and you made references to them time and again but you didn't talk to them, or call them or hang out with them anymore. They were just your old friends.

"Bells!" Jake came in the door, Paul close on his heels, an enveloped me in a big hug. He picked me off the floor and twirled me around. I gave him a sloppy kiss on the cheek. Every time I saw him I felt like a- I was going to explode and b- I was going to catch fire because every time he touched my skin it burned. "Alright you two, save the theatrics." Smartie came into the living room sporting a baby blue tank top and black short shorts. She must've had some sort of werewolf blood in her because I was wearing a big sweater I was so cold. "Hey Smartie, this is my friend Paul."

"Nice to meet you Paul," she said winking seductively. I rolled my eyes. I looked over at Paul who was standing awkwardly with the door still open with a funny look in his eye. "Oh my--," Jake started before Paul nudged him aside and leaned down to kiss Rachel's hand. "Hello, you're absolutely beautiful." Jake wolf whistled and starting howling and whooping. "Wait 'till Quil hears this!"

"Dude, shut up!" Paul shouted.

"We got another imprint! How exciting!" Jake was just trying to piss off Paul now, I could see that. I couldn't help but giggle along with him.

"Whatever Jake, you're such a tool."

"Oh Pauly, you're just jealous of how sexy a wolf I am."

"Yeah right!"

"Everyone thinks I'm the cutest." Jake batted his eyelashes and I burst out laughing. Paul glared over at me but I couldn't stop.

"Jake stop!" I said half laughing half serious.

"Yeah you'd listen to your stupid vampire loving girlfriend if you knew what's good for you." Paul snapped between clenched teeth. And there it was. My chance to show Jake that I was ready to move on with him. I didn't flinch or wince or wrap my arms around myself in fact, surprisingly it barely bugged me at all. I laughed in Paul's face, "It's weird…I'm pretty sure you say that same comeback every time you see me! I don't know, I guess I thought that by now your little brain could muster up something a little better." Smartie giggled quietly. I smirked at Paul's flabbergasted face, "nope? Nothing? Oh well, better luck next time Paul." I wiggled my fingers goodbye and walked over to Jacob. I grabbed his hand and pulled him outside. Might as well let the two future lovebirds have some alone time. Besides, I didn't want a Paul-Jacob pseudo fight breaking out.

"Want to go drive somewhere? Maybe you could buy me dinner and--," I turned and looked at Jake. His face was incredulous. His eyes wide, his mouth hung open. "What?" I said immediately self conscious. He didn't say anything; he instead pulled me into his embrace and leaned down to kiss me passionately on the mouth. His lips brushed gently against my jaw line while he murmured, "you're kind of amazing you know that?" he said rewording a phrase I'd said to him a while back. I smiled and went on my tiptoes to sneak a quick peck. I pulled away and ran towards my car. "Let's go Jake!"

"Where?" He said laughing as he followed me to my car.

"Anywhere."

"I only have enough for one movie Bells!"

"We'll be super sneaky and pay for one and sneak into another one. Come on, it'll be fun." I felt so carefree standing outside the cinema in Port Angeles trying to convince Jacob to be a rebel. I knew I was going to win the argument, I always did. He imprinted on me and even though I could ask anything of him and make him do anything for me, I didn't want to. I didn't want what we had to change at all. I was walking in a cloud of utter bliss.

"Okay fine, let's do it!" he said grabbing my hand and hauling me into the theatre. I giggled quietly as we bought the tickets and figured out which two movies we could see for the price of one. He was reading the flashing screen that gave the movie times and I took this time to look at him. He really was perfect. And as I gazed down at myself, the torn jeans and messy hair I realized that we didn't seem to out of place. We looked normal and happy. I never doubted myself when I was with Jake, I never thought that I didn't deserve him. We just fit. "So we'll see the new action one and that is about 2 hours and then we can run to catch that comedy that Quil and Embry saw last week." He looked down at me and caught me staring at him. I blushed and looked away slightly embarrassed. He tightened his grip on my hand and as he leaned down to kiss my head, he whispered quietly in my ear, "You're perfect." As he drew back he raised our hands to trace my cheekbone. I grinned and pulled him into the action movie.

"I know—I know, it's just—okay and I understand that but--," Jake and I came stumbling into the house, or rather I did, to see Billy rubbing his forehead as he mumbled quietly to someone on the phone. "Who is it?" Jake mouthed to his dad. Billy glanced quickly at me and my smile vanished. "Yeah Charlie she's out with Jacob anyway—yeah I'm sure she will, I'll let her know—okay bye now." Billy hung up the phone and an awkward silence followed. "Don't like lying Bella." And with that he rolled away to his room.

I collapsed in the kitchen chair and rested my head in my hands. "I really should—I don't know." I mumbled. I felt Jake sit next to me and as he scooted closer so he could hold me I felt at home. "Bells, he's your dad and he's probably worried sick. I bet you he's not even mad anymore! He's definitely just regretting ever letting you go."

"Maybe, but—It's just really hard to have two people say they don't want you." I whispered. I wasn't going to deny the fact that Edward had completely destroyed me. I couldn't. It was a part of who I was and no matter how much I believed that it was just going to disappear it wasn't. With time maybe but for now it was still inside me. And on top of that to have my own father mutter the same words that destroyed me so long ago only added to the pain.

"Bella, listen. You're dad loves you. He was just caught up in the act of being the 'perfect' father and sometimes that happens. He was trying to do what was best for you. He was completely wrong mind you," he smirked, "but none the less he's still looking out for you. That's better then what the other case has provided for you." As these words sunk in I realized how right Jacob was. Edward had vanished and hadn't returned. He'd left me to rot away. When Charlie on the other hand, had called almost every night begging to talk to me and threatening to come 'beat down the door'. I smiled and reached over to grab the phone. I dialed the familiar number and while listening to the dial tone I traced Jake's lips and kissed them softly before I heard Charlie's voice ring through the phone. "Hello?" I burst into tears as I realized how much I'd missed my dad.

(wow it's been a while. Sorry everyone and hope you enjoyed it. *review please* )