A/N: Okay this is stupid, but you guys talked me into it. First, I had my ending already, and I wanted to post it, thinking YAY I'm done and I reached the goal I had set, containing hits and reviews, BUT then you guys are all like… THE END? So, I have purposely decided to drag it out a lil more, no promises to HOW long that will take, but longer than a chapter. I will MAKE Booth make it up to her in some way, drag that out maybe.
For ALL those I disappointed, this chapter is for YOU and for those who stuck it out and enjoyed it anyway I am eternally grateful. Enjoy the next chapter and happy reading :)
Brennan heard a tap at the door, and sluggishly rose from her position on the couch to answer it. Her head hurt. She felt a strange sensation in the pit of her stomach that was unexplained, it wasn't a feeling of being sick, more a feeling of anxiety.
She peered through the peep hole, and saw his face. "GO AWAY!" she ordered.
"I will break down the door, if I have to. I NEED to speak to you, Bones."
She pulled the door open and stared bitterly at the face on the other side.
"What are you doing here?" she asked bluntly. She didn't want to look at him. She was still seething with anger and betrayal. He had broken his promise, and her faith in him had faltered.
"I wanted to see you…" he looked uncomfortable.
She turned her head away. "I don't want to see you, Booth. Doesn't the silent treatment mean anything to you? Leave me alone!"
"Bones, please…" he reached out his arm and she snatched it away, turning on him with blazing anger. He ignored the bitterness and said what he came here for. "I won't mess up again. It was a stupid judgment error I didn't see straight, I panicked. I didn't see what I should have. I'm SO sorry, Bones. It was me being a jerk... an Alpha male… or whatever scientific words you have stored in your vocabulary. I just- please, reconsider Bones, I'm allowed a mistake or two before we find solid ground, right?"
"You abandoned me, Booth. You promised you wouldn't and you did. I can't trust you… I don't." His eyes turned glassy, and he had that same look of pain when she had rejected him. "You are saying all this now because they're letting us work together."
"NO!" he stated firmly. "I knew I made a mistake in Sweets office. I was just stupid. I'm sorry… God, I'm sorry… I- I know I don't deserve you-"
"No," she agreed finishing his sentence for him. "You don't and you won't be getting it!"
"Your being irrational, Bo-" he didn't get a chance to finish his sentence before her fist connected with his cheekbone. He stumbled back, stunned by her action.
"DAMN!" he groaned bending over slightly and cupping his cheek his palm. "Bones, was that necessary?"
"Yes," she nodded matter-of-factly. Yeah, she thought silently, that felt pretty good. "You messed up Booth, you made a mistake and now you have to suffer for it. I'm done," she went to the door and opened it, gesturing for him to leave.
"Aren't you even going to listen?" he asked in obvious desperation.
"Why?" she challenged. "You made your choice, rapidly, now I'm making mine. GET OUT!" she ordered. She folded her arms across her chest and waited. The ache in her chest, seemed to irate her, and it had only appeared when he did. The sooner he was gone, the better.
He gave her a desperate pleading look, but she didn't buy. She had no compassion for him then, she knew regret would make an appearance sooner or later, but she was hoping she could hold on to her pride long enough that Booth wasn't around when it back a guest appearance.
"Do I have to have you removed from the premises by force?" she asked coldly.
He ran a hand through his hair. "I know I messed up… are you ever going to forgive me?"
"Would you forgive me for hurting you?"
He didn't even hesitate. "Yes. You did it for years… every time you turned me down, every time you said no… it hurt Bones, but I loved you enough."
"Maybe that's the point," she shrugged.
"What is?" he looked hopeful for a moment.
"I just don't love you enough…"
The recognition made him shutter evidently before her. Brennan felt sick at the sound of her own bitter words. Was she really THAT angry with him that she would resort to hurting him just to get even?
She wanted to ask Booth to come back, to explain himself, to make it better… to make reinstate her faith in him, to make her believe when he said he loved her… instead, he walked out the door, his shoulders slumped and a kink in his step. She closed the door behind him, and sighed heavily as she returned to the couch, to wallow in self-pity.
It would be unrealistic to think that it wouldn't hurt Bones to hurt him.
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