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The silence that followed was comforting and defeating at once. Comforting because I had a few more minutes before he would blow me off and defeating because I was sure that he would do just that. Could I do that? Could I live through the rejection? Well, I would have to, wouldn´t I?
I could run away, but where would be the use in it? We would have to face it sooner or later and it was me who had shown up at his place, not vice versa.
I took a deep breath and opened my eyes, but Edward wasn´t there anymore.
"Edward?" I asked carefully, but no answer.
"Edward?" I asked again, this time louder. Again no answer. Had he left? Why?
Right then my cell chirped, telling me I had a new message.
I´m sorry, I can´t. Edward.
I stared blankly at the text for what felt like ours (probably was), but then anger rose inside me.
Fine. I can´t, too. Have a great live. Bella.
I typed in and hit send.
"Hey Bells! You look like you´ve just eaten a lemon. What´s up?" asked Jake and put his arm around my shoulder.
I scowled at him and shoved off his arm.
"Whoa! What´s the matter?" he asked with his hands up in defense.
"Nothing. Did you fetch the tuxedo now?" I snapped. He eyed me concerned and nodded.
"Good." With that, I brushed past him and went to check on something else.
"Bella?" asked Alice behind me and I sighed frustrated.
"What?" she looked taken aback by my harsh tone.
"Are you okay?"
"Sure! Perfectly fine, Alice. If you would excuse me now. I have to take care of this." She lingered a moment longer, but left eventually and let out a long breath.
"What´s the matter with her?" I heard Leah ask when I passed by the kitchen.
"I have no idea. She´s in such a bad mood." Agreed Alice.
"I´ve never seen her like that." Threw Jake in, but he sounded really concerned.
"Do you think it has to do something with HIM?" Alice sounded unsure and kind of horrified.
"Of course it has! Who else could be the reason?" boomed Jake so loud and mad that I jumped.
"But… I don´t get it! She went to talk to him and ever since, she´s like that. And he…" Alice trailed off and my curiosity got the best of me. What had happened to him?
"He what?" demanded Leah to know now.
"He left and nobody knows where he went." A little sob escaped the pixie.
"Do you think she... rejected him?" asked Jake now carefully and I tensed up. How could he think that?
"Who knows? She wouldn´t talk about it and he is gone." Answered Leah.
Again anger rose inside me. First it was him who ran off and now my best friends accused me for having rejected him?
"What the hell!" I called before I knew what was happening and rounded the corner. The three of them stared at me with wide eyes, like deers caught in the headlight.
"Bella… we… uhm…" stuttered Jake and looked apologetically at me.
"Keep that shit, Jake. Do you really think like that?" Tears welled up in my eyes. I felt betrayed by my best friend, by my brother. He really thought like that. I could see it in his eyes.
"Whatever." I spew at him before he could react and stormed out of the room.
"Bells! Bella!" called all 3 and came after me. They catched up with me when I reached my car.
"We´re sorry, Bella. We just don´t understand what happened." Said Alice fast and grabbed my shoulder, but I shoved it off and whirled to her. Hurt crossed her eyes and left me with a guilty feeling. It wasn´t her fault, neither was it Leah´s or Jacob´s fault. They were just concerned about me.
Instead of giving them a piece of my mind because I was pissed (extremely pissed), I took a deep breath and blew it out slowly.
"I´m sorry." I eventually got out and looked at the ground.
"What happened?" asked Leah so soft that new tears welled up in my eyes.
Instead of answering, I took my cell out of my bag, opened the text from Edward and showed it to them.
"I don´t understand." Said Alice carefully.
"I went to talk to him. I told him that I don´t blame him and that he should stop blaming himself and then I asked him about our kiss." I began.
"You KISSED?" called Jake shocked, but fell silent as soon as he caught Alice and Leah glaring at him.
"He thought it would be arkward for me and that´s because he left." I got on, still looking at the ground.
"He asked me if I regret it and I answered him the truth. That I don´t regret it. My eyes were closed when I told him and when I opened them again, he was gone. I called him, but got no response. Instead I got this text from him."
My 3 best friends were silent for a moment before a sob let all of us jump. It was Alice, who looked like she was about to fall apart.
"I´m so sorry, Bella. I really thought you could save him from himself." She threw herself into my arms and sobbed into my shoulder. Though felt horrible, I comforted her. This was even harder for her than for me.
"It´s okay, Al. It´s not your fault." Jake and Leah watched me sad, but said nothing. I managed even a weak smile, thanking them silently for it.
The day of the wedding. The house was buzzing, mostly because of Alice´s hyperactivity, but all of us were infected. I was so happy for Leah and Jake that they finally got their happily ever after. They really deserved it. As I came to the wedding alone, I asked Billy to be my date and he accepted with a wink and a little blush. So I was with the girls getting ready at my house while Jake and Billy were in La Push.
"I´m so nervous." Said Leah with a shaking voice while Alice did her magic on her Hair and makeup.
"It´s normal to be nervous, but this is Jake." The happiest smile crossed her face when I mentioned his name.
"Yes." She breathed, but then her face fell.
"I just wish Mum could be here today. She would kick Jake´s ass about making me happy and all." I knew how she felt. Also I missed Charlie today more than ever. Jake had been like a son to him and he would have loved to part of this day.
"She´s with you, Leah. She´s with you all the time." I said honest and put my hand onto her shoulder. She understood what I meant because we felt the same way and looked thankful at me.
"Don´t you dare to cry. It will ruin your makeup." Scolded Alice and both of us had to giggle. Leave it to Alice to lighten up the mood.
The wedding was more than I could ever have wished for my 2 friends. It was simple but 100% them. And the love between the 2 of them was almost touchable. When Leah walked down the aisle towards the man she loved, his eyes filled with tears. He shot me a short look that said so much more than words. He thanked me for having encouraged him to ask her out and for still being his friend. I returned his smile and winked.
Though I was really happy for them, I was also sad. I still wanted to have what they had or Alice and Rose (who stood next to me at the altar) with Jasper and Emmett. Both men couldn´t take their eyes off the women they loved and the girls looked back with the same affection. I knew it wouldn´t be long till they would make the same step as Jake and Leah. They were made for each other and I believed nothing could come between their love. Everybody got their happily ever after, only not me.
A tear slipped down my cheek and I was thankful that people would think it was because of my happiness, not my sadness.
When I scanned the rows, I saw many familiar faces from La Push and Forks. They smiled back at me, some winked and I felt my smile growing from forced to being true, but when my eyes fell onto the 2 people way back, I froze. A pair of intense green eyes bore into mine with such force that I shivered, while the second pair of blue eyes shot daggers at me.
Edward was back and he had a beautiful blond woman on his arm.
*hiding behind the couch and waving the white flag* please don´t kill me! It wasn´t me! Well, it was, but it came to me on its own, I swear!
What do you think, good, bad, horrible? How shall it continue? Any ideas?