I wish I owned this story, or at least a certain Russian, but sadly I don't!

I do have a destination for this story, please just be patient. I'm getting there.

In the meantime, Happy Reading!

Enjoy!

-Carmen

My POV

Dimitri, Lissa and Adrian were with Rose, when she finally opened her groggy eyelids. She looked up at the worried faces that were looking down at her. At first, she thought she was dreaming those wonderful people, until she heard her true love murmuring to her in his thick Russian accented voice. The medication she was under, was making her feel a little loopy. But otherwise she wasn't in any pain. She could only guess why that was.

Rose could only imagine how she had healed so quickly, she had two very kick ass healing best friends, that loved her immensely. They would give up anything in order to help her. Just as she would doing anything she could for either of them. She was very grateful for their help. Rose definately didnt want to have to deal with the physical pain. Not when she was going through the emotion turmoil that had nested in her head. She knew she would have to face Christian, and the guilt was overwelming her. How could she face her friend, when she knew that she was at fault for not protecting Tasha, when she needed it most? Christian is going to hate me, she thought. She didnt know if she really could face him. She tried to hide all of her mental fragility, but it was getting hard for her to hold on to the facade.

Dimitri had apologized to Jade, till he was blue in the face. She told him that she understood, and not to worry about it. He was going though a tough time. But Dimitri was still ashamed of what he had done. He also knew Rose was going to be pissed at him when she found out. He didn't want to keep it from her, but now was not the time to let her in on it. Jade had been at the hospital the whole time Rose was in surgery. She wanted to apologize to Rose for leaving her and Lark behind. She had already caught up with Lark, he told her the same thing she had told Dimitri.

Dimitri nor the other two, wanted to tell Rose how much blood she had lost, due to the miscarriage, or the fact that's she had to get a blood transfusion. She had enough to deal with, with what she was about to find out.

"Roza, how are you feeling, love?" Dimitri whispered to her, concern showed in face. He leaned over and kissed her forehead, then he sat carefully on the side of the bed, so he could give her a gentle hug, placing his hand on her leg, rubbing it unconsciously.

Lissa burst out crying again. This time, it was from the relief of seeing that Rose was okay. She sat on the other side of Rose so she too, could give her a hug. Lissa just wanted the comfort of feeling Rose's arms wrapped around her, and her arms wrapped around Rose. Lissa didn't keep Rose in the embrace long, she knew that her best friend was still exhausted.

With what Rose had went though, it was a miracle that she was awake at all, at the moment. Lissa knew that Rose was going to have a lot to overcome, and she wanted to comfort her friend. She also knew that Adrian and herself needed to leave, so that Dimitri could talk to her in private. They needed their space.

Like Adrian could read her mind, he approached the bed and bent over to give her a kiss on her forehead, "It's good to see that you are finally awake, Little Dhampir," his voice was shaky, and his hands were even shakier. Even though he knew she was fine, he still couldn't get the image of seeing her in the condition she was in, when she had first arrived back home. He also knew that he would never stand a chance with her. He loved Mia. Mia was the one for him. He realized that now. He had got lucky thsat night at the club, when he had run into Mia. Adrian figured that it was the thought of Rose dying, that stressed him out with Mia, and had caused the big blow out that they had had.

"I'm fine. Thanks for all the concern, you guys, but really, I am fine." her voice was hoarse and she didn't look fine, but no one questioned her abou it. They all knew she wasnt fine. Lissa and Adrian left the room so that Dimitri could talk to her alone.

DPOV

Dimitri sat there beside Rose for a long time. just staring at her and taking in her beauty. He cleared his throat a few times, trying to build courage and strength.

Looking down into her beautiful face and bottomless brown eyes, was enough to bring him to his knees. He didnt want to hurt her, and he knew this conversation was going to tear her to bits. I scooted as close to her as I could get, without hurtinge her. I so did not want to hurt my beloved.

"Rose, I ….I have to talk to you about something. The doctors told me that you uh," shit, how am I going to tell her this?

Rose looked up at me with an exasperated expression, "Just tell me, Dimitri. You can tell me anything."

I sure hoped that was true, "You were pregnant, Rose. You lost...you uh, lost the baby." I waited to gauge her feelings before I moved forward with the rest. That killed me to tell her those words.

"The doctor also told me, that that was not the first time either. He said you had a previous miscarriage in your charts. From five years ago."

"Again," she whispered. Her face was somber. I could see her mind reeling with what I had just told her. Her face was twisted in pain and her voice was so low, it was almost inaudible. I waited for more, it took a few minutes before she spoke again. She was staring at the white ceiling tiles, deep in thought.

She gazed over and met my eyes, "Yes, its true. And yes, both were yours. The first one I lost while I was training so hard. I didn't know then either, that I was pregnant." that's when she started crying.

That made me feel even worse then I was feeling just a few seconds ago. Knowing I was the one to blame for all of her rigorous training. If it hadn't been for me, she wouldn't had been doing that. I hated to see this beautiful creature cry, I stretched out on the bed beside her and enveloped her into a hug. Pulling her body against mine, so I could console her. Just laying there holding her till she let it all out. Tears started streaming down my face, as well.

"How?"

She raised her head high enough so she could look directly in my eyes, "When it happen the first time, the doctor said it must be a 'shadow kiss' effect. They really don't know, since I'm the only one they had ever come across, but they think its because Lissa healed me. Not just my soul, but my body, inside and out. They think with the healing, it healed this fucked up genetic quirk trait."

I lay there trying to wrap my head around all that she had just revealed to me, "Roza, we can try again, I mean, if you want too." I murmured into her hair. I wanted to give her the option. Even though I wanted kids with Rose, I was not about to put her through any more then she had already gone through.

She looked at me earnestly, "Of course I want your baby. Not right now, but soon."

Those were the most sweetest and the most intimate words she could have said to me. I bent down to her soft, full lips and gave her a deep, gentle kiss as my response. She didn't kiss me back like she normally did, that told me that something else was bothering her. I didn't bring up Tasha just yet, she had enough to deal with at the moment. But somehow, I knew it was about her. I knew she would also blame herself for Tasha's death. It wasn't her fault, but I knew she would view it differently.

"What's wrong, love?"

She shook her head, "Nothing," she muttered.

I bent down to meet her lips once more, this time she did kiss me back, with an urgent fervor.

She pulled back, and the next words out of her luscious lips, confirmed that she really was feeling better, "When can I get some food?" Right on cue, her stomach let out a loud growl.

I gave a soft laugh, "What? I'm starving!" she defended.

I shook my head, grazing her hair when I did, "Nothing, I will get you something," I started to get up, but she pulled me back down to her.

"No, don't leave me alone. Please?" she begged. I couldn't resist anything that Rose would ask of me. Instead I called the nurse on the intercom button. I told her that Rose would like to eat, she said something would be there in a minute.

The food came and she scarfed it down rather quickly. I wanted to move her into a brighter topic.

"I was thinking of making an honest woman out of you sooner rather than later."

Her face brightened a little, "Oh yeah?"

"I was thinking of having our wedding at the cabin. Our cabin. How does that sound? Just something small and intimate, while I have some of my family here. An outdoor wedding."

She beamed, "Oh Dimitri, that's a wonderful idea!"

The doctor came in just then, "Good afternoon, Guardian Hathaway. How are you feeling?"

Rose sat up in the bed a little, and I got completely off, so the doctor could check her out.

"I'm feeling a lot better. Thanks doc."

The doctor did some vital checks and asked her a few questions. "You can leave as soon as you want. But I would advice you to take it easy for a few days. I know you were healed and all. But I would feel better if you didn't over do it."

Rose nodded in agreement. The doctor didnt stay long. He gave her a list of instructions and told her once again, not to over do it. He was about to leave when she called out to him,

"Uh, hey Doc?"

He turned so he could see her, "Yes?"

"How long do I have to wait till uh, uh….I can have..." she blushed a bright crimson.

The doctor got the gist of what she was trying to ask, and gave her a big grin, "You don't have to wait Rose. Your body was healed." he turned and walked out the door.

"I'm ready to get the hell out of here. Where are my clothes?"

I gave her a fresh set of clothes, she got dressed and we were on our way home. But first we had to give the crew that was waiting, the update on her condition.

I am sorry if I am confusing anyone, but I am getting around to it. I have to deal with one issue at a time.

If you have any questions, just pm me and I will answer it for you.

The next few chapters should shed some light on what's going on.

Thanks for reading and taking the time to review!

-Carmen