No I think I won

PEN

One week turned to two weeks, two weeks turned to three weeks, three weeks turned into the time and days we have been staying in the hospital waiting, and worrying about Derek. Doctors and nurses coming in and out, daily. Specialists coming in and out giving their thoughts on his situation, what they thought would happen over the next few days.

Hotch ordered Rossi to stay behind and lead the team. They were going back and forth on cases, I did all the searches they needed for me to do on my personal computer at the hospital, every other day I managed to pull myself away from the hospital to actually go into the office.

My brothers called last week and told me they wasn't going to be able to make it, which was a huge relief to me. I'm glad they didn't come. Now do not get me wrong I do believe everyone deserves a second chance but when your own family treats you the way they treated me, and said the things they did to me, there is no more chances to be given.

I was just finishing a search for the team, when Fran, Sarah, and Dessi walked in. "Oh thank god you guys are back, I have drunk a whole bottle of apple juice, and I have business to take care of. But I didn't want to leave him by hisself. Now if you girls will excuse me, I have to go to little girls room"

"Oh ok, has the doctor came in" Fran asked as I closed down my computer.

"Uh no but a nurse came in, a little while ago. She didn't say anything she just wrote something off the computer and left."

"Oh ok, go handle your business" Fran said with a laugh, As I walked out of the room and down to the restrooms.

I quickly handled my business. And I rushed back to the room. I entered the room just as Dessi was getting ready to leave out.

"Can you wait a second" I asked her and she nodded yes in response and sat back into her seat.

"What's wrong Pen" Sarah asked

"Um seems like I won't need that pregnancy test after all" I told them.

"Oh no, Pen, you're not pregnant" Dessi said

"Uh No, seems like it was just stressed. No Bun is in this oven" I said as I gave them a shaky laugh.

"Oh Pen sweetheart are you ok" Fran asked. As she stepped towards me. I took a step back to the door.

"Oh yea I'm fine, but if you guys will excuse me I'm going to head down stairs I promised JJ I would tell her, if I decided to take a test or something, I'll be right back" I sniffled and headed out the door before they could see the tears that was escaping my eyes.

FRAN

Poor Pen, I know this is killing her. She really wanted to mother a child on her own. She was so happy once she got use to the idea.

"Mom she's not ok and we know it, I'm going to go after her" Dessi said breaking me from my train of thought.

"No let her have her space, if and when she's ready she will talk to us. I know she's not ok with this, and really the only person that's going to be able to help her with this will be Derek"

"Yea mom we know that but can't we at least comfort her, hold her while she's crying. I mean ain't that what Derek would want us to do" Sarah asked.

"Yes but Derek would also know when she needs time to herself, and he would know that when she's upset she puts up a wall, soooo we wait and let her come to us" I said just as my phone began to vibrate. I took it out of my pocket, it was a text message from Penelope.

"Fran I'm heading home, I need to change and some other things. I should be back a little later"

I sent her a quick reply with "ok".

"Who was that Mom" Dessi asked

"Uh Pen, she's going home, she needs to change and some other things. She will be back shortly. Hey do you guys want to head to the cafeteria, I kind of want some coffee."

"Yea sure" they both said. We grabbed our things and headed towards the door. When we heard a moan come from the bed. At first I thought I was hearing things, but when I turned, I saw my Baby Boy, trying to open his eyes.

"Oh my god, do you guys see that" I said as I dropped my bag onto the floor and ran over to the bed. I grabbed his hand "come on Baby, it's your momma open those eyes for me. Come on, just listen to my voice. Come on Derek. Sarah get the nurse!"

"Mom" he coughed out as his eyes finally opened and he winced at the light that was coming from the window.

"Wait a minute baby let me close the blinds." I told him as I went over and closed the blinds, then I went back over to him.

"Is that better" I asked him, as Sarah walked back in with the nurse and the doctor.

"Well, well, well look who has finally woke up. How you feeling Derek" The doctor asked him. And the nurse handed me a cup of water. I put the straw up to his mouth, and he drunk from it.

"I'm fine, besides a head ache" he groaned out.

"That's to be expected, can you move everything. Your arms, legs, feet, and hands" he asked as Derek attempted to lift his legs, but winced in pain as he tried.

"See Derek, that is not good. You can't even move your legs. So you are not fine" I told him as the doctor wrote something down in his tablet.

"Yes I'm fine, I only have a major headache, feels like my head is about to explode"

"Well the nurse is going to give you your meds, as soon as she gets back" he said as the nurse left out of the room.

"Derek do you know what happened, do you know where you are, and why you're here"

"It's quite obvious I'm in a hospital, I was in a car wreck. I'm fine nothing's wrong. Can I go home now"

"Derek you just woke up from being in a coma of course you can't go home. We have more test run, and you have to stay so we can watch over those headaches of yours, and plus we're going to schedule you an x ray for tomorrow" The Doctor told him, as he listened to his breathing.

"Ok so how long do I have to stay in here" He groaned out.

"Derek your family spent weeks in here, I don't think it will hurt you to stay a few more days, I'm going to go check with nurse about your meds" The doctor said as he left out.

"Derek are you sure you feel ok" Dessi asked as she came and stood on the other side of the bed.

"Yes I'm fine Dessi, you know me, nothing actually hurts me. I'm fine"

"Yes I do know you, that's why I asked. And plus I can see it in your face something other than your head hurts what is it"

He let out a sigh "my legs are killing me, and my head, and my wrist, but other than that I'm fine"

"See I knew it, nothing can get by your baby sis. Why didn't you tell the doctor"

"Yes well you are a genius, but its just a wrist, who really needs a wrist" Derek replied in a sarcastic tone.

"Shut up big head, you should've told the doctor"

"It's fine its just stiff. So there's a lot of flowers and balloons in here, are they all for me" He asked he looked at the counter where all his flowers and balloons sat.

"Who else would they be for. A lot of people came by while you were "sleeping". I told him

"Oh Hey mom, speaking of people who came by. Me and Dessi are going to go downstairs to make a couple of calls" Sarah said as her and Dessi headed towards the door.

"Yes a lot of people will be ecstatic, make sure you tell the team first ok"

"Ok Mommie, we'll be right back. Hey big head try not to get on her nerves while we're gone" Sarah threw over her shoulder as she walked out.

DEREK

Ok I know me and Pen had a huge argument, but I can't believe she's not here. She has always told me she would be there even on my baddest of days. How bad could these days have been. Is she that upset with me.

"Soooo who has all been here, I really hope no one took time out of their lives to come see me"

"Oh everyone has visited, the team goes back and forth between cases and here. Yvonne and Cindy even came down. Baby boy when we first got that call that you were in the hospital, Me and you sisters, and the team rushed here. The team didn't leave till the doctor told them too."

"They didn't have to do that-"

"Nooo but you would've done the same exact thing, and we all knew you would. So stop worrying no one was complaining about it. We were all worried, that's all"

I scoffed "Hmmph yea everybody. Right" Everybody but the one person who meant the most.

"And what is that supposed too mean. I think I know where this conversation is headed ing." My mom said.

"Nothing Ma, it meant nothing at all"

"Derek Morgan, do you really think that Pen wasn't here, are you crazy"

"I mean her stuff isn't here, and you haven't even mentioned her. I mean I know we said some pretty fucked up things, but for her not to be here at a time like this, shows me just how much she really cares about fixing this friendship and fixing this relationship. I'm done"

"Done. Derek you are crazy. Pen has been going through hell ever since that night, you just don't understand. She hasn't left your side, and when she did leave it was to eat or use the restroom and even when she left to do that she made sure someone was here. She has talked to you every day and every night. Wanna know what else did, she told us to go home one night, and she found a movie on tv and she sat right there in this chair and held your hand and you guys had movie night. She couldn't go to sleep until she told you over and over again that she's so sorry for what she said and that she loves you. Hell she even said it in her sleep, the nights she did go to sleep, because half of the time she laid awake watching you,hoping you would wake up. She has been through a hell of a lot, you just don't know. And now because she's not here right now, you're done"

"Mom. I really didn't know, I just assumed, she's not here. I know I shouldn't have doubted her, I should've known she would've been here"

"Baby she had to run home, she should be on her way back. And plus her things are in the draw with your things. She went to your place, and gathered some clothes for you, for when you woke up"

"Ma I screwed up with her, she will never forgive me. I said things I shouldn't have. I told her I was tired of trying to get her love me, I told her that things was over with us, friendship and all. She's not going to forgive me."

"Baby I think she already has, you guys will just have to talk it out, and stop running from each other, that's not healthy. You guys love each other too much to keep running, you get me"

"Yea I get you ma" I told her as the nurse finally came in and put some medicine into my IV, and left out.

"Baby that medicine is going to put you to sleep. Go ahead and sleep we will talk later."

5 hours later

DEREK

"How long has he been sleep" came the voice that I have oh so missed so much.

"Pen chill he's only been asleep a few hours calm down" came Sarah voice followed by laughter from Dessi and Mom.

"I mean what if he has slipped back into a coma or something. Are you even sure he was awake earlier."

"Pen sweet heart he was very much awake. He's ok, the medicine was powerful he's just sleeping it off. You're hot stuff is fine." Came my Mom's voice.

I opened my eyes and there she was "hey, hey you guys can leave my baby girl alone" I said as she turned her head and she locked her eyes with mine.

"Ohhhhhh there goes my hot stuff, god how I missed your voice, and those eyes" She said as she stood up from her chair by the window and sat in the chair by my bed. We sat there staring at each other.

"Well we are going to go downstairs" my mom said as her, Sarah, and Desiree left out of the room.

"Hey handsome how are you feeling"

"I'm fine, the medicine hasn't completely wore off. But that's not important, right now. How are you feeling"

"Derek I wasn't the one in the car wreck, I'm fine"

"No you weren't, but I have put you through hell. Even before the wreck, I was giving you hell I should've just listen and gave you your space. I am so sorry for pushing you."

"Derek listen, you have nothing to apologize for. Do you really want to know why I all of a sudden freaked on you."

"Yes I do because that's not normal for us. We don't just freak out on each other that way and not apologize afterwards. I was really confused, I didn't know what I did to make you want space from me."

PEN

"Derek I was going through soooo much. My brothers were trying to come see me and you know how I feel about them, I haven't seen them in years. And on top of that I was late, I was having symptoms of pregnancy."

"Wait a minute symptoms of being pregnant. You're pregnant why didn't you just tell me, did you think I would've been upset. I'm not upset it's great -"

"Handsome calm down. I said was having symptoms. I'm not pregnant, Derek" I told him and gave a small smile.

"Well Did you take a test, to be sure"

"Um no, when I first told your mom and sisters, they tried to get me to take one, but I didn't want to take one until you woke up, but it was very much confirmed this morning I'm not pregnant" I said as a tear slipped down my face and I wiped it away with my hand.

"Aww baby are you ok, I know how much you really want kids on our own."

"No, I'm totally fine. You know what really helped me to get through this." I asked him and watched him nod for me to continue.

"It was the thought of me being pregnant, with your kid. I was beginning to accept the idea, I was actually happy. Because I knew as long as I was carrying your baby, you would wake up and come back to us. I knew as long as that baby was inside of me, I would always have a part of you with me no matter what happened. And now I'm sad, because none of it was real. I went a whole month thinking I was pregnant, and it was just my mind hopping for things." I told him as another tear escaped my eye.

"Hey hey now you listen to me, don't be upset ok we will have kids on our own one day ok. We will have a bundle of joy that is the result of me and you ok."

"Yea I doubt it"

"What do you mean you doubt it"

"I mean you said you're tired of trying to love me. And if those words came out of your mouth then you obviously meant to say it. And I think it's safe for me to say I have completely ruin any chance of a future with you. And that's something I have to live and accept"

"You don't really believe that do you. I was just upset, I felt like I was really the only one who was trying to make something out of this. I meant nothing of that I said, I just wanted you to feel how I would feel every time you would pull away from me. I hate seeing you that way, you couldn't even talk to me Pen, when did we start doing that"

"It's not that I couldn't talk to you. I made a decision that I wasn't ready to add more stress onto you. I mean the kids, and you becoming unit chief, it wasn't the right time for me to tell you"

"So what if this wreck didn't happen. You weren't going to tell me, you was going to pretend like I wasn't the father. Or... Or what you was going to get rid of it"

"Oh God No, why would you even think that. There is no way in hell that I could get rid of any baby. And of course I was going to tell you, after everything went back to normal, and you wasn't so stressed"

"Pen there you go again, trying to decide what's best for me. I know you have my best interest in mind, but you can't do things like this. If its something that's going on with you, you need to come and talk to me, thats how a relationship work. And plus I wasn't stressed I was totally fine, I have so many responsibilities heading my way that I'm going to take care of, and I have no problem with them. What makes you think I wouldn't have taken care of you guys too"

Why can't we just dropped this conversation, it doesn't matter any more. I let out a sigh "Look lets just forget it, no sense of talking about something that's not there lets just drop it."

"No we are not just dropping it. This is something we need to talk about, we can't keep running from things like this"

"Derek can't we just wait till you at least get out the hospital, you need to rest"

"No I will rest when we finish talking about this"

Why did he have to be so stubborn. "Fine. Ok. You really want to know why I didn't tell you. I didn't tell you because me and this baby would've been treated like a third wheel, we would've been put on the back burner, because Kaylin is going to need you, And there isn't enough of you for the both of us. So that's why I wasn't ready to tell you" I told him as a tear slid down my face. "And Derek I wasn't going to let that happen, so even if I would've had to wait till the twins were born to let you know I was pregnant with your kid, that is what I was going to do" I said as I finally broke down. Tears were falling more quickly now.

"Hey Hey come here" he said as he stretched his arms out. I stood and walked into his arms. "Now lean down and lay your head on my shoulder"

I sniffled "Derek I'm fine -"

"Please Pen do it for me, I want to hold you" he said and I finally gave in and gently laid my head onto his shoulder. "Ok now listen to me. Those tears has got to go, ok. I never ever want you to feel the way you do right now. You are always, always on my top priority list. If you were pregnant I would treat you and show you the same amount of attention I would to Kaylin, I would never put you on a back burner for anything, I would've been there for the both of you. Do you understand me"

I nodded against his shoulder "Yea I understand, I'm so sorry for not telling you, do you forgive me Derek, can we just go back to the way things were before"

He shook his head "No, we can not go back to the way things were before."

"Thats Ok I understand, I knew I screwed up-"

"Wait let me finish, we can't go to the way we were before because I'm tired of running. I'm tired of we're not labeling anything, we're not together but we know we are together, I'm tired of that. Pen I love you too much too not have you as mine. I don't want another girl, I'm not running any more."

"Yea I'm done running too, I want to be with you and only you handsome. You're my best friend, and everything else. I love you soo much. And I'm totally fine with not being pregnant right now"

"Oh yea whys that" he asked.

"Because we would have been up to out necks in diapers" I told him as we both laughed.

"Yea we would've, and dirty clothes and bottles everywhere. Whew I can see our future now"

"Yea especially with how much you like the actions it take to get pregnant, we're going to have a whole daycare. If your legs wasn't soo messed up I would say lets get started right here. You know how long it's been since I've had you inside -"

"Hey, hey you behave now. But once I get out of this hospital it's on baby girl"

"Oh yes bring it on" I told him as we both laughed. And he kissed me on my forehead. "I missed you soooo much handsome, this whole time I felt empty. I didn't know what to do, sure I had the family here, but they couldn't fill the spot that was waiting for you to wake up. Me and your mom had a talk too."

"Oh yea bout what" he said turning serious

"She told me that it's time for us to get our act together, because they way we were going was dangerous. And I promised her that when you woke up I would spend everyday of my life, giving you all the love I had in me. And now that you're awake I'm going to do it too, a day won't go but without me proving to you that I love you"

"Baby girl I already know, you have nothing to prove to me"

"Yea yea you say I don't, I say I do. Now get some rest hot stuff." I said as I gave him a kiss on his cheek.

"No I'm fine, I want to keep talking to you"

"Rest handsome, I will be right here when you wake up." I told him as he let out a yawn and I sat back down into the seat by the bed.

"Well I must admit that will be a wonderful sight to wake up to" he said.

"Sleep baby. I love you"

"Love you too baby girl" He said as he finally let his eyes close. And I sat there and watched him rest.

DEREK

After the long talk me and Pen had earlier today, she finally got me to sleep. Which is funny because you would think that with me being in a coma the last thing I would do was sleep. I don't know how long I have been asleep for, but I knew it was time for me to wake up, because I kept hearing little whispering voices throughout the room.

I opened my eyes and there was the whole team, my family, and Kaylin standing all around the room.

"Hey what are all you guys doing here" I groaned out as I lifted my hands to rub the sleep out of my eyes.

"Hey baby boy are you in any pain, need me to get the nurse for some medicine" My mom said as she rushed to the side of the bed. "Here drink this" she said as she picked up the cup of water off the table.

I took a sip from it "Mom I'm fine, that medicine only put you to sleep anyway. Now once again what are all you guys doing here."

"It's nice to see you up Morgan. And we're here because we need to be. And you would do the same" Hotch said as Emily and JJ came over to me and handed me a balloon and a stuffed bear, they leaned down and kissed me on my cheek.

"Thanks guys. But really it looks like you guys just got back from a case."

"Well that's because we did, just got in from a case. Glad to see your profiler instincts hasn't went away. How you doing Son" Rossi said as he came over and gave me a tap on the shoulder.

"I'm fine beside pain in my leg and my head occasionally. But other than that I'm ready to get out of here, and back into the field."

"Ooooh no I think you're going to be out of the field a little while longer. Maybe desk work, but it's going to be a while before you're kicking down doors, and chasing unsubs around town." Hotch said

"Oh hell no not desk work. I don't think I could make it with just Desk work. I need action"

"Well it's either desk work or no work, which one do you choose" He replied as everyone laughed.

"Desk work" I mumbled.

"Here you go Derek" Kaylin said as she halved walked halved wobbled over too me, and handed me some flowers and a bear as well.

"Wow look at you, how long was I out for, you look amazing." I told her as I laid my hand onto her stomach. "Awe this is amazingly beautiful"

"Yea your little girls are kickers, I swear they are going to be soccer players when they get older" she said as everyone in the room laughed.

"Or they could be a kicker for the NFL, yea that works better" I told her.

Everyone laughed except one person, who had been quiet the whole time, and standing in one corner, by Dessi. "Hey Pretty Boy, you know I'm not going to break right. You can come over here"

"Ugh no I'm fine over here. But I'm really glad you finally woke up." He said.

"Nope not gone work, get over here. I need to make sure you have been taking care of your self while I was "asleep". I told him using air quotes around sleep.

"Yea I've been taking care of myself" he said as he moved from the corner and replaced Kaylin spot on the side of the bed. "Hey I brought you something" he said as he reached into his bag. "These are some books to keep you occupied while you are laid up resting. I have read all of the books in about three days they are really good."

I looked at he books and back to Reid "you couldn't find these on tape" I chuckled

"Yea I could've but what fun would that have been" he said as the room burst out in laughter. "No I'm serious how could that possibly be fun, why listen to a book when you could just read one."

"Yea you really need to get out more Kid. When I get out of here were having a guys day, it's time I show you that there is more fun out there other than yea and me and you need to have a talk too, but it can wait till later."

"A talk. About what" he nervously asked. I caught the feeling that he new exactly what talk I was talking about. If he's going to pursue my little sister I have to give him that talk.

"Later" I told him and gave him a grin as I looked towards Dessi.

"Oooooh that talk. I don't think I'm ready for that talk"

"Oh pretty boy you have no other choice, it's going to happen and soon. I promise to go easy on you"

"Alright alright "

I looked around the all of my family was smiling. I'm glad they can stop worrying and stressing over me. I look at the chair besides the bed, and Pen wasn't there. I wonder where she could be, I thought to myself.

Just then the door opened and in she walked in.

"Oh No" she stomped "you're up" she said as she walked over to the bed.

"What's wrong PG, I thought it was a good thing he was awake" JJ said.

"It is. But I promised him that I would be sitting right there in that chair after he woke up from his nap." She said as she came over and stood besides the bed.

I grabbed her hand "at least you're here now" I told her as I pulled her down to me and gave her the best kiss I could considering my situation. The room soon exploded in cheers and hollers. And ewwwws coming from Dessi and Sarah.

"Pay up!" Emily said as we broke apart. Rossi, Reid, and Hotch went into there pockets and they each handed her twenty dollars. " We told y'all that they would be together after Derek woke up" she said as she handed JJ and Kaylin a twenty dollar bill.

"Wait y'all had a bet going on us" I asked her as Pen and I started to laugh, along with my family.

"Yes we did, and we won" JJ stated

"No guys think I won" I said as looked to Pen, and I pulled Pen her back into a kiss.

AUTHORS NOTE: OK YOU GUYS I FEEL AS THOUGH THIS STORY IS COMING TO AN END. MAYBE ONE OR TWO MORE CHAPTERS. I DO HAVE SOME MORE IDEAS FOR SOME OTHER STORIES. I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THIS CHAPTER.