Chapter 26
Who said an apology would be enough?
Everyone prepared to go to the final battle, the one that was supposed to be right before Sauron's gates. Few days have passed since Nessa last saw Turin. The way she left him on the stairs without explanation was really rude and she felt like he deserves an explanation, an apology.
"But how can I explain something like that when I don'z even know why I did that?", she was wondering.
Still, she decided to go and seek for his forgiveness.
When she came to his room, his servant was helping him take his armor on.
Turin recognized his presence immediately, so he asked Barant to leave.
Passing Nessa, the servant just gave her an unfriendly look. That really didn't surprise her.
"What do you want?" Turin asked her callously.
"I want to apologize. For leaving like that.", Nessa was straight forward.
"Do it then.", Turin said coldly.
"What?", his sudden arrogance confused her.
"Apologize!", it seemed as if he was ordering her.
"I just did."
"No. You said you wanted to apologize. But I didn't hear you say it.", he was still very serious.
"All right! I'm sorry! Happy now?" She said nervously.
"And…?"
"And what?"
"Why did you leave?", Turin asked the question that was really bothering him.
"Stop torturing me!" She raised her voice. "I don't know why I left. I guess I got scared."
"Of me?"
"I didn't expect you to be like this.", she almost started crying, but managed to control herself.
"You mean blind?"
"Yes! Blind…"
"It doesn't bother me anymore. I don't see why you should have any problems with my condition.", Turin shook his head.
"I don't have any problems with it…it just hurts me seeing you like this."
"But I'm still the old Turin you once knew."
She hugged him so she would show him that she also thinks he's the old Turin he used to be.
"You know, in the beginning, I thought there is still hope for a recovery. I waited and waited to get better. But every morning, when I woke up and realized nothing has changed, was a new downfall for me. The only thing that kept my sanity, that helped me reconcile with my condition, were my memories of you." He said everything that was on his mind in that moment.
Nessa didn't say a thing, she just hugged him even stronger.
"And now we have to part again." He said.
"We don't have to. Stay here. Don't go to the battle. These could be the last few days of our lives. And I want to spend them with you." She said and realized what she has done, she just let him know how she feels. But she didn't care much about that anymore.
"You don't know how much I waited to hear that from you. And how much it hurts, not being able to stay. But if we win and I return, and I survive, we'll have al the time in the world." He took her hand and raised it to his lips, wanting to kiss it. But then Barant stepped into the room.
"I'm sorry to interrupt you, my lord, but it's time."
"Don't go." She asked him one more time.
"Be patient…" And then he stopped and smiled "...we'll meet each other soon." He kissed her hand and with the help of his cane and his servant left the room.