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CHAPTER -26- Admiration

The following morning, I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and took a long warm shower. It was a lazy Saturday morning. Knowing Jake had a late night last night I decided to let him sleep in really late. I had an uneventful boring morning, I ate an apple and sat at my laptop most of the morning googleing random subjects such as the Civil War and the tallest churches in the world. At eleven o'clock I decided I had to get up and do something, anything. Nahuel was out and about with Huilen I assumed so I made my way to the bathroom applying makeup and picking an outfit out. When I looked presentable, something I rarely worried about I arrived at the conclusion that I should go and surprise Jake. I grabbed my keys and rushed outside. Nahuel had met me at the front door before I had even begun to lock the deadbolt.

"Hi, Renesmee."

"Oh, Hi, Nahuel." I was not expecting him to be here.

"Did you want to go on a walk?"

"I was about to," I paused, imagining Jacob sleeping. I should let him sleep. "Sure."

"It's a beautiful day today," he said. For once starting a conversation.

"It is, but I prefer the rain."

"You do?"

"Yeah, I don't know why? I think maybe because my family can come out in public with me."

"Makes sense."

After a lot of small talk we stopped at a small stream. It was a miniature waterfall cascading through the many rocks that were randomly situated in the ground. Douglas firs and countless conifers and ferns suspended and floated over the fall. It was beautiful, it also was where Jacob used to take me to see tadpoles. I smiled staring at the waterfall, I was lost in the moment enjoying nature's beauty.

"Renesmee?" Nahuel lightly brushed my arm when he said my name.

"Hmm?" I acknowledged him turning my head his direction but never taking my eyes of the fall.

" Would you marry me?

My head and gaze turned to him swiftly astounded and flattered. "Marry you?" I spoke in such an impingent tone that he hesitated to answer.

"Ye- Yeah?" He studdered. I truly was flattered and even thought about saying yes for a second, but thinking about the logistics of the situation.

tion, an attachment to each other and strong affection towards one another, adoration and he was handsome, that was a bonus. Was our love austere? It seemed so. If Nahuel saw us... I would understand him thinking we were in love. But what was he doing, spying on me? What an invasion of my privacy!

"I'm...flattered Nahuel really. But, I hardly know you."

"We're the same. We have the same thoughts, fears, we have the same troubles. We need each other to get through this life. We belong together."

He had a good point and I have grown to respect him over these past months, but can a marriage be built on respect and not adoration? I didn't even respect him completely he still ate humans,while eating animals also. Though he has stopped his murdering since he's been here.

"Maybe so, but it's too soon to say, no one should get married after only knowing each other a couple of months."

"We belong together, I don't know another female half-breed, that I'm not related to."

"I understand that but, let's say we do get married...and we end up hating one another, I don't believe in divorce. And we will be married forever, literally. I mean we aren't even dating, I barely met you."

"But we must be destined to be together."

"Destined? Nahuel I apologize, but I won't marry you because you think we're destined. I love you, I do but I won't marry you. There's nothing impending between us." Did I really love him the right way thought? Or did I just like that he was another of my kind.

"I love you too," he responded. Did our love have the same meaning? I so love him ; like a friend, like a family member but I'm not sure if I am completely in love with him. Not just yet. But maybe I should marry him, grow to love him, could that really be so bad?

"Uhm, I love you but I'm not in love with you." I admitted.

"It's someone else isn't it?"

"No."

"Yeah, It's that Jacob."

"Jacob?" I wondered, why would he bring Jake into this?" Nahuel, Jacob has nothing to do with my decision."

"Oh, yeah? I can tell you're in love with him."

"In love... with Jacob?"

"Yeah, you love him."

"I do love him, he's my ,my brother, my best friend, I'll always love him. But nothing more than that."

"It didn't look that way yesterday when you two were at the beach."

Sure, any observer would assume we were together much like Jen did a few months back. Holding hands with a friend was considered more than friendly and him always holding and hugging me, had the appearance of more than a platonic love. Though, Platonic Love is what we had. Our relationship was based on a strong connec

"You followed me and spied on us?"

"No. I didn't mean to interrupt any fidelity between you and that Mutt!."

"You have no right to call him that."

" Your mother said you were at the beach so I went to fetch you but you were with that, Jacob."

"Whatever. I'm just going to let you know, I was considering saying yes to marrying you."

"You were?"

"Of course, we're the same. But you assume I'm in love with Jake. And let me tell you, I'm not in love with Jacob." Or am I? NO. I shook my head to myself.

"I didn't think so, until I saw you both showing this, a desire to be with one another and admiration for each other."

He used that word. Admiration. I did feel that for Jacob. I care and respect him deeply. But that's not love.

"I'm not in love with him," I defended.

"So if it's not him, then why do you not want to marry me?"

"Because, we just met seven weeks ago, and-"

"Don't you believe we have to be together?"

"I don't know. You'll have to give me time to try and figure that out."

"I've got time."

" And you'll have to move up here to Forks. I've been away before and I won't leave my family, again. It becomes very lonely if you don't have the ones you love around you."

"You told me once you'd move if the right opportunity presented itself."

"I meant like school or a career, something important."

"And marriage isn't important to you."

"Not at the moment, no. You'll have to move here if you want it to work."

"Move here? I don't think I can do that."

"Well, I can't even give you a chance then."

"Perhaps we can go back and forth between Argentina and here?"

"That could work but I need to be with all my family more than you think."

"How often do you need to see them?"

"Once a week at the least."

"Once a week? Hmmm," He pondered, "Maybe my aunt would move up here, if she knew we would be married."

"We won't be married though, we would be dating."

"There's no way Huilen would move up here, if we are not married."

"Then you move up here alone."

"She's my only family and she'd never leave South America."

" Maybe she would, then we could give a relationship a chance."

"I've asked he to leave Argentina before, she won't leave that's her home."

" Forks is my home and I won't leave."

"I'm sorry, I won't move up here."

"Then I'm sorry I won't marry you."

"Alight, I best be on my way back to Argentina then. Tell your family I appreciate their hospitality."

"I will."

"It was amazing to meet you Renesmee," Letting a disquieted tone leave his mouth, he took my hand and placed his lips on the back of my hand, " I really wish we could work this out, but I understand your choice, Good Bye."

"Bye."

Quickly he bolted of to the south, disappearing into the forest.

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Oh please, no, no, no don't be here. As I turned I was unpleasantly greeted with a familiar set of red eyes.

"Don't you remember me child?"

"I remember you all too well, how are you doing Jane?" I spoke as if I weren't afraid.

"Don't ask, especially if you don't care. Did you have an answer for me, yet?"

"Not yet."

"Well, I'm back because I am not asking anymore, you've had nearly a decade to decide and I am telling you ,you have to come with me."