Hope everyone is ok.. Thank you again for all your wonderful reviews..
To Foreverinlove: Paula is a **.. Tell her that her daughter is old enough.. It seems that she can't understand that..
To OriginalSoundtrack: thank you very much.. I would tell you what Spencer did in this chapter but that would ruin your reading..
To queenred12: thank you very much.. Yes, it was another confession day for the girls..
Chapter 26
Spencer's POV
Now I finally knew.. I knew who Ashley was and what her past was.. When my mom came and told me all that I didn't think for a second how she found all these information about Ashley. How she knew about her? But I guess when you are Paula Carlin everything is possible. I could always do a background check on Ashley but that would invade her personal space.. I wanted for her to find me, to be able to tell me.. And even though my mother was the one who brought this on us I was happy that I finally knew..
I never was ok with drugs. Even with pot.. I just don't like them.. Having Ashley confessing that she was doing cocaine got me.. I never would have thought that she was the person she told me.. Partying hard, fooling around, and sniffing. That person wasn't my Ashley.. I put everything aside though because I could see that she was scared.. She didn't know my reaction and I didn't even mine.. But I had to sit down and listen to her. She deserved that.. I sat there, holding her hand and listening to her trembling voice telling me who she was and what she did. It wasn't easy..
The Ashley I came to know was a hard working girl, trying to supply with the every day's goods her daughter, trying to give her as much as she could and she was a very proud person.. She was a beautiful 25 year old woman that I was madly in love with.. And that's why I let her past in the past.. I knew she wasn't a drug addict, I knew she wasn't using now and that was the most important..
Ashley confessed her love to me.. She said she loved me and at the end I couldn't hold it back.. I loved her back.. I loved her for a couple of days now.. And when she said that my heart skipped.. It was a feeling I never felt before.. I loved Ashley..
We sat for a couple more minutes on the couch holding and kissing each other before we went back to our bed.. Tomorrow I would quit my job.. It didn't make me happy any more and I just couldn't defend some rich bastards that had the nerve to say that whatever they did was legal. I just couldn't.. My boss wouldn't take it easy but it was my choice.. I would be jobless for a couple of days but we were good because I had money..
"Sorry for having to be early at home."
"Don't be. I am going to quit"
"What?"
"I will quit tomorrow. I couldn't defend people who were killing children. I just couldn't. In their faces I could see Emma and I just couldn't. I am going to give them my resignation later tomorrow"
"Are you sure?"
"I am 100 per cent sure.. So sure as I love you too sure" it was the first time I was telling her I loved her.. Actually it was the first time I was telling someone I loved them and it was special because it was her and no one else..
"What?" she looked at me surprised.. I still remember when she said how I seemed to her.. A cold hearted bitch.. But it wasn't me.. It was the scared me.. Now I wasn't scared anymore..
"I said, I love you too.." she didn't say anything.. She just cupped my face and kissed my lips whispering how much she loved me back.. It was the greatest feeling on earth..
Going back in time I remember watching from afar the brunette girl at the cashier.. Her smile and how beautiful she was.. The same girl I hit with my car one cold night right before Christmas.. The girl who became important to me.. A stranger who became a friend and then a girlfriend.. The moment I met Ashley my life changed for good.. I had a family..
"I think we should go back to bed.. You are tired Spence"
"Are you going to hold me?"
"Of course sleepy head.. Let's go.. Your woman has to go to work tomorrow"
"Hmm.. I like.. I am going to be a stay home mom and girlfriend" the moment I said mom I wanted to take it back but Ashley looked at me with that smile that was making my heart beat and kissed my lips..
"You are going to be a very hot sexy mom and girlfriend.. But know baby that I don't make enough money"
"Ash.. I am sorry about what I said.."
"For what Spence?"
"About being a mom to Emma.. I just.. I feel like.. you know"
"You don't have to explain.. Spence, for a whole month you were a mother to Emma when I couldn't. From the first moment you bought her clothes and fed her.. And to tell you the truth, I think that Emma wants to call you mama but she is afraid of how you would react or if I would be mad or sad.." Emma calling me mama.. I wasn't afraid of that role.. Not afraid at all..
"You don't have a problem with that?"
"Nope. Not at all.. Now let's go.. I have to wake up early tomorrow"
"We have to wake up early tomorrow. We have to take our daughter at school"
I was so lucky to have them in my life.. I wouldn't change anything.. I would do the same things over and over again.. Maybe I would change the part where I hit Ashley.. My poor baby had a cast on her leg for weeks..
The next morning I woke up and Ashley was nowhere to be found.. I called her name but she didn't answer.. I looked at my watch and it was 7am.. Where she was? I stood up, put my robe and opened the door. The moment I did I came face to face with an Ashley cooking breakfast at the kitchen.. I couldn't help but smile..
"Goodmorning baby" she said kissing my lips.. She was making scrambled eggs with bacon and she had already made the mixture for pancakes.. Emma's favourites..
"I didn't know you were cooking"
"I do. I love cooking. I just didn't have the chance to practice it the last couple of years" she said and I listened to the sadness in her voice.. I hugged her from behind, and kissed her neck
"You can cook as much as you like baby. Actually you can cook lunch too.. Eh? What do you think?"
"I think you are taking advantage of my cooking talent"
"Aha" I said and took some bacon from the ones she had made.. It was the way I liked it..
"Can you please go and wake up Emma?"
"Yes, my lady"
At the beginning it was tough to wake up Emma.. The last days though it was easier.. Once I was inside her room I stood there for a moment to look at her.. She was a sleeping angel.. I came closer and kissed her forehead..
"Sweetie.. It's time for you to wake up"
"Already ma-Spencie?" I caught her for the first time trying to call me mama.. I wanted for her to call me that.. I remembered Ashley's words.. Maybe she was afraid..
"Yes baby girl.. It's time.. Guess what? Mommy is cooking breakfast today"
"Mommy is cooking? I really have to get up and see her"
"Aha.. Come on"
I didn't want to pressure her to call me mama.. But next time she would try to call me that I would tell her that I am her mama as much as she is my daughter.. Ashley and Emma are my girls..
We sat at the kitchen table and ate our breakfast as a family.. Like we did every morning for the past month..
"Ok, little lady. Do you have everything?"
"Yes, mommy. I do."
"Perfect. Let's go. We are running late"
"Relax baby. It's only 8am."
"And I have to be at work at 9 Spence"
"Ok ok.. It's kind of ho- "
"Don't even finish missy. Kid is right in front of us" she said whispering and nodding at Emma..
"Ok ok.. You are one tough mama" I had to smile when I saw Ashley's look.. But I didn't continue. We left my apartment and took Emma to her school..
Both Ashley's and mine work was at the same place.. So once I parked my car I kissed Ashley and we both went to our jobs.. I felt no regrets for quitting today.. No regrets at all..
It was 9.10am and I was supposed to be at work at 7am.. Once I got inside my office Helena bombarded me with questions and messages and that Marina was looking for me and etc etc etc.. I did tell her though to leave me alone for a moment. I sat on my computer and started to write.. My letter was short.. Nothing heavy.. After all it was a resignation letter..
Once I finished it I got to my boss office.. He didn't know I was late or anything. I didn't sit anywhere. I just showed him the letter..
"What is this Spencer?"
"I quit"
"Why now? Why when we have the most important case?"
"Because my beliefs are stronger than that. I took an oath but that doesn't mean I can defend people who are killing children"
"Just because of that? Come on Spencer" he said and laughed hard.. "If it was for us to quit every time that something like that was happening we wouldn't have job."
"You are not me Jacob. I am sorry. I am going to pack my things and leave"
"You are ruing your career Spencer. You are a lawyer in one of the best law firms. Are you sure?"
"I wasn't sure for anything in my life till this moment. Thank you for all you have done for me"
When I exited his office I smiled.. I was in my own world and I didn't listen to Marina calling my name..
"Spencer.. Spencer.. Where are you going?"
"At my office to pack my things"
"WHAT?"
"I just quit Marina"
"You are kidding me right?"
"No. I gave Jacob my resignation letter a few minutes ago"
"Are you crazy? You can't quit"
"I just did. Now if you excuse me?"
She didn't say anything else.. She didn't follow me..
Once inside my office I started packing my things.. Helena right behind me..
"Ms Carlin? What are you doing?"
"Packing my things"
"Where are you going?"
"Home for now.. I am going to search for a job tomorrow"
"Why you quit Ms Carlin? You are one of the best lawyers here"
"My beliefs are stronger and if I would continue I wouldn't be able to sleep at night.."
"But.." I came closer to her and touched her shoulders.. She was ready to cry.. Helena was with me from the first day I came here.. For four years she's been one of the best secretaries..
"No buts.. I am sure one of the other lawyers will be more than happy to have you.. Marina wanted you for the beginning"
"But Ms Carlin I am your secretary.."
"And tomorrow you will be someone else's"
"I will quit too.."
"No, you won't. You won't quit. You need the money"
"I can come with you and I am going to help you.. Ms Carlin you are one of the best bosses.. I am going to quit tomorrow"
"Helena, I don't know what I am going to do. What if I don't find anything? What are you going to do then?"
"You are one of the best.. I am sure that many law firms would love to have you.. Ms Carlin this is my choice and I chose to follow you. If I have to find another job before you have your law office I will. But I am not staying here without you.."
"Ok, but know it's not going to be easy"
"Nothing is easy Ms Carlin. It's in our hands to make it easy"
Helena surprised me. I would have never thought that she would do something like that.. But she was a good secretary and when I would find something I wanted her by my side.
When I packed all my things I got down to the parking and left everything inside my car.. I wanted to go and find my Ashley.. Actually I was planning to wait for her till her shift was over so we could go together to pick Emma from school.. She didn't know that though..
Outside the bakery I saw her again behind that cashier I first met her.. I opened the door and I saw her looking at me and smiling.. She did the same thing every time I would come inside.. I walked slowly as sexy as I could and looked at her.. She tried so much not to smile.. I saw she was biting her lip. Her co-workers didn't know about us and there was no need to..
"Goodmorning" she said with her sexy voice
"Goodmorning"
"What can I do for you today?" in my mind I had naughty thoughts.. Very naughty thoughts for what she could do..
"I would like a croissant"
My life was changing and the reason was the beautiful girl behind the cashier.. Ashley..
TBC
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