Chapter 26- 11th grade A Knife to the Heart
A/N- This one's going to be Nazz's side of things so it might be a little short. Warnings: Language, homophobia. Nat belongs to C2ndy2c1d.
Nazz really did like Kevin, she did, they were besties I mean come on she dated him knowing full well that he wasn't as into her as he was the nerd he kept looking at. Who else but your best friend would cover your ass like that? And when said nerd looked back she really didn't care she understood deep down the heart wants what the heart wants. But when it started becoming obvious to the world that's when she took action and taught the little dweeb a lesson, you don't threaten royalty's position. Everything was fine, everything was roses after that she even caught wind that the dweeb had tried to end it that would have made clean up easier on her part. An unrequited love turned tragic would have been easy to spin since she had started the rumors about Edd and his sexuality. But her plans for their positions as the power couple fell through when Kevin broke up with her over the dork. "Really you choose him over me." She thought to herself and waited patiently watching and waiting, she was kind of ecstatic when she saw Kevin beat the shit out of the dork for what Katie had said. She just knew that it would dispel any doubts about his masculinity or ability to be the new quarter back and captain for the football team. Then maybe she could ditch this pompous ass she choose for his status and looks, and resume her rightful place by Kevin's side, who cares that he was into dudes, it's all about image anyways and she was dead set on that image being upheld.
She noticed after his altercation with the dork that Kevin seemed distraught, she tries to get back together with him suggesting it several times but Kevin wouldn't hear of it. His irrational behavior only increased casing fight after fight with that teal haired boy the dork was dating, Nat she believed his name was. She waited patiently for it all to blow over but it never seemed to, it had been a year for Christ's sake when was Kevin going to get over that dork. In an attempt to ease Kevin's emotional turmoil she seeks him out finding him one day after school in the library of all places. He was sitting at a table writing something, she walks to where he was sitting and looks over his shoulder hoping to sneak a peek at what he was writing. It looked to be some poem, but she didn't get a very good look at it for when he noticed her he turned it over. All she saw was the dorks name at the top. Sitting down across from him she places her hand on top the one holding down the paper he had turned over. "You doing alright dude?"
Kevin looks up at her with sad eyes. "Yeah I'm fine." He says trying to hide his vulnerability.
She cocks her head to the side. "You're lying to me." Kevin drops his eyes down to where her hand was resting upon his as thought any moment her touch would start to hurt him. She lowers her head to try and recapture his eyes "Is this about that dork again?"
Kevin tenses up looking her in the eye again, retracting his hand from hers bringing the piece of paper with him. "Why would you think that?"
Nazz leans back in the chair putting her hands in her lap. "Dude I know, I'm not blind. I've been well aware of your interests in the dork for a while, I've been doing damage control for you for the better part of a year."
Kevin lets out a sigh. "Has it been that obvious to everyone?"
"Not everyone, some have their suspicions but the vast majority just think the reason you've been picking fights with Nat is because you're really homophobic." She looks around to make sure there was no one in ear shot then leans forward. "You don't have to hide from me dude, I'm here for you."
Kevin let out a sigh of relief, this was the second person to voice their support for him today. "Cool, I'm going to need friends like you soon."
"What do you mean?" She furrows her brow knowing what he was about to say but praying it wasn't.
Kevin leans in even closer and whispers. "Well I just got done talking to Edd's friend, you know the girl Angelica. She pretty much told me that Edd probably won't have anything to do with me if I stay in the closet." He mouthed the last word not really saying it out loud in case someone could hear them.
"You can't do that it would mean social suicide." She said louder than she wanted to, taking in a breath she continues back at a whisper. "I don't know why you just didn't hit it and quit it in the first place. It would have made your life so much easier."
"I tried that Nazz, didn't work out to well, I kept thinking about him and before I knew it he was all I could think about." Kevin sighs and rubs the back of his neck.
She reaches over and takes his hand again. "Aw my poor Kev has got it bad, well I am sure we can think of something. You don't have to come out and ruin your reputation, we could start dating again and you two could just keep it a secret." Kevin removes his hand from hers once more. "No one needs to know about you." She says a little concerned with his withdraw from her touch.
"I'm sorry Nazz I know you mean well, but I'm done hiding it didn't work to well the first time and I don't want to make that mistake again." Kevin gather's his things and stands up pushing the chair back under the table. "At this point I don't even know if he will talk to me even if I do it."
"Then why risk it?" She pleaded with him to be reasonable about this, her hopes for the quarterback status symbol flying out the window with every word spoken.
"Because sometimes you just have to take a chance Nazz." He leaves her sitting at the table, she was not happy one bit yet again she is pushed aside for this nerd. "What does the fucking dork have that I don't, besides a penis that is?" If this was a cartoon steam would be billowing from her ears. But she was patient she waited she watched and she listened, and for a whole week nothing not a sound about Kevin coming out. So her hopes had gotten a little high that Kevin might have seen the light and would be taking her up on the generous offer she had given him, only to have those hopes dashed upon the rocks of reality. She was headed to the cafeteria with her boyfriend in tow as they rounded a corner her eyes went wide as she saw Kevin with his lips locked to the dweebs.
Her boyfriend grows stiff "fucking gross, faggots." He yells the last part, she sees that Kevin breaks the kiss, and quickly leads her boyfriend away and to the cafeteria. They get their lunch and head to their usual spot at the popular table along the way her boyfriend tells the football team what he had just seen, to find that word had spread quickly for a few of them confirmed it as well.
"Why did you do that? I could have fixed this if you kept your mouth shut." She said to her boyfriend.
"They deserve to know that their captain is a poll puffing fag." Her boyfriend said as he began to eat.
Her thoughts were only on how to spin this how best to turn this to her advantage and get the goal she wanted. She sees the dork enter the room and head to his friends cursing his very existence if it wasn't for him Kevin wouldn't be in this situation. A few minutes later Kevin walks in and heads her direction, she notices the looks the football team was giving him and knew he noticed it to she waves for him to sit with them. "What in the holy fuck were you thinking?"
"Well Nazz I was thinking I was apologizing to him, showing him how I feel about him, and letting the rest of the school know as well all in one move." Kevin said seriously not in the mood for a lecture seeing how Edd hadn't instantly gone weak in the knees over it.
"So how did that work out for you?" Nazz replied in full on bitch mode.
"Not so great." Kevin eyes her living accessory known as her boyfriend who had pretty much been giving him the evil eye since he sat down.
"So you ruined your reputation over nothing." She said exasperated
Kevin swallowed the food he had been eating and replied. "You know what Nazz I really don't care what any of them think. Just do me a favor and keep an eye on Edd for me." There it was again the dork was chosen over her. With that a plan had been hatched, one where you would care mister Barr. After Kevin left she went and sat with the football team and pretty much let them know that it would be in their best interests if they were to educate Kevin on the proper order of things. After that she went through her day like always, getting home rather early she made a phone call to a certain red heads father educating him about the day's events and where his sons heart lay. The following day she did her friendly duty of protecting a certain dork from harm in hopes by this time that Kevin would see that she was the only support he would have. She had discovered that day that Kevin was homeless having been kicked out of his parent's house and now living with the dork, she didn't see that lasting long after what he did to the dweeb. But that outcome was not part of her plan she had thought his father would just set him "straight" and make Kevin see the uselessness of such a relationship.
Seriously this girl is kind of twisted destroying the man's life all because he didn't choose her. Her goal was to tear him down have him come crawling back to her and then repair the damage before it became irreversible. But as time moved on she noticed that he wasn't crawling back and to continue to support him would tarnish her own reputation seeing as now he was no longer the captain of the football team so she cut ties, but in her mind that would only continue the plans forward momentum now that he had no one but the dork to lean on and what kind of help could he really be. Time kept ticking by with no sign of Kevin's return so another faze had to be implemented and to her luck a close friend of the dweeb was looking for some dirt on the former jock and she was going to use every pawn on the board to reach her desired ends. So all she needed to do now was get it so the dork didn't want anything to do with Kevin, then she could swoop in repair his reputation spin a GBF kind of thing and find him someone suiting to what his status should be. For after all she still considered herself his best friend and what else do best friends do but look out for each other. Yeah this girl is twisted.