A/N: Holy shit you guys, 5 reviews already in the latest chapter?! Thank you so much!, I know it's only a little but I really appreciate it.
Reviews:
Jordan Springs: Hope Brittany calms down and goes back to Santana because these things happened before they were together. Artie deserved the beating.
RememberDecember143: Well I had feeling that was going to happen didn't know Santana was going to get so violent but glad she acknowledged her other kid. Hope Brittany can forgive or at lest talk to her at least for her son's sake. Ugh love them together but loved the bit of drama as well can't wait to read what happens next
Isaiah Flamez chapter 25: Will Brittany and Santana get back together
Tishamay: I have no words...Wow! That's a lot of drama! How is Santana going to get herself out of this mess?! Great chapter!
naya-swhore: Woah! That was a crazy chapter! Can't believe she has another kid. Wonder what's gonna happen with Brittany next chapter
We only have 4 chapters left, and after maybe a month or a week I'll be publishing the Part 2 of Fifty Shades Of Santana Lopez. Also, please tell me if you like these Titles and pick one.
'Her Consequences' or 'Deep Desires'
Anyways, here's Chapter 26!
Enjoy!
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX:
MINE FOREVER
Santana sat down in her little office at her humble home, a glass of vodka in her hand. She was staring at the pictures of Brittany and her on the wall, She tried not to break another glass again. She at least broke 10 glass in just a week. She was so mad at herself that she just wanted to die.
But she can't, because she has Carol and Natalie in her hands.
She wonders if Brittany is okay, if she eats well, if she sleeps well, but she is sure that she is crying right now. How could she do that to her? She regretted that she shouldn't have kept secrets from her, she hated herself for that.
Her tired eyes starts to fall, her body starts to relax more. She is so tired from everything. She wants to see Brittany again, she promised herself that she wouldn't let her go again.
But she left her, again. And it hurts like a bitch.
She tried contacting every people she knew, trying to find Brittany. Rachel wouldn't even let her find Brittany. And she was so pissed at her, but she couldn't blame her. She knew Brittany needed space from Santana, and she respected that.
But it's been over a month, she is very worried and sad that she wasn't in her arms, she misses the days when she and Brittany would just lay down outside in the balcony with no clothes on. A big blanket covering themselves as they watch the stars twinkle. They would talk things as a couple, Santana would always kiss her special spot—which is the neck. She would her lover giggle and kissed her deep.
She misses the days with Carol, she missed her dearly that she would send 20 muscular men to guard her. She misses playing with her and sing her lullabies, she misses kissing her forehead and whispering little things that made her smile. She was so precious, and Santana would protect her from everyone.
But her daughter is gone now, lately she would always visit her room and just cry there. She misses her family so much.
She went back to her bedroom and closed the door. Her room use to smell like strawberry's, it's because of Brittany's scent. But now, it just smells like alcohol.
She places her glass down on the nightstand, hopping on her bed—wrapping herself with a big blanket and cried. She never usually prayed before but now, she is praying that Brittany and Carol will be back for her.
A Month Later,
"I'm sorry Santana, but I can't tell you." Rachel encouragingly tell her. Santana gives her a weak smile and just nodded. It's been two months since she has seen Brittany and Carol. She tried contacting them but it was no use, she was pretty sure Brittany blocked her number.
Finn gives them a coffee and Santana gladly accepts it. She needed one, she needed coffee; not a beer.
She drinks it slowly, getting the beautiful taste. She remembers Brittany making her coffees every morning, her coffees were always amazing. She loved it when it was creamy, and sweet. But now, the coffee seems to be bitter, from her taste.
"I know how you feel, Santana." Rachel whispers to her. Her hand placed on her knee for comfort. Santana looks up to her, feeling the urge to cry in front of her. Rachel stands up from her chair and sat down beside Santana, she wrapped her arms around the Latina. Santana couldn't hold it anymore, she places her coffee down on the coffee table and cried on Rachel's chest. She wrapped her arms around the Jewish girl and cried hysterically. Finn watched them in the background and sighed, Brittany, do something please. He thought.
"It's okay, it's okay, shh.." Rachel rested her chin on top of Santana's head. She rubs her hand on Santana's back, The Latina cried even more and sniffled,
"Why did I do that, Rachel? Why did I lie to her? I shouldn't have! I only did that to protect our relationship.." Santana whispers brokenly. Rachel nodded and hugged Santana tighter, Santana felt so comforted. She needed this, she needed a comfort from Rachel at least. Her eyes were swollen from tears and it was a little red.
Rachel whispers, "Santana, if you told her earlier, she would have understand more. She forgave you a long time ago, but the problem is, you kept secrets from her. And it's not right." Santana nodded and cried louder, so loud that it filled up the living room. She hugged Rachel tighter and buried her head on her chest.
"Please, Rachel, you have to tell me where she is. Because, I can't live without her. Please, Rachel, please.." She whispers, enough to Rachel hear. Rachel remembered that Brittany told her specifically that Santana could never see her again, and Rachel promised that. But as she sees Santana like this, she knew they needed to fix their relationship, quick."
Then, she hears Santana whisper,
"I love her Rachel, I love Brittany so much.." Rachel started to tear up and hushed the Latina, she rocked her gently and starts to soothe her hair.
"Take a rest, Santana, please."
Santana rested on Rachel's couch, a blanket covering her up. It was 2am in the morning, Rachel listened to her all night. Her crying and her stories with Brittany.
She watched the Latina sleep, she was snoring a little, she can see that she was curled up like a ball. Her lips were a bit parted and there were dry tears on her face.
Finn walked behind her and sighed, "Santana must love her very much, huh?"
Rachel nodded slowly, still watching the billionaire sleeping. She has never encountered this before. She turns around to look at her boyfriend and whispered,
"I need to tell Santana where Brittany is, I need them to fix things, especially for their child, Finn." Finn nodded at her and shrugged. He crossed his arms and watched Santana sleeping.
At Brittany's parents house,
Brittany counted the days when she cried hysterically. She was on her bed all the time, not even having a strength to stand up. Carol was always with Brittany's mom tot ale cafe of her since she couldn't. She felt so tired, so empty.
She's on her bed, curled up like a ball. She cried on her knees, begging for Santana to find her. But she told Rachel not to let Santana find her. She misses her, she misses her kisses and her love.
But it's over now, for her.
Carol is about to turn 9 months in just 2 weeks, but she didn't feel like celebrating it. She didn't had so much energy to do it. Brittany's mom understood her and just let her be. She cried so much, she has never cried like this before.
"Please, Santana, please come find me." Brittany whispers and closed her eyes, letting her fresh tears fall down from her face. She felt tired, sleepy at least. She suddenly relaxed and fell asleep.
Back at Rachel's house,
It was a chilly morning in California, the sun is about to go up when Santana woke up. She sees the sky still blue and it was cold. Santana decided to sit down on the couch and watched the skies turn brighter and brighter.
After an hour of staring at the sky, she hears footsteps coming down from the stairs, she looks up and it was Rachel. She was hoping it was Brittany.
Damn it.
"Good morning, Santana." Rachel says as she walks to the kitchen. Santana mumbled, "Morning."
After Rachel makes coffee for them, she sat down beside Santana and hands her the warm coffee. Santana accepts it and drinks it slowly. Rachel can see that Santana's eyes are still a bit red, she knew Santana was crying last night.
Rachel whispers, "Brittany is at her parents house."
Santana's eyes widen and turned to look at her, she places her coffee down on the coffee table.
"Where is she? Where is her parents house?"
Rachel stares at her, Santana's eyes were swollen. She had to break Brittany's promise, she really needed to. For them to fix their relationship.
"FairField, 58th Laney Street." Rachel tells her. Santana quickly stands up from the couch and gets her coat. She wears it quickly and gets her keys. Rachel cursed herself and ran towards her, grabbing her arm to stop Santana from walking through the door.
"Rachel, please I need to-"
"Santana, be careful okay? Her dad is very, vicious. He can hurt you." Rachel tells her. She knew about Brittany's dad, he was a scary one. One time Rachel sees him beating up Brittany's friend who is courting her. Santana nods and looks at her straightly.
"I'm not scared of him, I need to get my fiancée back." Santana says her last word and run towards the door. She hopped to her car and drove away quickly.
"Britt, here's your food." Her mother gives her a plentiful food on her plate. Brittany smiles too brokenly and whispered, "Thanks, Ma."
Her mother smiled and walks out of her room. It was 7pm in the evening and she has not eaten for almost a day. She only went out of her room to see Carol and to go to the bathroom. She slowly eats her food while watching tv.
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A doorbell suddenly rang in the house, Mr Pierce lift up hid head and walk towards the door. Once he opened it, it was Santana standing in front of their porch.
He growled, "What are you doing here? Did Brittany tell you not to see her again?" Santana gulped as she hears his voice. It was low, she knew he was mad at her. Santana sighed and looked at him,
"Mr Pierce, where is she?"
"None of your concern, get the hell out of my house." He snarled. Santana didn't agree with that, she needed to see Brittany now. And she's not going to leave until she sees her. She slowly shook her head and whispered,
"Mr Pierce, I love your daughter. And so is our child, I did not mean to keep secrets from her. I-I thought it would protect our relationship, but it didn't. I should have not lied, sir. And I'm deeply sorry for hurting your daughter." Santana explained to him. Mr Pierce seem convinced to her story, and he felt like he wanted to let her in. But he needed more of that, he needed to let Santana prove that she loves her.
"You hurt her, how should I forgive you?"
"If you let me see Brittany, I will never hurt her again. I will take care of her. You can hurt me if you like, but I will fight for Brittany. I love her so much, sir. And I can't lose her again. Your daughter is so, precious to me. I promised myself that I will protect her from everything," she tells him honestly. She continued, "I will marry her sir, and I promise to love her forever, and only her."
Mrs Pierce suddenly walk to Mr Pierce, she gasp as she sees Santana standing in front of the man. Mr Pierce nods slowly and gives her a pat on the shoulder,
"You're a tough one, Lopez. I can see your potential, go see her. She's upstairs." Mr Pierce tells her. Santana suddenly smiled and walked inside their home. But before she went up, Mr Pierce grabs her wrist.
He whispers, "Don't ever hurt my daughter again."
She nods slowly, and smiled, "I won't ever again, sir." She hurriedly run upstairs and finds her bedroom. When she reached the gray door, she opens it and goes inside immediately.
She gasps as she sees Brittany watching the tv, she can see Brittany's eyes are swollen from crying. Brittany suddenly turns her head, and gasps.
Santana closes the door behind her and walks to her lover, "Brittany.."
"Santana.." she whispers. She suddenly grabs her comforter and hides herself. Santana got on the bed to remove the comforter from her and stared deeply into her eyes, Santana sobbed and whispered, "I missed you.."
Brittany looked away from her, weak enough to even stare at her. She growled, "What are you doing here? Did I tell you specifically that you won't see us again?" Santana felt her heart break as she received Brittany's reply. She knew Brittany was mad at her, she felt it.
"I came here to say that I'm so sorry, for keeping secrets from you. I only did that to protect our relationship, but, turns out I was protecting myself." Santana explained to her. Brittany was not convinced and just turned away from Santana, she face the wall and let her tears fall down, not making a sound.
Santana suddenly sobbed, she was losing hope. Losing hope that Brittany will not come back to her. Santana takes off her black coat and drops them on the floor. She stood there, watching Brittany's breathing. She speaks again,
"Love, it's only you. I love you, Brittany. I want to love you until we grow old and die. I'm so so sorry for not telling things to you, please Brittany. You have to realize that I'm the one for you, and only me," She pauses. She takes a breath and speaks again,
"I visited my child 2 months ago, she is so..like me. Her attitude is just like mine," Santana chuckled weakly. She looks at Brittany's back, but there was no response, "She is such a beautiful kid." She looks up to see Brittany if there was any response, no. There was none. She starts to cry and sit down at the edge of the bed, back of Brittany.
She whispers, "I visited her because I need to fix my mess, At first I needed to find you. But I know you wouldn't let me see you not until I fix my mess. And so I did, I finally met my child and it was wonderful. Brittany, I-I'm just really sorry for what happened. But, you need to trust me. You can't just believe every people. What if they'll tell you that if I fucked someone behind your back? I wouldn't do that Brittany, and you know that. But I was going to tell you about my child, it was just not the right time."
After she speaks, she can hear Brittany sobbing from the background. She slightly turns her head and she watches Brittany's body heaving. She wanted to wrap her arms around her love and kiss her. Whispering those words that make Brittany smile.
She slightly opens her mouth, and starts to sing.
The first time ever I saw your face
Santana's voice was cracking, her voice was raspy. Her body was quivering, she turns around and takes a deep sigh.
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
The moon and the stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and empty skies, my love
To the dark and empty skies
Brittany slowly starts to calm down, her cries were turning into sobs. Santana sniffled and slowly starts singing again,
And the first time ever I kissed your mouth
I felt the earth move in my hands
Santana slowly starts standing up from the bed, walk towards the blonde. She can see Brittany's hand wrapped each other. She knows what that means, it means that she's scared and very sad. She sits down beside her and places her left hand on her right hand, feeling her coldness.
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love
That was there
Santana starts to sit close to her, still singing her love for her. She starts to cup her chin and lift her head up, looking at her ocean eyes. She slowly sings to her,
And the first time ever I lay with you
And felt you heart so close to mine
She sings to her so beautifully, Santana's voice was so angelic. She starts to sing the highest note to her and cups her cheek, feeling her dry tears on her hand and starts to be closer to her.
I thought our joy would fill the earth
It would last till the end of time, my love
It would last till the end of time
The first time ever I saw your face
Your face, your face
She stops singing slowly, still looking deep in her eyes. Brittany was still sobbing and she can feel her emotions. She starts to lean in slowly, tilting her head and closing her eyes. She felt Brittany leaning in too and it spurred her more. She feels her wet lips into hers and melted into it. Their lips fit so perfectly together, Santana moans quietly and pulls away, still closing her eyes. She presses her nose to her skin and kisses her again, this time more passionate and love. She cups her cheek while her other hand is on her neck. Santana slowly licks her bottom lip, asking for the blonde to open her mouth. Brittany obligated and opens her mouth a little, she feels Santana's tongue inside her, meeting her tongue with hers. Santana pulls away again, this time opening her eyes and looking at Brittany's wet lip.
"That's how much I love you, Brittany Pierce. I'm in love with you so much, I'm in love with you more than my job and my life." She softly says as she caress her cheek. Brittany stares at her, she doesn't have a word to say either. She just stared and slightly nods,
And whispers,
"I love you so much too, Santana. That it hurts to depart from you. And I'm so sorry for not trusting you, I should have let you explain everything first, please forgive me." Santana smiles, her smile was so sincere. She hasn't smiled like this since Brittany left her. She chuckled slowly and rested her forehead to hers.
"Marry me again, Brittany. And this time, no more secrets, no more lying." Santana whispers. She feels Brittany's heart so close to hers, she presses her body to hers and smiles softly. Brittany slightly chuckled and kisses her nose,
"I'll marry you, Santana. And this time, I'm going to trust you more. Hear you out too." They both chuckled, Santana stares deeply to her and kisses her again. It was so much better than their kisses before, it was passionate. Too passionate.
Santana pulls away, doing an Eskimo kiss. She whispers, "I want to make love to you but, not here." Brittany chuckled and nodded.
"Yeah, not here." They both chuckled and started to lay together. Santana has her left arm wrapped around her fiancée and her other arm resting on her stomach. Brittany rested her head on her chest and her other hand resting on Santana's hand. Santana starts to pull the comforter to them and just appreciate their company together. Santana whispers those three little words,
"I love you."
Brittany smiled, she whispers, "I love you too."
A/N: I TOLD YOU I WILL UPDATE SOON, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING CHAPTER 26! PLEASE GIVE A LIKE AND A REVIEW, THANK YOU AGAIN AND UNTIL NEXT TIME!
- AN.