Raven
Miley's p o v
The water's so perfect so clear
So amazing..[me]
like your eyes..I always loved your eyes..[Nick]
aw thanks[me]
I couldn't help it his answer was sweet and his dimples looked so cute as he smiled at me I wanted to be mad at him but I couldn't , all I could do was take a glance at all that was around me the birds that sat on branches chirping away , the lush green tress.. the perfect cool water which rippled with soft waves as the ores sliced through them..the tiny animals scurrying away on land. Kids played in a far of distance. He finally settled out in a safe distance from shore it was bright and clear the daytime sun shone magnificently in the center of the sky it's bright rays nestled across the hills and tresses.
So what did you want to talk about? [me]
the letter..[Nick]
what letter? Oh yea u mean the one where
you begged me to come back
and then stood me up? [me]
That letter! [Me]
What are you talking about? [Nick]
I'm talking about the letter you sent me
telling me I was scum of the earth! [Nick]
What letter? I never sent you a letter! [me]
Liar I read it! It was in your writing![nick]
I'm not lying![Me]
Bullshit you always say your sorry
and you always promise that you're going to
change and you never fulfill it's just more empty
promises just lies
I waited for hours for you to come and you stood me up![me]
Now your making up shit to make me look like
the bad guy!
Miley I swear I..[Nick]
I pushed him away trying to move to grab the ore when I felt myself slip and his hands grabbed me grabbing his shoulders to steady myself I was still fuming as his eyes looked past me..I went to shove him off me and he pulled me close his hands on my butt as he suddenly kissed me hard and deep..his grip was so tight it caught me off guard and I couldn't fight. I was suddenly exhausted as I tried to fight my body seemed to surrender to his touch..closing my eyes I let myself kiss him back..strangely I felt nothing ..all I thought about was Mandy..pushing myself away I stood up to see him grinning
What the heck was that about!
You freaking pig! Don't you ever...
His expression was smug I whipped around to see why he was grinning like the damn cat that swallowed the Carney..just in time to see Mandy's back running up the hill..her long raven hair flying in the breeze..a million thoughts raced through my head "What had she seen? Did she understand? How could she? I didn't understand! Tears sprang to my eyes damn him why did he have to ruin everything?
Chocking feeling like I was going to vomit I tried to call to her but I felt dizzy and couldn't speak..gasping I tried to run..his hands grabbed me I spun around and found my voice screaming..
Get off of me you stupid cheating lying ..
Get off of me!
Mandy!
She was long gone the dizziness came back thundering against my head like hammers on a nail the nausea rose as I jumped into the cool river which crashed on top of me like ocean waves , I had to get to her but she ran so fast my arms felt weak..I tried to pump but the water washed over me and I saw a million and one flashes as the lights faded and blackness engulfed me as I heard my mom's voice filled with fear and panic screaming my name.
The sensation of falling hit me like a lighting bolt as I struggled to open my eyes but forces tried to shut them again. Mom's voice called to me begging me to wake up I was hot and I was cold voices drifted in and out..hands lifted me ..light filled my eyes bright obnoxious light..I saw faces mom and dad worried holding each other's hands. Nick's his eyes had that look in them..Mandy's face was the one that burned in my mind her beautiful green eyes filled with streaming tears as her body shock. I tried to reach for her hand but as I made contact with her skin she pulled away and stepped back as if I had shocked her..
Then she took off running her hair smacked me in the face as she hightailed it away..
I tried to call to her but the little strength I had vanished as the lights went out again.
Beeping that's the first sound I heard when I woke up this time only a dim light flowed as my lids opened. Mom's soft voice filled my ears ..
Baby your awake thank god
I was so afraid [mom]
What happened? [me]
shh I'll explain later
Get some rest for now
Her lips grazed my forehead as sleep over came me once more. Why was I always falling asleep?
Tell me what happened? [Selena]
huh? [me]
I was groggy so very sleepy as her question hit me like a semi truck as I opened my eyes seeing her face she was angry so angry her fists clenched as she shock in front of me,
you tripped and fell into his lips?
Is that what happened?
Selena..[me]
Don't Selena me you lying bitch
We were friends I trusted you!
You said I was ...important to you
Miley you promised me that you were okay
with us you said you didn't love him!
Why why would you say that and then kiss him!
In public! You know how I feel about him!
Selena I'm so sorry I...[me]
Save it I don't believe you..
Were over miley any type of friendship that we had
it's gone..I hate you and I hope Nick breaks you
just like he broke you before but worse..
Selena[ Demi]
No don't defend her Demi you can't defend her and comfort me
What are you saying? [Demi]
choose Dems me or this slut..[Selena]
Selena you can't be serious [Demi]
I am serious Demi choose!
Demi looked at me her eyes were sad and torn she kept looking at the two of us her mind must have been going like a ferris wheel. I hated knowing I had a huge part in their pain..
It's okay I don't expect you to..[me to Demi]
Shut up you stupid whore just shut the freak up..[Selena]
Enough girls miley needs her rest Selena you have to go now!
Don't make me call security get out right now [Brandi]
Let's go Sel..[Demi]
So she made her choice I didn't expect anything different they had been best friends since they were we had gotten so close during the year that it hurt to see her take Selena's hand and walk out the door. Brandi sat by me our eyes locked and fresh tears pooled my eyes..her hand grazed against mine her fingers curled around mine relief flooded through me as she watched over me..her mouth twisted into a strange position I knew she wanted to say things to me she just didn't know how ..squeezing her hand I let her know it was okay to ask..
Why miles? Why would you do it? [Brandi]
How could you do it to Mandy after everything she has done
for you? The women loves you for god sakes!
And of all people miles Nick! He broke your heart and
almost killed your self confidence if it wasn't for her
Just tell me why? I'm so confused
how could you hurt her? [Brandi]
I didn't mean to I just didn't..
I mean god I didn't want to he grabbed me and
he kissed me..he forced me to
I hate him! I never wanted anyone to get hurt
How is she? [me]
Brandi twisted the blanket in her fingers staring away from me using my elbows I pushed myself up the effort exhausted me.
Please tell me..I love her Brandi where is she? [me]
She asked me not to tell you I'm sorry [Brandi]
Brandi your my sister! Please tell me is she here still? [me]
She didn't leave camp if that's what you mean [Brandi]
So she's here how is she ? will she talk to me? [me]
she's here yes she doesn't want anything to do with you
Miles she's wrecked over what you did
I don't even know if you realize how much you devastated her
Miles I've never seen her so distraught [Brandi]
Where is she? [me]
I prom...[Brandi]
Tell me damn it I need to see her! [me]
I'll take you to her but I warned you..[Brandi]
I can go myself..[me]
Mom will kill me your too weak [Brandi]
Brandi..
Don't fight me you want to see her?[Brandi]
Yes..[me]
Then grab my arm..[Brandi]
We walked slowly down the hall and went up to the floor my head was resting against her shoulder as I tried not to cry, This couldn't be happening ..lost in my own thoughts I didn't notice we had arrived at Chelsea's room Brandi knocked..I heard Chelsea's voice call out but the words were mumbled she came over in a rush and a gust of wind blew open the door she stared at us shocked..
Uh Mandy's pretty pissed why don't
you come back miles in a day..[Chelsea]
NO I need to see her! [me]
Chels let her she's the only
one who can help right now [Brandi]
I pushed her out of the way charging in Mandy was laying on a bed her back facing me..Laura was holding her..she got up when I came in
Miles she doesn't want to see you [Laura]
I don't care I need to talk to her
she has to listen to me! [me]
no I don't miley my days of having to do what you say
are long over.. [Mandy]
please Mandy don't make me beg
for what I need
I just need to talk to you
I have to explain..
explain what miley?
How you lied to me?
How you made a gazillion promises and broke every
damn one!
I trusted you miley I love you
I gave you everything I could ever give
I stood by you when everyone was dumping on you
I was your rock I took all the nasty rumors and lies
I took the bullshit from the media the fans I stood by you
not that bastard and you swore to me you would never
do to me what he did to you
I never trusted anyone and you made me open
my heart and you promised me it would be safe
Tears were streaming down her face as her body shock she was clutching a pillow which was being so squeezed that it was about to blow.
And I meant it..I want to keep it safe [me]
SAFE! Miley you broke it shattered it!
You can't expect me to see you kissing Nick of all people
and just be okay with it [Mandy]
it was a mistake I didn't mean..[me]
To get caught of course not that would mean [Mandy]
you would have to own up to it and explain what you
did and you knew miles
you flipping KNEW I would never
understand this kind of betrayal
I loved you miley and you threw it away like
my heart was a piece of garbage that can be recycled
well it's not miles and you've broken it for the last time! [Mandy]
what are you saying? [me]
I'm saying that I can't do this anymore
your free go be with Nick
it's who you want that much is plain to see
I don't .. Mandy I love you not him!
Then why were you kissing him!
Laura was watching this with Brooke both shaking their heads as we fought I was shaking so bad I had to hold onto Brandi so my legs wouldn't give out. Mandy was beat red hot tears streaming down her face. Her hands clutching whatever they could find as she stood face to face with me dang she got taller the madder she was. Her right fist was still holding that pillow by her left her jean shorts which she looked amazing in, her face was pale and streaked with makeup. I knew she must have been crying all night, she was shaking as bad as I was but she was held up by her anger she looked like she hadn't slept in weeks and I wished that I could reach over and hug her make her feel how sorry I really truly am. Laura's eyes looked mad as she shot daggers at me and poor Brooke looked like she had no idea who's side to take but she inched towards Mandy's.
I wasn't kissing him [me]
Don't lie I saw you !
With my eyes not some hearsay shit
I was there I saw you wrap your arms around him
and kiss him I saw that damn smirk he gave me
he played you miles and u fell for it hook line and sinker
I warned you over and over and you never cared enough
to hear me..you kept giving him the benefit of doubt
you could never make up your mind one minute you hated him
the next you loved him
you can't keep this game up
I told you someone was going to get burned
and I was right but it wasn't you it was me
and u burned me the difference between me and other
burn victims their scars may heal mine won't
you played with fire and my heart got scorched
thanks miles so much for showing me that love is pointless
and always leaves you bleeding
I hope that this little experiment was worth it
cause it just cost u the best damn thing that you ever had [Mandy]
Mandy please..[me]
I was in full blown hysteria now the tears were coming so fast and so hard my eye sockets burned my chest was on fire. Brandi was shaking me telling me to calm down as I coughed and gasped trying to grab Mandy who kept shoving my hands away from her.
Miley stop let it go
let it rest were over and buried you
built the casket
I'm closing the grave [Mandy]
Mandy! [me]
I grabbed her hand pulling on her as I screamed and shock her blinded by tears she tried to push me away but I held onto her shirt which pulled and started to rip..
Get off of me miley grow up!
She shoved me hard and I fell limp against the cold had tiles shaking and crying .Brandi yelled my name and was by my side instantly. I heard Mandy whirl around and leave Laura called after her and took off. Their voices echoed as I lay in my sisters arms while she rocked me and I felt what it meant to have your first real heart break..expect no one can ever prepare you for just how soul crushing it really is.
I don't remember it but Brandi picked me up and carried me to my room, she tucked me into bed where mom was waiting for me the feel of her arms slipping over me brought me a little comfort but a little was better then none, she stroked my hair and kissed my face rocked me talked to me but her words were a mess of vocals in my over acting mind they held no sounds no phrase's no sense. All I knew was that the one person who would never hurt me was holding me because I had just broken the one person who had depended on me to never hurt her.
In all my uncertainty I have no idea how long I lay there crying I know at some point I heard Mandy's voice telling mom she was getting her stuff and moving in to help Chelsea since she had 3 of Brandi's girls cause Lace was still not fully recovered. I didn't move her voice caused me to stiffen.
The next morning I was awoken by Ella's sweet voice when I opened my eyes she was on my bed giggling ..
Hey Miley I have a joke for you
wanna hear it? [Ella]
sure baby [me]
sweet..
She grinned and scurried by me I wrapped my blanket around her and pulled her close as she told her joke..
you wanna know what boys take after? [Ella]
sure what?[ me]
a pack of cards wanna know why? [Ella]
cuz you need a heart to love them,
a diamond to marry them,
a club to batter them, and a spade to bury them.
Oh my god that's sick! But I love it! [me]
I started to laugh and she grinned hugging me
That's what I wanted to see! [Ella]
What's that? [me]
you laughing! [Ella]
Yay me! I got miles to laugh! [Ella]
Feels good to it's been so dang crazy
since yesterday I just wonder why he did it?
Sent me the dang letter left me in the cold and
then acted like it was my fault [me]
I hate Nick for making you hurt like this [Ella]
She seemed so angry her face scrunched up slightly red fists clenched , it warmed me to know she cared so much for me but once again guilt pangs ripped through me she was so sweet and genuine so young and I didn't want her to ever feel the pain of a broken heart and loving me was the only thing it would lead to I was poison to my friends just ask Mandy ...
Aw sweetie don't hate it's not cool
but thanks for being so sweet..[me]
now come here so we can cuddle [me]
awesome! It's cold in here..[Ella]
Ella's p o v
Okay so I felt like crap for basically lying to my idol but there was no way I could tell her we were the reason behind the letter that started this whole damn drama, she would be so angry and feel so betrayed and maybe violated, there was no way I would lose her feeling her snuggling me against her chest and arms made me feel safe and secured. Closing my eyes I nestled back taking in her sweet scent of vanilla , cinnamon and sweat , when I knew she was asleep I brushed away traces of tears and said a soft prayer one I've been saying ever since I was a little kid
Be near me, Lord Jesus!
I ask Thee to stay
Close by me forever
And love me, I pray.
Bless all the dear children
In Thy tender care
And take us to heaven
To live with Thee there.
Lord Jesus keep my miley safe
in body and in heart
and let her fear not of the sake
of love
let her know the glory of
your awesome ways
and shower her in fields
of never ending glory
in thy name Dear sweet Savior
I pray to thee and say Amen.
I made the cross and laid down..sleep came easy..
I made it early to class to see Danny before everyone else got there he was practicing trying to get his right leg into a perfect attitude which was crucial to a part of our adagio in one of our main routines. He
was beat red and sweating and still couldn't hold his leg up. I wavered as to rather help him or keep quite it was a touchy subject for him he hated being seen as a weaker dancer then the other boys , his arms were held above his head in perfect formation eyes straight ahead at his focus spot. I saw it was a blow up picture from the best of both world tour where Nick was air born legs wide as he held his guitar out. He was Danny's idol and he wanted to be just like him, Nick is an amazing dancer to and helps Danny a lot but he wants to do it on his own and prove that dispute his disability he can do whatever job he is asked to the reality however is that he has Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy it's an illness that mainly affects boys and it happens when the protein called Dystrophy that help muscles keep their shape and strength break down the body becomes weaker and weaker kids with this disease have weaken in their arms and legs it starts when they are young and keeps getting weaker as they grow most kids end up using braces by the time they are 8 or 9 and by the time they get to their late childhood they need crutches and by their teens wheelchairs a lot of kids develop spine issues , Danny has been lucky in that regard .DMD also affects the heart and lungs most end up on vents because their muscles that control their breathing fail, kids usually don't survive beyond late teens to early adult hood. Danny has been determined to beat this though he's been dancing since he was a baby his mom owns a dance studio and had him in dance shoes at 18 months he's never stopped the boy is amazing he won one competition after another , he took acting lessons and vocal ever since he was 3 or 4, when he was 5 he began to fall down and complain of leg and arm pains his calf muscles became enlarged his mom thought it was just dance related and didn't take him to the doctors in till he started falling down and stumbling, getting dizzy , his dad brought him to a specialists convinced there was more then just dancer pains. Sadly he was right Danny was diagnosed shortly after his 6th b-day and had to spend months in the hospital getting his meds right and being evaluated. What has helped him stay as strong as he has is Dance it keeps his muscles from getting weak from non-use he also runs every day at least 4 miles and works out but over the last 3 years he's gotten weaker his arms can longer stay above his head for more then a few seconds his legs have gotten to the point where he needs a wheel chair by all means he shouldn't be able to dance his lungs have gotten weak he has problems breathing and often sleeps with a oxygen mask on, but he refuses to let his illness take away his one true love Dance.
I watched him as he spun and leaped arms extended as he whipped his right leg around his back ..he had struggled but once again he mastered it..as he was coming down I came up the sweat was pouring down his back but he poured some water over himself and sat against the wall drying himself with a towel as he leaned back closing his eyes. I could see how hard he was breathing so I went and grabbed a portable oxygen tank wordlessly he smiled and placed it on I adjusted the numbers till he was breathing easier. The music ended and we sat not saying anything..when he spoke I heard how raspy his voice sounded
Is she as pissed as Nick? [Danny]
uh yea more so since she was the one
who got played
yea well he's not so happy either he was with
his parents all night
man are they ever pissed his dad was shouting about Nick
being a disgrace forcing himself on a girl
his mom was crying...
Kevin kept trying to distract us but we heard it [Danny]
what happened over with y'all?
Miles was passed out most of the night
her mom stayed with us talking to her praying
she was pretty sick running a fever and they were worried
about hypothermia but she's okay now
the strange part was Mandy grabbed her stuff and
went to stay with Chelsea she was all crying
and upset I heard her and Brandi arguing
it was very heated Brandi kept begging her
to forgive someone
and to stay but she was so mad she didn't even look
at miles.[me]
that's odd they are so close but girls can be strange [Danny]
hey! [me]
what it's true [Danny]
and boys are gross [me]
As on cue he let out a huge burp and laughed I shoved him just as class started to fill up
we messed up with that letter huh? [me]
yea 'fraid so but we can't say anything now
they arrested Jo man they ain't playing [Danny]
what we did wasn't criminal though
was it? [me]
apparently girls are dense to
it's called fraud and impersonation
we pretended to be Nick and wrote
to her and she waited out in the cold
it's in writing man were toast if they find out
it was us.[Danny]
Mac's still pissed she called all the counselors in a meeting yesterday
Eric was so mad
he had a hot date and had to cancel
I didn't get all what he said but
she was talking about disciplining anyone
caught breaking the rules by kicking them out
and arresting anyone who violated another's privacy[ Danny]
yea that would count I would think..[me]
ya think? [Danny]
Mandy's coming we better get in position help me up women [Danny]
I thought we were dense? [me]
And cute..[Danny]
He flashed that million dollar smile which made me roll my eyes but I helped him. I caught a glance at Mandy as she entered she looked tired and worn out her face was pale and you could see how much makeup she was using to cover it up she had dark circles under her eyes which were red rimmed she almost looked high, but I knew she wasn't into that stuff. I wanted to ask her but she was more closed off then miles she didn't talk easily..besides I didn't know her as well..she was older to more like a grownup where miles I felt like she was closer to my range.
Attention class positions at the barre
begin with demi plie
She worked us harder then ever just from the exercises which was fine by me I loved the feeling of my muscles being stretched to their limits and beyond it meant they were getting stronger but I worried about Danny and Nazi, a quick glance told me they were doing okay so I lost myself in the music before I knew it we were pairing up . I saw Sunny look at me longingly as I grabbed Danny's hands he was already red faced and struggling to breathe
arms high, heads held high
backs arched eyes focused
make the steps quick and graceful
not choppy
one n two n three n four
group one group two
lets go do not stay put wait for your cue
and move smooth and together
one group messes up the whole
routine crumbles
Danny and I waited in till Vanessa and Sammy went then as they were halfway we slide across as we did I let the chorus of the song wash over me and I felt empowered all over..
And they say the road to heaven might lead us back through hell.
Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow,
we will win this fight and bury this sorrow.
We're so alive, still holding on, not ready to die,
so we LIVESTRONG.
I felt better after class as I headed back and got ready for my treatment again miles met me at he clinic she was just getting done with a checkup, as we waited for me to be hooked up we worked on learning some music theory she's a great teacher
Intervals can be described as Major (M), Minor (m), Perfect (P)
, Augmented (A), and Diminished (d).
Intervals come in various sizes: Unisons, Seconds,
Thirds, Fourths, Fifths, Sixths, and Sevenths.
Think of them as a wall of bricks each have their own layers
but they each hold up the same structurer [Miles]
Like an army? Each solider have a job to do
no matter what the rank they all hold the same
responsibility to keep the unit strong..[me]
yes exactly [miles]
never thought of it that way
that's how I imagine the chemo
like a army in battle strong and fearless
against a confused enemy Cancer
how come a army? Don't' like the Navy?
Ha ha no my dad's in the army he's in Afghanistan[me]
oh wow sorry I didn't know [miles]
so kay how were u suppose to?
I don't talk about it much
u must miss him a lot I know I miss my dad
when he's touring or when he's home and I'm touring [miles]
yea I do but he's serving our amazing country
and fighting for our freedom
he'll be home at the end of this year
I can't wait!
Awesome I bet you are going to have the neatest surprise [miles]
I wish I want to do something but I don't know what [me]
what does he like? [miles]
music [me]
what about writing a song? [miles]
I wouldn't know how [me]
sure you do use whatever you feel in your heart
and just put it into words I'll help you if you want
you would? [me]
yes..[miles]
omg thank you!
I threw my arms around her neck she laughed and hugged me as my port was hooked up to the iv .I laid back miles turned up the radio and we rocked out to Lisa Maire..
And as the raven flies she feels unwelcome Hold your head up now
She's fallen out of her tree and caught on a limb of silver lining
Her wings uncertain oh but she's still flying
Yeah little Raven I see you there
I won't try and pull your feathers out I promise
Go on dry your eyes
You know that I've forgiven you and I'm sorry
And everything till now
It wasn't that bad really
Beautiful lady
A few tears slide down my checks she laughed and wiped them away
it's so cute how she has her little girl voice in
the intro and the lyrics are so beautiful [me]
I know I'm silly ..
no it's sweet that you get so into the music
only true artists feel that way [miles]
I think of Mandy her hair is like a ravens [miles]
did you two have a fight? [me]
I was nervous asking it wasn't my place really she was my counselor but she nodded
I made a huge mistake and broke her
trust now she feels like she can't count on me
whatever you do don't break someone's trust
cause you can't get it back..
did you say you were sorry it can't be that bad [me]
she loves you..
sometimes love isn't enough no
matter how much you want it to be..[miles]
I swallowed why did I have a horrible feeling this had to do with the letter? She placed her head back and we started on the music lesson again.