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Chapter 26. -Bella's POV

I asked myself several times today why this was happening to me, why I couldn't just find happiness and keep it.

When Jen told me Jacob was at the hospital, I had laughed and told her she was joking. She'd glared at me and got suddenly angry, yelling at me to go to hell. I stood there at my door shocked that she was being serious.

After processing it all, I got angry at myself for not seeing quickly that he was using and then I was furious at Jacob that he was using and wanted to be around my daughter.

It was all too much and when I called Rose to watch Layla, she wasn't too happy with why.

"For Mr. Black?" I stood up the same time Jen did, we both looked at each other for a brief second before facing the doctor.

"I'm his girlfriend" Jen says

"You're Mrs. Black?" he asks politely before looking down at his clipboard.

Jen glared, "no but I'm all he has so-"

"I was Mrs. Black, it's swan now. Is he okay?" I spoke softly to the doctor cutting Jen off. He smiled gently when he looked my way, I could see Jen nose flare from the corner of my eyes.

"Ms. Swan were you aware my patient has been using drugs?"

I shook my head quickly, "I didn't- no, not really" I said defeated.

"Ms. Swan I believe Jacob use started about a year ago."

I looked up at him surprised, that couldn't be right. We were still together then. "But, I would know. He never said anything…" I said quietly.

Jen snorts from beside us, "How would you know? You never payed attention to him."

I glared at her, "And did you? Look where we are."

"I knew he was using," She smirks. "How did you think we met?"

"I'm sorry, who are you?" The doctor asks confused, "it only shows Mr. Black's wife on his profile as a person of contact."

"Told you, I'm his girlfriend"

I folded my arms around myself. This was getting too much, I didn't know whether to feel sorry for Jacob and stay or leave and make sure my child doesn't get anywhere near him and his Jen. Was she his supplier?

The doctor cleared his throat gaining my attention, "Mr. Black is in a coma."

I gasped, covering my mouth. Pulling in I was sure he was going to be awake and fine.

"And when will he get out?" Jen asks suddenly worried. Either she was stupid and didn't know about comas or she doesn't want to believe it I thought.

"I can't tell you that miss, it's up to Mr. Black if he wants to or not. I'm sorry" He walks away after that.

"This is your fault" I spoke quietly.

"Excuse me?" Jen turns looking at me in surprise.

"You should have stayed away from him, Jacob was a good guy! You brought him into this and now I may lose him. It's. Your. Fault." I pointed emphasizing my last words.

"Oh Please, don't put the blame on me, maybe if you were being a wife Jacob wouldn't have came to me for comfort." She smirks.

"We met at his place of work yunno? exchanged numbers then he began visiting me" she giggles shaking her head. "The whole time we were in town and you didn't know"

I shook my head at her in disgust, did she think this was funny? "Well now you have him, are you happy? Just… stay away from me and my daughter please." I said and gathered my stuff to get the hell out of this building.

She scoffed behind me, "I never wanted that kid in the first place Jacob just couldn't stop rambling about her, I don't know what's so special about her that he would want full custody."

I stopped what I was doing and slowly looked back at her. "Jacob wanted full custody?" I asked surprised.

Jen rolls her eyes, "Of course I couldn't let that happen."

My eyes widen at her words, "What do you mean? omg, what did you do?" I asked her almost freaking out.

She stared at me silently, "I gave him something better."

"Omg," I breathed out lowly, stepping back from her. "You- you did this to him?"

"I didn't make him take it, not really." she hums. "I believed he would be fine though" she mumbled quietly to herself.

Omg, she's a psychopath.

"Miss, if you could come with me."

I looked behind Jen at the doctor we just talked to standing there and intently staring at her.

I stared at her carefully, wondering what she was going to do. The expression on her face after the doctor spoke turned sour and her eyes never strayed from me. She stepped forward but I quickly averted away almost tripping and ran towards the door.

I sat in my car for several minutes with muddled feelings. That was the girl Jacob had wanted to spend time with Layla.

"Omg" I said out loud shaken. She may have just killed my daughter's father.

I was clueless on how to act or feel. He was my best friend growing up who grew to be an annoying ex-husband, but did I want him dead? Absolutely not.

Was I to blame for Jacob using?

What do I do now that he's in a coma?

I sighed resting my head on the starring wheel sobbing.

Why Jacob?

The chill ring of my cell phone made me jump. I wiped the little tear under my eyes.

"Hello?" I cleared my throat.

"Miss Swan, its Mr. Kelu. Is this a bad time?"

"No no." I said alert. I never called them to give an answer. Was he calling to tell me never mind?

God, I hope not. I need it now more than ever.

"Ms. Swan, I'm calling to see if you would be joining us or not. I would admit if it was anyone else we would have picked another person, but Ms. Sue speaks highly of you and I don't want to be the one to tell her what happened." I could hear a hint of adoration when he mentioned Sue.

"I apologize, I was just about to call but I got side tracked." I took a deep breath. "Mr. Kelu Yes, I will be joining KAC if you'll have me." I said trying to sound gleeful.

"Glad to hear that Ms. Swan. Looking forward to seeing you at the teacher conference"

"Looking forward to it too, sir"

"Please, call me Samuel." He says before saying his goodbyes.

I took a deep breath in and started my car. Jacob stupid mistakes were not going to rid me of what little happiness I could have.

.

I got home and fell on the couch completely drained.

The next thing I knew I was being poked awake.

"Whhhaat" I grumbled out sleepily.

"You shouldn't wake her."

"She got some explaining to do."

I crunched up my eyes at those voices. Why were they here?

"Edward?" the word, rough coming out of my mouth.

I heard his footsteps and then he was in front of me crouched down.

I felt his hand on my face and let out a sigh "Bella… you're burning up."

Huh?

I quickly sat up but fell back against the couch at the rush that overcame me.

"What the hell happened?" Rose asked worried.

"What? I don't know…" I took in a breath. "How are you guys here?"

"I have a key" she says as a matter of fact.

I looked at Edward and he shrugged smirking, "I met Rose here. You've been asleep for hours Bella. Rose never got a text to bring back Layla and I wanted to see you."

"How long have I been asleep?" I asked alert.

"It's 4am in the morning Bella." Rose says carefully looking at me. "You slept the whole yesterday, when did you get back?"

I looked up at Edward. "You wanted to see me this late?"

He shakes his head before standing straight. "You didn't pick up my calls and after midnight I began to get worried."

"Oh"

"What the hell happened!" Rose says impatiently.

I sighed, grabbing my head. It was hot, and I was beginning to feel a headache. "I got back after noon"

I made the move to get up and Edward reached out to help.

"I'll be back. I need a shower" I told them dismissively before strolling to my room.

What happened indeed.

I clearly remember feeling tired and weak after the hospital. The whole thing with Jacob affected me more than I thought it would.

A sob broke out of my lips at the way things happened, he lost his way and I couldn't see it.

I stepped into the shower and allowed the water to wash away the tears.

-TLA-

I walked into the room and their conversation halted. I narrowed my eyes at them. Edward was leaning on the wall looking down with an unreadable expression on his face, Rose must have told him where I went. I gave Rose a little smile when I saw her glare directed at me.

"Where's Layla?" I asked her.

"Are you going to tell us what happened?" she retorted back.

Edward cleared his throat breaking our stare, "Layla is asleep." He says.

I gave him a small nod before having a seat on a stool. I could feel his stare on me but I didn't dare look up.

I cleared my throat looking at Rose. "Jacob is in a coma" I said softly.

"Well damn." She says plainly, "Who put him there?"

I let out a small dry chuckle at that, "probably the girl he was going to marry."

It was quiet from both of them.

I looked up at Edward because he hadn't said anything, but he wasn't looking at me now, instead staring at a wall.

"Doctor said he overdosed." I said sadly.

Rose's eye widened in disbelieve as she stared at me.

"Shit. I'm so sorry Bella." She says walking up to me. I then explained how the conversation with the psycho Jen went.

"Will he wake up?" Edward asks quietly looking at me. I gave a shrug as my answer looking down.

"Damn that's why you look like this" Rose says feeling on my head. "You've cooled down a little though"

I gave her a small smile, the shower helped.

Edward suddenly was walking towards the door.

"Wait. Where are you going?" I said after him.

He stops but doesn't turn to face me, "Bella, Jacob needs you." He says calmly, "I was foolish to think we could be done with him easily, I thought i-"

"No Edward" I sighed grabbing his arm, "What Jacob did with his life is not my concern anymore, I want us."

"Look at you Bella, His situation has you sick. It's ok to feel something for him-"

"No!" I said again heated.

He sighs before turning to grab my face. "Bella its understandable, I've been a little selfish. Do what you want for him. It's okay."

With that he closed the door behind him leaving me dumb founded.

I sniffled turning back to Rose, "What the hell just happened?" I asked, my voice cracking a little. I proceeded to take a seat on the floor and rested my head on the wall lost.

Was my life meant to be like this?

My love for Jacob is nothing compared to my love for Edward.

I don't owe Jacob anything, but I do feel guilt over what happened and Edward could see that.

"Bella…" Rose's voice cut through my thoughts bringing my eyes to her sitting in front of me. "Everything will be okay."

I shook my head. "Jacob may not wake up Rose"

"I know, but remember he hurt you. Don't let this break you all over again"

"He hurt me."

"He did" she says.

"Why do I care for him?"

"Because he was your husband and best friend before that. There's too many memories shared Bella, it's ok to care."

"But I love Edward, He makes me feel warmth." I whispered.

"Bella, I don't doubt you do."

"What of Layla? what if she hates me later because I didn't help her father. I think he really loves her Rose" I whispered, remembering how Jen said he wanted full custody.

Rose sighs, "I don't know about Jacob's love for his daughter but Bella she can't hate you, you're her mother."

"I just want the best for us Rose, and to be happy along the way."

She squeezes my hand gently. "Then have it."

I looked up at her sadly, "How do I do that when I feel overwhelming guilt for what happened to him?"

"Fuck that Bella." She says angered, "What happened was not your fault but his. He made his faith when he decided to look at another woman."

"Yeah..."

I blew out a deep breath, before wiping my face and stared at Rose for a second in silence.

She's right. I couldn't keep making excuses for Jacob, heavens knows I've been too considerate with him.

Whether he chooses to wake up or not is up to him, I have to choose to move on. Our daughter is now my priority alone.

"Rose… It's time for me to move out of here."

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