A/N: Wow! I had the most hits ever yesterday!! Thank you very fucking much!! I'm now at 123 reviews!! Thank you again!! :) I'm sorry some of you are having a hard time with Edward and Bella's attitudes, but that's just the way I see them. Edward may be a douche, but it's only cause he is having a hard time figuring out how he feels about Bella...he knows there's something there, but it just took a while for him to figure it out. Bella, well, she may seem like a pussy for forgiving him so easily, but she knows how she feels about him. She loves him...he can do no wrong. You know how that goes with your first love. :) I just thought I'd give a little insight into why they are acting like they do...it gets better...especially in this chapter. :) I have a warning..some lemony goodness is featured toward the end of this chapter, so if you aren't old enough...DON'T READ IT! :) It's rated M for a reason. lol Thanks so much for my fucking awesome Beta Jadiona. Shes just great!!!

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Sorry for the long note.

Chapter 26 - Conversation

EPOV

When Alice pushed me out of Bella's room I was scared. I don't know why I became scared. It was irrational to fear being away from Bella. I knew that we wouldn't be able to be together 24 hours a day, seven days a week, but I wanted to spend as much time with her as possible. I wanted to make up for being such an ass the whole time I'd been around her. I needed to make up for it. I started to go down the steps, but I stopped myself. I wanted to know what they were talking about. I leaned against the door quietly to try and hear what was said. I knew that Alice would never say anything really bad about me, but she knew all about my sex-capade with Tonya, and I didn't want Bella to hear about all of the details. I felt almost stalker-ish doing this, but at least I was still close to Bella.

I could hardly hear anything, because they were talking in low voices. I was almost afraid that they knew I was standing out here trying to listen in. Then it got really quiet. I stepped back from the door almost afraid that they were going to be coming out, but then I heard more murmurs. I put my ear next to the door again and I heard Bella singing. Why would she be singing to Alice? That is just weird, but I could hear what she was singing clearly. Her singing voice carried more than her talking voice. It was so beautiful. I listened to the words.

'Tell me I'm frozen, But what can I do? Can't tell the reasons, I did it for you'. I knew exactly what she was singing about. 'Can't tell the reasons, I did it for you'; her changing Emmett… for me.

'Tell me I'm frozen, but what can I do?' that had to be about her lack of emotions.

'I can feel your sorrow, You won't forgive me, But I know you'll be alright'; had to be about when she told me she was a vampire, she was afraid I wouldn't forgive her for what she did; for what she was.

'It tears me apart that you will never know, But I have to let go', she hadn't planned on telling me that she loved me, and was going to let me go on with my life.

I couldn't imagine what would have happened to us if she hadn't told me that she loved me. I definitely never would have known. I fell to the ground. I had almost completely fucked this whole thing up. How could she love me? I was a fuck up… everything I touched became fucked up. Then I heard the door open.

BPOV

Edward was sitting on the floor outside of my bedroom. He kept running his hands through his mussed up bronze locks. I knelt down to him and pulled him into a hug. I knew why he was acting like this. He had heard my singing. He must have known everything that I was singing about. I wanted to make him know that I didn't feel like that anymore. He grabbed my shoulders and looked deeply into my eyes like he was searching for something.

"Bella, I am so fucking sorry. Please, know that I didn't mean…"

I shushed him. I knew he was sorry, I was sorry too. We both made mistakes, but I wanted to get past that. I pressed my lips to his. "Don't worry about it Edward. It's over with and done. We know how we feel about each other now. That song was for before. Alice had a vision of me singing that song and wanted to hear the rest of it. It has nothing to do with now. I love you." I couldn't get over that I was able to tell him that now. We had been through so much, that it seemed almost impossible. Yeah, we both fucked up, but what can you do? You can't go back and change things. Shit happens for a reason.

Alice had left when I bent down to Edward. She knew that we still needed time together, alone. I walked with Edward back into my room. We just sat quietly for a couple of minutes and I was starting to wonder what Edward was thinking about. "What is on your mind, Edward?"

"Everything. It's just crazy that this time yesterday, well, I fucked everything up, you know? I had just found out that you were a… vampire, but now 24 hours later I still don't know much more than that. I want to know about your history. Like how old are you really? Where are you originally from? I want to know everything about you that I can."

"I'm originally from Astoria, Oregon. I was born 58 years ago. I was changed when I was 18 years old. Carlisle saved me, like I saved Emmett. I had been shopping with my mom in Portland, Oregon, but we got lost. Apparently from what Carlisle has told me, we were attacked by a vampire. I don't know who he was, or even if he is still around. He killed my mother, and then moved on to me. I was so scared, then somehow, my 'ability'…"

Edward interrupted me and asked, "Wait… what ability?"

I just laughed. There was so much he didn't know about me. "I have a special ability. Like how Jasper can feel and project emotions or Rosalie can basically get her way with anything with the flash of her smile. I am what they call a shield. I can block physical attacks with my shield. It is transparent, so no one can see it. Apparently when I was attacked by the vampire in Oregon, my subconscious made my shield stronger. The vampire completely lost me, even though I was laying right there on the ground. He couldn't see me, nor smell me. I was invisible to him. The police found me and took me to the hospital. Luckily, Carlisle was working that night. I don't think I would have survived throughout the night. Carlisle could sense something special about me, and decided to change me. He has been my father for the past forty years. Carlisle, Rosalie, Jasper and I have been together since I was changed. We have lived in Alaska, Maine, Ireland, and now Forks. So, I think I answered the questions you asked. Are there any more?"

"Oh, just about a hundred more, but they can wait. I'm just glad that we are able to talk openly now. Oh… wait! Now I completely get it. You told me at the diner that you could take care of yourself… ha! Now, I can see it. I thought that maybe you were like a black belt in karate or something. Wow… but if you're so powerful, how did you get kidnapped in Italy?"

Oh, this was going to be a long story. "How about I tell you that story sometime later? It's getting late. You and Alice should probably be getting home, right?"

Just then it hit me… what about Emmett? We went downstairs to see that the rest of the family were sitting around the dining room table and Carlisle was home. I thought that he was working a double shift today.

"What's going on guys?" I asked.

"Esme… she's frantic. We're discussing about how to handle the situation." Carlisle said.

I could tell that he was very upset. I knew he had the same feelings for Esme, that I had for Edward, that Jasper had for Alice, and that Rosalie had for Emmett. "What do you mean she's frantic? What happened?"

"Apparently, the guys that went hunting with Emmett yesterday went to school today and noticed that Emmett wasn't there. They started freaking out about what happened, and the school called Esme to find out where Emmett was. We told her last night that Emmett was supposed to be staying over here last night, so she thought he was safe. Now what are we going to do?" Alice said.

Great, more problems. "Alice, did you tell Esme that you saw Emmett here?"

"Ummm… I don't remember. I don't think I said we saw him, did I Edward?"

Edward just shook his head. Okay that we can work with. "Well, if you didn't tell her that you saw him here, we are in the clear. Carlisle, what do you think? Should we fill Esme in on our little secret? How else can we explain about Emmett?" I asked.

"Bella, I don't know. I don't know if I want Esme to know about us. She might not handle it as well as her kids. I… I think we should act like we know nothing about Emmett and his whereabouts." Carlisle said looking at the tabletop.

"How can you not tell my mom about Emmett? Are you just going to let her think that her son is dead? How is that better than telling her he is still alive, but not the same? She's stronger than you think she is Dr. Cullen. You just have to give her a chance." Edward spouted off. I knew he was thinking about Esme, but he didn't realize that if she didn't take the news well, she may end up telling the wrong people. He didn't know vampires weren't allowed to tell humans about us. He had no idea about our 'rules'.

I put my arm around his shoulders and said softly, "Edward, what if she doesn't take the news well? You do realize what will happen right? We will have to leave. If other's found out about us, we wouldn't be able to stay here. Why do you think we move around so much? When you don't age, you can't exactly stay in one spot for too long. It may be best for Esme to not know about us, at least for the time being."

"So, I'm supposed to lie to her? The lady that took me into her house and made it my home? The lady that I now call mom? I have to tell her, that her other son is dead? I just don't see how it is better than just telling her about you guys." He said.

Alice spoke up, "Edward, they're right. Esme won't handle them being vampires well, at all. I've seen it. When we tell her, she won't believe it at first, but then she tries to keep us away from them. She'll think that they're dangerous. She'll only see them as taking her one son away from her, and she will want to keep me and you safe from them. I know that I don't want to be kept from Jasper… do you want to be kept away from Bella?"

Edward flinched at that. "No, I don't. Not now." He said.

Alice said, "Okay. This is how it's going to work out. We aren't going to tell her that he's dead. Obviously we won't have a body to produce, so we will just say that he's missing, act like he may have gotten lost. We can try and work up to telling her about vampires. I think that will work."

Emmett just sat there the whole time not saying much of anything. I could tell that something was bothering him. "What is it Emmett?"

"So, I can't see Esme ever again?" he said sadly.

"Just for a while, until we can tell her about us. It will be okay, I promise," I said to him. I just hoped that I could keep that promise.

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Esme called Carlisle a little bit after our conversation. I knew he hated to lie to her too, but I also knew he was worried about what would happen if we told her about us. Carlisle told her that he hadn't seen Emmett since Sunday. He told her that he had asked us and we had said that we hadn't seen him since Monday after school, when he went hunting with his friends. Emmett wouldn't stay in the house while Esme was on the phone. He and Rosalie went out hunting near the house.

Edward and Alice went home to deal with Esme from their side. I knew it wasn't going to be easy on them, but hopefully they will hold strong with knowing it was for the best for now.

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EPOV

When Alice and I got home from the Cullen's house she lit into us.

"Where the hell have you two been? Why the hell didn't you tell me about Emmett? You knew! And you didn't tell me! How can you two do this to me?" she sobbed.

Alice ran over to her when she broke down. "Oh Mom, we have been out looking for him. We were hoping that maybe he just got lost and we would find him before you found out. The Cullen's even took off from school today to help us look for him. Please don't be mad at us. We just didn't want you to get upset. We're sorry."

I just stood there watching the whole scene play out in front of me. Alice could win a fucking Oscar for the performance she just put on. I couldn't believe it. I didn't know what to do. I wouldn't be able to act as well as she did. I just walked over and helped move Esme to the couch. "We are sorry, Mom. We are going to keep looking for him until we find him. Don't worry about it." I said to her.

She looked up at me with tears in her eyes. "But what about until we find him? He's all alone out in the woods, or God knows where. How can we just sit here and wait? What if he's hurt? What if the bear… oh God!" She got up and ran to the bathroom and got sick. She was thinking about the bear and if it had gotten to him. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran upstairs. I admit it, I was a fucking coward. I couldn't handle the pressure. I didn't want to see my mom like that, knowing we could tell her he was safe and sound. That he was alive… well, as alive as he could be. At least he wasn't dead. She was going to be playing all types of scenarios in her head. I didn't want her to have to go through that.

Once I got to my bedroom I slammed the door shut and leaned my head against it. "Edward?" I whirled around and saw Bella sitting on my bed.

"What are you doing here?" I whispered to her.

"I wanted to make sure you were okay. I know you didn't want to lie to her, but it is the best for now. So, how are you?"

"You ask me how I am, but you don't ask about Esme?" I asked her incredulously.

"I heard how she took it. I know it's going to be a tough couple of days, but you just have to stay strong in knowing that Emmett is okay. You have to keep reassuring her of that until we can tell her the truth. It will get better Edward, I promise. Just trust me."

I did trust her. I just didn't want my mom to go through so much pain for nothing. I wanted her to know for a fact that he was well. I could only nod. I needed to get my mind off of what my mom was going through downstairs. I walked over to the bed and sat next to Bella. I needed to be close to her. She would be the only thing to get me through this. I grabbed her hand and kissed it. She shivered a little bit at that. "What?" I asked her. I wanted to know what she was thinking.

"You're lips are like fire on my skin. They constantly amaze me at how warm they are."

I looked up at her face and she seemed to be embarrassed. I was amazed that such a beautiful creature should be able to become embarrassed. I reached up and put my hand behind her head and pulled her closer to me. I placed my lips gently against hers. She sighed against me and her scent was tantalizing. I ran my tongue against her lower lip seeking access.

She shivered again and parted her lips. I ran my tongue against the inside of her lip. She tasted like strawberries. I would never be able to get enough of her scent, her taste, her feel. She was like a drug to me. I only craved more. I was caressing her neck while our kissing increased. My other hand acted like it had a mind of its own. It ran up and down her side, then slowly crept up to her chest. I started palming her breast. It was perfect… it fit perfectly in my hand. She moaned against me and my dick hardened instantly. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I could feel her hard nipple beneath her shirt and bra.

I moved my hand to the bottom of her shirt and she whimpered at the loss of contact. I planned on remedying that situation fast. I ran my hand along her ribs, which were ice cold. Moving as slow as I could my hand met the underneath of her bra. I could feel the lace and sheer material that was between my hand and her chest. I brushed my fingertips along the swell and she moaned again. I could feel her more pronounced nipple straining against the fabric of the bra. I ran my finger across her nipple and she jerked and sighed again. I leaned her back on the bed and leaned over her without breaking our contact. I wanted her like I had never wanted any other. She was it for me.

I kept palming her breast through her bra, but it still wasn't enough for me. I pulled her bra to the side and started fingering her nipple. I would pluck it, pull it, and twist it between my fingers. I wanted to taste it. I lifted her shirt and quickly pulled her nipple into my mouth. It was almost like sucking on an ice cube. Her back rose off the bed and she groaned underneath me. I could feel the vibration from her chest. She quickly flipped me over on my back, which surprised me at the abruptness of it. I looked in her eyes and they were almost black. She started kissing me harder almost bruising my lips, but then I felt the most incredible feeling in the world. She was lying on top of me with her thigh brushing up against my cock. I was frantic for the friction. I pushed my hips up into hers and she purred. That was the sexiest sound I had ever heard. It almost pushed me over the edge. She had her hands running through my hair while I grabbed her ass. Everything about this girl was perfect, her ass, her breasts. I couldn't get enough of her. I wanted her fully and completely. I ran my hands under her shirt and rubbed her lower back. She arched against me and caused the most delicious friction against my dick. I flipped her back over and started kissing down the side of her neck. She kept arching up off of the bed against me.

"Oh Edward…" she purred, "you're so warm. I can't take it anymore."

I didn't know exactly what she wanted. I didn't know if she wanted me to stop or to keep going. She didn't push me off of her, so I figured it was okay to keep going. I was rubbing little circles across her flat stomach and slowly made my way down to the edge of her pants. I slipped my hand inside of her pants and could feel that she wasn't wearing any underwear. "Shit, Bella, you're going to be the death of me." I growled at her. As well as not wearing any underwear, she was bare. I almost lost my shit right there. Just thinking about her not wearing anything under her pants and it being bare, I could just imagine the beauty of it. My hand made its way near her center and found it just as ice cold as the rest of her body. She was soaking wet…for me. I placed my fingers along her folds and just rubbed. I was afraid I was taking it way to far for her. I didn't know if she was a virgin or not. I mean, yeah, she's what…58 years old, but I still knew next to nothing about her. I kept kissing her neck and along her chest, running my tongue over every surface I could reach. I rubbed her clit and she growled. I was having so much fun exploring her body that I didn't realize she had completely stilled. I looked up at her face and her eyes were closed. "Bella?" I was asking for permission to continue. I didn't want to do anything she would regret later.

She opened her eyes about halfway and looked at me. "Edward…"she moaned. I put more pressure against her clit while watching her face. She moaned louder and jerked. I slowly put one finger inside of her and she shivered. "Oh god!" she purred. I added another finger, to her already tight pussy. She was so fucking wet. I moved her shirt and bra out of the way and started kissing and licking her breasts while I finger-fucked her. I ran my teeth over her nipple. She was starting to tighten up. I could tell she was getting close to her climax. I wanted her to scream my name when she reached her orgasm. I wanted her to be mine, fully. I kept fucking her with my fingers, while playing with her clit and nibbling on her nipples. She started shaking and moaning louder. "Oh…god…Edward…I'm going to…ahh!" she said while she came.

She finally stopped shaking, but continued to breath heavily. I slowly pulled my fingers out from inside her and she shivered again. I had to do it, I had to know how she tasted. I put my fingers in my mouth. I moaned loudly when the taste hit my tongue. It was like the most exquisite tasting champagne, with a hint of strawberries. I was in fucking heaven! I looked down at Bella, and she was just staring at me with the hooded look of post-coital bliss, but something else was in her eyes. She growled at me and flipped me over on my back again before I could even blink. "Do I taste good, Edward?"

I gulped, "Y… Yes."

"Oh, so you are the only one to get a taste? Is that how it is?" she asked, sounding mad.

"Uh… no?" I said. I didn't know how to answer that. Then she crouched over me and started kissing me. I knew she would be able to still taste herself on my lips. She licked around my mouth and then moved to my neck. "Do you trust me?" she asked.

"Y… yes, I trust you." I said sounding more scared than I actually felt. She ran her hands down my chest and across my abdomen. Then slowly made her way to the buttons on my pants. She was moving slowly down my body and then I knew. Holy shit!! She started unbuttoning my pants, when I said, "Bella, you don't have…" She glared up at me. "Yes, I do Edward. I have to taste you. I want to taste you." Then she went back to work on my pants, pulling them down my thighs. My cock was bulging against my boxer briefs. I was so hard, it hurt. I knew I needed a release, but I didn't expect her to give it to me. She slowly started rubbing me through my underwear. I could feel the coolness from her hand seeping through to my cock and it felt incredible. I shivered, but I wasn't cold. She released my dick from the confines of my briefs and let it hang out there. She was staring at it and licking her lips. "Edward, whatever you feel you have to do… do NOT move. That is all I am asking you. This could be… dangerous. Okay?" She asked me.

"Yeah, okay." I said stupidly. I really hoped I could keep myself from moving. I didn't know what she meant by this being dangerous, but if she said it was, then it must be.

She placed her hand around my manhood and started stroking it up and down. It felt fucking awesome. I leaned my head back against the pillows on my bed. I was still angled up enough to where I could see what she was doing. She placed her lips against the tip of my cock, and it felt like an electric current ran up my shaft and straight into my gut. I stopped myself from jerking though. She was looking up at me through her eyelashes. I knew I wouldn't be able to last long… she was just too fucking sexy. "Oooohhh ggodd." I moaned as she ran her tongue from the base of my cock up to the head. She slowly shut her eyes as she sucked the head into her mouth.

It felt in-fucking-credible. The coolness of her mouth on my cock was just perfect. She slowly made her way down the shaft until she had almost the whole thing in her mouth. I felt the tip hit the back of her throat. She just looked up at me with wide eyes. I couldn't help but feel proud. I knew I had a pretty big dick, but never really thought anything about it. It was just there… a part of me. She closed her eyes and I felt her take a little bit more into her mouth. I couldn't believe it… she was trying to take the whole thing. I didn't know if she could do it or not, but at least she was giving it a go. She must have realized she couldn't completely take me, so she started moving up and down the length while swirling her tongue around the tip when it was almost out.

She wrapped her hand around the base of my cock and started moving it up and down in time with her mouth. Watching her sucking my dick was enough for me. "Oh god, Bella. I'm going to cum." She never once let up. She just kept sucking and pumping with vigor, until I felt my cock start to twitch. Then she slowed and sucked even harder, til I came violently in her mouth. I had never had an orgasm that explosive in my life. I felt horrible that I had cum in her mouth; I knew that most girls didn't like that shit, but I warned her.

She kept her eyes trained on me, and slowly licked the tip of my cock making sure to get all of the cum. Then she shifted until she was in a sitting position and licked her fucking lips and made an 'mmm' noise. "You taste… like perfection." I couldn't help it. I laughed, because that was exactly how she tasted to me, so I told her so and she started giggling with me. We laid on my bed wrapped around each other. I couldn't believe we had just done that. After everything that happened during this day, that was the last thing I expected to happen. She laid next to me, rubbing my hair and humming the song she had sang the other day in choir class to my piano music. We were definitely good enough.

E/N: Whew! That was a long chapter...I think my longest yet! For that I think I need a couple more reviews...especially since I just posted yesterday! :) Thanks for reading, and don't forget to click the cute green button at the bottom. :) Til next time!!