Chapter 26
Alex walked upstairs. She wasn't surprised to see Liv waiting for her in her room. She was just sitting on the end of Alex's bed holding a pillow between her hands. She looked lost and broken. It broke Alex's heart to see her like that and she wanted to fix it. She thought harder about what Sapphire said. Maybe Liv did need to dominate her so that she would realize where the line was again. It wasn't going to be easy for either of them and Alex knew that. She just hoped that Liv would trust her long enough to go through with it.
"Mistress," Liv stated as Alex walked into the room.
"Liv," Alex said coming over to her.
She grabbed Liv's head in her hands and pulled it into her chest. She knew that Liv could hear the wild heartbeat as she struggled to think of the words to say. She held her there for a few minutes. When she finally got her heart to calm down enough that she felt she could actually talk to her without passing out, she turned Liv's face up to look into her eyes.
"What is it, Mistress?" Liv asked, knowing something was wrong.
"I want to try something," Alex replied.
"Like what, Mistress?"
"I want to do something that we have never done before."
"Will it involve toys?"
"Only if you want it to," Alex told her.
"I don't understand, Mistress," she replied with a confused look on her face.
"I know you don't, Liv, my pet. I am not sure that I do either. I've thought about it and I think that it might help you."
"If you think it is for the best, then we will do it."
"I haven't even told you about it yet. How can you accept it that quickly, Liv? Don't you want to know more about it?" Alex asked her.
"If you think that we should do it, then we will. It is not my place to question you, Mistress. I am your pet. I am yours to do with as you please. I am here to pleasure you, Mistress. That is my job. That makes me happy. So it doesn't matter what you are going to ask me to do, I will do it, because it would make me happy to do it," Liv reasoned.
"Liv, I want you to dominate me."
"Except that."
"Liv…"
"I can't do that, Alex. I can't be in that position. I don't know that I have control over my rage."
"I think that you do."
"Why do you want me to do this?"
"Because I know that you can do it."
"What happened to you in San Francisco?"
"It isn't anything like that, Liv. You are the only one that I could ever dream about dominating me fully. I can honestly admit that I have fantasized about it in passing. I know that you are afraid and I would be lying if I didn't say that I wasn't, too," Alex told her.
"You're sure that nothing happened?"
"Nothing happened that would make me want this. It is a fantasy that I have had since I was little, Liv. I never acted it on it, because I was trained to be a Dom. My proclivities led me in the other directions, but I would be lying if I said that I didn't want you to put me on the mattress and have your way with me. I think pushing yourself in this uncomfortable position will help you get over your fear of control. I think that you need to be in complete control to see that you aren't going to lose it. I think you need to test it. I think you need to be pushed. And, I think that I can handle anything that you can dish out to me," Alex told her.
"Alex…"
"Liv, you can do this. I know that you can. I trust you enough to know that you can."
Liv's shoulders dropped. She knew what Alex wanted. She knew what Alex was telling her. She knew that there was more. With Alex there was always more to everything that they did, Liv just wondered what it was going to be this scene.
"What do you need me to do?" Liv asked.
She gave Liv a slight smile. She took her hands in her own. She couldn't believe that Alex had acquiesced so quickly, but then again, Liv was doing it to please her. It wasn't a good enough reason but it was a start. She could only hope that after Liv talked with Sapphire that she would have a better understanding of what they were actually trying to do.
"I want you to speak with Sapphire. She will help you set up the scene. When you are ready, she will come for me. She will help you throughout our time together. I can think of no better teacher for you than she," Alex told her.
"You can't do it?"
"And, be your submissive? No, Liv, I can't. She will tell you how to move, how to act, what to say. She will teach you what you need to know. She is best after me," Alex told her.
"But, I don't want her to touch you," Liv stated.
"She won't."
"How can you be sure?"
"We've already discussed this. She is going to be there to coach you. She will watch and nothing more. I've already told her that she can't join in. If you feel comfortable enough once you start, you can send her away. She will obey you in that room. In that room, you will be the one in charge, Liv, and no one else."
"I don't know, Alex. This seems like too much too soon. How can I be sure?"
"Because I trust you."
"Is that enough?"
"I love you. I know that you won't hurt me. I know that you have more control than you think you do, Liv. This is a way that we can prove it and you can heal. You will see I'm right."
"What if I don't feel right doing this?"
"Then we will stop. We will do this at your pace, Liv. I know that you can do this. Just like I knew that you could submit to me that day in the locker room years ago. I know that you can handle this. I wouldn't ask it of you if I didn't think that you could."
"Then, I will do as you ask," Liv stated.
"Sapphire will be waiting for you in the room, when you are ready."
"Not today," Liv stated.
"Not if you don't want to, no," Alex stated.
"I don't," Liv stated.
Liv reached up and buried her hands into Alex's hair and brought her mouth to hers. She kissed her pretty fiercely and moaned into it. Alex didn't try to stop her. She knew that Liv was exploring this new side of their relationship. She didn't resist Liv as she pushed her back onto the mattress.
"Liv…"
"Please…" she replied.
"Anything…"
Liv came down on top of her. They had never had anything like this. It had always been Alex initiating of a scene. Sex had always been a release and a balm. There had been love involved, but they had never actually made love that Liv could remember. The closet that they had come was in her apartment before they left for the Hamptons, but even that Alex dominated. This was a different feeling all together.
When Alex didn't resist her, Liv got bolder. She pushed at Alex's shirt exposing her pale torso. The sight demanded that Liv kiss it. She bent over her and kissed her torso, tickling her belly button as she did it. She could feel Alex's muscles jump and tense underneath her touch. It was inspiring and exhilarating at the same time. She didn't know how to please Alex this way.
She wasn't sure that Alex wanted soft and sweet. They had never been soft and sweet. It had been rushed and hard. They both craved that, but today there was something different between them. Alex was ready to explore it but Liv wasn't so sure. She didn't know, but all she wanted was to please Alex. If Alex thought she could do it, then she would do it. But, right now, all she wanted was to touch Alex. She just wanted to touch her.
"Can I touch you, Mistress?" she asked her, slipping back into her role as Alex's pet.
"Please," Alex murmured.
Liv reached down and removed Alex's shirt. After she tossed it to the ground, she helped Alex up onto the mound of pillows at the top of the bed. Once she was satisfied with her position there, Liv began to kiss her shoulders. They were tender and sweet. The normal want and need was missing. The bits and licks were absent. Liv was doing her best to just touch her. That was all she wanted at the moment. She just wanted to feel Alex, to touch her and to know that it was her touch that made her react the way she was.
Alex mewed as Liv made her way across her shoulders. It was painstakingly slow and she was fighting moving. Alex was fighting every urge that she had to flip Liv over and have her way with her. This was about Liv and what Liv wanted. Alex willed her body to relax and just enjoy the touch. She knew that it would be hard enough for her to be submissive to Liv when they played out her scene.
She hadn't lied when she told Liv that she fantasized about her dominating her. She just wasn't sure that Liv would ever do it. But ever since Sapphire brought it up, she had thought of nothing else. It was a dream, a delicious and salacious dream that made her wet. As she lay there, she wondered what Liv was planning to do to her there.
It was a new feeling, sharing her bed with Liv. She had never done that before. It had always been in her playroom or in Liv's bed. This was first for both of them. She would let Liv have this today. Later they would explore this new sensation together further.
Liv touched her sides, counting her ribs and feeling the goose bumps form under her calloused hands. She heard the sharp intake of breath that Alex gave her. Liv couldn't wait to hear her make more breathless noises. She brought her hands down to Alex's waist and rested them there as her lips found their way to torso. She kissed her way across her belly and teased her belly button again. This time she used her tongue.
Alex did her best not to move as Liv continued to explore her body. Liv reached up and took off Alex's bra. She ran her hands over her freshly exposed breasts. She heard the low gasp that Alex made and she smiled down into her royal blue eyes. Liv was spurred on further with her moans as her hand continued to play with Alex's breasts. She rolled them, pinched them, sucked them and kissed her hardening nipples.
If Alex didn't know better, she thought that Liv was going to try and make her come without ever touching her lower than her waist. She certainly thought that it could be possible by the way Liv's touches were making her feel. Her skin was on fire and her body burned. It ached as she waited to see where Liv was going to touch her next.
Liv wasted no time. She ran her tongue from the hollow of Alex's throat to her waist line. Alex finally moved as she got closer to the hem of her pants. She couldn't help herself as Liv's hands found her small belt and unhooked it. She went for the zipper and button next. Once they were free and Alex's pants were open, Liv sat back on the bed long enough to remove her pants.
Still fully clothed, Liv kissed the newly naked Alex beneath her. She made special care with her tongue to Alex's skin. It was like there wasn't an inch that Liv didn't want to taste. Alex's body wanted release and she moaned again as Liv's hand skimmed over her thighs.
"Liv, please…"
"What is it that you wish, Mistress?"
"Please me…"
"Am I not?"
"Oh…Liv…more…"
"Do I not please you, Mistress?"
"You please me so much, Liv."
Liv reach out and raked her hands down Alex's body again. She sat back on her haunches. She still just touched Liv, but never once did she give her what her body so desperately desired. Instead, Liv leaned down into her ear and whispered.
"I love you, Alex. I love you so much. I want you to know how much I love you. I love you with everything that I have. I love you with my entire being. I want you to know, that I will do anything for you. You complete me, Alex. Just as I am yours, you are mine," she told her punctuating the last sentence with her tongue along Alex's ear as her body came off the bed in climax as Liv drove her higher with just her hands.
All breath left her body as a primal scream tore through her throat. Alex didn't even recognize her own voice as her body surrendered to the sensations that Liv was giving her. When her body hit the bed and she felt sated, Liv finally dove into her core. It didn't take long before her full bodied release came from the ministrations on Liv's tongue upon her clit. She cried out again with such a forceful carnality that she figure when Liv actually did dominate her, she might actually die a happy woman. Death by sex, she couldn't think of a better way to die, sated. She knew in that moment why some cultures called an orgasm "a little death." Liv would do fine.